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  • June12th2015

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    Is death an illusion?

    Most scientists would probably say that the concept of an afterlife is either nonsense, or at the very least unprovable.

    Yet one expert claims he has evidence to confirm an existence beyond the grave – and it lies in quantum physics.

    Professor Robert Lanza claims the theory of biocentrism teaches that death as we know it is an illusion created by our consciousness.

    ‘We think life is just the activity of carbon and an admixture of molecules – we live a while and then rot into the ground,’ said the scientist on his website.

    Lanza, from Wake Forest University School of Medicine in North Carolina, continued that as humans we believe in death because ‘we’ve been taught we die’, or more specifically, our consciousness associates life with bodies and we know that bodies die.

    His theory of biocentrism, however, explains that death may not be as terminal as we think it is.


    Biocentrism is classed as the Theory of Everything and comes from the Greek for ‘life center’.

    It is the belief that life and biology are central to reality and that life creates the universe, not the other way round.

    Lanza uses the example of the way we perceive the world around us.

    A person sees a blue sky, and is told that the color they are seeing is blue, but the cells in a person’s brain could be changed to make the sky look green or red.

    Our consciousness makes sense of the world, and can be altered to change this interpretation.

    By looking at the universe from a biocentric’s point of view, this also means space and time don’t behave in the hard and fast ways our consciousness tell us it does.

    In summary, space and time are ‘simply tools of our mind.’

    Once this theory about space and time being mental constructs is accepted, it means death and the idea of immortality exist in a world without spatial or linear boundaries.

    Theoretical physicists believe that there is infinite number of universes with different variations of people, and situations taking place, simultaneously.

    Lanza added that everything which can possibly happen is occurring at some point across these multiverses and this means death can’t exist in ‘any real sense’ either.

    Lanza, instead, said that when we die our life becomes a ‘perennial flower that returns to bloom in the multiverse.’

    ‘Bottom line: What you see could not be present without your consciousness,’ explained Lanza. ‘Our consciousness makes sense of the world.’

    By looking at the universe from a biocentric’s point of view, this also means space and time don’t behave in the hard and fast ways our consciousness tell us it does. In summary, space and time are ‘simply tools of our mind.’

    Similarly, theoretical physicists believe there is infinite number of universes with different variations of people, and situations, taking place simultaneously.


    In the experiment, when scientists watch a particle pass through two slits in a barrier, the particle behaves like a bullet and goes through one slit or the other.

    Yet if a person doesn’t watch the particle, it acts like a wave.

    This means it can go through both slits at the same time. This demonstrates that matter and energy can display characteristics of both waves and particles, and that the behavior of the particle changes based on a person’s perception and consciousness.

    Lanza added that everything which can possibly happen is occurring at some point across these multiverses and this means death can’t exist in ‘any real sense’ either.

    Lanza, instead, said that when we die our life becomes a ‘perennial flower that returns to bloom in the multiverse.’

    He continued: ‘Life is an adventure that transcends our ordinary linear way of thinking. When we die, we do so not in the random billiard-ball-matrix but in the inescapable-life-matrix.’

    Lanza cited the famous double-slit experiment to backup his claims.

    Lanza’s full theory is explained in his book Biocentrism: How Life and Consciousness are the Keys to Understanding the True Nature of the Universe.

    Have a great weekend, guys. See you Houstonians Saturday for lunch! 



  • May12th2015


    First a few announcements. You will notice soon that the archives have changed. Instead of listing them by month and year, they’ll be listed by title. That will make it easier to cherry pick the posts you want to read. Also, I finally figured out how to make the Lisa Williams channeling event into an audio only YouTube so you’ll soon see how Erik barges his way into the conversation. Persistent little devil. Last, there have been so many Erik Encounters posts that I think it’s been too overwhelming, so I want to post them only on the weekends. What do you guys think about that? It means that those in queue will have to wait a bit longer to see their stories published, but I promise they will. Keep those wonderful stories coming!

    This post came up in queue right after Mother’s Day. (Almost) perfect timing!

    Me: Here’s a question from a blog member. Why do we choose to be mothers?


    Me: I’m here to tell you that it ain’t easy!

    Robert: Erik looked over at Jillian.

    Erik: Do you mind if Jillian answers this question?

    Me: Go for it, Jillian! Hi, by the way!

    Jillian: Hello. How are you doing?

    Me: Fine. I can’t wait to meet you. Not right away, but…

    Jillian: I can’t wait until you remember that we’ve already met.

    Me: Cool thought!

    Robert laughs.

    Robert: She speaks so differently from Erik. Her energy is calmer compared to Erik. I get dizzy sometimes when I talk to him.

    Both of us laugh.

    Robert: But I still love him.

    Me: What’s not to love?

    Erik: I love me, too.

    Me: Of course you do.

    Robert: Jillian, by the way, always comes in when it’s about how to raise kids, help marriages, and all that stuff. She’s really good at that. Now I know why Erik brought her in. “Jilly.”

    Jillian: Well, in the simplest way I can put this, from a spiritual perspective, it’s to—

    Robert: She gives me everything at once, so I have to parse it out.

    Me: Help him out, Jillian!

    Robert: She is. She’s got such a pretty face, pretty smile. She’s very sweet looking.

    Me: Aw.

    Robert: Very elegant. She reminds me of Meghan Fox.

    Me: You struck pay dirt, Erik.

    Erik: She’s hot.

    Robert and I laugh.

    Jillian: The simplest answer is to create this connection on a spiritual level and to develop a deeper understanding of what it is to be connected. From the human perspective, there is no greater type of connection than between mother and child.

    Me: Yeah. Yeah.

    Jillian: You share the same blood; you even share the same cells.

    Funny she should say that because I just read about the scientific discovery of the presence of a child’s cells existing in its mother.

    Jillian: And this creates this bond, this connection, this awareness. It’s enhanced compared to external connections that have never existed within the mother. You know.

    Me: Yes I do.

    Jillian: And the pain of their loss can almost mean the demise of a mother.

    Me: Trust me, I know.

    Jillian: In many cases, it does mean their demise. With any kind of loss, a piece of our heart goes with them. The heart has to grieve over that loss and the big hole that’s there. When that happens to a mother, it’s like their entire heart has been taken.

    Me (tearing up): I know. I know.

    Jillian: There’s nothing but an empty spot in their chest.

    (Long solemn pause)

    Jillian: From a spiritual perspective, we understand through the contrast of that incredible pain what that connection is, how important that bond is.

    Me: Isn’t there another way that we can figure that out instead of going through all of that pain?

    Jillian: Right now humans are a very young species, and so they’re having to learn how to accept things. Physical and emotional pain are two of those things. They’re learning to accept that and the fact that it has the right to be. It’s only there to teach us. It’s not a punishment.

    Me: It feels like it sometimes.

    Jillian: I know it does, but it only feels that way because it’s so unbearably uncomfortable.

    I’d call it more than discomfort.

    Jillian: And that’s what I spend a lot of my time doing. I help mothers who have lost a child to get through that process. I’ve been helping you. Many times, I will come to a mother who has lost a child—and sometimes fathers, too because even though they haven’t carried a child, there’s still a bond there. Some men can develop a bond similar to the mother/child one. You’ve heard about how some men go through morning sickness when their wives are pregnant?

    Me: Oh, yeah.

    Jillian: That’s unique. What I will do with mothers or fathers is visit them. It’s easiest to do it while they’re asleep. Then I talk them through the pain.

    Robert: She’s showing me an image of a person lying down, sleeping, and she’s sitting at their bedside, and as they breathe in, she funnels this pure, white energy into them. Then when they breathe out, it comes out black. It’s the pain. That’s the way she helps heal the wound that’s there.

    That reminds me of that movie, The Green Mile, where the inmate sucks in someone’s bad energy and spews out a big, black cloud.

    Me: Right. Mine must be totally blocked. It must be hard for her to breathe that white energy into me.

    Jillian: No.

    I start to cry. Long pause as I gather myself.

    Robert: She’s so gentle.

    Me: What a great balance between you and Erik!

    Robert: For sure!

    I couldn’t resist adding a few quotes.

    This one makes me choke up.

    This one makes me choke up.


    I know that pain and that love so well.

    Ready for a little comic relief?

    Ready for a little comic relief?

    And exposed to the elements

    And exposed to the elements





  • April23rd2015


    Rune and I will be flying to Denver tomorrow morning to attend the Channeling Erik Weekend of F-ing Enlightenment. I’m so excited! Every time I go I think it can’t be better than the one before, and I am proven wrong. I’ll let you guys know all about it when I get back. I probably won’t publish a regular post tomorrow, but I’ll try to publish one of the Erik Encounters. Thank you guys for the awesome stories! If any of you others have a story to share, it’s super easy to do. Just click HERE and type away. Here’s Part Two of the series on children.

    Me: Hi Erik.

    Erik: Hi, Mama.

    Me: So let’s go on to ask more questions about children. When they’re in the afterlife, do they stay as children? If so, who takes care of them? Tell me about that.

    Erik: When they come into the afterlife even when they are infants?

    Me: Mm hm.

    Erik: Days old, months old, years old, they tend to stay that age until they’re comfortable with their environment, and then they allow what I call like the “mass knowledge” to kind of seep into them so that they can, as you might call it, grow up, but most of the time, if they enjoy being young or little, they’ll keep that appearance. If they’re infants, most of the time, in general, they enjoy staying with their parents through the process of grieving and understanding all of [what happened.] Then if they want, they’re going to look at getting into that family one more time. If they want to do that, they’ll stay little. They’ll stay as what we see in our heads as small, energetically small. If they’re older and they know they can’t won’t back into that family, many of them like to grow up with the family, so every year that passes by, they’ll get a little bit older, a little bit taller, and they change and grow with the family. They also take on the role of guiding their family. If they have other siblings, they love checking in on them, and they like being with their parents. If, let’s say there’s a situation where they didn’t really want to go back into the family—

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: —and they didn’t want to grow up with the family for whatever reason, then they’ll take the time to absorb that mass knowledge. A lot of you will call it the archives. I just call it, “If you want to know it, then you’ll go and learn it.” So they’ll start to do that and—

    Jamie (to Erik, smiling): No. Do you want to say that?

    Jamie and I chuckle. I have no idea what he told her, but it seemed worth a chuckle.

    Erik: They’ll kind of merge back into themselves. I know it sounds funny to say it like that.

    Me: It does!

    Erik: If we have all these other lifetimes happening, and we have all these incarnations—it’s not linear. It’s happening all at once—so if we’re relinquishing that life and we don’t care about playing it anymore, then we’ll kind of push that energy back into ourselves.

    Me: So this little infant, this three month-old infant is over there. Does somebody take care of them? I know that’s a job I’d sign up for because there are no diapers to change, but yeah, what about that?

    Jamie laughs.

    Erik: Most of the time, the ancestral line of the family they came into will have grandparents, great grandparents, aunts and uncles, etc. to take care of them. There are all kinds of support systems in place already so it’s not like, “Oh, the nanny spirit is being called up to collect the baby.”

    I chuckle.

    Erik: It’s not like that at all. The baby is independent in and of itself. It doesn’t need to be fed; it doesn’t need to be groomed; it can already move and exist in and of itself.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: It wouldn’t be seen as infantile. When it crosses over, yes, because it’s coming away from that human experience, but as it absorbs its awareness of where they are, it starts to collect the mass knowledge and therefore doesn’t need anyone to provide care for them.

    Me: Right. Right.

    Erik: Unless it’s coming back into the family. Then we have spirits in place to help it incarnate. They’re already looking at, “Okay, can I get back in? Can I carry the same lessons? Can I carry over the same timing?” That’s all looked at in a way that acknowledges free will. So there are spirit entities to help with that, call them spirit counselors or whatever. (Throwing his hands in the air, leaning back and rocking from side to side) Labels, labels, labels, labels!

    Me: He hates labels!

    But you can’t be human without them. Sigh.

    Me: Are there any situations where a spirit will think, “Hey I want to take care of a baby” so they create themselves that job, and they have that agreement with the baby that’s passed?


    Erik: If you want to play that role, I mean, you can. Everything is possible here.

    Me: Well that’s true.

    Erik: But that’s a very human need. There are times when there is a spirit guide, angel, guardian, who helps the baby spirit through the pregnancy and being born if it’s difficult for them. You know, a lot of times, babies don’t enjoy that process. (Throwing up his arms and scoffing) Imagine being claustrophobic!

    Me (laughing): Yeah, really!

    Erik (curling up into a little ball): Tight, small, dark spaces. It takes time to condense your energy, condense your soul, get it focused to get into the body.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: I’m all for getting in there to be birthed, but sometimes it happens after birth.

    Me: Okay, right. They want to make sure before they commit, I guess. Do they often come back to us in the lifetime we live in the present? In other words, say Sally lost a child—

    Erik: Bobby.

    Me: Can it come back to her as another child or maybe as her sister’s child?

    Erik: Yes.

    Jamie: He was shouting out the name, “Bobby.”

    Me: Bobby, huh? Okay, we’ll work with Bobby.

    Erik: Sally lost Bobby. If Sally’s not able to have another child, and Bobby still wants to be in the family then, yes, there are many occasions when they’ll wait to become a grandchild or they’ll come through the sister, the brother to be a niece or nephew, and there are occasions where they’ll come through as the family pet, as well.

    Me: Wow! Fido.

    Bobby's back!

    Bobby’s back!



    By the way, guys, we just got through interviewing an Atlantean (not the Georgian kind) yesterday. Fascinating! I can’t wait to transcribe and post it. 

  • April22nd2015


    A lot of us have lost children, and, as I can attest, the pain is especially excruciating. To make matters worse, the healing seems to take longer than when we lose other family members or friends–not always, but generally. As for my journey through grief, this blog and especially the upcoming book has done a lot to heal me. In fact, I can now report that I don’t grieve over Erik’s death as much as miss him. I know he’s not gone. His body is. It feels like he’s off to some work-study program abroad. Actually, I guess he is. It’s just in another dimension. Plus he’s making all As in my opinion. I hope this post about children and their deaths helps some of you. 

    Me: Today we’re going to talk about a very tender subject and that’s children. I love children, and a lot of people ask what’s it like for children to be spirits? Hi, Erik.

    Erik: Hi, Mama. I love you.

    Me: I love you, too. Hi Jamie.

    Jamie: Hi.

    Me: So tell us as much as you can about it.

    Erik: Can I be included in being a child?

    Me (in a very sappy tone): Yeah, you’ll always be my baby.

    Erik: But I know what you’re talking about, Mom. You mean like under the age of, what, 15?

    Me: Yeah, maybe even younger than that. Let’s say ten and below.

    Erik: Ten and below.

    Me: Before they get to that annoying stage.

    Erik (laughing): The double digits age.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: So what do you want to know? If we’re talking about children’s struggles and deaths and processes like that, it’s so much easier for them than it is from 15 up.

    Me: Why? Why is that?

    Erik: Because they’re still connected to The Beyond. They still understand that there is a safety or some kind of security, a place for them to go and belong to. Mostly in these ages—and I’m going to talk in general because—


    Jamie: I don’t have any idea what he just said. It was a little mumbled.

    Me: He mumbles sometimes.

    Erik: In general, the way our culture is in America, it used to be that every child belonged to a religion and, from a young age, they learned what that religion was. They had a language for it. They knew that certain belief structure or system. Nowadays, not every child is taking that path. Most of them aren’t. That leaves them completely open to stay attached to the things they could remember before they came into this life and even stay attached to those memories up until the ages of 6 or 7. I’m picking those ages because that’s when they get into the public school system—

    Me: And become indoctrinated.

    Erik: Yeah. They get taught linear time, that one thing is based on another and so forth, and they start to let go of what they carried in and what they knew naturally belonged to them. They then start to believe that they’re inferior, that there’s an authority figure and that they need to report to someone. External pleasing becomes more important than internal pleasing. Before this age, during illness and pain, they don’t ask, “Why me?” They just don’t have that desire to understand. They just know that’s their body and this is what’s happening. They might need to understand the disease and the process of what’s occurring, but in the death process, there’s no fear built into it yet. They just see it as a part of something that they’re going to do.

    Jamie: He’s talking about documented cases of children with diseases who have transitioned, and it’s stated that the child would still be caring for everybody else around him, even the doctors, the nurses, the parents, letting them know that everything is okay with them.

    Erik: They show this amazing amount of strength and calm. But it’s not that weird for them to find that strength and perseverance. As adults, that’s what we’re taught is required to get through those times. Really, they’re just showing acceptance. That’s all it is. They just have it innately. I’m not saying this is just for those who aren’t trained in religious beliefs. That’s not true. I’m talking about anyone in any belief system up until about 6 or 7. Then when you get above that like ten, you’re going to get more of those, “Why me? Why is this happening to me? Why can’t they fix it?” They’ve already been in the system, and we’re training them to think they’re independent, in control and if they’re hurting, it’s because of something that they did. They didn’t please someone; they didn’t do something right, so they get this sense of a loss of control.

    Me: What’s it like for them when they cross over? They probably don’t have any kind of belief system to create their own afterlife.

    Erik: No, but most of them know what a party is!

    Me: Ah! Par-tay!

    Erik: And that’s normally what happens. The party.

    Me: Aw.

    Erik: If they have a disease, and they’re going in and out [of their body] they will have already had dreams and connections with loved ones in other dimensional planes. They’ll have that awareness. The same thing goes for infants who don’t have [verbal] language where they can’t talk to you yet. Little guys. Trust me; there’s a language there that you’re not getting as the mommy, as the daddy. When they go to sleep, the family members, the angels of loved ones are already working with them and taking care of them. When they’re transitioning, whether it’s from SIDS or whatever, they’re not having those fears or struggle or panic because death doesn’t have that meaning for them. It’s just a different process. They’re still living every moment in their curious life learning something new with acceptance. So when this process of death comes to them, they’re accepting of it. When they get to the Other Side, Mom, mostly it’s celebratory. They’re already remembering that they’ve been there before. There’s this familiarity. There’s no fear or anxiety or “Where am I! Where’s Mommy?” I’ll see that with older kids, you know, they’re like, “Why? Where am I?” and they panic, trying to get back into their body because they’ve been trained to think that, “Death is not successful. You have to be alive to be successful.”

    Me: Why do some people make it their spiritual contract to die young?

    Erik: It’s going to depend on the people who are around them in their family and their life. Normally, infants—innnn general—they’re letting go of their lives to make an impact on their families, for their families to understand death and separation, to understand love, the importance of living in the moment, living in the Now. That’s normally what’s going on in things of that nature. Rarely, the infant will choose to die to experience incompletion, you know, they started something that they couldn’t finish to understand this [concept.] But usually, that young, there’s not a—

    Me (rudely interrupting): Okay. What about in the cases of miscarriages and stillbirths?

    Erik: A lot of those are because of the physical body—not designing it properly. Those don’t come with a contract, per se, for the baby’s soul. That’s more of a contract designed by the mother. It’s for the mother to experience, “I’m not good enough. I didn’t make it [happen.]” So it’s really a self-centered lesson that has nothing to do with the baby’s spirit. In those cases, the infant’s soul is not inside or struggling with that [death.] They don’t experience the death process because they didn’t come into the physical body. We call that riding sidesaddle.

    Jamie (laughing): We do! The little spirit is sitting sidesaddle.

    Me: So in these instances, it’s teaching the mother something. Is the child here to teach the mother or parent something?

    In other words, is it a mutually designed contract?

    Erik: No, but the spirit will help with the lesson. It’s not there to teach, though. It’s not coming in with independent knowledge to give the mother. It’s coming in to give the mother an experience and helping her accept that her body has a level of intelligence in and of itself, so it’s not anything that she ate or did or didn’t do or didn’t know. There’s a lot of trust that needs to happen.


    Jamie (to Erik): Really?

    Erik: Sometimes a kid will come in. They’ll hop on a pregnancy—

    Jamie (laughing): His terms are so funny. Sometimes they make me stop.

    Me: Like hopping aboard a train?

    Jamie: Yeah, like, “Here I goooooo!”

    Erik: And they’ll follow through with the miscarriage so that the mother will trust the body better. In the second pregnancy, they won’t come into it with more fear. They’ll come in with, “Okay. The worst has already happened. Let’s go.” And when the baby comes the second time, the third time, the fourth time, there is this, “You have arrived” moment. “You are here, and you are special.” You are a survivor in a sense when really you just had a healthy normal pregnancy (or maybe it was a difficult but successful one.) This helps the child to build a certain bond with the mother.

    Me: Okay. That would probably be an even stronger bond, if that were possible, after the loss of other babies. The one carried to term would be very special.

    Erik: Yes, and some experience that train ride 4 or 5 times before having a full-term pregnancy.

    Me: We souls, we spirits, come into each other’s lives to teach something or to learn from each other, of course. Children must do the same thing, but do they teach us something different than an adult spirit would?

    Erik: Yeah!

    Me: Like what?

    Erik: There’s so much to take in on this!

    Me: Well, for example it might be a lesson in loss because losing a child is just so horrible. That loss is so much deeper than other losses. So would that be an example?

    Erik: That’s a great example. Trust. Trust is a huge one because this kind of trust between parent and child comes with a certain kind of knowing and understanding because, you know, you wanna hold tight, but at the same time, you can’t. You have to let loose. You can’t do both at the same time. There’s gotta be a middle, and in that middle is the perfect amount of trust. That’s what [the child] is giving.

    Jamie: Erik went on to talk about the beauty of having a child and not having a [verbal] language to communicate—just physical language, physical cues, noticing the smell, the look, everything else but the [verbal] language.

    Erik: Try that with your sweetheart or your lover later today. Pick an evening when you can’t talk and see how deeply [your connection] becomes.

    Me: Okay, that’s an exercise for all of you guys. We’re going to call this Part One. I don’t know. Y’all’s attention spans are probably too short to go on. I know you guys! You’re like me!

    A child's beautiful transition into Heaven

    A child’s beautiful transition into Heaven


  • March16th2015


    Here I am way up above the tree line in Norway where Internet access is spotty and very expensive. For that reason (plus the fact that I’m on vacation) I’m only going to post three days a week. Got to tend to the moose and trolls, after all. It’s so peaceful and pristine here. So quiet that the silence is deafening. It’s so nice to unwind in such a place far from the crazy, busy life I’m used to in my daily life. For those of you who make comments, I probably won’t have a chance to read them, nor will I be able to answer Facebook private messages and comments, so if you can refrain from leaving them (the ones directed to me) then the moose, trolls and I would very much appreciate it. 

    Me: Let’s see. Okay, I know we’ve talked a lot about what happens in the afterlife when someone commits suicide, you know, how they’re treated.

    Erik: Yeah.

    Me: We also talked about how suicide is usually not someone’s destiny in that it’s not a pre-designed exit point, but that in some cases, like yours, it is. So why do some people choose suicide as part of the spiritual blueprint they create for their incarnation? I mean, so many of the blog members insist that you can’t choose suicide as part of your destiny, because it’s just not right, taking any life, including your own. But from my perspective, I think you can. Maybe that’s wishful thinking on my part, but—

    Erik: No, you’re right, Mom. You can choose that type of death, um, I mean transition, when you plan your life. How ignorant for somebody to say, “You can choose all these other kinds of deaths, but you can’t choose this one.”

    Me: Well, cut ‘em some slack, Erik, because I think there’s a lot of influence from different religions on the subject. It’s a taboo thing.

    Erik: Nope. Ignorance.

    Me: Erik! Play nice!

    Erik, Jamie and I laugh.

    Me: Or maybe I’m just being too nice, giving people the benefit of the doubt.

    Erik: You’re always nice, Mom.

    Me: Aw! You’re sweet, Erik! Okay, so can you name all the reasons, or at least some of the reasons for why someone would choose suicide as a destiny?

    Erik: Um, one could be finding inner strength.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: So that they can overcome themselves. One is to succumb to get in.

    Me: Why would that be a choice?

    Erik: It’s more of a breaking of boundaries or a breaking of structure.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Erik: So, let’s say if you were into that heavy religious belief that suicide is taboo, it’s never the answer and you’re going to burn in hell if you do it.

    Me: Um hmm..

    Erik: That’s a rule in your life that’s binding you. So when you kill yourself to experience succumbing, you’re giving in to YOUR feelings, YOUR needs. Succumbing to YOURESELF would be breaking an external rule or structure. And that would teach others that the belief system doesn’t give room for the complete truth. Another, which is one of the most common reasons, is when people know they’re going to come into a life that is extremely powerful and demanding on themselves.

    Me: Yeah, to accelerate their spiritual growth?

    Erik: Right, and some people won’t do it unless they know they have an out. If it gets to be too much for them, they do break and feel they can’t repair themselves, then they know that they can leave.

    Me: So that’s one of the exit points they create for themselves. Like a safety valve on a pressure cooker.

    Erik: Exactly. That’s generally the most common reason for suicide as a pre-designed exit point.

    Me: Is there—of course you had such a great life, apart from your mental illness, so what was your reason?

    Erik: Mine was to get out of my head, and I set myself up to have a very hard life, mentally, so that I could be better prepared to do the job I’m doing now. Just like you, Mom. You’ve had a really hard life, lot’s of drama and tragedy. That’s so you could have the understanding and compassion a healer and teacher needs to be effective. I needed to develop that compassion also so I could guide and help others from this side of the veil. It’s what I was meant to do.

    Me: Are there any reasons someone might commit suicide to teach lessons to others?

    Jamie listens for awhile, then starts chuckling.

    Erik: First, it’s not like we’re wanting to be vindictive or “in your face,” but a lot of times, suicide is that final, “Fuck you.”

    Me: Uh huh.

    Erik: That, “Look what you’ve made me do!” We covered that part about you’re fully in control of your own actions so that’s all bullshit. To give away your power, you know, to say somebody made you do it is because that person isn’t strong enough and doesn’t want to take responsibility.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: So, it’s a huge “in your face” action, because it shows that the person needed such help but wasn’t able to express it. And so the people around you perk up. Often, they take on new positions in life. If they don’t fall apart from the suicide of their friend or family member, they take on new parts. Look at you, for example, Mom—able to help thousands of other people.

    Me: Okay, so yeah, it can be a catalyst, a positive catalyst for other people, then?

    Erik: Yes, but most people see it negatively, because of what they were taught about suicide when they came into this world. It’s bogus. Totally bogus.

    Me: Okay, so anything else?

    Erik: Oh, yeah. Some try to teach others about loss, some about the sanctity of life and the human experience.

    Me: So can they learn about the sanctity of the human experience themselves, like they kill themselves, then they get over there and think, “Oh my god, I just wasted an opportunity!” Do they ever design it for that?

    Erik: Uh, yeah. There are tons of regrets where when they were alive they couldn’t see five feet in diameter around them, but then with their death, they can see a lot more, and they realized how they shortchanged themselves.

    Me: Yeah, exactly.

    Erik: And yes, doing that, then there’s work to be done, because there were people’s lives that they were supposed to be involved with that they were supposed to affect. So they have to do all that work in spirit that they would have done if they remained alive. All that, the regrets and missed opportunities—that’s to teach the soul how important the human experience is to spiritual progress, not only for them, but others too. It’s a lot harder to get the work done over here in spirit.

    Me: Okay, now, at first, you said your death wasn’t your destiny, and lately you’ve said it was. I always felt like it was. I could never imagine you as an old man with grandkids and stuff.

    Erik: I was totally disoriented when I first got here, Mom. Mostly, I just felt (pause), it’s odd. It’s peaceful and I knew I did the right thing, but then I felt horrible watching the people I love, and to speak up and tell them that, yeah, this was the right thing for me to do—that’s just another stab right into their hearts.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: And a lot of people can’t accept that. You know, “How could your son, who you loved so much, and you believed they loved you do that to you?” And that’s an egocentric way of thinking about it. You’d be thinking just about yourself instead of the other person’s position, but again, that’s what our structure gives to us on planet earth.

    Me: Yep, exactly. So you were disoriented; you thought it wasn’t your destiny, you thought you just kind of messed up, because you saw us grieving so much? Then you all of a sudden remembered it was your destiny, because you were supposed to be doing all this—what you’re doing now?

    Jamie: He said this and you said this at the same time!

    Me: Ha! How cool. I guess great minds think alike!

    Erik chuckles.


    Selfie in the Tundra

    Lukas, Annika and I in Norway

    Lukas, Annika and I in Norway


  • February2nd2015


    Yesterday was a brutal day. A bittersweet one. We finally cleared out all of the yellow crime scene bags (and there were a lot of them) from Erik’s closet. In a way it was a relief, but I still had to cry because now I’ve let go of the last physical part of him. I really don’t feel like posting anything today.

    Hearing Erik’s voice always makes me feel better, so let’s have a little contest. Anyone who finds his voice on a YouTube recording (or any other type of recording) other than what’s already been found will receive a signed copy of the book to keep for themselves or pass along to others. You can let me know, timestamp and all) through my email,

    It comforts me to know that I have my lovely children and husband, so I’ll post their pictures here.

    My Grand daughter, Arleen

    My Grand daughter, Arleen

    My Youngest, Annika

    My Youngest, Annika

    My Eldest, Kristina

    My Eldest, Kristina

    Rune in His Norwegian Folk Dress (Bunad)

    Rune in His Norwegian Folk Dress (Bunad)

    Rune Doing What He Loves

    Rune Doing What He Loves

    The two photos below are of my third child, Lukas. He looks eerily like Erik.

    Lukas with the Babes

    Lukas with the Babes

    Lukas in Norway

    Lukas in Norway


    My second eldest, Michelle


    Despite the tragic loss of my son, I am truly blessed. My you are see the blessings in your life. They’re there whether you realize it or not.

  • January5th2015


    Less than two years after Erik’d death, his younger sister, Annika, wrote a poignant poem for high school. Its depth belies her young age. She was only 15 years old. I’ve also included the explanation her English teacher required for the assignment. Note: “Red Hands” are a metaphor for her sense of guilt, something all too common in those who grieve. She refers to the dragonfly because that’s how Erik has come to her.

    Annika's poem and Erik's prank

    Annika Medhus



    My red hands alone cradle an empty chest.

    Skies bruise into a deep violet.

    Blackness falls from the grieving clouds.

    The soil laments for its loss.

    A palace becomes a frail shed.

    A laugh becomes a haunting scream.

    Shackles strangle the weakening flowers.

    The lost is now found as a burden set between torn wings.

    Suddenly, a light dagger releases all the drowning souls.

    Dried eyes wearily regain the sun.

    A silhouette of wings replaces the shadow of death.

    Arms of light tighten around my own.

    Dragonflies buzz wildly, whispering secrets.

    With the dust gone, never has the sun dripped in like this.

    The ground ceases to shake, waves calm to ripples.

    Omniscient water flows within thirsty veins.

    Earth blossoms when the realization is made.

    Twenty candles are still and will forever be lit.

    A brother was lost, but an angel is gained.

    My clean hands—not alone—cradle a beating heart.

    My intentions were to convey a tone of sorrow and loss but also renewal and awakening. The shift in mood contributes to the tone; for example, from red hands to clean hands represent the metamorphosis from guilt to acceptance. The image of Earth blossoming emphasizes the epiphany and the connotation between silhouette and shadow shows the difference between things that can negatively and positively loom over you. In the beginning, the lines are short and dramatic. As it progresses into a lighter tone, the sentences lengthen and flow more, representing the flow of light that is consuming the darkness. The first and last sentences show how the feeling in the poem has altered, yet both remain somewhat similar in structure to reveal the small amount grief that lingers.

    Here is a self-explanatory video of Erik’s niece, Arleen, after she was pranked by him. The cool thing is that 5 year olds usually don’t make this kind of stuff up. (I hope I haven’t already posted this! I did a search for the appropriate keywords and couldn’t find it.)

    Stay tuned soon for the last half of the Abe Lincoln’s interview.

  • December31st2014


    I know I said I wasn’t going to post anything until January 2nd, but I’m sorry to report that a dear friend and long time member of the Channeling Erik Facebook group has died. Audie Herron was truly a special soul. Please send your love and healing energy to him wife and the rest of his family and friends. I know he’s in good hands with Erik, his guides and his deceased loved ones.

    Although it seems odd in light of this news, I want to wish you all a Happy New Year. Be sure not to drink and drive. Stay among those you love and be sure that I will be toasting to you, my cyber family. May 2015 be the best year of your life.

    Sorry I’ve been neglecting your comments. Holidays here with my family are a little crazy.

    Here’s a YouTube video from my daughter, Kristina’s,famous blog, Pretty Shiny Sparkly You can watch the whole thing, but definitely watch the part beginning at 18:40. Proof of how Erik’s death was an atom bomb blowing up in our family. All of us still suffer.

    I love you all,


  • December16th2014


    I’m putting myself on a limb here because this is a very controversial topic. I wonder if knowing that we are all eternal beings influences opinions out there, but that being said, the jury is still out for me. 

    Me:  So, what about the death penalty and it’s consequences? What do you think about it, Erik?

    Erik (sighing): You know, it’s so odd. I think sometimes—and it’s on a rare occasion—

    Jamie: He’s standing up; his hands are in his pocket; his thumbs are sticking out. He’s just kind of pacing. He’s really thinking about this one!

    Me: Yeah, it’s a tough one. I don’t think anyone should be put to death, but I guess it could be a pre-designed exit point for some. I don’t know.

    Erik: Right. It definitely can be a pre-designed exit point that somebody else is to take their life, and so many people put themselves in harm’s way so that happens. It’s the same way, but it’s just done in a little more public way.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: Um, but there are very few cases—there are some—that actually fit the whole definition and lesson and learning and cleansing of having their life taken from them in this way.  Over all, no.


    Jamie (laughing): Erik!

    Erik: Now I do like the idea of an eye for an eye but not so much for death.

    Jamie and I laugh.

    Jamie: Erik! He’s giving me an example.

    Erik: I feel if some woman was raped, I think we need to bring in some big ol’ guy to rape the rapist.

    Me: I can just hear it. “You gon be my bitch!”

    Erik (laughing): Can you fucking imagine that? How—

    Me: Well, that’s not very compassionate, Erik!

    Erik: No, that’s not very compassionate. Yeah, maybe the rapist was abused as a kid or something. You never know! Or maybe it was a spiritual contract between the rapist and the woman to, you know, experience that for some reason.

    Me: Hm. I don’t know about that.

    Erik (belly laughing): I know, Mom, take a joke! Take a joke!

    Me: Ha. Ha.

    All three of us laugh.

    Erik: No, I totally agree with you, but, um, going back to the death penalty, there are those small cases, but honestly, I think the better way to handle it all—death is such a release, keeping them alive is more of a punishment.

    Me: Oh, yeah.

    Erik: And for the jail structures, great. Someone came up with, you know, a thousand years ago, how to lock someone away as a punishment, but what you really need to be teaching them is how to make a community. You know, we should lock them together as a community—

    Me: So they can teach each other?

    Erik: Correct. The more dangerous ones can be in a more solitary environment, but the others, we have to reform them; we have to teach them even the simplest things like how to respect their linens and make their beds, how to take pride in the small things they’ve done and what they’ve learned from it.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: And if they earn a larger amount of freedom, then they move into a different part of the community so that they interfere with others or evoke jealousy. Again, another opportunity to learn.

    Me: It just seems like an awful lot of responsibility to give the collective to actually put somebody down, to kill somebody just so that person can have their exit point, oof, you know? That would be a sacrifice on the side of the executioner or the system overall.

    Erik: And there’s a lot of narcissistic people who want their names in the paper, who want people watching them when they pass away! It’s just the saddest thing, really. It’s messed up.


  • October17th2014


    Hey all,

    I was contacted by a producer of a reality show who is considering using an “Erik story” for an episode. Of course this is a long shot, but I would love it if you can share a time when Erik may have literally prevented you from committing suicide and whether you’d be willing to share that story on the show. If you do, please email it to me at


  • August26th2014


    This repost is about respite. A break from the grief of losing someone we love. A break from being mired in daily struggle. A break from being human. This is the first time Erik spoke to me without the need of a question prompt. He spoke with solemn passion. How timely.

    Erik: You know, Mom, before you ask me a question, I want to talk to you about people who want to take their own life. In some cases, the stress, the grief, whatever builds up, it’s like a volcano. Only so much can build before it has to release. The lesson in each case is that there is perfection in imperfection.

    Me: Mm hm.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: He’s pausing. Erik, I can see that.

    Me: What? Is he picking his nose?

    Jamie (sounding touched): No. His eyes are tearing up.

    Me: Oh, Sweetie. It’s okay.

    Jamie: He’s just kind of readjusting his gestures and how he’s sitting so that he’s really not squared off with me; we’re not looking at each other face to face.


    Jamie (to Erik): But, you know, I can see that you’re adjusting. I can see. I can see.

    Erik: Well, it’s hard …


    Jamie (to Erik, in a warm, motherly tone): Take a deep breath. You don’t always have to be the fast talker.

    Me: Yeah, Sweetie. Take your time.

    Jamie (with a soft chuckle): I don’t mind a pause.

    Erik: It just throws me right back into my human state of mind—right back into my body—and I haven’t shaken hands with those demons in a long time.

    Me: Yeah, I know.

    Erik: And I’m happy not to shake hands with them anymore, but when you’re human, you think you have the power to override them—the internal thoughts, those crazy horses in your head that just run with ideas and thoughts that actually hold no truth. But because the thoughts are so heavy, they feel incredibly real, and we start to validate them as real and they’re not. It’s within this slice of anxiety, madness, grief, this really imbalanced state of mind and heart—that’s the imperfection that makes us perfect.

    Me: Not sure if I understand, but…

    Erik: In so many people who want to take their life, it’s just about getting out of the body, not an act or a willingness to die. It might be nice, ya know? First hand, I kinda know that experience.

    Me (solemnly): Yeah.

    Erik: A lot of times those people might be worried that they couldn’t do everything they wanted or needed to do, desired to. But then right before, they get this peace and calm, knowing that everything is going to be all right. All of a sudden, they know it’s all going to be okay. Really at that moment, they already left the body.

    Me: Oh!

    Erik: A lot of people I see that are headed toward the answers, committing suicide, attempting suicide, ending their life, they just need out of their body just for a certain moment. A lot of times they do that before they get a chance to follow through, and then they back down.

    Me: They just need a rest. A rest from being human.

    Erik: Yeah. And when people struggle to that point, like I said, many times it’s about the perfection of imperfection.

    Me: What do you mean by that? I just don’t understand.


    Erik: Our perfectness is composed of a huge percentage of things that just aren’t’ right.

    Jamie (giggling): He kind of puts that in air quotes.

    Erik: I know there’s no right or wrong—there just “is”, but as humans, the brain has a hell of a hard time relaxing in that state of mind. It’s almost like we enjoy struggle more than we enjoy peace. And all of humanity has to learn this lesson for us to achieve it—to make it a natural state of being. Peace. That’s what our generations to come might experience, but for now, we’re still in a natural state of being in struggle. Our natural state of being as a human is based on being in a constant struggle. Even when you’re calm, you’re thinking, “How long is this going to last?” “When I get out of this, then I have to face that shit, and then I have to manage that crap over there.” You know, it’s still all fucked up, but you’re going to have these pockets of peace. We’re getting through all of this as humanity. Everyone has to learn to turn the dial on the emotional, mental, spiritual level from chaos and struggle to peace and calm. Until we do that, you know, we’re all attached to each other—we’re all antennas. And we can get those incredibly enlightened people, loving people, people who are aware, and their antenna inside their body just starts to pick up all the struggle and the chaos. And they don’t want it. Just like you, Mom. And some of those people just want a break from being human. But this whole media, vulnerability, kind of openness that you and I have gone through—it was done in a way to save other people but not you. And I know you’ll come soon enough and see how you can save yourself. And how you do that will not stop the openness, the storytelling, because we—

    Jamie (to Erik): Who’s we? (To me) You and him.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: We cannot even count how many people we’ve touched nor how many people that we have taught. So, now that they’re more knowledgeable and can heal through their grief and not leave this world as it’s changing—that absolutely is extremely valuable and extremely important, but never, ever more important than you. I hope knowing that helps.

    Me: Aw. I love you, Erik.

    Erik: I love you more.

    Taking a Break from Being Human - Channeling Erik

  • August14th2014


    Since Robin William’s death, a lot of people have been wondering about why he made the decision he did. Personally, I think a lot of comedians, including Robin, Richard Jeni and others, have their dark side, and feeling lost and sad compels them to balance their lives with humor. Let’s revisit the suicide issue again.

    Me: Erik, some of my readers who write in say they’re so depressed that they want to commit suicide. I’m not sure how to handle this. After all, they read your description of how your death was so painless and how the afterlife is so beautiful, what’s to keep them from taking the leap like you did?

    Erik: I dunno. It’s fuckin great over here. It’s an individual choice. You know how we all choose when and how we return to the earthly plane? It’s the same thing with returning to the spiritual plane. Do you do what I did and get here earlier, or do you let your destinies play out and get here when you’re meant to? It’s always better for us to stay on the earthly plane and fulfill our destiny, because our life has a ripple effect on so many others. Without us, other people are not going to be able to do what they’re supposed to do.

    I can certainly vouch for the ripple effect Erik’s suicide has had. It has all but destroyed me. I have a deep dark hole in my heart that can never be filled. Everyone who knew him and loved him has suffered phenomenally too. Has it stopped me from fulfilling my destiny? Possibly. Perhaps had I been left whole I could have had the confidence, the energy, the motivation and the power to help thousands of others. Perhaps I could have transformed a life, a family or a community in some positive way. As you will read about in an upcoming entry, one young suicide victim Erik channeled realizes now that his destiny to be a powerful healer has been cut short. For that reason, many will be deprived of his abilities. Without him, many will die.

    Other suicide victims Erik channels realize that their problems still haunt them in the afterlife. They may have shed their bodies but their depression, their angst, their poor self-esteems, all survive death and are, in fact, only aggravated by the remorse they have for their fateful decision. They are well aware of the grief and pain they’ve created for the loved ones they’ve left behind on the earthly plane. And with their destinies cut short, their spiritual progress has taken a huge step backwards. The therapy and work they’ll have to do in both the afterlife and in future earthly lives will be long and arduous. Hmm, not worth it.

    Erik continues…

    Erik: I’m worried that you’re taking on the weight of the world, Mom. It’s so typical of you to want to prevent or help minimize the suffering of other people. You’re so nurturing; you wanna mama everyone. Just don’t take on the weight of the world. Just say what you believe and what you’ve experienced and leave it at that.

    Kim: Can I ask Erik a question, Elisa?

    Me: Of course!

    Kim: Erik, is…Oh, he’s shaking his head no but wait, wait, let me just finish asking the question, Erik! He keeps shaking his head no and telling me I’m wasting time. (She laughs.) Erik, could…and I appreciate you saying that. Is Mom supposed to be…He’s shaking his head vigorously!

    Erik: No! Mom is supposed to be sharing information, her thoughts, her beliefs, her experiences, period, end of story. She’s not to be giving advice, Kim, because that is not part of her earthly responsibilities. You have enough responsibilities as it is. Mom, Mom, you don’t want to get yourself into a position where your guides or guardian angels think, ‘She’s bored and has got nothing to do; we’ll give her something to do!’ The blog and the books are all going to be about what you see, hear, believe, and experience. You’re also going to be doing web-isodes on YouTube where you are going to be channeling me yourself. You’re going to be doing little programs on YouTube.

    Prime Source, God Source, Life Force - Channeling Erik

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