Channeling Erik®
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  • February19th

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    Hey Erik.  Erik refers me to the blog to catch up on the past few entries.  This morning, and over the past few weeks I’ve been having “background” conversations with Erik about suicide, and I was really on the fence with writing about it publically.  Erik points at the blog and is like, “Look, it’s already being discussed.  Chime in!”

    Okay, so my own mind has been swinging on observing different cultures’ attitudes towards suicide currently and throughout history, and the outcome of those beliefs, positive and negative.

    In North America, we live in a pretty suicide-taboo culture, and I’m not saying that’s good or bad.  I know there can be great harm to the surviving friends and relatives if they believe that their dead loved one continues to suffer on the other side.  It’s the negative fallout of believing that these souls “go to hell”.

    The other extreme is a culture that readily accepts and even bestows honour on suicide.  Grieving widow commits suicide?  Good for her, she must have really loved her husband to follow him to the afterlife.

    See what I mean?

    So this morning I was thinking about the “Miracle of Life” conversation with Erik and I asked him what he thinks about all this, and I tossed in the controversial issue of assisted suicide for people with “terminal” illness.

    Erik says,  Okay can I talk now?  (teasing, because my mind tends to get very busy when I think about this topic, and he’s shoving aside my brain chatter like he’s elbowing his way through the crowd, exaggerating the effort he’s making to talk to me through my busy mind.)  It’s like a club in here!

    Okay so the short answer is that it varies for every person, and as soon as you have a law (cultural or state law) that pushes things one way or another, there’ll be (potentially negative) consequences.  I stick with what I said (in Miracle of Life) that life is so much fucking hard work to even GET a body, to get born, to grow up – it’s a damn big risk you’re taking if you decide to end your life.  You may just end up wanting to go right back in.  (Pulls a quote from my mind where Sylvia Browne declares that ALL people who commit suicide are directly looped back into life.)

    So, are you saying that’s true?

    Yeah, a lot of people DO just end up going back in, because they wanted in for a REASON.  Say the God thing.

    Ha.  Okay, I tend to edit out the religious stuff – but the whole statement from Sylvia Browne is that people who commit suicide are looped back into life because they’re not allowed to break a contract with God.

    So yeah, call it God if you want.  And remember that every person is a part of (shows me the donut universe) and that you had a reason for coming into life in the first place.  The thing about life is, yeah, you can sometimes bite off more than you can chew, and that’s what reincarnation and re-reincarnation is for.

    Re-reincarnation?  Oh yeah.  That’s an earlier conversation about living out all the variations in ONE particular lifetime, so your life path isn’t just a straight line, it’s more like a tree branching outwards.  Re-reincarnation is my own word for it.  Erik’s pointing me to previous entries in the CE blog with Jamie, where they’d also spoken about “going back in time” and he says, This is basically the same thing.  You can use your girly term if you want.  I’d say something like (puffs up in his He-Man costume MASTER REINCARNATION!!!!)

    This is a throwback to “masters of the Universe” conversation too.  DAMN Erik, I’m going to have to find a lot of past entries this time!

    Yeah, girl!  I’m puttin’ you to work! 

    (Erik shows me the pain and turmoil that this concept can bring up for people who’ve lost a loved one, thinking “there’s this branch where s/he is still alive!  Why can’t I become aware of that!?) 

    So, say you’re on a branch where (Erik’s still alive.)

    Well, some trees get to be huge twisted old oaks, me, I’m just a bush.  (winks)

    You can imagine the visual he gives me with “bush”.

    I’m going to over-explain Erik here while he rolls his eyes at me:  The tree / bush thing (okay, that’s a nice visual for tree!  Thanks, man, I haven’t seen your imaginary penis in a while.  Yeah well I wouldn’t want you to forget what one looked like!)

    Another interpretation of that would be using the “life plan” idea – you have a life plan that has the potential to live to be 100 years old, and plenty of branches where the lifespan is 80s and 90s.  The “bush” thing is the lifespan potential is much shorter, and Erik’s saying he’s a bush.

    Next Erik shows me a guy shouting, “Am I a tree or a bush?  A tree or a bush???”

    He says, If you have to ask, you’re a tree. 

    Okay, so here’s where it’s going to get real.  I’m gonna give you a list of things that make people feel depressed and hopeless, and a lot of it is bullshit.  It’s not even real.  So here goes:

    News.  Yeah, I’m not fucking kidding.  When you’re only hearing about the bad shit in the world, why the fuck would you want to stay living in it???  Keep in mind that a lot of the news is bullshit, and they gotta do a lot of digging and harping over and over again on the negative things just to fill a news show.  It’s a lot like advertising – it’s so repetitive, it sticks in your (shows me the brain and the series of neurons that have been stimulated so many times with the repetition that the negative thinking becomes reflex and habit.)

    They’re trainin’ you like Pavlov’s dog, yo.  Bitch, it’s time to get real. 

    Did you just go gangsta on me?  Did you try?

    Okay, so there was this short and hilarious exchange of “I am so gangsta! Do I need to get Biggie?” and then I see Biggie, mostly his face in a super-close up where despite himself his serious countenance cracks into a grin and he shakes his head like, “I can’t take you seriously, Erik, I tried to help you out!”

    Erik plays the song, “Where is the love?”  See, that’s exactly it, right there.  If you don’t see the love, you gotta start looking for it.  A lot of how you see the world, how you experience your life is habit.  Start thinking about the things that influence your habits, especially your thought habits.

    Okay, second risk factor, are you ready?  Being Young.  There is nothing as judgmental as a damn teenager!  That’s why parents of teenagers deserve medals!  Thing is, young people in their teens and twenties can be really harsh with the world and with themselves.  It’s too easy to be unforgiving of the people in your life (shows me angry / revenge suicide liked to immaturity) and it’s really tough at that age to be forgiving of yourself when your whole life’s about meeting other people’s expectations.

    Third risk factor:  Being middle-aged.  You know, that whole mid-life crisis thing.  It’s like being a teenager all over again, and this time you might be tempted to judge your life as a failure if it didn’t turn out a certain way.  A lot of triggers like divorce, losing a job – that can get you thinking like this.  NO ONE CAN FAIL AT LIFE!!! 

    Fourth risk factor:  Bring old.  This is like, the hidden statistic.  A lot of people don’t look too closely or think about it too hard when an old person dies.  This is why (those against assisted suicide) have a really good point, because old folks, (Elders) don’t get no damn respect anymore!  They’re not valued in the community for being the against-all-odds SURVIVORS they actually are!  And that can really make you feel bad.

    Now, I’m of course skipping over all the other stuff (that’s been discussed in conversations with Jamie and Robert) the mental and physical imbalances / illnesses that  contribute to this conversation, and I’m skipping the addictions stuff, which makes it even harder.  I’m just talking about those things that affect EVERY SINGLE PERSON ALIVE.  Remember the first thing I said – the short answer:  it varies for every person.

    I take a second to think about this whole piece and I just look at my hesitancy in pursuing this topic.  Erik says, It’s because you’ve got this (shows me one hand on the ground, one hand lost in the clouds and this sense of being stretched between them both.)  You’re not afraid of the dark side, and talking about it doesn’t have to create more bad stuff – the point of talking about this here is to release / dissipate the bad stuff!  Refusing to talk about it or look at it is actually giving it power, (shows me being annoyed when I listen to hyper-positive radio shows.) 

    That’s why being happy-happy-joy-joy all the time is really just this expression of fear!  It’s about finding the balance between being at the mercy of every negative news story and actually being (translates as “an angel for good”). 

    It’s about talking / observing / studying without being an asshole, without being invasive or bossy, but also really allowing yourself to experience (shows me a black ocean swelling up and down, meaning the waves of negative events) without drowning.

    Erik puts on his Tarzan costume and beats his chest with a jungle yodel, signaling the end of the conversation.

    Thanks, E.

    Here are links to the entries referenced:

    http://www.channelingerik.com/the-miracle-of-life/

    http://www.channelingerik.com/masters-of-the-universe/

    http://www.channelingerik.com/faith-in-doughnuts/

    Kate is a spirit medium and animal communicator located in Tofino, BC.  To learn more about her and her work, please visit her professional website: tofinopsychic.com and her personal blog: psychicintraining.com

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    Here are a few reminders for you guys:

    I have a speaking event at the Edgar Cayce center in Houston on Saturday, 2/22 at 11:00 AM CST

    I also have a book signing event at the Barnes and Noble bookstore in the Woodlands on Sunday, 2/23 from 2-4 PM CST. There won’t be any speech. I’ll just be sitting at a desk answering questions, signing books, etc.

    I’d also invite you to buy the book if you haven’t already done so. Here’s the Amazon link, but you can get it pretty much anywhere.

    My Son and the Afterlife

    If you do buy the book, please consider passing it on to friends and family members who you think my benefit from what Erik has to say. Thanks in advance, guys!

     

     

     

  • February10th

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    Happy Monday everyone! I’m still transcribing my first session with Robert as well as the Ask Erik answers to the winner of that submission. It takes a long time with these fingers which, for some reason, seemed to have turned into nubs with a mind of their own or fat little Vienna Sausages that can’t seem to avoid typing 2 to 3 keys at once. Indecisive wieners. Hmm. 

    Of course, children have always been so dear to my heart even after raising five of them through the teenage years. That’s why anything Erik says about child spirits perk my interest. Erik adored children so much. The last joy he had just 30 minutes or so before he took his life was playing peek-a-boo with his niece, Arleen, through the posts along the stairwell. It was a half-hearted attempt at best.

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    Me: How are children’s souls treated when they die? Do they grow up there? Can they be any age they want including an adult, and who takes care of them? Maybe I should have done these one at a time, but go ahead. Let’s see what you remember.

    Jamie (giggling): First he made a smart-ass comment that I refuse to say!

    Erik: Children are treated like spirits. They’re treated like anyone else that passes away.

    Jamie: The only difference he can think of is if the child–

    (Pause)

    Jamie (to Erik): So we could say… Give me some examples.

    Erik: Okay. If the child’s spirit is a baby and dies very young or dies in the belly from miscarriage or abortion, cord strangulation, stillbirth, anything like that, that’s such a short life.

    Jamie (to Erik): What’s a short life?

    Erik: Pretty much from zero when the spirit decides to enter the body and I’ll say five. Five years old.

    Jamie: He calls that a short life.

    As a parent who’s lost a son, I say when I survive my child, theirs is a short life.

    Erik: A short life means that the child hasn’t been influenced by the culture or society to let go of the beliefs that they came in with.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Erik: So, their connection to the afterlife is still pretty strong. If they’re passing from five and below, they pretty much know their shit, so when they get back, everyone’s like, “Hey, you’re here again! How have you been?” And they have that calmness, that knowingness, that familiarity. There’s really zero trauma. Zero trauma.

    Yeah, for them, but…

    Erik: Because they’re like, “I was just here! Hey!”

    Me: It’s like one of those revolving doors in a high rise.

    Erik: Yes, and, if they choose, they can stay that age or they can grow from that age and grow with the family annually to be a part of them. For me, I like being my age. I think I’m staying this way. In fact I think that if I got older, I’d look pretty stupid cuz my maturity level is not going to go beyond what it is right now.

    Jamie and I laugh.

    Me: That’s probably true!

    Jamie: So, he would look like he didn’t have all his marbles together.

    Me: Who said he did?

    (Pause as Jamie smiles and moves her head and body as if she’s either trying to follow Erik’s movements.)

    Jamie (to Erik): What are you doing?

    (Pause)

    Jamie: He’s checking his pockets. He’s pretending to dig through his pockets to find his marbles as proof to you that he had them all.

    Me (chuckling): That’s a good one. All right, so, what about babies when they cross over? Does somebody have to take care of them if they want to, if they want to remain a baby?

    Erik: Yeah, if they want to stay a baby and grow, it’s not like in humans though, Mom. It’s not like they need to be fed or they need to be dressed or they need to be protected.

    Me: But nurtured, right?

    Erik: Sure. Nurtured. Absolutely. But the things that you think of like sleepless nights and rocking and stuff like that, that’s not what we mean when we’re babied.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: It’s kind of like, just thinking of it in terms of size, just being small or simple. Simplicity. Then we grow into accepting more knowledge.

    Me: Who takes, uh, is there a place like a nursery where they take care of them or do the deceased relatives take care of them or what? I mean, they just don’t go crawling around with a diaper on out in the ethers!

    Erik: No, no, no. No diapers needed. Wherever they think they want to be, they go. They have the same intelligence as an independent spirit would in the afterlife. They’re not helpless. They are not helpless at all.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: They can communicate. They might not have had the English language on Earth, but they can speak loud and proud as soon as they let go of their body!

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: There’s nothing that’s being mistranslated. What they might want, like you said, is nurturing, companionship.

    Me: Yeah.

    (My retorts show that I have a great deal of contribution to the conversation.)

    Erik: Commonly, it’ll be from those who have passed away in that family structure, that lineage. If that’s not there, it’s the guides of the parents.

    Me: Okay.

    See?

    Erik: So, the family unit still stays together until time passes, and then that child can decide, are they going to stay and kind of—

    Jamie (to Erik): Linearly? Is that a word? Lin-e-ar-ly. (She over-pronounces the word as if to keep herself from stumbling over it. Sometimes when Jamie channels, it’s like she forgets words. That’s because they go straight from the spirit through her mouth, bypassing the brain. She rarely remembers any part of these sessions.)

    Erik: —play out that life with the family that they tried to come [into], or are they going to kind of remove their energy from it and place themselves into another lifetime?

    Me: Okay. Interesting. Now, why are children and babies and pets—why are they able to see spirits sometimes, and why does that eventually fade away? I suppose they fade away because they—at least the children and babies—get indoctrinated by the parents, right?

    Erik: Yep. They tell them, “Good!” “Bad!” “That’s not right!” “That’s wroooonnnng!”

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Well, why are they able to see spirits?

    (Pause)

    Erik: Pure energy.

    (Long pause)

    Me: Can you make that a whole sentence, please!

    Erik: Cuz they’re not getting fucked up or mucked up by other belief systems.

    Me: So, everybody, who doesn’t, uh, I mean if I didn’t have a belief system and wasn’t all messed up or “tainted” would I be able to see spirits?

    Erik: Yeah.

    Me: Like babies do?

    Erik: Yes.

    Me: Okay. Interesting.

    Erik: That’s why pets, cats and dogs, continue to do it. Because they don’t sign up for our belief system.

    Me: That’s true. I see my cats; they look up into this empty space and purr or keep following something with their eyes. Same thing with Bella, my dog. She’ll bark at the stairway even though it’s empty. Nobody’s there, except maybe Erik.

    Erik: That’s me.

    Me: Of course it is!

     

    Teasing Arley

    Teasing Arley

  • December21st

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    I know I don’t often post on the weekends, but my sister, Teri, emailed me this story that I found so intriguing, I couldn’t resist. I think every skeptic, including atheists, should read it. It’s all about perspective, people!

    ~Preparing to Be Born~
    In a mother’s womb were two babies. One asked the other: “Do you believe in life after delivery?” The other replies, “Why, of course. There has to be something after delivery. Maybe we are here to prepare ourselves for what we will be later.”  ”Nonsense,” says the other. “There is no life after delivery. What would that life be?” “I don’t know, but there will be more light than here. Maybe we will walk with our legs and eat from our mouths.” The other says “This is absurd! Walking is impossible. And eat with our mouths? Ridiculous. The umbilical cord supplies nutrition. Life after delivery is to be excluded. The umbilical cord is too short.” “I think there is something and maybe it’s different than it is here.” The other replies, “No one has ever come back from there. Delivery is the end of life, and in the after-delivery it is nothing but darkness and anxiety and it takes us nowhere.” “Well, I don’t know,” says the other, “but certainly we will see mother and she will take care of us.” “Mother??” You believe in mother? Where is she now?” “She is all around us. It is in her that we live. Without her there would not be this world.” “I don’t see her, so it’s only logical that she doesn’t exist.” To which the other replied, “Sometimes when you’re in silence you can hear her, you can perceive her. I believe there is a reality after delivery and we are here to prepare ourselves for that reality.”

    Babies  in Womb

    Since I’m not going to post until the day after Christmas, I’d like to wish you all a wonderful holiday. Think of your loved ones, because they’re thinking of you.

    I also want to remind you of my interview on the Bob Charles Show tomorrow at 2:00 PM CST. If you’re interested in listening, put it on your schedule and click HERE!

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  • November5th

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    Since the first post is so short and the second one seems to be a good segue, I’m giving you another two-fer.

    Me: How do know that you’re one of the rare people whose suicide is their predetermined exit point or one of those who are not?

    Erik: There are a lot of people on Earth that kill themselves to say, “Fuck you” to a lover or “Fuck you” to a job or the government. It happens.

    Me: Well, what percent of the cases is it their destiny like part of their contract as it was in your situation?

    Erik: Most of them it’s in their contract, so 75% maybe. There are so many, in this nation and across the world that do it for the wrong reason.

    Me: Wait, I thought you said before that 70% or so were not supposed to do it, like it wasn’t their destiny.

    Erik: Yeah, you’re right. I meant the opposite. Reverse that.

    He must not have had his coffee today!

    I laugh.

    Me: Now, this one guy says, “I feel like I’ve achieved my life’s purpose. I’m tired and I just want to go Home.” Does this sound like it’s his destiny?

    Erik: Yeah. They’re done. They’re not doing it to jab someone, to rob someone of something, to say, “Fuck off.” They’ve done everything that they’ve willingly wanted to do and go check out. You know it’s sad that he doesn’t want to stick around and play. There’s so much to play with.

    Me: Why do some people choose that? Why couldn’t they put in their contract to get run over by a bus? Certainly that’d be easier for their family and friends.

    Erik (with just a touch of sarcasm): Yeah, that bus death is certainly better.

    Jaime bursts out laughing.

    Me: Yeah, I know. But what about having the contract to just have a heart attack or die in their sleep of a stroke.

    Erik: No, but Mom that robs the person of having the conversation and the challenge of life and death.

    Me: Ah! True.

    Erik: If it’s going to be their decision, they need to sit down with it.

    Me: Okay. Anything else on that?

    Erik: Nah.

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    Me: This blog member writes, ”We can’t imagine how special and meaningful all of our lives on Earth are, even the mundane or “bad” ones. Frequently it’s all good, and yet spirits you channel seem regretful about what they learned or didn’t learn and are sometimes resentful of the people that let them down. As someone who’s made many, many mistakes in this life and let people down myself, I guess I want to know if there’s forgiveness for those of us who support others poorly, who weren’t very loving or compassionate or conscious on the individual soul level. When does that forgiveness mainly come into play at the higher level from beings closer to Source? Erik has mentioned his disappointment in classmates and friends who weren’t very honest and loving, so I imaging other spirits are the same, even when they return Home. At the same time, I think many of us did poorly out of ignorance of how to be better.” I don’t remember you complaining about those people when you passed away. Do you know what he’s saying?

    Erik: Yeah. Overall, that forgiveness that you’re looking for is going to come from yourself. I mean, God Source is loving you no matter what you’re doing whether you think it’s good or whether you think it’s bad—your own judgment in your own fucked up way. You don’t get there and go, “Oh, he’s so happy I was an asshole!”

    Jamie (to Erik): You should do that more often. That’s funny! It’s like old Jewish, nasally—it’s kind of bad to describe it that way, but it was really, really nasal. (Giggling) I don’t think I’ve ever heard that before. Funny. “Oh, he was so happy I was an asshole.”

    I chuckle.

    Erik: It doesn’t work that way and it’s a spirit talking about their own regret and sorrow for how they behaved on Earth, that’s their own journey. No one here is going to go, “Eh, they didn’t do it right. They’re going to get punished.” There’s no punishment system, and then people think, “Ah, I can do whatever I fucking want. I can leave when I want; I can come when I want; I can destroy.” Nah you can’t, cuz watch, you will feel like a piece of shit for a really fucking long time.

    Me: Wait. When you get over there?

    Erik: Yes. The clarity you get when you arrive over here, it will fuck with your soul, man. So go ahead. Misbehave. Go against what you feel is right for you or best for you and then see how it feels when you get here.

    Me: But I thought there was no space for negative emotions.

    Erik: You can have them for yourself, Mom. They’re not passed around like some disease like they are on Earth, you know, “I’m going to guilt you into doing this. I’m gonna punish you for saying that.” That shit doesn’t exist here. But if you wanna feel guilty for something that you’ve done, go ahead. We’re not going to tell you that you have to feel a certain way or behave a certain way.

    Me: Well it’s still a negative emotion.

    Erik: Yeah, and it’s really hard to maintain that emotion here.

    Me: Ah. So you’re in a lower vibrational frequency when you have those emotions over there, and when you unattach yourself, disconnect yourself from those emotions, you’re in a higher vibrational frequency?

    Erik: Yeah. Yeah. Think of it as a weight lifter. You know, those big, beefy, hunky men.

    Jamie and I burst out in laughter.

    Me: Gross. I hate that.

    Erik: They lift up those gigantic weights, you know, and they can’t hold onto them forever. So, that’s the imagery you can have for the difficulty in handling the denser vibrations in Heaven, in this higher dimensional plane. And again, higher doesn’t mean better.

    Me: Exactly.

    Erik: So stop, people. Stop your judgments.

    Me: I love your analogies. They’re so awesome, Erik. That’s what makes you such a good teacher.

    Jamie (whispering): I know! I know!

    Me: Is she saying that or are you saying that?

    Jamie: I said that.

    Me: I thought he was breaking his arm, patting himself on the back

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    PENCIL THIS IN ON YOUR SCHEDULE! I’ll be a guest on Peace World Radio at 11:00 PST. My host will be Kristina Jansz. I’d love for you to join us! To listen live, go HERE at the scheduled time. It can also be heard at a later time by going to Peace World Radio’s Library of Past Shows HERE.

     

  • October14th

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    This past weekend was a tough one. I buried Erik four years ago Saturday. I miss him a lot and I’m still feeling down in the dumps today. I hate this time of year with his birthday the end of September, his death the first part of October and his burial mid-October. Fall used to be my favorite season. Not any more. 

    Me: Okay, here’s another one:  I’ve heard Erik and other spirits says that “accidents” can happen where someone can die at an unplanned time, not a planned exit point. Can someone also contract a disease such as cancer that was not in one’s life blueprint? Like, what if you were designing a life without too many planned details, and you plan to live to a hundred, but when you got in, you found that you loved seafood and ate it every day and had a slightly high mercury exposure not anticipated in your plan. Could you get cancer at an early age and die from that?

    Jamie (laughing): Erik shouts out, “Guess who loves seafood!”

    I laugh.

    Jamie: Obviously this blog member.

    Me: Exactly.

    Erik: Yeah. Yeah, you can totally. It’s so funny. You know, in humans, we kind of focus on the negative, but this shit cracks me up. There are a bunch of people right now on Earth who are claiming to be the reincarnation of Jesus Christ. I think it’s really funny, you know, we got one in Europe; we got one in Australia and it’s all wonderful and the whole Mary Magdalene thing, it’s just great, because when you reincarnate your obviously going to reincarnate as someone awesome (obvious note of playful sarcasm). Well, where are all the fucking Judas’s? How come nobody’s stepping forward and saying, “I am the reincarnation of Judas.” You don’t, right? Because that’s a bad dude, and you’re not going to be shouting out or anything because your fucking judgment is so off. That’s like you say you’re going to make a contract when you come back into life and all this contract has when is your death, what kind of disease, what kind of lessons you learn, duh, duh, duh. Why are we all looking at it as negatives? Let’s say you came in and you wanted to live a short life, right?

    Me: Mm hm.

    Erik: And then at age six you’re supposed to be checking out at age seven, but you say, “This is just fucking sweet! I’m going to stay.”

    Great vocabulary for a six year old.

    Erik: And you choose not to drown in the ocean that day. You get revived and live another fifty years. That’s the beauty. It doesn’t always have to the negative end. It could be a positive end, and yes, you have free will. You create your life. You can add to your recipe whatever you see fit, and most of the time you’re adding unconsciously.

    Me: Ah!

    Erik: Because we’re not taught to live a conscious life, which—

    Jamie bursts out laughing.

    Jamie: I’m sorry. He kind of did a very professional bow, like he stood up rolled his hand in front of his belly in a circle and bowed.

    I giggle. I can just see him.”

    Erik. (In a supercilious voice): Like my dear friend, Deepak Chopra, reaching people to live consciously. This is changing and shaping the contract that you created before you came in. You were in control before you came into this life, and you’re still in control when you’re living it. And guess the fuck what?

    Jamie giggles.

    Erik: You’re still in control after you leave it. What makes you think that because you wrote something down, you have to play that shit out to the same degree that you planned it before you even got into the damn shoes? You guys are gluttons for punishment, man!

    Me: So we can do the improv thing, huh?

    Erik: Yeah!

    Me: Comedy improv. So what about the guy who was supposed to live to be a hundred? On a soul level, on a conscious level, he was like—

    Erik: He’s just not taking care of his body!

    Me: Oh, okay. All right. So, it’s all just free will.

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    Don’t forget to sign up for Jamie and Erik’s weekend in Atlanta February 7-8!

    WEEKEND OF F-ING ENLIGHTMENT

  • August24th

    8 Comments

    I’m sitting here typing on my Mac here in a Best Western Hotel in the piss ant town of Cresson, TX. Pretty much an intersection, a gas station, and a liquor store (Thank God. I need my Cabernet!) Why, you ask? I’ve asked that same question for the past couple of days.But I have to show solidarity for my man. This is a motorcycle race weekend and he feels compelled to drag is knees on asphalt and defy death and avoid keeping the orthopedic doctors from taking his money. (Yawn) Actually–and this is pretty ironic–I had to go to the local ER to get a splint because of super severe extensor digitorum longus tendinitis. (There will be a short quiz on this later.)

    Me: What about suicides? A lot of people think that suicides got straight to Hell. Obviously you didn’t do that, but…Tell me more.

    Erik: Yeah, maybe if there was a Hell, I probably would have skimmed it a little bit.

    Jamie and I laugh.

    Jamie: He’s teasing.

    Erik: First of all, there is no Hell. Using the term in general, God loves everybody and it’s not in every culture. IF you do the research, suicide is seen as a negative. I can’t grasp the concept of why people want to judge other people’s actions. I know it’s a very tender subject. Anyone who’s watching—don’t you know that I know that more than any other person out there? I’m the one who did it. I’m the one who succeeded. Don’t you think I know what it takes to get there? So most people on Earth would put suicide under murder, under rape. These are things that mankind cannot embrace—cannot even see it as acceptable or understood. I’m not here to change your mind on that. If I was here to change you mind about it and preach to you, then I’m just as bad as the next person. It’s not about changing minds. It’s about embracing what you find to be your own truth. Just getting out and beyond that, just unzip out of your understanding of those terms, of suicide, the definition of suicide. Just unzip out of it for one second so I can talk to you.

    (Pause)

    Erik: Thank you for unzipping.

    Jamie and I giggle.

    Erik: Suicide. I can speak from my example. For me, it ended up being a natural timing of death. It was a way of dying in my life just like cancer is, just like a car accident. There’s a certain kind of timing—we’ll call it timing—in life, and this timing is extremely graceful and flexible, but it helps build what the experiences are on Earth. And yes, it’s changeable, it’s flexible. I’m not saying it’s fixed in concrete, so please don’t take what I’m saying the wrong way. Now, those people who take suicide as a way out, and it’s not under that graceful and good timing—maybe they were supposed to struggle with that little bit longer before they followed through or live an entire life and die from a heart attack. I’m not one to sit around and say, “You were right and you were wrong” cuz you know what that shit is—total judgment, right? So, if you’re leaving your life no matter how you’re leaving your life—accidentally, by disease, murder or by your own hand, if you’re leaving your life and it’s your time, you’re gracefully accepted into the higher dimensions. It doesn’t matter how or why. It was the timing and your understanding of it.

    Me: And if it’s not your time?

    Erik: If it’s not your time or that you weren’t ready but you did it anyway or it happened to you anyway, you got some shit to work out. You got some experiences that have to occur on Earth that aren’t going to be able to occur because you’re not a player in it anymore. You removed yourself. So now you, in spirit, need to finish up those things and help that grace still stay in place. Then when you’ve finished that, you can say your work is done. But not everything is perfect timing.

    Jamie (laughing): He’s getting a little crazy trying to use the words again, like he wants to speak more emotionally without the language to it, but that’s not going to go well, you know, in a situation like this.

    Erik: We talked about it before that on Earth there are these concepts of being like you’re on a pendulum swing where one side is completely accurate and the other side is completely wrong, and the middle of the swing is on the fence. And when you, on Earth, look at a situation, you tend to go for “Was that the wrong thing to do” (Jamie mimics the swing of a pendulum stopping at its height on the right) “or was it the right thing to do?” (Jamie does the same thing, but on the left side.) All I’m going to ask you guys to do on Earth is: It’s okay to have your own opinion. It’s okay to find out and explore where you want to be on that pendulum swing. Living on one side or the other is not going to be the healthiest thing for you.

    Me: So, basically, suicides and gays are embraced even though, um, suicides who die before their time, there’s no judgment over there. They’re completely loved and embraced.

    Erik: There’s no judgment here. Absolutely. This place is only about unconditional love. Even just asking the question just sounds retarded.
    Me: Oh, thank you!

    Erik: Why would somebody die and be hated?

    Me: Thank you very much!

    Jamie laughs.

    Erik: No, Mom. There are other people out there asking the same questions.

    Me: I’m just kidding.

    Erik: You gotta look at, not just the content of your question, but you gotta look at it with nonhuman eyes. I mean, you’re looking at it with human language, human emotions, human opinion, and human judgment in a place that’s not even human!

    Here’s a short bonus post:

    Me: Can you work with your hands like build a deck or…

    Jamie (laughing): When you said, “Work with your hands” he kind of lifted a certain finger and said, “Yeah”.

    Me: Uh oh!

    Jamie: You got it? I’m not going to do it.

    Me: Yeah!

    Erik: Yeah I can do that. You don’t have to do it that way, but if that was something you were attracted to or it helped to ground you in your human life, you can create that situation for yourself in the afterlife.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: It’s not completely removed. You can—

    (Pause. Jamie looks like she’s a little frustrated.)

    Jamie: He’s doing the picture thing again. Apparently it takes a lot of focus. That’s what he’s showing me, to be able to have dense energies like that to where things can be touched, manipulated, handled, cuz most of the energy is shaped or changed by intent, thought or emotion. But yeah, you can have that. I know you’re not going to do that while you’re here so I don’t know why you’re asking that one!

    I would definitely loose some spirit fingers sawing the wood.

    Me (laughing): That’s true. You know what? I’m going to just create a La-Z-Boy there and kick back for a few millennia.

    ***********************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

     

  • July26th

    6 Comments

    Painful Deaths

    Posted in: Death

    Me: Now, if you have to experience a painful death, and some people, I guess, sign up for that, because they’ve never experienced a painful death and they want to see what it’s like. Do you remember it?

    Jamie laughs. She seems hesitant to divulge what he said.

    Jamie (blushing): He’s kind of harping on your question.

    Me: Oh boy. There you go. Cut me some slack, too, Erik!

    Jamie (still laughing and blushing): Cuz he said that when you said some people sign up it  because maybe they haven’t experienced it he goes, “Yeah, or they were just a total dick in their life and that’s how they needed to end that life—with an exclamation mark. You know, hit it hard.”

    I laugh.

    Erik (hands out, palms forward): But, again, I’m not talking about anyone specific. I’m just talking in general.

    Jamie: Sometimes he can put on a kind of dorky voice where he drops his tone and he pulls out his words long.

    Me: I can see that. I remember when he used to do that.

    Erik: But yes. Some people can absolutely remember all of the pain associated with their death one hundred percent. They sign up for it. They want to. They need to. That’s like some women can actually remember the pain of childbirth.

    Jamie: He’s meaning the woman is giving birth and that woman can opt to remember everything about it, or it’s just a process and when people talk about it, and they say, “Oh, I remember it being uncomfortable but, you know, I survived.”

    Erik: In general, that’s a lot of what we get on this side—

    Jamie: Where he is.

    Erik: –that when they’ve had a painful death—a physically painful death—most of the time it’s, “Yeah, I remember it being awful, but, you know, I survived.”

    The irony of this statement doesn’t escape me.

    Erik: So, they don’t linger on it. But there are a handful of cases where they remember every detail of the suffering of not being able to breathe, feeling the pain inside of their body, and it’s keeping a lesson alive, and they do recall. It was part of the act of them learning or remembering.

    Me: Well, why was that a lesson? What are they trying to learn?

    Erik: Well it could be physical boundaries. It could be strictly the concept of pain because we don’t have that here in this other dimension that we reside in. It’s almost sick enough to say that it’s a novelty.

    Me: Is there no emotional connection with the memories of the painful death like, “God that was awful!”

    Erik: Yeah, it’s crazy. You recall it; you remember how it felt. You can connect to that pain, but it doesn’t carry on inside of you—not in the higher dimensions. It’s more like a book that you’ve read. You can really connect to the character, remember the story and put yourself in their shoes, but you’re not constantly in that character’s shoes because you’re you.

    **********************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

  • July24th

    7 Comments

    Me: Now, what we’re going to talk about today is neutrinos. We’ve talked about how the soul is made of neutrinos and how upon death they change from a particle to a wave. Can you talk a little bit about that?

    Erik: The neutrinos are a more dense vibration. They’re actually what helps the energetic system communicate with the physical system and stay in contact with the emotional and mental body. Think of it as constant plug-ins that creates highways and byways of communication. And we’re also talking about—if I may carry on the conversation—

    Jamie giggles.

    Erik: –we’re also talking about how the spirit separates from the physical body, and it is when those neutrinos lose the opportunity or the voice to communicate. That happens when—well there are several chemical reactions in the body, of course, when we no longer breathe in oxygen, when our heart is no longer pumping blood. You know, we have those physical things. But I think what we really want to talk about if how the energy decides to leave the physical body. If you’re studying the energetic system of the physical body, you’ll know already that there are auras or energetic fields around the physical body. That remains with the physical body. There is also a system—

    Jamie: He’s giving me a really cool image. I’m just trying to figure out how to explain it. Give me a second.

    Erik: There are also all sorts of energetic patterns that create the soul inside the body. Now, the energetic field outside of the physical body—the skin, bones, muscles and the cells—they remain, because that is attached as kind of a glow, if you can say, you know, off of a three dimensional, tangible item.

    Jamie (to Erik): You’re going to call the body and item?

    Erik: Yep. Yep I am. So, that’s not holding the soul in place, and that’s not going to leave when you’re soul leaves your body. It belongs to the physical body, so there are different energetic vibrations in the body that will no longer associate, so there’s almost like a separation between water and oil. Both liquids. Both completely different kinds of liquids. They can touch, hold space for each other, but they never really mix well. This is kind of how our soul is in our physical body—the luggage that contains it or the jar that holds the liquid. When the body can no longer sustain the life force, meaning it can no longer absorb nutrition, it can no longer have oxygen, it can no longer filtrate and function on it’s own in a physical state, then the soul has no reason to stay in the physical body. So it starts its own kind of chemical reaction like the physical body does. It ceases to communicate with the energy in the physical body, to all of its system. In that process, just to give you a visual, it looks a bit like a light show.

    (Pause)

    Jamie (smiling): He’s giving me pictures and talking at once.

    Me: Uh oh.

    Jamie (chuckling): I am talented at multitasking, you know, kind of a queen here, but not when you do that stuff, Erik.

    (Pause)

    Jamie: So I’m going to pause and talk about what he’s showing me, and then we’ll get back to his words. So, I’m looking at a person’s body. They look like they’re floating in darkness. But there’s a lot of color in the person’s body. All kinds of color—every hue. Deep reds, black, white everywhere. Pinks. And they look like, um, pockets of light. It’s like if you were to hold flashlights to the body. It’s not blended well like watercolors. This looks like a specific staged laser light show in a way but not sharp like a laser. And these bursts of light are coming on and off. It’s almost like the end of the communication between the energetic body and the physical body.

    (Pause)

    Jamie (giggling): He says he’s trying to show me in slo-mo.

    Erik: The separation happens instantaneously in many cases, and that’s why you hear the definition from some people who are spirits that it was, uh, the light was on, and then as easy as you can turn the light switch off, they’re out. It’s done. That’s it. There is no though process attached to it. Your brain doesn’t have to process death while it’s happening. Your emotional body doesn’t have to process it. It’s truly the communication between the physical system and the energetic system.

    Jamie (with a slightly wide-eyed, startled look): Oh, he’s pausing.

    Me: Okay. Now, how does it actually separate from the, I mean, how does the soul actually attach to the body. You talked about microtubules before in each cell.

    Erik: Mm hm. They spiral out more like a cord that connects in, for lack of a better word, an energetic system that kind of feeds its roots into whatever it needs to be associated with be it the tissue, the bone, the marrow, the organ. Think of it as an intricate root system.

    Me: And [the soul] latches on to the microtubules? Is that what it does?

    Erik: Yes.

    Me: Interesting. And as it separates from those microtubules, talk to me a little bit about that.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: He’s sitting there with his mouth closed and he’s looking at me and he says:

    Erik: As easy as it is for me to not speak to you is as easy as the energy stops communicating. I don’t think I know how to explain it anymore. So why don’t you ask me another question about it and we’ll see if we can get it some intelligence up in my head.

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Well, is it some sort of electrical reaction within the microtubules that—

    Erik: Electrical reactions. Yeah, I’ll go for that. Yes.

    Me: All right. What about, uh, we talked about neutrinos. What happens to the neutrinos, themselves, when they leave the body? Can you talk about how they turn into a wave pattern instead of the particle pattern that it’s in when it’s in the physical body? Is that true?

    (He talked about this in the past, but I wanted to make sure.)

    Jamie (laughing): He’s using the old bell technique like “ding”!

    Erik: Yes, that’s true.

    Me: Okay. Now, what are those wave patterns for? What do they do?

    (Long pause, then Jamie shakes her head.)

    Jamie: Again, he shows me a lot of pictures.

    Jamie (to Erik): Just talk to me, Erik. Easier, much easier for me.

    (Pause)

    Erik: Of course, the human way is to explain what they’re not, because that’s what humans can understand best.

    I laugh.

    Jamie (smiling): Sass-ma-fras!

    I have no idea what she just said. Sass-ma-fras? Really?

    Erik: They do not turn into waves to maintain our personalities or our characters or memories, so stop that train of thought.

    Jamie (to Erik): We weren’t even on that train of thought! We were just asking a question!

    Me: Yeah. About neutrinos. What are they for in the spirit world? What do they do? Do they carry information? Are they information? Are they the particle of consciousness? What are they exactly?

    Erik: They’re not patterns of information. Again, they’re not your personality, your character, your memories, and your association to past lives, current lives, future lives. I like the concept that it’s consciousness. Just think of it as being—

    Jamie (to Erik): Erik, you’re going to have to find a way to explain it!

    Me: He didn’t drink his coffee today!

    Erik: Think of them as being a satellite dish. Tiny little satellite dishes that transmit knowledge, emotion, consciousness, consecutiveness, unity. Things of that nature. It’s so fucking hard to explain, because anyone who’s listening and even you who are asking the questions are trying to see it in a very, kind of, human state, a very scientific state where I know if I gave you a straw, you can measure the straw and tell me consistently what that straw’s going to do. If you apply a suction pressure, a fluid is going to come through it. But these things, they change to meet your needs. There’s no physical quality or element in a spirit that stays the same consistently every time you go back to it. I can give you a straw in spirit and you can take it and use it as a car!

    Jamie: Wow, that was really random.

    Erik: Well, yeah, I’m trying to make it random because we’re asking how this element is going to perform each time for what it’s being used. In our higher dimensions, it’s just not this way. We pull together what we need out of our own energetic system, out of our own soul or spirit. We don’t have this consistency that you have on Earth. And—

    (Pause)

    Jamie (to Erik): Whadda-whadda-what? You lost me.

    Jamie and I giggle.

    Jamie: The ni, ni—

    Me: Microtubules?

    Jamie: Yeah, that. He started to say “it” and he gets me lost when he does that.

    (Now, I think what he may have been referring to neutrinos, so, given what we’ve already learned, you can decide for yourself.)

    Jamie: He says the microtubules are almost like the halfway step between the energetic system and the physical system. So you see them being put in place for the body to maintain its status with the soul.

    Erik: But as their relationship is there, they transform into an energetic system, and are no longer used as a stable factor. They were more important when you were in the body. Kind of like the appendix.

    Jamie: I don’t know how that was related!

    Me: It’s unimportant. We really don’t need it. And so after death, we don’t need the microtubules. Is that what you’re saying?

    Jamie: He kind of shifts his body around.

    Erik: You got it!

    Me: All right.

    ********************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

  • July23rd

    10 Comments

    Me: Let’s talk about what happens, energetically, at death. Does something happen to the wave pattern or the frequency of our energy? Does our energy pass into a white hole? I understand that from one physicist that every little electron, etc. is a tiny black hole, and that, maybe—I’m just thinking—maybe those turn into white holes; we pass through a white hole [at the point of death]. What happens from the physics perspective? Energetically.

    (Long pause)

    Me: You did well in physics! Come on; you can do this!

    Jamie: I’m watching him adjust his legs and change his posture.

    Me: And also, is death like crossing an event horizon?

    Jamie: What do you mean by that? An event horizon?

    Me: God, don’t make me remember that! Like [something related to] a singularity, uh…

    Erik: Kind of think of it as crossing dimensions.

    Me: Okay, crossing dimensions. All right. But, energetically, what really happens?

    (Long pause)

    Erik: In layman’s terms, when the body can no longer sustain life, that there’s not a chance of repair—and this is not the case in comas cuz the body can still sustain life, but it needs to repair, hence, the body shuts down. The—

    (Pause)

    Jamie (to Erik): What was that word?

    Jamie and I giggle.

    Jamie: No, you said layman. Come on!

    Erik: When the body can no longer sustain life, then the energetic pattern of the soul that’s inside of you starts to disassociate from the physical body. It no longer communicates with the body. It’s much like the concept of putting liquid into a jar. The liquid is contained by the jar, not part of the jar. It has to respect—

    Jamie (to Erik): Oh, you’re getting into it!

    Erik: –the boundaries of the jar. Keep its shape.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Jamie: He gives me more pictures, but I don’t know how to explain it. I think he did great when he said the energy stopped communicating with the body, and it created a separation.

    Erik: When it stops communicating, the energy is no longer tethered onto lower vibrational wavelengths—if you wanna call it wavelengths, dimensions. And therefore, it eases into higher dimensions much like you do when you go to sleep. Your subconscious takes over. It allows you to escape the physical planes.

    Jamie: His example is out of body experiences when you’re sleeping. Astral projection. Astral travel. These are possible because the energy of the soul can experience higher dimensions without the physical body.

    Erik: This is the natural transition that happens when the body can no longer sustain life. Then you have these few that we can call, you know, ghosts—

    Jamie (giggling): He kind of straightens out his body. Ghosts.

    Erik: That even though the soul no longer communicates with the physical body, their willingness, willfulness, their demand, their focus is to stay in the lower dimensions for whatever reason. They don’t get to experience that higher dimensional plane—the cross over—like the, let’s just say the average Joe or Jane gets to experience. Because their focus is set on something either undone, something they can’t leave. It’s true when we say to living people and to dead people that your perspective is shaping your experience. There is still a consciousness wrapped around all of these layers.

    Jamie (to Erik): What layers are you talking about?

    Erik: There’s still this consciousness wrapped around the spirit in all the layers of dimensions, all the layers of vibrational qualities. You don’t—

    Jamie (smiling): He puts his elbow on his knee and leans in, kind of like some John Wayne move as how I’d imagine.

    Erik: It’s not ashes to ashes.

    Jamie and I laugh.

    Me: Oh, Erik!

    ********************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

  • July22nd

    23 Comments

    Me: I want to tell you that you’ve been very busy pranking and visiting the blog members as we talked about before, but I also want to thank you, because there are a couple of them who have been struggling, and you reached out to help them.

    Erik (tapping his chest): Thanks for saying that, Mom.

    Me: Aw. Well, we’re going to ask some questions about the nature of death. We’re going to have a very cheerful subject now!

    Jamie giggles.

    Jamie: Okay.

    Me: A lot of people want to know: what does death feel like, Erik? What is it?

    Jamie: He just kind of looks at me, widens his eyes, cocks his head and says, “Uh, I can only speak for myself.” Well have you heard others talk about theirs, as well? Can you give us some examples?

    Erik (with great fanfare): Well, ladies—

    We both laugh.

    Erik: Well, Mom, the way death felt for me was more in a, oh hell, I don’t know how to explain it! It’s just, for me, I was in pain, and I was trying to remedy that myself, and then it was just like, lights out. Like going to sleep super fast.  I don’t have a feeling attached to it. It was more like a process. It just—it happened.  If you want to pull in other people, we can do that, but I’ve heard some people say that it was just like falling asleep, and when they come to, it really felt like they were in a dream, but it’s not a dream. They really don’t seem to catch on til they recognize that the people who are surrounding them are people who have passed on. There are some people who ease out of their body. They remain this consciousness the entire time. They know that their body has died. They step out or float up or pull away from their body. They look at their body, but there’s no transcending; there’s no crossing into the light or whatever the hell you wanna call it.

    Jamie chuckles, shakes her head and says, “Oh, Erik.”

    Erik (rolling hand over hand): C’mon, Jamie. Keep up!

    Me: So, is it ever painful for people?

    Erik: The physical body is painful, but the act of death is not. Leaving your physical body is not.

    Jamie (giggling): He goes, “Is going to sleep ever painful?”

    Me: No, I love it. It’s a joy! But like when people fall out of buildings, for example, and they hit the pavement, doesn’t that hurt?

    Erik: Again, you have to take it per individual experience. Sometimes, before they even jump out of that window, for whatever cause that it is, their soul could already be out of their body, right? The—

    Jamie (chuckling): He said “the afterlife,” and I go, ‘Who does this?’

    Erik: Ah, shit. Angels, if you want to call it that. Higher beings, God, you know. You gotta really listen to this material and shape the terms to fit your religious beliefs. This way, I think you can understand more of what we’re saying. I know I get a lot of flack for the language that I use, but, come on, you gotta understand, that’s my touch. That’s my flair.

    Me: That’s right. We know it’s you.

    Erik: Show me an American that doesn’t know the words that I use. Cut me some slack. We’re talking about those who jump or fall, most of the time—cuz I’m just speaking in general, so again, I’m going to take an individual experience—that spirit is already being removed from the physical body before they hit the pavement. The lesson is done. The act of—

    Jamie: I’m going to see if I understand what he was saying.

    Erik: The act of the death.

    (Pause)

    Jamie (to Erik): Erik, you can’t backtrack like that. It confuses me.

    I chuckle.

    Erik: If we’re taking the example of leaving a window—there are many different reasons for leaving a window. It could be to end their life willingly. It could be to leaver a horrific situation such as a fire, you know, or collapse of a building, It could have been accidentally falling. It could be any of these cases. That matters in how their exit plays out. In general, the exit is the act of the falling, not hitting the pavement.

    Me: Ah!

    Erik: I hope this makes sense, because it’s not truly the impact of the physical body where death occurs. It is for things like a stroke.

    Jamie (to Erik, clarifying): Aneurysm?

    Erik: Aneurysm. Heart attack. In these instances, it’s what causes the body to separate from the soul but not so much in the case of falling, and, again, not so much in the case of any other kinds of accidents such as impact accidents, car accidents, nature—

    Jamie (to Erik, confused): Nature?

    Me: Like being eaten by a bear.

    Jamie (laughing): That’s the first animal that came to my mind! He’s like, “Jamie, you’re morbid!” And I said, ‘I’m not morbid!’ But he was talking about more of falling out of a tree, losing your footing while climbing, slipping off a mountain, rock, avalanche, things of that nature.

    ******************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

  • June14th

    17 Comments

    Why Stay?

    Posted in: Death, Suicide

    Thank you all for your prayers. We surely needed them and still do. I’m so sorry I haven’t responded to comments to the posts, emails and Facebook messages. I still have a hard time seeing and there’s not much signal in the ICU. 

    In this post, Erik gives his case against suicide. Hope you enjoy!

    Me: Erik, you paint a great picture of death, right? Tell me something that would keep people from offing themselves.

    Jamie laughs hard.

    Jamie (to Erik): Pull it together, man! (To me) He’s just laughing.

    Erik: Shit, I can’t think of something right now.

    Erik (throwing his arms out over his knees): Well, we talked about the sadness of not being able to touch someone and that communication is different, so I would say what could keep you on Earth are the relationships you have with friends and family, because even though the bond isn’t broken when you pass over, the relationship really does redefine itself. You can’t just run up and see each other and embrace and sit down and have your coffee and chat.

    I miss that.

    Erik: Mom, I guess I’d say this: Do your shit now so you don’t have to come back and do it later.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Erik: Like, why are you putting off life? Mecca’s not going to be any sweeter for you.

    Jamie (giggling): Mecca!

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie (laughing): He’s going, “Mecca-heiny-ho.

    Me: Oh, well, I used to take my kids once a year to the Hyatt here in Houston just as a special treat. You know, we’d spend the might, jump on the beds, have pillow fights and order brownies a la mode from room service. So, at the restaurant there, they’d order this shake called Meka-heiny-hai or something like that. It was a Hawaiian thing, but the kids would joke and say, ”Make a heiny high.” They would laugh and laugh. That’s what he’s talking about..

    Jamie: Oh my god!

    Erik: Mom, you are really fun!

    Me: It was so much fun. We had a blast. All right. Anything else on that? Don’t you take your problems with you?

    Erik: Totally. Totally. I mean that’s why I said why would you put off life? You’re going to have to deal with that shit that brought you to that point eventually—all the individual lessons that your soul is craving to learn and experience. Why would you snuff it out too soon? And of course you’re going to get feedback, Mom, on when is the right time to die? I mean, seriously, you will know. If you’re questioning suicide, guess what? It isn’t your time. If you have a doubt—even a small one—about whether to kill yourself, guess what, it isn’t your time. You’re fucking wrong. Don’t do it. And if you’re doing it really fast, because you think you’re a chicken ass when it comes time to die, guess what? You shouldn’t fucking do it.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Erik: You know when you’re finished! You know when you’re done. That’s like the elusive question: How do you know you’re in love? How do you know if you’re marrying the right person? It’s when you have no doubt that this is it. You have arrived. Then when you go to end your life—sorry I’m talking about this, because, culturally, people are going to really be pissed here—but when you go to end your life, it’s peaceful. It’s a release. It’s an acceptance—thinking of yourself for being—

    Jamie: I was just looking up at him, saying, ‘Please watch your words here.’

    Me: Mm hm!

    Jamie: I just glared at him. Okay. (Clears throat in preparation)

    Erik: It’s an acceptance to yourself that you are kind enough and understanding enough to forgive yourself. You already know you’re done.

    Me: Well, I don’t think you were at that point. I think there was some hesitation or something on your part.

    Erik (to Jamie): Do I have to tell the truth?

    Jamie (to Erik): Hell, yeah you have to tell the truth!

    Erik: I knew it was the answer. That I knew for sure, Mom. I totally knew it.

    Me (somberly): Yeah.

    Erik: And I was real comfortable with the idea. It didn’t bring me any anxiety. It didn’t, you know, make my heart race or freak my shit out.

    (Long pause)

    Erik: But, you know, you’re right. I hesitated.

    Me: Okay. So you didn’t think to do it real fast. It was just like you hesitated because–?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: He’s not saying anything. He’s just kind of looking. His eyes look really spacy. Glazed. You know how you’re thinking back on something?

    Me: Uh huh. Is he just thinking? Are you thinking, Erik?

    Erik: Yeah. I’m trying to think of the right way to describe it. It wasn’t that my life would be over. I had a clear understanding that everyone in my family would be okay. That didn’t weigh heavy on me at that time. I think I was just nervous about how—

    (Pause)

    Erik: —well, where I would end up.

    Me: Did you think you’d go to Hell or did you believe in that sort of thing?

    Erik: Nah.

    Me: Okay. Anything else on that?

    Erik: I just knew that it’d be better than where I was.

    Me (choking up): Aw, poor baby. (Pause) It ended up that way, didn’t it?

    Erik: Yeah. I’m more at peace and alive than I ever had been.

    Me: Yeah. That’s right. Any other reason you want to share that will convince people not to kill themselves when it’s before their time?

    Erik: I just want to highlight the fact that if you’re teetering or waffling on the decision, then your death is fucking wrong. Delete that as being an option. And not only do you carry your baggage here with you, you create more shit for yourself, because you see and feel all the grief you leave behind. You need to look at ways to recreate what you have in your life. You know, a lot of times people feel like they’re at a dead end and they think that suicide is the answer when really they just haven’t giving themselves permission to—

    Jamie: Ec– Oh, evacuate! (To Erik) What are you saying? I thought he said excavate.

    Jamie and I chuckle.

    Me: Permission to evacuate their bowels!

    Erik laughs.

    Erik: Evacuate their situation. They choose to stay in it and rot rather than pack their bags and leave. I think that 90% of all the people who have decided to commit suicide—if they chose to leave the situation that they’re in—physically change their environment—I believe that they would still be living and successfully enjoy what they’d consider balance in their life. Sometimes they just need a break from being human.

    Me: Any other downside to suicide?

    Erik: Yeah, you’re not finishing up your spiritual contract and that can fuck up a lot of shit. For example, maybe you were supposed to have a kid and that kid was supposed to find a cure for AIDS? If you die before you have that kid, a lot of people are going to die when they don’t have to. That will really fuck up your mind, and you have to work from this side to make all that happen. It’s much harder from here.

    Me: So, are there a lot of people whose destiny it is to take their lives?

    Erik: Fuck no! It’s very, very rare.

    **********************************

    I hope that Erik’s words convince any of you who waiver on this decision to find the courage to continue with their life. To see the human experience as a precious opportunity to grow..

    Please don’t forget to sign up for these two events occurring next Wednesday, June 19th:

    Channel Erik, your guides, and your deceased loved ones through Jamie’s small group readings:

    Group Phone Reading

    Join this very important web class, too. Being grounded is one of the most important things you must do to feel stable emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally.

    How to Get and Stay Grounded

    For her other events, click here:

    Events

    **********************************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

  • June10th

    11 Comments

    Me: At what point did you ask for help? When did you finally say, “I need help”?

    Erik: When I wanted to get back to my family and I didn’t know how.

    Me: Aw. Did you miss us?

    Erik: Yeah!

    Me: So, who appeared.

    Jamie: This was a female guide. Not his aunt. This was someone who was telling him how to cross dimensions and how to communicate.

    Erik: About this time, it was when you were doing all the research and trying to find mediums, you know. So, I was trying to learn how to talk through them and get into it. By then, I didn’t have any conflict with my emotions. I was perfectly A-OK.I knew how to travel, and ten I immediately started learning how to communicate to humans. Cross-dimensional communication.

    Me: How did you ask? Did you just think, “I need help!”?

    Erik: Yeah. Yeah.

    Me: Or did you get on the loudspeaker and yell, “A little help here!”

    Erik: No, I thought about it. I would need someone to come to teach me, and that’s all you do. You just think that.

    Me: Did you have to go through some sort of therapy? They say some people have to go through therapy to mend energetically, etc. Did you go through that process, too?

    Erik: I did some, yeah.

    Me: One medium told me that you had to go through a lot less therapy than most suicides.

    Erik: Yeah.

    Me: Why is that?

    Erik: Because it was a contract written that it was the end of my line whereas with most people who take their lives it’s not the end of their line. They’re just doing it out of revenge or because they want an out or avoidance.

    Me: Okay. It’s not their destiny. It’s not an exit point for them.

    Erik: Yes.

    Me: All right. Now, what do most spirits miss about the earthly plane. I know you have all of your buddies over there and they’re like, “Oh my god, I really miss pizza” or whatever, but what do most, if you were to do a survey, miss about the earthly plane.

    Erik: Food, number one. Sex, number two.

    Jamie giggles.

    Me: But I thought the sex was better over there.

    Erik: It is, but it’s not physical like that. It’s different. So different.

    Me: And why do you miss food? Can’t you conjure up the taste and texture thing or is it different?

    Erik: It’s totally different.

    Me: But can’t you create that taste, the texture and the fullness in the belly?

    Erik: It’s the whole chewing it, smelling it, waiting for it to be done. I mean, we don’t really have that kind of process. We don’t need it.

    Me: Yeah, but can’t you create every aspect of it like you’ve described?

    Erik: It’s not the same, Mom.

    Me: It’s not the same.

    Erik: It’s like artificial flavor is not the same as the real thing.

    Me: I see. And sex is not quite, uh; you don’t have that physical, the physical body.

    Jamie bursts out in laughter.

    Jamie: Uh huh. He’s talking about the “bang banging”.

    Me: Oh god, Erik. Well, you didn’t have much of it when you were her, poor guy. I guess you’ll have to come back as a prostitute.

    Jamie laughs hard.

    Me: Or, what do you call it? A gigolo. Come back as a gigolo.

    Erik: If I come back, I’m definitely coming back with a dick.

    Me: So, come back as a gigolo and then you can really get some—on a regular basis.

    Jamie still hasn’t stopped laughing.

    Erik: Jamie has just checked out!

    We all can’t help but laugh at that one.

    Me: Okay. Let’s talk about this. When spirits cross back over what do they miss about Heaven?

    Erik: Huh?

    Me: When they come back to Heaven, and say, “I’m so glad to be back because I missed…” What do they miss about Heaven?

    Erik: The bullshit.

    Me: You miss getting away from the bullshit.

    Erik: Yeah. The emotional conflict. That’s why a lot of spirits like to come to Earth—to feel the lower vibrational emotions. Hardship. Struggle.

    Me: But when they come back to Heaven, they go, “Ugh, I miss being away from those emotional conflicts.”

    Jamie: Does that make sense? Cuz the way he’s explaining it is that they’re attracted to it, so that’s why they reincarnate. That’s where some of the deeper lessons are learned.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Erik: Through the conflict. There’s no conflict in Heaven or Home. So, when the human dies and becomes a spirit again, the ease of life is sometimes shocking and hard to adjust to.

    Me: Yeah.

    Erik: Cuz they just spent all that time adjusting to conflict.

    Jamie: Oh. So he’s saying not that they miss that the most. It’s just that it’s the hardest to adapt to.

    Me: To not have the conflict anymore? You like the conflict-free dimension, but it’s hard to adapt to. But I want to know what they miss about Heaven when they come back. “Oh my god, I’m so glad to be back, because I miss…”

    Jamie: Glad to be back on Earth or glad to be back in Heaven?

    Me: No, in Heaven?

    Why is this so damn hard?

    Erik: Oh, the ease of life. Peace. Love. Unconditional love.

    Me: All right. (finally!) What are the coolest new abilities you gained that you didn’t’ have on Earth?

    Jamie: Coolest new abilities.

    Me: Yeah.

    Jamie (to Erik): That aren’t raunchy!

    Me: Really!

    Jamie giggles.

    Me: I didn’t expect we could go there on THIS question, but leave it to Erik.

    Erik: Telepathy. Love it. It’s accurate. It’s better than instant messages. It’s better than text. It’s better than email.

    No fax?

    Me: Okay. What else?

    Erik: Not being stuck on planet Earth. You can just go wherever the F you wanna go.

    Me: Why are you saying, “F”? Seriously, Jamie!

    Jamie: I know! He said, “You can just go wherever the fuck you wanna go.”

    Me: There we go!

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: He’s got you all messed up today.

    Jamie: Oh, the highs and lows we’ve gone through already!

    Me: I swear to god! This is Emotional Roller-coaster Day. Okay, what else? I can imagine the frequent flyer miles you can rack up there!

    Jamie: Now that! He loves that!

    Me: What else. Name a couple more.

    Erik: A couple more. Transcending space and time. Time travel. Going back into your past lives. Oh, what about going to the fucking library?

    Me: The Akashic Records?

    Erik: Yeah. That shit fucking blows your mind.

    Me: Tell me about it.

    Erik: I can’t even plan how to get to the grocery store and buy everything that I need, and I go into here and all my past lives, my future lives, my now lives, my afterlife lives are all finely tuned. How the fuck does that happen?

    Me: What? Do you go into a library and open up a book? I mean, what’s it like?

    Erik: No, it’s not really like a book. It’s more like a never-ending page. Like it’s not like a “lick, flip” book.

    I chuckle.

    Erik: It’s kind of like a scroll, in a way, like one constant page, but you don’t have to manually unroll it. The information just comes to you.

    Me: Is it like a holographic display?

    Erik: Sort of like that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It’s technologically advanced.

    Me: Do you just take your thumb and scroll through it like an iPhone or do you think about going to the next life or whatever?

    Erik: Yep. It shows you what you want it to show you.

    Me: Interesting. Does it have cool colors? Glowing? Sparkly?

    Erik: Yeah. To me I see it in a kind of glowing blue color.

    Me: Hmm. I can almost see it. Probably have.

    *******************************

    Dear Reader,

    The journey on which you’re about to embark will take you through stories that are deeply personal and involves a relationship between a mother and her son.

    As a physician raised by two atheists, I had no personal belief system about life after death. In a word, I was a confirmed skeptic. As my journey progressed, my mind opened. It is my sincerest hope that yours will open as well and that you will have a greater understanding of your own life and what’s to come ahead.

    Although Erik sometimes paints a rosy picture of the afterlife, time and time again he stresses that suicide is not the answer to one’s problems. If you struggle, please understand that the information in my blog and my book is no substitute for professional help. Please click here for a list of resources for help when you find yourself considering taking your own life. Know that they are readily available when you feel that hopelessness and despair that many of us feel from time to time in our lives.

    I refuse all donations and ad revenue on the blog. It is my dream to one day establish a nonprofit organization that delivers a variety of spiritual services for those who have lost loved ones to suicide and cannot afford that assistance on their own. It’s a mission of love, sacrifice, and dedication.

    Love and light,

    Elisa

     

     



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