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  • July17th


    I had a long conference call with my publisher yesterday, and she had some brilliant recommendations. I’m very disabled when it comes to taking advantage of social media, and that’s so important to the success of many things, including books. Each of these recommendations is a plea to you to help in some way. None of them are difficult and will allow us all to be in the fair exchange position of “I help you; now please help me.” I hope that you’ll take this as seriously  as I take this blog. I’m sure you all know how much blood, sweat and tears I put into this.

    My intent is not to pressure you or make you feel guilty. I’m just being emotionally honest because, in the past, simple requests such as asking people to “like” a Facebook page have largely gone unheeded. The blog gets around 8,000 hits a day, yet only around 200 comply with my simple requests. This is NOT whining. It’s just firm and loving honesty coming from Mama Medhus.

    Here are her suggestions, all of which I’ll remind you about to the point of annoyance! 

    1) Share Channeling Erik with at least one friend today. You might also send posts or a general message about Channeling Erik (or the book) to all of your email contacts.

    2) Share all posts on your Facebook timeline.

    3) I will post one of Erik’s sayings about every week on Facebook. Please share them on your timeline. Daniel has been extremely instrumental in these, including the design. Here’s an example:


    4) Click “Like” on the following Facebook pages.






    Enjoy Part Two of the Hitler interview, and, although a challenge,  please try to have an open mind. 

    Me: Was that the only reason you did what you did (his childhood hardships), or was there some sort of spiritual mission or contract involved?

    (Very long pause)

    Jamie: He says it was a spiritual contract.

    Me: Can you elaborate on that? How was it supposed to help? What was your contract about?

    Hitler: It is unfortunate—


    Jamie (whispering): He’s got these dramatic pauses.

    Hitler: –that the world requires conflict for a massive amount of joy.

    Me: What?

    Jamie: Mm hm. You heard it.

    Me: I don’t understand it, though. They need conflict in order to have massive amounts of joy?

    Hitler: This is the role I played. This is not the being I truly am.

    Jamie: He’s talking about unzipping out of the identity that we perceive him as so he may discuss this life as Hitler as a third party.

    Me: Okay. We can do that. Anything that makes you more comfortable. Okay, so you’re life as Adolf Hitler, which you are not. Um, you’re not that personality anymore. I understand that. What was the effect of that spiritual mission?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: This is kind of weird to look at. I’m glad I’m not alone in the room. Erik keeps cutting his eyes at me like, “What?” Now there are two images of Hitler in the room. There’s the gentleman in the dark suit, sitting down. When he was talking about unzipping, he kind of stepped out of himself. The gentleman that’s standing next to him I know is Hitler, though I don’t know. He looks lighter. He’s has soft features. The way he’s standing is soft. His posture’s not stiff. He’s not as groomed to a T, so he looks more causal. He is wearing a suit, but the suit is open. He’s pointing to the Hitler sitting down, and he’s saying, “This is the man that you want to discuss. This is the role I played on Earth. This is what you wish to discuss. It’s hard to have a conversation through him, because all of the confusion, the hatred, the thoughts from all over the world that’s placed on his name.” I am not sad about this. The people have a right to be angry. They have a right to feel, though I do not regret the role and the contract I played for the world. This war that I created—

    Jamie: It’s weird how he says I, not we. He totally takes it on himself. He’s not talking about countries.


    Jamie: I asked him to back up. He’s being really kind to me.

    Me: Good.

    Jamie: The one standing. The one sitting is just—I swear to god, I don’t think that one has blinked. He’s still sitting very straight up.

    Hitler: This war that I created has given our history a focus and example of what to avoid and what to not create. I don’t have regrets because of how the world was shaped after it. It made changes that every culture needed to create for itself that didn’t have the fight or struggle that would make it so. I gave them the fight and the struggle. I knew what I needed to do before I was born and why I came. I will take that responsibility. I will never veer from it.

    Me: All right, so what was the effect. Was what you did mean to create more peace in the world?

    Jamie is talking over me. I can’t make out what she’s translating.

    Jamie: He just totally interrupted you!

    Hitler: It gave respect to beliefs, to religions. It gave cultures a way to bond. It gave society a structure to grow, and it gave people rights. It helped hand feed humanity to get to where it is today.

    Me: Was that what you were here to teach?

    Hitler: Yes.

    Me: Okay. What about to learn? Were you here to learn anything?

    Hitler: I was there to learn a lot of pain.

    Me: And why would that be necessary?

    Hitler: Because of who I am on this side, I’ve never had pain. It takes a strong soul to come through, to create such chaos. It’s a misconception to believe that only evil can create evil on Earth.

    Jamie gasps.

    Me: Okay. So, you said you didn’t have any regrets about creating the war. Do you have any other regrets?

    Hitler: I know very much—

    Jamie: Okay, that’s translated a little bit weird.

    Hitler: I know very much that people would want me to say how I regret the death and the suffering of so many people’s lives.

    Me: Do you think you overstepped the boundaries?

    Jamie: Oh my god. I hear “no”.

    Hitler: This is what I was supposed to come in to do.

    Me: Did you receive any help from your guides to create such a mass effect on the world?

    Hitler: Yes.

    Look up the next two parts by going clicking on “Hitler” in the categories list!

    Thanks for helping me out, guys. I love you all. 

  • July1st


    Just a reminder: I’ll be leaving the country tomorrow and will return the 13th. Until then, Mike Hulse will be approving comments and publishing posts. Thank you, Miguelito! Please refrain from sending me any emails or Facebook messages while I’m gone because it’ll be too overwhelming to come back to thousands of them right after getting some well needed R & R. 

    I’m posting this Best of Erik because most of us had a hard time wrapping our minds around the thought that there is no evil. What we call “evil” is just the darker end of the spectrum of light, it’s light nonetheless. Many so-called evil historic figures actually committed atrocities as part of a spiritual agreement to help the masses in some way, so they actually put their reputations on the line and suffer a lot from the hatred they receive. I’m not trivializing the victims’ pain. I’m just asking you to consider all perspectives. Remember, I also have trouble reconciling my heart  and mind with all of this so we’re in the same boat learning together.

    Me: Erik, can you go get Adolf Hitler in here?

    Jamie (nervously): Oh my god!

    I giggle.

    Erik: We’re really doing this?

    Jamie: Yeah.

    Me: Well, is it okay with you, Jamie?

    Jamie: Mm hm.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Done.

    Me: All right!

    Jamie: No, he just left.

    Me: Oh, he left.

    Jamie: He was arguing with me. He goes, “I’m not going to go get him! You don’t treat him like an asshole. You treat him like a person. Don’t have any preconceptions.” And I was like, ‘Okay, fine, fine. I’m letting it go.’

    Me: I’ve got some benign questions. I don’t have anything mean. (although he deserves to be raked over the coals for what he did.)


    Jamie: I bet he doesn’t get called in for a lot of things for a casual discussion. He probably gets a lot of hate mail.

    Me: Oh, poor guy.

    I can’t believe I just said that, but…

    (Long pause)

    Jamie (to Erik): Yes, I’m ready!

    Me: Oh?

    Jamie: He just popped back in and said, “Are you ready?”


    Jamie (to Erik, slightly irritated): Yeah, stop!

    Me: It’s like, “Heeeeere’s Adolf!” instead of “Heeeeere’s Johnny!” and he comes out from the curtain.

    Jamie: Oh my god.


    Me: So, he’s there?

    Jamie: Yeah, he’s here.

    Me: Hello, Mr. Hitler. How are you doing?

    Hitler: Fine, thank you.

    Erik (to Hitler): Take a seat.

    Me: What does he look like, and what’s his mood?

    Jamie: He’s got very stiff posture. There’s nothing fluid about him. (In a hushed tone) Um, his eyes are really dark. His eyebrows are kind of sinking low like his eye sockets don’t have a lot of space. I don’t know if that makes sense.

    Me (teasing): No, but go on.

    Jamie: Droopy. Droopy eyebrows. You know, that skin above?

    Me: Mm hm.

    Jamie: He’s just looking out. I don’t think I’ve seen him blink yet!

    Me: Wow. What is he wearing, a military uniform?

    Jamie: No, it’s a dark, probably black suit, and he has a tie on underneath it with a kind of high collar.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: But the jacket is buttoned up, and there are several buttons to it. It’s not like a casual suit like we see today. He’s shorter than I thought he would be.

    Me: Does he seem comfortable and relaxed now?

    Jamie: No, he’s sitting straight up in the chair, very—

    Me: Anxious? Nervous?

    Jamie: Are you? No. He told me “no”.

    Me: Oh, good. All right. Let’s start with the questions, then. Tell us about your childhood. Did it have anything to do with the atrocities you committed here on the earthly plane? I’m sorry’ I can’t think of another word.

    Hitler: Every man’s life’s actions are based on how he was created.

    Erik: So, is that a yes?

    Jamie laughs.

    Jamie: And you know what’s interesting? Erik is sitting on my side of the room. He’s next to me.  Commonly, he stands next to the person we’re interviewing or sits next to them, but no, he’s on the same side of the room as I am. I almost feel like we’re interrogating him.

    Me: Why is that, Erik?

    Erik: I didn’t realize I did it.

    Me: Okay. So, were there incidents in your childhood that caused you to do what you did?

    Hitler: I never had much consistency in my family. There was not a lot of beauty. There was much disgrace within my family.

    Me: What do you mean, skeletons in the closet?

    Jamie and Erik giggle,

    Jamie: Oh, Erik and I giggle at that, but he did NOT giggle.

    Hitler: Yes. It is true that many lives in the family. I was displaced within my family.

    Jamie: He’s saying he wasn’t raised by two traditional parents. The mother died, or the mother left?

    Me: I don’t know.

    Jamie: He’s showing me, as a child, he stopped having his mother. I can’t tell if she died or he moved. He’s not being very clear about it.

    Hitler: I never thought I belonged to anyone. I was untethered, and I didn’t feel like I had any family or religion to lean on, not a country to feel a part of. I helped create that for myself.

    Me: Ah!

    Me: Was that the only reason you did what you did (his childhood hardships), or was there some sort of spiritual mission or contract involved?

    (Very long pause)

    Jamie: He says it was a spiritual contract.

    Me: Can you elaborate on that? How was it supposed to help? What was your contract about?

    Hitler: It is unfortunate—


    Jamie (whispering): He’s got these dramatic pauses.

    Hitler: –that the world requires conflict for a massive amount of joy.

    Me: What?

    Jamie: Mm hm. You heard it.

    Me: I don’t understand it, though. They need conflict in order to have massive amounts of joy?

    Hitler: This is the role I played. This is not the being I truly am.

    Jamie: He’s talking about unzipping out of the identity that we perceive him as so he may discuss this life as Hitler as a third party.

    Me: Okay. We can do that. Anything that makes you more comfortable. Okay, so you’re life as Adolf Hitler, which you are not. Um, you’re not that personality anymore. I understand that. What was the effect of that spiritual mission?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: This is kind of weird to look at. I’m glad I’m not alone in the room. Erik keeps cutting his eyes at me like, “What?” Now there are two images of Hitler in the room. There’s the gentleman in the dark suit, sitting down. When he was talking about unzipping, he kind of stepped out of himself. The gentleman that’s standing next to him I know is Hitler, though I don’t know. He looks lighter. He’s has soft features. The way he’s standing is soft. His posture’s not stiff. He’s not as groomed to a T, so he looks more causal. He is wearing a suit, but the suit is open. He’s pointing to the Hitler sitting down, and he’s saying, “This is the man that you want to discuss. This is the role I played on Earth. This is what you wish to discuss. It’s hard to have a conversation through him, because all of the confusion, the hatred, the thoughts from all over the world that’s placed on his name.” I am not sad about this. The people have a right to be angry. They have a right to feel, though I do not regret the role and the contract I played for the world. This war that I created—

    Jamie: It’s weird how he says I, not we. He totally takes it on himself. He’s not talking about countries.


    Jamie: I asked him to back up. He’s being really kind to me.

    Me: Good.

    Jamie: The one standing. The one sitting is just—I swear to god, I don’t think that one has blinked. He’s still sitting very straight up.

    Hitler: This war that I created has given our history a focus and example of what to avoid and what to not create. I don’t have regrets because of how the world was shaped after it. It made changes that every culture needed to create for itself that didn’t have the fight or struggle that would make it so. I gave them the fight and the struggle. I knew what I needed to do before I was born and why I came. I will take that responsibility. I will never veer from it.

    Me: All right, so what was the effect. Was what you did mean to create more peace in the world?

    Jamie is talking over me. I can’t make out what she’s translating.

    Jamie: He just totally interrupted you!

    Hitler: It gave respect to beliefs, to religions. It gave cultures a way to bond. It gave society a structure to grow, and it gave people rights. It helped hand feed humanity to get to where it is today.

    Me: Was that what you were here to teach?

    Hitler: Yes.

    Me: Okay. What about to learn? Were you here to learn anything?

    Hitler: I was there to learn a lot of pain.

    Me: And why would that be necessary?

    Hitler: Because of who I am on this side, I’ve never had pain. It takes a strong soul to come through, to create such chaos. It’s a misconception to believe that only evil can create evil on Earth.

    Jamie gasps.

    Me: Okay. So, you said you didn’t have any regrets about creating the war. Do you have any other regrets?

    Hitler: I know very much—

    Jamie: Okay, that’s translated a little bit weird.

    Hitler: I know very much that people would want me to say how I regret the death and the suffering of so many people’s lives.

    Me: Do you think you overstepped the boundaries?

    Jamie: Oh my god. I hear “no”.

    Hitler: This is what I was supposed to come in to do.

    Me: Did you receive any help from your guides to create such a mass effect on the world?

    Hitler: Yes.

    Me: And what was your secret? How did you create this massive war? How were you able to convince the masses to make this all happen?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Holy shit! (Turning her head to Erik) Am I going to say that?

    Me: Ah oh.

    Jamie: Oh my god. You—I don’t wanna be in that. Can I type it out for you?

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Sure, but why? Go ahead and say it! C’mon!

    Jamie: Elisa. (Pause) I would never, uh, Erik.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Sorry. I didn’t mean to make such quietness!

    Jamie giggles nervously. She’s clearly uncomfortable with whatever Hitler said.

    Jamie: He said, “How did Jesus get so many followers? What did he do?”

    Good god. That comparison seems like a bit of a stretch. I’m afraid to go on, but I do.

    Me: And, what did he do?

    Hitler: It is a charisma. It is an attraction to the person and the strength of that person’s beliefs. It’s the ideology of feeling safe and guided and taught. I provided a role that I could take care of this country, of these people, that through this war I would give them the greatness that they seek, and I found people who would help me. I had thousands doing my bidding and by choice, not by force. This is what so many people forget.

    Me: Ah! Did you have any disease—mental or physical—that made you, um, I mean, that created some of your actions?

    I laugh at my own stuttering.

    Hitler: Physical?

    Me: Yeah.

    Jamie laughs.

    Jamie: Egocentric n-na…. I was going to say what he was saying, but—

    Me: I was going to say did something make you crazy, but that’s not exactly what I mean. It’s disrespectful, but that’s, you know—

    Hitler: I believe any man who has accepted a role of power lets it go to his head, and if we want to consider that mental illness, then so be it.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: But no, if we ask him technically, no.

    Me: Okay. Now, when you crossed over, what was your life review like? Did you have any epiphanies or realizations?

    (Very long pause)

    Jamie: He was telling me he remembers being afraid of death.

    (Long pause)

    Hitler: I’m not ashamed to say this out loud.


    Jamie (to Erik): Did he, really? (To me) Erik was telling me he shot himself.

    Me: Yep.

    Jamie: I thought he got shot.

    Me: No, he shot himself. Well, I don’t know. I’m pretty sure.

    Erik (looking at Jamie): Nope.

    Erik (pointing at Hitler, then pointing at himself): We’re in a club.

    Jamie giggles.

    Me (slightly upset): Oh, no. Oh, Erik. That’s not a good club to be in.

    Erik: For different reasons.

    Hitler: I didn’t want to be imprisoned. I didn’t want to suffer. I was terrified of that. It kept me awake at night.

    Me: Obviously while he was alive (dur).

    Jamie: Yes.

    Me (laughing at my stupid remark): Yes, of course.

    Hitler: So, after I died, I just remembered darkness for what I think was a long time—probably many Earth years. I believed it was necessary for me to help forgive myself and heal myself for the contract I agreed to.

    Me: But eventually, you had your life review, right?

    Hitler: No.

    Me: You did not have a life review?!


    Jamie: He did not!

    Me: Wow. Interesting. When you woke up, and you reflected on your contract, did you have any epiphanies or realizations?

    Hitler: Those years in darkness—that’s what helped me identify my contract and heal myself.

    Me: Okay. I gotcha.

    Hitler: I played this role for the greater cause of humanity. I did not choose this role or develop this role for self-centering needs.

    Me: Can you share a life that most influenced your life as Adolf Hitler?


    Jamie (shocked): No!

    Me: Because you refuse to, or.,,

    Jamie: Uh, I don’t think there’s a life! Can I share what I think it is?

    Me: Go ahead.

    Jamie: Like just from the way he’s talking and what he’s showing me?

    Me: Mm hm.

    Jamie: I don’t feel like Hitler’s spirit is kind of a mix of things like the average human. We reincarnate; we grow; we shift. It’s more of like—I cannot believe I’m going to say this—more of like an angelic energy.

    Oh no. This is not going to get good reactions. I might have to be under the Witness Protection Program.

    Me (in disbelief): Wow.

    Jamie: I know, I—

    Me: Like an archangel?

    How could I be even thinking this of a man who’s committed such atrocities?

    Jamie: No, and I don’t believe he’s an angel, either, but when I hear angels talk to me about being on Earth, they don’t take place in this reincarnation back-to-back where this grow thing happens over so many lives. They have really specific reasons to be on Earth, and so to have—cuz when you talk about a past life, you really couldn’t, uh, he couldn’t show me anything.

    Me: Hm.

    Jamie: I don’t feel like this is his one and only life on Earth, but I feel like it’s such a unique contract seed, you know, this gathering of purpose, that there really wasn’t an inflection—it really wasn’t based on any kind of character or purpose or development.

    Me: I see. I understand. What would the world have been like if you had not done the things that you did?

    Hitler: Still much separation between races and cultures.

    Me: Okay. Anything else?

    Jamie (chuckling): My god. He just smiled!

    Hitler: I like to think I had influence on the industrial era.

    Jamie: And he smiled. You can tell it’s something he took pride in.

    Me: Well, he did.

    Jamie: Design and factories and metals. He’s proud of that, but you know when you talk about the war and everything, there was no smiling and no pride behind it. It was designed. It was a contract.

    Me: It was something he had to do but wasn’t proud of? Weren’t you ashamed of it?

    Hitler: I cannot be. I did what I was meant to do.

    Me: I see. Do you have any messages for humanity, at all? Any advice or messages?

    (Long pause)

    Hitler: We are in a world today, that if you feel strongly about your beliefs, you must stand up as an individual and make it heard, but it is very important to know what needs to be heard—

    (Pause as Jamie listens to Hitler)

    Jamie (to Hitler): Yeah, your translation is backwards again here.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Sorry. We’re talking about the way he just translated that. Cuz he said what needs to be heard must be based on the whole. He’s giving a lot of imagery with it. So, basically, if you believe in something, don’t follow somebody else’s ideas. Stand up for your own ideas. But the only way you know if those ideas are valuable is if they’re helping the whole, the entirety: the family unit that you’re in, the company that you’re in, the state, the governments, the nation, the world—it’s gotta be a united front, not a single front.

    Me: Okay. How would you envision the perfect world to be?

    (Long pause)

    Hitler: Where there is no hatred.

    Me: Mm. Will we ever have it?

    Hitler: I see that we are getting close, and I know that the world can sustain it.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik (to Hitler): So, will we ever have it?

    Hitler: For this, I don’t know.

    Me: Okay. Now, Erik, what question do you have?

    Erik: I wanna ask one thing:  When you came out of that darkness, did you just look at yourself and say, “That was some fucked up shit!”?

    Jamie: Believe it or not, that got the second smile out of him.

    (Long pause)

    Me: And?

    Jamie: He’s pausing.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Jamie (laughing): Sorry. The quietness again!

    Hitler: I know where you are coming from. I understand where you are coming from, but that life to me was no surprise. I was designed for it.

    Me: Okay. Jamie, do you have any questions?

    Jamie (emphatically): Huh uh!

    Me: Thanks so much. We’ve learned a lot from you. I hope that helps you, too.

    Hitler: Thank you. Have a good day. Goodbye.

    Jamie: The one sitting down stands up, straightens his pants, walks straight out. Doesn’t say goodbye to me, acknowledge me, nothing.

    Me: Hm.

    Jamie: And the other Adolf that’s standing more casually waves. The one standing had kind of a tan suit on. This was weird. It’s almost like the world has created so much thought and descriptions of who Adolf should be, even in spirit, that he can’t come out of that design, that container from what the mass of thoughts and emotions have put on him. So, it’s almost like he divided himself so that one image can live so that people can put their hatred in one place or that healing or whatever they’re doing in that one location, and he can still be himself and house that (other Adolf), cuz he’s definitely, like I said, he’s not backing away from any of it.

    Me: Wow! It’s interesting. Okay. That was a really good interview. We’ll see what kind of response that gets from the blog!

    Jamie: Holy shit. Can you—I almost just about fell out of my chair when you asked him—I can’t even remember the question…

    Me: Yeah, about him being like Jesus or something? How did he—

    Jamie (laughing): I looked at Erik and said, ‘Holy shit, I’m not saying it.’ and he said, “Fucking say it. C’mon!” He said I was being a p-u-s-s-y.

    We both giggle.

    Jamie: And that’s when I asked, ‘Can I write it down?’

    Me: Nah, you can say it, and it’s going to go on the blog, so…

    Jamie: Holy fuck.

    Erik’s been a bad influence on Jamie, language-wise. I rarely hear her curse.

    Me: No editing here.

    Jamie lets in a loud gasp.


  • June6th


    For the last three days, I’ve been in roofer hell. Starting at 6:00 AM, here comes the relentless hammering. But, because our roof is 22 years old and leaking like a sieve, it was time. So bad was the leaking that two of our bathroom ceilings are destroyed. Rune has had to pierce one of them with a really big screwdriver just to let the water drain into buckets. Now we have to just bite the bullet and remodel them. It’s time for that, too because both of the bathrooms scream the early 90s. Remodeling hell to be announced. Enough griping. Enjoy Ms. Billie Holiday.

    Me: Erik, can you get Billie Holiday? She’s next on our list, and I just loved her music!

    Jamie: Oh, that’s a her?

    Me: Oh, yeah. She’s a famous black singer. Or he can get another singer if her wants.

    Jamie: He’s already gone.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: I thought Billie Holiday was a guy. Who am I thinking of?

    Me: Oh, Buddy Holly maybe?

    Jamie: Buddy Holly! That’s right.

    Me: We already interviewed him.

    Billie Holiday enters the room with Erik.

    Jamie: Wow, she is fabulous, this woman.

    Me: Really?

    Jamie (to Billie) Hi! (to me) She’s elegant.

    Me: Hello, Ms. Holiday.

    Jamie: The hair, the earrings, the makeup—just so elegant.

    Me: You know, I think she influenced Whitney Houston a lot. I’m sure they’ve already met.

    Billie: I’ve already welcomed her over. We’re all trying to make her feel comfortable. She just needs time with her family.

    Me: Oh, yes, she does. I suppose you know why you’re here.

    Billie: Yes, ma’am.

    Me: Thank you so much. It’s such an honor to meet you.

    Billie: Thank you for having me.

    Me: My first question is what was your spiritual mission while you were here on the earthly plane?

    Jamie: Her posture, the way she’s sitting, just everything is so—

    Me: Elegant?

    Jamie: Yes! She’s a fine woman.

    Me: She has quite the presence.

    Jamie: I said in my head, “When I grow up I’d like to be like you,” and Erik said, “You’re never growing up, Jamie.”

    Jamie and I laugh.

    Billie: I would like to think my spiritual journey on Earth was more related to music than anything else. I made a family out of my music.


    Me: Were you here to learn or teach anything?

    Billie: I had a difficult childhood. Nothing in my life was every seated—

    Jamie: She has a little bit of an accent. I don’t know what it is though.

    Billie: Nothing in my life was really every seated with consistency. There was a lot of jumping up and around.

    Me: Did she move around a lot? Is that what she’s saying?

    Billie: Yes, I moved around a lot, but it wasn’t always with the family.

    Jamie: She wasn’t orphaned, but there was some sort of consent around the family for her to move from one family member to the next maybe. A lot of it had to do with money.

    Me: So she was passed along from one family member to the next depending on the money situation?

    Billie: Yes, and I chose to work my life the best I knew how, which wasn’t always the best choices. It was through those experiences that gave me enough power to sing about it. It was my hope that, in my music and in my fame, I created a vicarious way for others to watch how it was to be a black woman in that age and time.

    Jamie: She’s saying she didn’t (to Billie) Okay was it because you were older, or was it because you passed away? (pause) She didn’t, she only had a short part in her life where she was able to celebrate the African American freedom.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Billie (giggling: People don’t see me as being that old.

    Me: So she wasn’t around to celebrate the civil rights movement?

    Billie: Only for a short time.

    Me: Do you think you accomplished most of what you set out to do, spiritually speaking?

    Jamie: She smiles really wide. I mean, she’s got a wide smile.

    Billie: I had no other choice.

    Me: So you did.

    Billie: I did everything I knew how to do. I don’t have any regrets.

    Me: That’s good. Not everybody can say that, Billie! That’s wonderful.

    Billie: I’m not saying I’m proud of everything I’ve done, but I am saying I own up to it, so I don’t have a regret for doing it.

    Jamie: The way she talks—you know how you talk to a political person?

    Me: Mm hm.

    Jamie: To really share the economy of the time, the community movement or lifestyle. When she talks, it’s not just about her, it’s about the influence of how people viewed her or how her town was set up or what she wasn’t given and how she had to go around it. She’s really aware emotionally of these elements. She’s a really well-rounded speaker. I don’t think I’m doing her justice.

    Me: Mm. Interesting. So, what insights did you gain after you passed over, Billie?

    Billie: After I passed over, I didn’t realize how hard I was working.

    Me: Yes, considering the times and the hardships that African Americans had, yeah. You probably had to work three or four times harder than the Caucasian singers.

    Billie: Everybody was trying to tell me I was wrong or that—

    Jamie (giggling to Billie): What? (to me) Okay, so apparently she was, um, she’s explaining to me that there were a few times in her career where she got into some legal trouble, and even though she remained a lady all the way through it doesn’t mean she didn’t have to steal a little bit to make things livable. So, she has this righteousness and this idea that everybody needs to be fair.

    Me: But yet…

    Jamie: Oh, yeah. Sorry. She’s not very good at sticking to the question, is she?

    I laugh.

    Jamie: What was the question?

    Me: No, I think she answered it adequately. Billie, can you share another life that influence your life as Ms. Holiday?

    Billie: I was a slave, a female slave. I was born into it, separated from my mother. So, when I was old enough, I was sold to another family. I was pretty enough to work inside a house, but it was so difficult because I would watch my friends that I’d grown to know out in the fields hurting and dying and suffering.

    Jamie: She’s showing me images of this double galley kitchen. The ceilings are tall. It looks like a cooking kitchen, maybe like a maid’s kitchen.

    Billie: I would sneak the food before I made the big serving plates, hiding the food so I could have something to eat later and give to the people in the fields.

    Jamie: So she does have this Robinhood thing to her.

    Billie: All I wanted was to take the music that I grew to love to keep me grounded. I wanted to take it public; I wanted to have that opportunity to sing loud and have everybody listen to me, and I got just that. I got what I wanted.

    Jamie: It sounds like she kept a lot of her characteristics like stealing just a little.

    Me: Yeah. Any messages or advice for humanity?

    Billie: Looks do go far, but it’s what’s in the heart that matters.

    Me: So true. How about you, Erik? Do you have any questions for Ms. Holiday?

    Jamie: Erik was teasing her. He said, “So what, you have to look good so you can get deep into the heart and punch it?”

    I’m not sure what he means but I chuckle anyway.

    Billie (laughing): He full o’ sass, that boy!

    Me: He is full of sass; that’ true! Any other questions, Erik? I don’t know if that one really counts.

    Jamie: She says to you that your son can play guitar.

    Me: Yeah, that’s right!

    Billie: His skills are continuing to grow.

    Me: Oh, good. He’s practicing. Maybe y’all can jam together. He used to love the blues. Maybe he still does.

    Erik: Yeah, I do.

    Billie: Yes, I would love that. You should pick up a mandolin, Erik.

    Me: Oh, I love the mandolin. Beautiful instrument. Okay, Ms. Holiday. Is there anything else you’d like to say?

    Billie: No ma’am. I hope that what I have said has helped you with your efforts. I really don’t think anything that I’ve said was very important.

    Me: Oh of course it was and is! And your music was very important then and still is today. Thank you so much, Ms. Holiday.

    Billie: Thank you.

    Jamie: She has a dress on. It’s fitted around the waist, and it kind of bells out like an A frame below the knee, but she has these—I would call them gloves but they have no fingers to them! It covers more than the wrist. I think it covers the top of the hand but there’s absolutely no fingers to them.

    Me: Interesting.



  • May27th


    I’m sad to announce the death, this weekend, of blog member, Kris Abrams. She was always so active on the blog and the Channeling Erik Facebook group. She was also very generous, recently offering to pay for someone to join the trance channeling event tomorrow. I’m just crushed for her and her family, but I know Erik has her under his wing and, together, they’ll guide her family and friends to find peace. Please send loving energy and prayers. 

    Given that news, it feels sacrilegious to remind you of that Channeling Erik event. Nevertheless, I’m sure Kris would want you to be a part of it, and maybe she’ll join Erik while he does his mischief. Maybe we can ask him for a message from her. Please sign up HERE to be able watch and participate. It’s tomorrow from 6:00 to 7:30 PM CDT. You can sign on up to 30 minutes in advance to put your question in queue for Erik. There will only be one question per person at first, then we’ll go around the list for a second one if we can. Please ask questions that you know won’t require very lengthy answers. All questions are acceptable, personal and general. 

    Erik's Puppet. Poor Jamie.

    Erik’s Puppet. Poor Jamie.

    Now, as promised, here’s Celebrity Friday’s post, a bit delayed!

    Me: Okay Erik, are you ready to interview the next celebrity?

    Jamie (laughing): Erik just changed his clothes and he’s wearing something nice.

    Jamie (to Erik): Are you inviting someone nice, today?

    (Pause as Jamie listens)

    Jamie (to Erik): Who’s coming today, then?

    Me: You pick out anybody you want, Baby.

    (I list several celebrity names.)

    Jamie: He’s gone.

    Me: Okay, so I’ve been blabbering on to myself. Like a fool!

    Jamie laughs.

    Jamie: Mr. Disney is here!

    Me: Oh, awesome! Hi, Mr. Disney!

    Jamie: He’s got a great voice.

    Me: I’ve enjoyed all of your parks!

    Walt: Why, thank you.

    Me: So, do you know why you’re here?

    Walt: Yes, I believe we’re going to do an interview.

    Me: That’s right. As if you haven’t had enough already, right?

    Walt: I quite enjoy them. Especially if they spark the curiosity of those who are listening.

    Me: That sounds like something you would say. Okay, our first question is what was your spiritual mission here on Earth as Walt Disney?


    Walt: To suspend belief.

    Me: Oh! Can you tell me a little bit more?

    Walt: Coming from where I did in my life—

    Jamie: He says he’s from an immigrated family. Not much money. Money was all about survival.

    Walt: It was only—

    Jamie: He’s speaking so much better than I am. I apologize. He’s a good storyteller.

    Me: Of course.

    Walt: The only moments of childhood that were beautiful—the memories that were so special to me—were all from storytelling from my grandmother, my mother—even my younger sister had the ability to weave a tale. And it became—

    Jamie (to Walt, frustrated): Oh, I so wish I could keep up with you. I’m sorry.

    Jamie (to me): He’s laughing with me. Aw, he’s patting my shoulder.

    Me: Aw!

    Jamie (to Walt): You sweet thing. Okay, continue. Sorry.

    Walt (to Jamie, laughing): Don’t be so nervous!

    Jamie giggles.

    Walt: The memories that we cherished the most were the ones that we created through imagination, storytelling. When you suspend the person’s belief system and allow them to escape, whether it’s into fantasy or daydream or even into problem solving, you have to suspend that moment unattached to anything within their life. I found that that’s when people smiled the biggest. So, I knew it was my mission to suspend belief so that people could have that one moment without care, without worry, without harm, and create this inner harnest of—

    Jamie (to Walt): Inner harnest? No. Harness, thank you.

    Walt: To harness this inner sense of creativity, compassion and, what most people don’t get to experience, peace, and peace within a community.

    Me: Hm. How wonderful, and you did that in all of your creations. Now, of all of your creations, which was your favorite, your personal favorite?

    (Long pause)

    Walt: It would be a shame if I didn’t say Mickey.

    Me: Oh, yeah. Steamboat Willie.

    Walt: That’s what took it all off running. It blasted everything forward.

    Me: Were you here to learn anything?

    Walt: I know I was here to learn about grief, sorrow, struggle.

    Jamie: Um, he’s talking about being in a war or working with the war.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie (to Walt): World War One?

    Jamie (to me): Is the timing right?

    Me: I would think so.

    Jamie: He’s smiling at me.

    Walt: I’m older than you think!

    Jamie (to Walt): Okay. Okay then.

    Walt: In the war, I was able to see so much pain and suffering and distress—the emotional shredding of someone. In some situations, you could provide assistance, physical assistance that gave a response. There were many occasions where you couldn’t provide anything, that you could only be with the person. And when you are in that place, there are no words—no words that are acceptable except words of dreams. It will take somebody out of pain in an instance; it will put a smile on their face no matter how much they are feeling. I know I was here to learn that suffering so that I could be a remedy through smiles, through laughter.

    Me: Well said. Were you here to teach anything?

    Walt: I really think maybe I was teaching publicly through my choice of career. We had not had this kind of laugh therapy, this suspension of belief therapy for adults. We had it for our children; it was the elders who told stories to the little ones, but as I grew older, I found that the ones who needed it the most were the adults.

    Me: Yeah.

    Walt: So, why couldn’t we have something that was for all ages—that no one would look down on you if you were past the “appropriate age” to enjoy a good story. I hope, if I have taught anything throughout my life, it is that laughter, healing, suspension of belief, storytelling, is for everyone, and it was truly, for me, a lost art as I grew up in America. It wasn’t done in a way that was done traditionally in other cultures.

    Me: Do you think you accomplished all that you came here to do? It seems like you did.

    Jamie: He’s nodding his head yes.

    Walt: It’s one of my most—

    Jamie (giggling): Erik is goofing off with him all of a sudden.

    I laugh. Typical.

    Jamie: But he still follows up that he did achieve everything. He accomplished everything he wanted to: with family all the way up to the moment he left his career, his company and how it still grows.

    Walt: I’m very happy about it.

    Me: Awesome. Can you describe one of the lives that you think most influenced your life as Walt Disney?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie (laughing, to Walt): Is this a joke, or is it real? I just want to make sure!

    I laugh, too.

    Jamie: He’s just telling me a story.

    Me: Of course—the master story-teller!

    Jamie: He and Erik are teasing each other, and I thought maybe, but no, he says he’s really sharing this. It was a past life that he had. He grew up in Ireland, and he was a little boy. He stayed a little boy.

    Walt: I was a dwarf.

    Jamie (whispering): That just made me think of Snow White and the Seven Dwarves! That’s why I thought he was teasing me!

    Me: Oh!

    Jamie: That was bad of me, wasn’t it?

    Me: Well, maybe that’s where he got the idea for the movie.

    Walt: There wasn’t anything in modern-day –what was modern-day then—

    Jamie (to Walt): Nineteen thirties? Is Snow White that old?

    Walt: Oh, yes!

    Me: That’s right.

    Walt: There wasn’t anything at the time that addressed the working aspect or the positive aspect of being a little person. So I wanted to give them unique characters and make them human.

    Me: Oh, yeah!

    Walt: But in my life in Ireland, I was born into a family of “normal” people. Normal adult parents. I was the only sibling that was a dwarf. My parents treated me just the same. There was nothing different within my household, but everything was different outside my household. So I spent a lot of my time inside and a lot of it was creating humorous stories. Funny. I must say I was a funny little boy, a funny little man, but I was never really given the right to really express those stories outside. It was just shared within the family.

    Me: Yeah.

    Walt: And being small, even as an adult, I kept thinking, “Wow, when you’re an adult but you’re still a small size, there are so many things that we can invent and create for our children.” So I wanted a life where I could have that opportunity and remember how important it was to focus on size—the art of perspective. This inspired me, all those many decades of–


    Jamie: Oh, so he lived to be just under thirty years old as a dwarf.

    Me: Yeah. That was probably pretty typical. Very interesting. Now, are you incarnated at this time on the Earthly plane in terms of our linear time?

    Walt: No.

    Me: Okay. Do you have any messages for us or anything else you’d like to say?

    Jamie (chuckling): It’s so funny to hear you say, “Mr. Disney”! That’s so cool that we’re talking to him!

    Me: That is cool!

    Walt (smiling): Of course I would love a whole segment dedicated to me so that I could continue to encourage people to stay young. I think the most valuable piece of advice is—

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Wow, I just got lost.

    Me: Aw!

    Jamie: He-he—stop it, Erik! (to me) He’s messing me up.


    Jamie (to Erik): Stop it!

    Me: Erik!

    Jamie: I swear, he must have been my brother in another lifetime! He’s too much. Okay, sorry Walt Disney. Can you start again?

    Walt (Chuckling): As a human, we are the only animal and mammal on Earth that has the unique ability to be able to “forward think,” to suspend belief—

    Jamie: He loves the word, “suspend”.

    Walt: — and to play out scenarios within our heads before we even enter into them physically.

    Me: Absolutely.

    Walt: To be able to see how an outcome might play out and affect us. We can base our actions on that talent, but here’s the important piece: No matter how brilliant you are and how smart your mind is, no matter how forward thinking you are, you’ll never know the outcome until you do it.

    Me: That’s true.

    Walt: That’s the most important piece.

    Me: Very wise.

    Jamie: He actually just kind of blew a kiss, kind of out. He  says, “Thank you.” Does he know—is this the last question?

    Me: Well, I was wondering if Erik had any questions.

    Jamie listens to Erik, then laughs.

    Jamie: No, but he and Walt—Mr. Disney—have decided that of course Erik says he gets free admission into any of the parks. That’s funny, of course, because he no longer needs a ticket.

    Me: All right, well, thank you so much, Mr. Disney. I really appreciate it.

    Walt: You’re welcome, and thank you for your effort.

    Jamie: He blows another kiss and waves.

    Me: Bye.

    Jamie: So, here’s what Erik was screwing with me about. He wanted to ask Walt Disney if he was actually frozen—cryogenically, uh, you know, has his corpse been frozen somewhere in Disneyland.

    Me: Oh, yeah! I heard rumors about that. And?

    Walt: No, I don’t. I was cremated.

    Me: Interesting. I completely forgot about that thing. Dang, that’s a great question, Erik!

    Jamie: But Erik was like, “C’mon, ask him if he was frozen,” and I was like, ‘Oh my god, Erik, don’t do this!’


  • May16th


    My father is now in the hospital in grave condition. Please excuse the fact that I didn’t edit any of the following post and that this introduction is so short. Pray for his peaceful transition. 

    Me: Let’s see if we can get Bob Hope in here. He was such a funny guy. Want to?

    Jamie: Oh, I hope we get the young—Oh, he’s gone. I guess that’s a yes. I hope we get young Bob Hope.

    Me: Oh, yeah.

    Jamie: Did he do, um, oh hi! Hi!

    Me: Well that was quick.

    Jamie (to Bob Hope, giggling): Did you hear me?

    Bob: I don’t know how young I am, but I hope it’s good enough for you!

    Me: Oh my god, he’s been eavesdropping!

    Jamie: He probably knew he was coming.

    Me: Oh yeah. Hello Mr. Hope.

    Bob: Good morning, ladies.

    Me: We were talking about hope in the earlier segment, so that reminded me of how much hope you gave to so many soldiers.

    Bob: Hope definitely comes with a lot of laughter.

    Me: Exactly. I bet you chose that name for that purpose.

    Bob: It does have a lot to do with it.

    Me: I guess you know why we’re here.

    Jamie: What? I don’t know what he’s saying!

    Bob: Why I ought.

    Me: Yeah, that’s what they said in his day. Okay, the first question I’d like to ask you is what do you think your spiritual mission was during your life as Bob Hope?

    Jamie: He kind of puckers out his lips. I forgot how cute he was.

    Bob: Yeah, like all my cartoon characters.

    Jamie and I giggle.

    Jamie: Okay, he’s going to be funny.

    Bob: It’s a good thing you told me throughout my life, because I don’t know what I would have said if I had to break my life down into parts. My spiritual lesson, personally—I’m just looking at my life.

    Me: No, you’re spiritual mission.

    Jamie: Oh, he’s jabbing you with the fact that mission and purpose are different.

    Me: Oh okay. That’s fine. Roll with it, then.

    Bob: For me it had to be—

    Jamie (to Bob): Well, say it however way you want.


    Jamie (to Erik): Erik, quit.

    Me: What’s Erik doing now?

    Jamie: They’re laughing—laughing and talking about how he should word this and they go off on a funny tangent. Like just then they talk about golf; they talk about being on stage for the army. I don’t what that’s called.  Performed for them while they’re abroad or something.

    Bob: Honesty.

    Jamie (to Bob): See? That’s all you had to do.


    Jamie (to Bob and Erik): Oh you guys! I’m going to have to separate you. That’s it. Erik, go in the other room for this one. (pause) No, just go. You can hang out with him al you want later. (pause) Please?

    I laugh.

    Erik: I promise I’ll be good.

    Jamie: I don’t care. Just go sit on the couch.

    Erik reluctantly slinks over to the couch and sits.

    Jamie (surprised): Ha ha! I win! I win! Oh my god, I won!

    Me: Wow, he actually obeyed!

    Jamie: He did. Face to face with Bob who is not so tall.

    Me: Oh, really? What does he look like? What age is he?

    Jamie: I looked at him and he goes, “forty-two.”

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie (laughing): Okay!

    Jamie (to Bob): Did you really? You lived to be 100?

    Me: Whoa! That’s awesome! Good for you, Bob!

    Jamie: Congratulations!

    Bob: I had to see the millennium. I wanted to make sure spaceships weren’t coming.

    Jamie: Okay, he’s here and focused. Now, let’s ask him questions.

    Me: All right. Spiritual mission.

    Bob: Honesty.

    Me: Okay, were you here to learn anything?

    Bob: Honesty.

    Me: Well that made it easy. Honestly?

    Bob: Honestly.

    Me: Okay. Were you here to teach anything? This is going to be a very short interview!

    Bob: Laughter.

    Me: Okay, and why were you here to teach laughter? Tell me about the value of laughter.

    Meanwhile, Jamie has been laughing hard since we’ve ben asking these questions.

    Jamie: He’s been answering these with such a sincere face, like if he goes wrong he’s going to be catapulted into the air or something. It’s the look on his face that makes you want to giggle.

    Me: I know exactly what you mean.

    Bob: If you were in school with me, you would have been in so much trouble, but I never got in trouble, because I knew how to turn on a dime and straighten up and play the role. The ones who suffered were the ones I encouraged to follow me into laughter who could not snap out of it.

    Me: Oh, I could see that in his comedy routines. You were too young to remember that Jamie.

    Bob: I was born with it. I was born with the gift of laughter. It was not that I saw the weakness in everything to turn into a smile—the weakness of economy and family life and relationships—it was more of why are we going to let the heavier set feelings (and he shows me image of a heavier set person) weigh us down? We can go through all of our choices in life while we laugh. That was my goal. It made me feel good; if it made me feel good then I was going to do it. From an early age I worked on it, and –

    (Long pause)

    Jamie (to Bob): What? Fighting? (to me) He fought. (to Bob) In a war? Were you in the war? He fought in a ring.

    Me: Oh, boxing.

    Jamie (to Bob): You didn’t box! (pause) You did? (pause) There’s no way!

    Me: Did that have some sort of purpose in your spiritual mission?

    Bob: Yes.

    Me: Can you expand on that?

    Bob (Pointing to Jamie): The little lady got lost.

    Jamie (giggling): Well, I just wanted to make sure that’s what you meant. Sorry.

    Bob: When I was boxing, I discovered really how people can channel anger and make it work against or for them.  I found that anger makes for a really weak person. They end up a lot of loopholes that you can jump through without being touched. You think about that one. I mean a lot more than what I just said.

    Me: It’d be a lot easier if you just came out and said it but okay.

    Bob: Now I wasn’t a very good boxer. It was when I was a kid. I was young. But it made me realize who I wanted to be and how I didn’t want to use the anger and aggression that I came across. It really propelled me to be funny.

    Me: Can you explain that connection better?

    Bob: Would you rather be punched in the face or have a good laugh?

    Me: Oh, I think I’d rather have a good laugh.

    Bob: Me too.

    Me: Okay. I got it. Do you think you accomplished all that you cam e here to do?

    Bob: I would like to think so! They kept me alive long enough!

    Me: I was going to say! You had 100 years to do it!

    We all get a good laugh out of that.

    Jamie: He’s really proud of living that long.

    Me: Yeah.

    Bob: And yes, I was most grateful for the 30 years I was extremely old because it made me go into childhood again. There were a lot of thing that I couldn’t do, you know, that I couldn’t do when I was young. So, it took another turn and it let me look at life in a different way.

    Me: Are you talking about your second childhood?

    Bob: Yes. There’s a reason they call it that. You can’t drive a car anymore. You go back to using crayons.

    Jamie (giggling): He says, “You don’t write that well?” He’s saying so many silly things!

    Me: I don’t write that well now! Okay, did you gain any insights when you crossed over?

    Jamie: The big bing? The big bing? The big bang? Thad’s what he calls his death.


    Jamie (to Bob): Okay, now start over and tell me again. You can’t talk that quickly.

    Bob: After my death, I realized truly how lucky I was. When I met a person, I met a person. I didn’t meet a president. I didn’t meet a famous actor or actress. I met a person. I pride myself on that. What the person represented or what status they were in or how much control they had didn’t change how I was about to interact with them, and it allowed me to get to know people just for who they were. So, upon my death I realized I did this. It may not be a huge accomplishment other people are striving for or what they think I should have focused on but it was important enough for me. And in my death I realized that so much of how we choose to see the world when we’re alive is taught to us by someone else. We’re really not given that chance to say, “I don’t like the way you’re teaching me; I don’t like the way it looks; I’m going to change it.” And in my old age, it gave me time to change. Through my death, it gave me a bigger voice that this is what we need to be teaching.

    Me: Yes. You sure were your own man, Mr. Hope. You did what you wanted to do, and you saw people the way you wanted to see them: for who and what they really were.

    Bob: Yes, yes. Thank you.

    Me: Now, can you share a life that most influenced your life as Bob Hope?

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Is he giving you that deer in the headlights look again, Jamie?

    Jamie: No, he says, “Well, that has to be a life where I came back as Bing Crosby.”

    Me: For real?

    Jamie: No, he’s teasing.

    Me: Yeah, because they were contemporaries. I’m teasing too!

    Jamie: He was laughing under his breath with his mouth closed, and that’s what got me giggling.

    Bob: Yes we were contemporaries but that was the life that most influenced my life at them time.

    Jamie: Oh, so that’s why that was funny.

    Bob (to Jamie): You’re slow.

    Jamie: Oh yes. Thank you. Erik is talking from the couch explaining what he considers to be a past life.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: Oh, he’s talking about a life in Russia. He was a man, a dancer. HE did ballet and tap. He loved the tap but wasn’t a fan of the ballet, but he was better at the ballet than he was at the tap.

    Bob: It was such a pity. I didn’t live to and old age. I was about 27 with I passed, but I danced my little heart out. I had time to marry; I had time to have kids, but I was sent away from by family because I showed such talent. It was more for royal entertainment. Unfortunately, everything I did was under a watchful eye. I was very comfortable being watched, but I wasn’t’ very comfortable having my choices made for me. So, I knew I wanted to be in the limelight, but I also knew that I wanted it under my own terms it my way. I got it. I didn’t just get 27 years of it or 25 years of it. I got it times four.

    Jamie: Oh, he is so proud.

    Me: Aw! Now, do you have any messages for us, for humanity?

    Jamie breaks out in laughter.

    Me: On no. What’s going on?

    Jamie: He dropped down. He put one elbow on the wooden countertop and rested his chin on his hand, you know, and kind of settles his fingers over his mouth like, um—

    Me: Like the statue of The Thinker?

    Jamie: Yeah, yeah yeah, yeah, yeah! Just like the statue of The Thinker! He goes, “Oh, to have so much power.”

    I chuckle in response.

    Jamie: Aw, he’s giggling. (pause) He stood up. He has both of his hands down on the counter.

    Bob: I would like it to be on paper that the eyes lie.

    Jamie: Oh, oh. There’s two ways that he’s showing it. First it’s written eyes. E-Y-E-S. The eyes lie. The beneath it, um, oh gosh, then he has the letter I in quotation marks plural. The “I’s” I am this; I want that. I, I, I.

    Bob: The ego, and the ego is triggered because it doesn’t want to fail against what others are hoping to receive or to get or whatever. The I’s lie and the heart never does.

    Me: Ah! Because the ego is often built by others.

    Bob: Yes.

    Me: And is also built by fear.

    Bob: Yes.

    Me: Okay. Interesting. All right. Erik, do you have any questions for Mr. Hope before you’re banished from the couch?

    Erik: Yeah. Why did you live so long?

    Bob: Because I had the best remedy on Earth: laughter.

    Me: That’s right. And you have to keep spreading it around, huh?

    Bob: It heals everything and dammit wouldn’t you know I kept healing!

    Me: You kept healing yourself!

    Jamie: He keeps doing these, “I’m so old, dat, da, dat, da, dat…” like these little one liner jokes.

    Me (giggling): I know exactly what you mean. Oh, I forgot to ask you a question. Are you reincarnated now?

    Bob: No, no. No thank you.

    Me: Well, I don’t blame you.

    Bob: There’s too much going on.

    Me: God, tell me about it. Well, thank you, Mr. Hope. It’s been an honor having you here.

    Jamie: He’s saying thank you but the way he’s blowing his kisses, it’s not the traditional way.  Um, I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like he crumples his hand up like a soft fist and kisses his thumb and then extends his hand out like he’s throwing it at you. He’s waving goodbye saying thank you.

    Me: Thank you, Mr. Hope. Bye.

    Jamie (waving dismissively to Erik): Go, Erik.


    Jamie (to Bob): Just please, anytime. Yes. (to me) Bob says he’d like to come back and I said anytime. He’s doing a little foot routine. I guess it’s tap. I don’t know.

    Me: I can’t imagine it in my head.

    Jamie: Erik’s poking fun, and still he’s doing these one liner jokes.

    Me: He was so funny.

    Young Bob Hope

    Young Bob Hope

  • May9th


    I’ve been thinking a lot about you mothers out there as our special day approaches, particularly those of you who have lost children. I, for one, will miss Erik coming to the side of my bed with his brother and sisters early in the morning with a tray sporting breakfast, usually a hot dog without the bun, a piece of dry toast and a cup of coffee. It sure was a challenge for me to swallow it down. Thank god for the coffee, my hero of that moment, which allowed me to wash it down. I cherish those lovely memories, but I also know that I’m always creating more every single day with Erik. That’s what I hope you mothers do as well. Talk to your child. Love him or her. Continue that relationship. It doesn’t have to end just because they’ve shed their body. That said, I wish you all a happy Mother’s Day and hope your child comes to visit you, without a nasty hotdog on a tray. 

    I remember the day John Candy died like it was yesterday. He and Chris Farley were such a big part of our family that we quote their movie lines all the time. As you’ll see in this interview, his personality is the same. Gotta love him. 

    Me: Erik is there anyone you’d like to bring in today? I was thinking John Candy would be fun. Or we could interview Ray Charles, Notorious B.I.G. or you can pick anyone you want.

    Jamie (giggling): He’s gone.

    As we wait, Jamie and I discuss some computer and phone problems I was havin,g which caused me to be a few minutes late for the call.

    Jamie: Hi.

    Me: Who do we have?

    Jamie (whispering): I always feel bad when I don’t recognize them.

    Me (also whispering): I know. Me too. Why are we whispering? They can read our minds, you know.

    Jamie: I know! It’s so crazy that I do that. I guess it’s a habit. It’s John Candy.

    Me: John Candy! Oh, this ought to be fun!

    Jamie: He’s a bit hefty?

    Me: Yeah.

    Jamie: Yeah, okay.

    Me: Hey, Mr. Candy.

    John: Hello!

    Me: Is that your real last name?

    John: Signed on my birth certificate.

    Me: Okay. Do you know why you’re here?

    John: Am I here for a good beating and bludgeoning?

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Well, we can do that afterwards if you want.

    John: Oh, please. It feels so good.

    Jamie (giggling): Oh, gosh.

    Me: Did Erik give you the—

    John: The lowdown, yes.

    Me: Good, good. So, the first question we’d like to ask is this: What was your spiritual mission here on the earthly plane as John Candy?


    Jamie (to John): Don’t even. (Pause) Yes, answer it for real, not like it’s a movie audition. Erik and him actually get along very well together. They’re acting like they’ve already met before.

    Me (to Erik and John): Have ya’ll met before?

    Jamie: Yes, they say they have, so they’re teasing off that.

    John: I was raised Catholic, and I believe it was my spiritual mission to get far away from being Catholic.

    Me: Is that for real?

    John: Yes, yes! That’s for real!

    Me: Oh, okay.

    John: That’s what I needed to do.

    Jamie: He’s doing some funny skit. It looks like he’s wearing a bishop’s hat; you know those tall white ones like what the pope wears.

    Me: Yes.

    Jamie: So, Roman Catholic. He’s marching in a circle. Erik’s laughing. He’s mumbling something. Um. (Long pause). Oh, let’s not do that, guys. Stop it.

    Me: What are ya’ll up to?

    Jamie (to Erik and John): That’s only going to get everybody in trouble.


    Jamie: It’s like lowbrow, dirty humor with Catholic, um (to Erik and John sternly) No, don’t!

    Me: Okay, boys. No, we won’t do that. I kind of think I know.

    Jamie (sarcastically to both of them): Yeah, you going there? Yeah, go there. It’s really awful, and that’s where your mind should go and that’s what their teasing us about. Erik, it’s funny, but it’s not going to be funny in print!

    Me: No, it’s not!

    Jamie: He does this thing where he can dress up and then just kind of like jerk the front of his jacket, and it’s gone, and he’s dressed plain again.

    Me: Oh, that’s cool. Quick-change artist, is he?

    Jamie: You can tell he’s done this thing before.

    John: Yeah, I’ve talked to several mediums before.

    Me: Oh, okay. So, baaaack to you’re spiritual mission. Let’s try to stay on track, people.

    John: For real it was to get far away from the beliefs I was raised with as a boy.

    Me: And you wanted to go far away from those beliefs to…

    John: I didn’t really know where I wanted to go, but where I ended up was finding faith really needed to be in the humor of day-to-day life, not in some spirit ghost waiting out in some heavenly cloud.

    Me: Yeah because that certainly lacks a lot of humor there, huh?

    John: Yes.

    Me: Okay. Were you here to learn anything?

    John: This is suggesting that I did learn something when I was alive.

    Jamie giggles.

    Me: Well, were you? It doesn’t mean you’re not going to have to take summer school, you know.

    Jamie (laughing): He thought that was good.

    John: I never felt that God handmade me to be on Earth to achieve something in His honor or my beliefs or my needs, but when I was on Earth, if I had to overlook the extent of my life, what I had to learn was really not to get lost. That was the hardest lesson—not to get lost in my family, not to get lost in my career, not to get lost in being famous, not to get lost in doing drugs and the nightlife. I needed to learn how to stay grounded.

    Jamie: He really associates it to “Do not get lost.”

    Me: That’s a hard goal to accomplish as a celebrity, isn’t it?

    John: Very difficult to do, especially not—I give a lot of credit to the celebrities all over the world, but when you’re seen as the funny celebrity, people think you have it better, but not just being the funny, but the fat celebrity—the funny fat celebrity.

    Me (sadly): Yeah.

    Jamie: He’s shaking his head and smiling.

    John: You get it. Much more difficult. Much more difficult.

    Me: Okay. I understand. (Pause) Were you here to teach anything, John?

    Jamie: He puts his hands in his, um, he has an over-jacket. No tie or anything. He’s just kind of casual. He puts his hands in his coat pockets.

    John: I would like to believe that I did teach people how to laugh, but not at themselves, with themselves.

    Me: Ah!

    John: There’s a healthy laughter, and then there’s a sick laughter—a malicious one. I hope to god I taught people how to laugh in a healthy way.

    Jamie: He teases about being, you know, getting far from the Catholic viewpoint, but a lot of what he says is based on, you know, how people say, “God bless them,” “I hope to God.” He still has that kind of language. I just thought that was interesting.

    Me: It is. So John, do you think you accomplished what you were here to learn and teach?


    Jamie: He immediately laughs. He has a really loud voice, by the way.

    John: I hope I did because God called my number one night when I was sleeping and said, “That’s it!” You know, like jerking a fish out of water. Just come on out of there!

    Jamie and I laugh.

    John: So I like to think, yes. I have no need or desire to go back to repeat anything that I tried to do in this life that I just had. So, I guess that’s a sign of completion.

    Jamie: Nice!

    Me: Good! Now, let me get back to the fact that you said that you’ve been to a lot of mediums after you crossed over. Tell me more about that.

    John: Oh, people were calling on me.

    Me: Really?

    John: How fantastic! I thought it was quiet after you died! I thought you got assigned that one cloud and that one harp that you have to learn how to play but no, I was overwhelmed by the amount of attention and love and affection that was coming, not just from my family but from many, many, many more people. Well, I think I still have a calling, so I went for it.

    Me: Why not? You still have fans that won’t give you a moment’s peace, John.

    John: That’s true.

    Me: After you crossed over, did you gain any insights?

    John: The first I knew it—

    Jamie: I should repeat kind of how he says it because it’s funny, you know that, I knew it!

    We laugh.

    Jamie: He does get loud though.

    John: When I died, again, it was like this jerk that happens right out of your body, and the news wasn’t delivered soft and gentle like in some good children’s book. It was like, “Hell, Mr. Candy. You are now dead.”

    Me: Oh my god.

    Jamie (giggling): He’s laughing, but his face is serious. It’s like, “No, seriously.”

    John: It was like, “Greetings. Here you are.” I knew I wasn’t all that healthy, but I didn’t know death was knocking on my door. I didn’t have the premonition. I didn’t have the sense of knowing. So, okay. I accepted what was told to me; I was happy I wasn’t in Hell. I was happy the devil wasn’t giving me the news!

    Jamie and I laugh hard.

    John: And my first aha moment was God is not the white guy with the beard on the throne, and I didn’t have to kiss anybody’s feet to end up where I was, so I must have done something right.

    Erik: Well, what did God look like for you?

    John: God was just like another person. He wasn’t taller than me or greater than me, but he was a male figure and he was Caucasian. And I had this sensation that I had come to the right place at the right time, and it didn’t make me have any kind of regrets. You know the crazy part about it is that you get so flubbed up in life when you miss your lines. Even in my type of career, when you miss your lines you feel like you need a redo. I never once felt like I needed a redo, and I never had to say goodbye to anyone. That was a neat feeling.

    Me: Very cool. Now, do you have a life that you’d like to share that you think most influenced your life as John Candy?

    John: Yes, of course I do.

    Me: Well, tell me, tell me.

    Jamie: It looks as if they had agreed before that Erik tells John when he’s rambling.

    Me: Oh!

    Jamie: So every now and then Erik will jump in and say, “You’re doing it.”

    Me: Okay, good, because I noticed that John can tend to be all over the map.

    Jamie: Yeah. I just thought I’d let you know. They are talking a lot to each other, and they seem every friendly together.

    Me: Okay.

    John: It’s wonderful to have gained all of this knowledge about myself and about the type of lives that I’ve led and a better understanding of why I’ve become who I have become. I’m very fond of this one life where I was an Italian man who worked in a restaurant. I was a chef. I was everything in the kitchen. You know, it’s not like it was fancy like I had like different people making different courses. I actually did everything.

    Me: Wow. That’s tough.

    Jamie: He’s showing me that he was a larger man. Solid looking.

    John: I grew up in a restaurant. This was back in the dirty days. The 1800s. Before clean water, boiling items, you know, the dirty days.

    Me: Yeah. Not a good time to be a restaurateur.

    John: Before modern appliances. But I had such a passion for food. I married a wonderful woman; I had wonderful children, and even though I found people to be so intriguing, I never wanted to leave my kitchen. It was my only place of control. I loved the idea of being in control of what was going on and what was happening around me, and I loved the idea of what I produced, what I created, I could also experience. I know we’re talking about how did this life kind of give life to the one I just experienced. The way that I link the two is that the joy that I had in the kitchen is that same joy I found in my acting career except I wasn’t confined to a small room anymore. I had the world as a stage, so it was on a much grander scale and got me to experience other people more, experience relationships, become involved with teens and humanity. I think that just being locked down to something so small made me have the drive to be something very large. I still wanted to maintain that passion.

    Me: Yes, you were larger than life, John.

    Erik: Dude, I guess you kept your love for food.

    John laughs.

    Me: Erik! And there’s nothing wrong with that. Were you a good cook in this life, John?

    Jamie: That’s so crazy that you asked that because he was saying that he was an excellent cook in this life.

    John: Yes, and the last thing I had was Italian food.

    Jamie: I wonder if you could, I mean, that’d be an odd thing to research.

    Me: Well, it’s coming out of the mouth of John Candy so of course it’s true.

    Jamie (to John): Interesting that you’d remember that.

    Me: So, do you have any messages for humanity, John?

    John (hiking up his pants a bit): Whooooaaa!! That’s a tall order for a little lady, but I guess since you’re Texan, you’re allowed to ask.

    Me: Exactly!

    Jamie belly laughs.

    John: Just taking from the life I experienced now, do not allow yourself to get lost.

    Me: Mm. How do you do that?

    John: There are many paths to take, but if you’re not taking the one that’s inside of you, then you’re lost.

    Me: And how do you determine that? I mean, that’s easier said that done, John!

    John: Haven’t you ever closed your eyes and asked yourself if you like where you are?

    Me: Yes.

    John: That’s how you stay on that inner path.

    Me: Okay. And have you ever done that?

    John: I did it every day—no, that would be a lie.

    Me: Oh no! Busted, John!

    John: But yes. I did it periodically, but a lot of times I was so off path I couldn’t even feel what was inside of me. That’s when I had to ask for help.

    Me: Oh, good. That’s good. What about you, Erik? Do you have any questions for Mr. Candy?

    Erik: Nope, we’ll be doing that later.

    Me: All right. Well, thanks, Mr. Candy. It’s been a delight. I’m one of your biggest fans. My entire family mourned your passing.

    John: Thanks for that, but just for the record, you’re not my biggest fan?

    Me: What? Well who is, then?

    John: Whaddya weigh, like 80 pounds?

    This makes me crack up, of course. Hm. I guess he’s into vanity sizing.

    Me: Oh, John. Flattery will get you everywhere.

    John: Thank you. I’ll keep it up.

    Me: Okay, Goodbye, then.

    John: Ciao, Bella!

    Jamie (to Erik): Don’t. Erik! He’s singing the Ghostbuster’s theme music, laughing. He was in the Ghostbuster’s Movie, wasn’t he? The first one?

    Me: God, I don’t know. I just said I was his biggest fan, and I don’t even remember that!

    Jamie (laughing): Oh no!

    Me (whispering): Ssshhh. Don’t say anything.

    Jamie (whispering back): You’re lucky he’d not in the room.

    Me (whispering): I know. He probably hears me anyway.

    Jamie: Somewhere he’s laughing really hard. I hear him.

    Me (horrified): Oh no! Damn!

    Watch this hilarious skit of John’s: Roy’s Food Repair

  • April25th


    Thank you, everyone, for participating in the most recent poll. Around 61% of you chose the one about being human from Erik’s perspective. Of course, that doesn’t mean the publisher will agree, but this will be very helpful information to present when we do talk about our plans. I love it when you guys help me out!

    I think we’re ready for another contest! The blog member who recruits the most number of new members wins an autographed copy of my book, My Son and the Afterlife. Just have them email me to let me know who referred them. The contests last until Sunday at midnight, CDT. Good luck!

    I also want to invite our new members to sign up for the Channeling Erik Facebook Group. You have to request an invite because we want it to be a safe, private place to share just about anything. Lasting friendships have been formed as a result of this wonderful group. We all support each other, share out Erik pranks, and often provide a bunch of laughs. Click HERE.

    In keeping with Celebrity Friday, here’s J.J.’s interview. Enjoy what this gorgeous hunk of man candy has to say.

    Me: Erik, let’s see if we can get JFK, Jr. to come forward for an interview.?

    Erik: Okay. Be right back.

    Jamie: Erik’s introducing me to John F. Kennedy, Jr.

    Me: Hello, John-John! How are you? I’ll have to say I’ve always had a bit of a crush on you. You’re such a gorgeous man!

    Oops. Sorry Antonio and Gregory. You know I love you guys the best.

    John: Thank you very much, Mrs. Medhus. It’s very nice to meet you.

    Me: Nice to meet you, too. How are you doing? Have you adjusted to your new environment?

    John: Yes, thank you very much for asking.

    Me: Good. That’s good.

    Jamie: He’s wearing a suit and tie, like a skinny tie.

    Me: Isn’t he adorable!

    Jamie: He’s a really handsome man!

    Me: Well, John, we’re hoping the questions we ask you will bring some enlightenment to the world. I really respect your opinion and insight, so I guess we’ll just begin. First, can you share the beliefs you had about death and the afterlife before you crossed over and then share if and how they changed?

    John: Before—I’m sure you understand—

    Jamie: Oops, I got lost. Hold on.

    I chuckle.

    Jamie (to John): I’m sorry, just please start over.


    Jamie: He’s being really patient with me.

    Me: Oh, good.

    Jamie: He has a real smooth-talking voice, and one word goes right into the next word, then there might be a nice pause. So I got caught up in those pauses and got lost a little.

    John: I’m sure you followed my life, as much in the public eye as we were, and that I lost my father at a young age.

    Me: Yes, of course.

    John: I really challenged the idea of religion and faith, because I wondered so many times—why? And even though we were raised in the church, it was not my place to feel comfortable there. I always thought there had to be something greater that took my father away from life, away from the job he was doing, away from his role as a father.

    Me: Mm hm.

    John: I’d like to think the belief I had made me a better person, but I really think it made me more haphazard in my behavior. I almost wanted to tease or punish death, in a way. I wanted to get in death’s face and challenge it.

    Me: Yeah, I get that. I can see that. Were you Catholic?

    John: Yes, yes ma’am.

    Me: Okay. Now, after you crossed over, how did your views about the other side and about death change?

    John: Well, I was raised Roman Catholic, and a lot of it [requires] strict behavior; you are accepted or you’re not accepted, and when I died, as you well know, it was in the deadness of night—

    Me: Yes, I remember that very well.

    John: It was an accident, not done on purpose, and the impact of the plane against the water was with such force that—

    Jamie: He kind of laughs. He was going to say, you know, not only does it take the breath out of you, it takes the soul out of you.

    John: It hit us so hard.

    Me: I can imagine—your soul just got slapped out of you!

    John: Yes ma’am! I didn’t have a chance to suffer at all.

    Me: Well, that’s good!

    John: It wasn’t that I was thinking, you know, the enlightenment was coming and my meeting with God was arriving; it turned out to be more like another world that is just as social as I was used to.

    Me: Wow!

    John: It is more loving and accepting than what I was used to on earth, and it isn’t a place that I would have defined in my head as Heaven. It was accessible; it was a reality, and it’s still a reality for me today.

    Jamie: He’s talking about his family being there, seeing his father.

    Me: Aww!

    John: That’s when I knew that my life was over. Nobody sent me back; nobody said it wasn’t my time. Everybody just embraced me and held me. I knew then that this was it, because, you know, you hear in the stories about people who die, and they get a ticket to go back again, because it wasn’t their time. That ticket wasn’t even offered to me.

    Jamie (chuckling): He kind of laughs about it.

    Me: So, obviously it wasn’t painful for you, the way you described it, but, what happened? Why did the plane crash?

    John: Well, I was flying, and I got my horizon a bit off. The plane didn’t dive and crash. I just got disoriented and flew it right into the water.

    Me: It was foggy that night, wasn’t it?

    John: Yes, and it was nighttime as well, so any light I had was being reflected by the fog, and it was pretty much zero visibility. I didn’t really feel like I was descending, you know, I was fighting with other weather, and that was it.

    Me: Were you scared?

    John: No!

    Me: So, you thought you had it all under control? You didn’t realize the danger you were in?

    John: Well, I knew that something, uh, it wasn’t easy like I thought it should have been; I didn’t feel that I was completely in control, but I wasn’t going to let the other people know!

    Jamie: Oh goodness! There were other people in the plane? He wasn’t by himself?

    Me: Uh uh. I think he was with his wife—I can’t remember her name, I’m so sorry—and somebody else. Now, did you have to reckon with them after you all crossed over together? Were there any awkward moments?

    John: Carolyn, my wife and—

    Jamie: He’s saying something like Laurie or Laurel.

    Me: I don’t know. That might have been Carolyn’s friend. I don’t remember.

    John: No, she was my sister-in-law.

    Me: Oh, okay. So, was it awkward for you?

    John: No. Thankfully nobody blamed me or wanted to come at me with pitchforks or torches!

    Jamie and I giggle.

    Me: Well, that’s good!

    John: No, we quickly came to understand our situation. It’s a feeling that you can’t express with English words, but no matter what emotional baggage you’re coming into death with, when you arrive that baggage is taken from you. You’re given that moment of peace to comprehend your awareness of the situation, and then you’re able to pick up your baggage later.

    Me: Oh good. Now that’s the kind of baggage you want the airlines to lose. Can you describe your surroundings and thoughts when you did realize—I mean, you saw your father—can you give me more detail about your surroundings and thoughts once you realized you were in the afterlife?


    Jamie: He does this thing where, you know how you wipe your lips on each other? He rubs his lips together like he’s getting ready to talk.

    Me: Yeah.

    John: Well, I —


    John: I knew I—


    Jamie (giggling): You’re getting frustrated, huh? That’s okay; you don’t have to put it on for us!

    Erik: No game face! No game face needed, Dude!

    John: I’ve been trained my whole life to stand in front of people and to be very comfortable, but as I got older, I found that my presence was being critiqued all the time. Thank you, it’s—I like not being critiqued.

    Me: Aw, of course. You’re in a place of love here.

    John: I had work that I was doing, and it was something I really wasn’t all that satisfied with in that life so, in a way, I was almost relieved that this magical exit point arrived.

    Jamie (giggling): Magical!

    John: Very unexpected, very much a surprise, because I had agendas on my plate all the time. So, it was a relief to know that I would have no more agendas. I must say, that realization was quite exciting!

    Me: Well, good! Okay, so what did it look like when you crossed over, angels on fluffy clouds playing harps!? I’m just teasing, but give me more details, please.

    John (laughing): No, but wouldn’t the Catholics want you to see that?

    Me: So what did you see? Were you in a big white room?

    (God, it’s like pulling eye teeth!)

    John: Yes, it was a large room. I wasn’t outdoors, and the only reason I say that is because I didn’t see grass or any green plants. I couldn’t identify the outdoors, the blue sky. It was like I was just in space. I didn’t feel that there was an absence of a floor; I did feel there was something maintaining or supporting me. I wasn’t floating away or traveling at high speeds of light, and what was anchoring me was focusing my eyes on the people around me. We have a fairly large family, and, as you know, several of them have gone before me.

    Me: Yeah.

    John: So it was very nice to see grandparents and uncles, and—

    Me: I bet! Was it your destiny to die when and how you did, John?

    Jamie (chuckling): He’s laughing and putting his hands in his pockets for the first time.

    John: Destiny? I think most of the people on Earth would like to believe it was the Kennedy curse.

    Me: Oh, yeah, that’s right!

    John: Really, there is no curse. People love to look for patterns and faces in clouds, and that’s what they were doing with our family. Often, public figures end up having tragic endings. That’s all that was about.

    Me: Was it an exit point that you designed for yourself before this life?

    John: Yes, I planned it in case I became too dissatisfied with my life, and, beautifully enough, my wife didn’t want to be alone.

    Me: Can you describe your afterlife now? What do you do there? Where do you live? What does it look like where you are? Do you have a life’s work over there?

    John: The afterlife I live in now intertwines with many of the focuses on earth, the same visions that my father has, and we often do a lot of work together now.

    Me: How wonderful!

    John: If we had to narrow it down, it would be about teaching the political world the value of peaceful communication.

    Me: Yeah, we’re not getting very much of that now!

    John: We are not, and we need much more help. There are those of us who work specifically in the political world—the governments, not just for the United States but other countries as well.

    Me: Yeah, sure.

    John: And then we have those of us who are working strictly in the world of journalism to get the true seers and the true talkers out in front of the cameras and in print—not the ones that will feed you illusions.

    Me: For their own personal benefit or agenda.

    John: Yes.

    Me: All right, so you live in a house, you have a yard, things like that?

    John: Yes. It’s a little different than just describing it with those terms.

    Me: Okay. Now, what insights do you think you’ve gained given your new perspective in the afterlife?

    John: One personal insight I gained is that I really valued my ego more than I valued my true self.

    Me: Well, I don’t think you’re an exception to the rule. I think most of us do so.

    John: Thank you, but it was hard to accept that, because I really felt I had done the work, and, in looking back, I was just fooling myself.

    Me: I think a lot of us are going to come to that realization when we cross over. What were you here to learn and to teach, if anything?

    John: I really think I was supposed to learn how to be a model in the public eye where people could measure themselves off of me and say, “I want to be that guy.” I didn’t believe in myself enough to feel like I lived up to that.

    Me: Okay.

    John: I did a lot of unexpected things; I left a lot of loose ends open. I only went in to law and politics, because it was something I was so used to. It was not something that I was passionate about.

    Me: What were you passionate about?


    Me: You were into publishing, if I remember correctly.

    Jamie: That got him excited!

    John: That was more of my style. I wanted to tell the truth more.

    That goes along with his current “life’s work” in the afterlife.

    Me: Ah! Was that something you were here to teach?

    John: I was here to both teach and learn that. I needed to learn the truth about myself and separate ego from my true self, and I needed to learn how to extract the truth from the lies in the world. Only then would I have been able to teach others to do the same. I don’t think I fully accomplished that, though.

    Me: Do you have any regrets?

    John: I regret that I wasn’t a whistleblower.

    Me: I guess that comes with being able to be comfortable with the truth.

    John: Yes.

    Me: So, I imagine that was a very important ingredient for your life’s work. Now, we won’t get into the whistleblowing part, because we’re not here to dig up dirt and create fodder for rumor-mongering.

    John: Yes, of course.

    Me: What past life do you think most influenced this last one?

    John (surprised): That is a very intriguing question! I don’t know if it so much affected my life, but it is a life I think of fondly.

    Me: That’s fine. Feel free to share that one, then.

    John: I was a southern Native American in the area that is now Peru. I remember being a little boy, and my mother cutting my hair. It’s not a smooth cut like with a pair of scissors. It’s kind of a gnawing cut. She’d lay the hair down and rub it and rub it and rub it until it cuts, and I’d have to stay very still.

    Me: Interesting.

    John: It was in that moment of stillness that I realized that there were other people at that same time who were also getting their hair cut.

    Me: Oh, wow!

    John: I was probably five, six years old, and I thought to myself that there were other things going on in life that I wasn’t a part of or watching. So, I became fascinated by how other people lived their lives and what there likes and dislikes were and why they were so different than mine.

    Me: Yeah.

    John: And it made me very accepting of any viewpoint, belief, cultural status. We were very well off in that life.

    Jamie (giggling): He’s laughing now.

    John: You wouldn’t notice it by the clothes we wore, because they weren’t much.

    Jamie: It’s kind of wild. The images he’s showing me look like, um, duh, I wanted to say Peruvian, but that’s not the word I’m looking for.

    Me: Were their clothes very colorful?

    Jamie: Very colorful, but you know those buildings that go straight up, not the ones with the pointed tops like the pyramids, but the ones that are flat on top?

    Me: Yeah.

    Jamie: Made totally out of stone, grayish in color, real polished, real smooth, lots of gold.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: Bright yellows and blues and really pretty painted things.

    John: And so I decided to depict people’s lives in pictures. I started to paint and draw pictures, and I was often hired and commissioned by the royalty of my tribe to paint these on the walls. It was such a lovely life, because I could paint the truth of what I saw.

    Me: That was your first publishing gig!

    John: Exactly! Picture books only!

    Jamie giggles.

    Me: Erik, you’d like that, huh, only picture books? You didn’t like reading that much.

    Jamie (chuckling): Erik’s laughing!

    Erik: You got me there.

    Me: Well, you know, you were way ahead, darling, because the written word, linear, sequential language, you were past all that less evolved form of communication.

    Jamie and Erik both laugh.

    Me: Now, what was your proudest accomplishment while you were in the physical, John, and has that changed since you’ve crossed over?

    John: I think I’m sorry to say that I don’t have a proudest moment, because, when I look back, I see what I did. I always did for someone else. I believe an accomplishment should be something you create and do for yourself.

    Me: Oh, so maybe, in a way, after you crossed over, your accomplishment was coming to that realization!

    John: I’ll accept that. Thank you.

    Me: Or do you have another one? I don’t want to put words in your mouth. When you were alive on the earthly plane, what did you think was your proudest achievement at the time, even if, looking back, you don’t feel the same way?

    John: Oh, I guess it’d have to be the success in my career and, not to sound superficial, but keeping my good looks and body appearance. These were the things that others had me believe were important, although they weren’t necessarily important.

    Me: And when you crossed over, you realized these were not true accomplishments from your current perspective as a discarnate spirit?

    John: Right.

    Me: Okay, given this new perspective of yours, do you have any messages for us? Is there anything else you’d like to share with the world?

    John: Yes. There’s no true race against each other. This is truly a race of getting to know who you are.

    Me: Yes, exactly. And we need to get rid of that separation illusion in our minds. That’s probably the biggest step we need to make so we’ll stop competing with each other and start focusing on self-realization.

    John: Yes.

    Me: So, Erik, how are you doing over there? Would you like to ask Mr. Kennedy a question?

    Erik: Nah, I’m good.

    Me: I know you liked flying a lot. You flew with Pappa all the time.

    Erik: Well, at least Pappa had a real license!

    Me: That’s right. John, you got your private pilot’s license just before the crash, and you weren’t certified to fly IFR! That was part of the problem.

    (IFR: instrument flight rules is where the pilot relies on the instruments rather than by visuals. This is crucial for flying in low or no visibility conditions.)

    Jamie: Oh my god. Is that right?

    Me: Yeah, he wasn’t rated to fly in the fog. He only had a license to fly VFR, visual flight rule,s which means he had to be able to see where he was going. Okay, well, thank you so much, John-John. I keep wanting to call you that!

    John: I’m fine with that!

    Me: Thanks you for all of your help.

    John: You’re welcome. Have a beautiful morning.

    Me: You too!

    (John walks away.)

    Jamie (laughing): Erik!

    Me: What did he do?

    Jamie: He was like, “At least Pappa had a real license!” That wasn’t nice! Oh my god!

    Jamie laughs hard.

    Me (laughing): I know! How rude! How did John react to that?

    Jamie: He just kind of leaned back; his hands were still in his pockets, and he just smiled and shrugged!

    Me: Oh, I can just see him doing that!

    Jamie: The way Erik was treating him was like he was a bit of a goof!

    Me: Oh, no!

    Jamie (to Erik): Like, “C’mon!” So, somewhere along the line, Erik, it looked like you lost respect for him.

    Erik: Well, kinda, yeah.

    Me: Aw, poor John.

    Erik: No, John’s a really nice guy. I just didn’t realize, as much as we saw of him, that he’d be so consciously aware of us watching him, so he didn’t really change who he was. That’s what my disappointment was about.

    Me: Well, we’re all on our own journeys trying to get to the same goal. Some of us are just at different points in that path.


  • April17th


    Although I’m not into organized religion and know little or nothing about these holidays, Passover and Easter is a chance to reflect on our beliefs and honor them. For me, I see Easter a little differently now that I know that Jesus did not die on the cross. Keep this to yourselves so the Easter Bunny doesn’t lose his job. (I have no idea what the resurrection of Jesus has to do with a bunny hiding eggs all over the place, but be sure your kids check to make sure the chocolate ones are really chocolate and nothing disgusting.) 

    My family and I plan to have loads of fun. Friday, I’m going to Kristina’s big event. I hope to see some of you Houstonians there. I plan to give away books to the 5th, 10th and 20th blog member to greet me, but I can’t bring the books there (since it would look like I was promoting myself in a promotional event for Walmart and Dove) but I will take down mailing addresses so I can send the books to you.) I don’t plan to post anything until Monday. Taking a breather!

    Saturday, my family and I (including Robert) are going to have dinner at Benihanas as a joint birthday celebration for my daughter, Michelle, and me. Sunday will probably be cookout time, weather depending. I hope you guys have great plans, too. Love up on your family and friends. 

    Now, in keeping with our Celebrity Friday tradition (one day early), I’d like to introduce this sweet and powerfully influential soul. Through Robert’s channeling, I really got a strong sense of the kind of person she is/was. 

    Me: Can you bring Anne Frank in, Erik?

    Robert: Yeah, she’s here.

    Me: Ah! What does she look like, or can you even see her?

    Robert: I get really fast visuals of people. She looks young. I think she was young when she passed away. I don’t really know very much about her, personally. She’s wearing kind of a plain dress.

    Me: That sounds like her.

    Robert: And she looks like she’s a shy kind of a person. She tilts her head to the side and clasps her hands in front of her hips.

    Me: Okay. Well, hello, Anne. How are you doing?

    Anne: Wonderfully, thank you.

    Me: Well, we’re going to ask you some questions if that’s okay with you.

    Anne: I’d be delighted to answer them.

    Me: All right. Tell us what your spiritual mission was in the life we know as Anne Frank.

    Robert: She’s sitting back and thinking.

    Anne: One thing I will tell you, which is a little off topic from your question, is that when we cross over into spirit, we don’t always sit there and think to ourselves, “Oh, so that’s why I came here.” You’d be surprised, but not all of us do, not in the way that humans think. We don’t come here and realize we were to write a novel when we’re in the human life. It’s more of an emotional purpose for why we come here and less tied to an action that we do.

    Me: Ah! That makes sense since we’re emotional beings, and our energy is emotions.

    Anne: Now, why did I come there? If I were answering that on an emotional level, it would be to let people who have suffered without anybody ever knowing that they suffered that their suffering still mattered.

    Me: Oh!

    Robert: That gives me chills.

    Me: Whoa. That’s pretty deep.

    Anne: I saw so much suffering in that life.

    Robert: That makes me want to tear up.

    Anne: I had a lot of contrast, because the life before my suffering was –

    Robert: She makes me feel that she was quite happy before. Her family seemed close.

    Anne: Then, all of a sudden, these atrocities happened.

    Robert: It’s interesting that you’re even bringing this up about Anne Frank, because just the other day I was talking to someone about the Holocaust. Now, the Holocaust is coming into play again.

    Anne: So, the short answer is to let people know that their suffering matters even if your story is never revealed.

    Me: Erik, you probably understand that because of your own suffering. Can you tell us how that compares to Anne Frank’s?

    Erik: Well, Mom, suffering is just talking tits. I’ll just say that.


    I chuckle, but I have no idea what he means by that phrase.

    Erik: One of the biggest things (he waves his arms in wide circles.) I got out of it is that we don’t have to choose to fucking suffer. What I learned is that, and I’m going to say it just like Robert and his guides said it, circumstances aren’t the lessons. It’s the reactions to them that are.

    Me: Anne, do you understand what Erik said, and does that resonate with what you had to go through?

    Anne: I would say that’s accurate.

    Me: What’s the worst thing that happened to you in the Holocaust during your short life?

    Anne: It was hardest to see other people suffer and in pain more than it was for me to experience it.

    Me: Can you give me some instances?

    Robert: Anne Frank—and I don’t mean to come off as ignorant—but Anne Frank was, from what I understand, involved in hiding during the Nazi occupation.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Robert: She shows me a visual of her being underneath the floor.

    Me: That’s right.

    Anne: I was very observant. I watched everything, and I liked to document everything. When the soldiers would come in and search the house, whenever they did these sweeps, I felt fear, apprehension, but also resignation, because I thought to myself, ‘Well, if they capture us, and we are executed on the spot or later, I’m okay with that for myself. I’m not okay with knowing that my family or the people who harbored us could be subjected to that.’ When the soldiers would do the sweeps, it was hardest for me to see the fear in the faces of the people I was surrounded by, because I felt a lot. We sometimes use the word, “empathic, “ feeling what other’s feel. I was one. So, that would be very disturbing to me. But, in particular, when I would see the people who harbored us, and I would hear the soldiers above us screaming and yelling and terrorizing those who were trying to protect us, that really bothered me.

    Me: Yeah, because they put themselves in harm’s way for you.

    Anne: Absolutely, and they teach us self-sacrifice and, on an even deeper level, vulnerability and surrender.

    Me: Surrendering to the potential of death?

    Anne: Yes. You can also see them as representations of justice.

    Me: Mm!

    Robert: She seems shy, but she also opens up and starts going into all these other things.

    Anne: Another thing that those people represented was thinking for yourself. Everybody else just went right along with things.

    Me: They reacted.

    Anne: Yes. They were either indifferent—there was a lot of that—or they went right along with it and became one of the victimizers or they were like these people, the protectors.

    Me: Right. They followed their hearts.

    Robert: She’s bringing up the comparison of how the way they were protected was similar to how Harriet Tubman helped the slaves. I think they called it the Underground Railroad.

    Me: So, you were an empath. Is that why you poured everything out onto paper? Did you just want to get all that pain out or was it just because you wanted people to know about all of this after you died? What’s the reason for your writing the book?

    Anne: I did it for myself. That is the shortest answer. That was the root of it all. What branched out from that is the hope that the story would get out, and it did in ways that I did not imagine. I never thought it would become what it did. That goes along with what Erik says about expectation. You have to just do it for the sake of doing it and leave your expectations at the door. When you do that, you’re giving freely and it all becomes better than you imagined.

    Me: How did it help you? What did writing this book do for you, specifically?

    Anne: It helped me feel a sense of power at a time when I had none, considering the circumstances that we were in.

    Me: What kind of power did it give you?

    Anne: Well, I couldn’t control where I was. I couldn’t control the government. I couldn’t stop them, but I could express and document, for myself, what was happening—the tragedies that I witnessed and that we, as a people, endured.

    Me: Yeah, you have control over your pen! Did you run out of ink?

    Robert (chuckling): She thinks that’s funny.

    Anne: I never thought about it, but there was always ink there. I wonder what would have happened if I had worried that I would run out of ink. What would have happened is I would have missed the opportunity to document all that was going on, and I would have focus on that feeling of fear. To me, that would play into the feelings that that era was feeding me. That was an era of fear. Fear is still very pervasive today. It’s just expressed in other ways.

    Me: That’s true.

    Anne: I wasn’t willing to accept that fear.

    Me: Tell me, Anne, about the capture. What happened? Obviously, they eventually found you.


    Me: Or did you starve to death? I don’t know.

    Anne: That is still something I am working through. It was difficult. It was not—

    Me: Was there a struggle, or did you surrender peacefully?

    Anne: For me, there was that resignation that I had all along.

    Robert: There’s a little boy there. It wasn’t easy for him.

    Me: Aww. That must have been very difficult for you to see, Anne.

    Anne (looking down): Very difficult.

    Robert: You know it’s funny, because I know this is not what she’s trying to project, but there’s a feeling of shame. Why she would feel shame…

    Anne: You are misunderstanding what I am projecting to you, because it was not my shame I was feeling. It was my shame for humanity. I felt ashamed of humanity.

    Me: Oh! Did they take you all out and shoot you, or did they take you to the camps? How did you actually die?

    Robert: I heard her say “camps.”

    Anne: We died in camp.

    Me: Aww. Now, reflecting on your life—

    Robert: She shows me another visual of someone sticking a gun in her face, but I don’t think she died at that point.

    I bet there were a lot of threats and attempts to make her feel like she was on the verge of death.

    Anne: Can we move away from that, because it’s such a sad experience for me?

    Me: Oh yes. We’re finished with that. Reflecting on your life, do you think you accomplished your spiritual mission?

    Anne: I’m happy with the way things turned out, because the story, the diary, gave a face to the Holocaust and every Holocaust before and after.

    Me: Ah!

    Anne: It’s important to put a face on an experience for humanity, because then we can personalize it. We can see that face and recognize it as similar to our own. We can put ourselves in the shoes of others. So, from that perspective, I’m very pleased. I’d rather that the suffering did not happen in the first place, but it’s one of the things in humanity. Humanity has spent a great deal of time studying suffering. A lot of other races have too.

    Me: Yeah. They said that you died of typhus in the camps. Was that common there?

    Anne: Yes.

    Me: Do you have any regrets?

    Anne: This sounds arrogant to say, but I really do not have any regrets. If you regret something, then, to a certain degree, that means you did not fully process emotionally and see emotionally the purpose that it served on some level. So, for that reason, I do not have any regrets.

    Me: Yeah, you did a lot of good.

    Anne: Even if I did not, even if I had closed off that side of myself from being able to see that when I was on Earth, I know that who I am at my core would have allowed me to see that in what you call the Life Review.

    Me: Where you here to learn anything? I think we understand what you were here to teach, but you can summarize if you want.

    Anne: The simplest answer about what I was here to learn is compassion, to develop a deeper level of compassion.

    Robert: She shows me a tree, and that represents empathy. One of the branches that comes off is compassion.

    Anne: This helps you understand what compassion is on a deeper level, not just intellectually, but emotionally as well.

    Me: Which is the most important. So, you were here to learn that. Compassion.

    Anne: Yes. One thing I will say about what we are here to teach is that there is not just one thing, but compassion is the biggest slice of the pie.

    Me: Can you share a life that influenced our last one?

    Anne: I would be happy to.

    Robert: She’s looking up, and she has her pointer finger on her chin like she’s thinking of one.

    Anne: Hmm. Let’s see. Which one?

    (Long pause)

    Anne: A great one I can share that ties in with compassion and suffering was one where I played the other side. I wasn’t the one who was being treated unjustly. I was the one treating others unjustly.

    Robert: It looks like a long time ago. I see people with spears, really dark skin.

    Anne: It took place in Africa. I wasn’t the chief, but I was important.

    Robert: It’s almost the equivalent of a general, someone very close to the chief.

    Anne: In that life, I was always feeding the chief things that would make him paranoid about other tribes, and the chief [bought it].

    Roberts’s words.

    Anne: In that life I was very insecure. Here’s something that a lot of your blog members will relate to. I felt like I was a fraud, and I was afraid that I would be discovered.

    Hmm. Does that fear of discovery have anything to do with her life as Anne Frank?

    Anne: A lot of people who are afraid of moving forward in life, of the things that they came here to do, don’t move forward, because they think, “What if I’m a fraud? What if this is really not what I came here to be or do?”

    Me: Fascinating!

    Robert: Yes, that’s very, very cool. She’s got such a calm energy, too, compared to Erik!

    Me: Ya think? So, in that life—I know that a lot of tribes captured and enslaved people from other tribes. Did that go on? It would be an interesting parallel to your life as Anne Frank.

    Anne: Yes! Slavery was pervasive. Slavery is our first and last great Holocaust.

    Me: Wow.

    Anne: And as it relates to that life, yes we did sometimes take slaves. We never went into another tribe and kill everyone. Sometimes I could be particular cruel. Sometimes we would kill all of the able bodied men, because if they were strong, they’d be able to fight us in the future and perhaps prevail.

    Me: Mm.

    Anne: We’d take a certain number of the children. We’d take a certain number of the younger children, both male and female, to be used as slaves, but we never allowed them to become a part of our tribe. Once we got out of them what we wanted, we executed them. We killed them. The other thing that we did—and this is where I’m getting to the cruel part—is the elderly or the people who were infirm—

    Amazing. As I type this I realize how similar this is to the Germans choosing which Jews to enslave and employ and which to slaughter.

    Robert: It’s interesting that she used the word, “infirm” instead of sick or disabled.

    Anne: We would just leave them to die.

    Me: Aw.

    Anne: In that life, I think that is so incredibly cruel to do that.

    Me: Interesting, because the Nazis did the same with whoever they considered useless, the people who couldn’t be productive in the labor camps.

    Robert: Yeah!

    Me: They were killed.

    Robert. Wow. I got chills again.

    Me: Well, what did you learn from that? Did you learn about compassion in that life?

    Anne: We all know what compassion is on a certain level, but we live our lives to give ourselves a richer, deeper understanding of compassion on an emotional level.

    Me: So, with these other lives there is sort of a tapestry that’s woven to give you that deeper understanding?

    Anne: Yes. The thing that we seek as conscious energy, whatever term you want to use, is emotion. That’s what we’re going after.

    Me: Are you on the earth right now in some form?

    Robert: First, she said, “Oh god, no!” And then she sort of switched gears and said, “Well, I’m actually thinking about it.” She’s kind of hovering around someone who doesn’t know that they’re pregnant yet. She can’t decide whether she’s going to attach to that life or not.

    Anne: This is connected to Earth.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Anne: On other planets? Yes, I definitely have lives going on on other planets.

    Me: So you’re giving us the reference point of Earth and our linear timeframe?

    Anne: I don’t mean to sound critical, but Earth, especially at this time in human history, is very difficult, and there are a lot of contrasts there that do not occur at the same extreme.

    Me: Is that why you’re hesitating to incarnate on Earth again?

    Anne: I suppose so.

    Me: Tell us about your afterlife. Do you do any work there now?

    Anne: You know when I first crossed over, I reconnected to a lot of people who I had known who had passed away before me.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Anne: I waited for people –

    Robert: I thought that everyone in her family had died, but she’s saying that some people, relatives I guess, lived.

    Me: I think her father, Otto, lived.

    That must have been torture for him being left behind to miss the rest of his family.

    Anne: I waited for some of those people, and then I hung around them and continued to live out some of the things that we would have wanted to have had happen in that life had the Nazi occupation never occurred.

    Me: Oh, okay!

    Robert: She’s bringing up two things that she always wanted to do but didn’t get a chance to. One of them was piano playing. The other is painting.

    Me: Mm. So, you do that now?

    Anne: Yes, and I love it!

    Me: Aww. That’s great! You need a break. These things bring joy to life, and you didn’t have much of that in your life as Anne Frank.

    Anne: Yes. It’s not for everyone, and I don’t recommend it.

    Me: Really? Ya think?

    Robert and I laugh. Finally a little sense of humor!

    Me: What do you think about the state of humanity now, and what messages or advice do you have for us. Then, I’ll let Erik chime in.

    Robert (laughing): Erik says, and I know he’s just joking, but he says, “Your fart!”

    I laugh, but I totally don’t get it.

    Erik laughs.

    Anne (nonplussed): Humanity has grown so much just over the last 100 years. That’s the benefit of living through extremes. You can grow in exponential ways. Humanity is one of those races.

    Erik: We’re hardcore!

    Robert (chuckling): That’s one of the phrases that I use a lot.

    Me: Being human is an extreme sport!

    Anne: I’m very hopeful, because, even though there is a lot of fear mongering going on, I would just ask humanity to not be influenced by it. If you’re constantly afraid of something and you keep your back turned away from it, behind your back, from your own perspective, it appears to get larger and larger and larger. It looms over you.

    Me: Yeah.

    Anne: But if you turn around and face that fear, you will see that all it is is a transparent illusion. It loses its power.

    Me: Ah! That’s a great message. It’s your message and advice for us?

    Anne: Absolutely, because the fear itself does not create the circumstances or our experiences. It’s our reaction to the fear. Fear in and of itself has no power, but the emotional reactions that we feel from having encountered it is where all the power lies. Emotional reactions are what cause us to take actions that create this negative energy. The fear didn’t do that. You can’t blame fear.

    Me: Ah! Before I let Erik take the floor—

    Robert (sighing): He’s picking his nose.

    Me: Oh god.

    Robert (to Erik): Erik! That is so disrespectful!

    Me: Yeah, and right in front to Anne Frank!

    Robert: And then he wipes it on my couch!

    Me: Ew!

    Spirit boogers. At least he doesn’t eat them.

    Erik: I’m saving it for later.

    Okay, so never mind.

    Me: In what way do you think we’ve progressed the most. I’m talking about humanity, of course.

    Anne: Awareness. Awareness is a thing that humanity, over the last hundred years and exponentially over the last 20, 30, 40 years, has grown.

    Me: Awareness of all types?

    Anne: Awareness of all types, yes. For instance, many human beings now realize that other species on this planet are just as emotional as we are. They’re recognizing that the reason that other human beings commit acts that we define or perceive as evil are because those individuals were taught that in some way and that even though you have to be held accountable, you don’t have to do it in a way that’s punitive. If you do it in a way that’s punitive, then all you’re going to get is more hostility in return. Any form of justice that’s approached from a punitive perspective is going to create more negative energy.

    Me: And more power. Erik, is there anything you want to ask or say to Ms. Frank?

    I brace myself.

    Erik: I think she’s great, and –


    Robert (to Erik): Yeah. No, I’m not saying that. (To me) He can be so irreverent sometimes!

    Me: I know.


    Me: Well go ahead. Say it.

    Robert (laughing): Oh, Erik! You put me in these situations!

    Me: Come on. Don’t be shy!

    Robert: But it sounds so disrespectful!

    Robert laughs so hard, he has to take some time to compose himself.

    Me: It’s not you that’s being respectful. It’s him!

    Robert: I know! I know!

    Me: Don’t worry about it.

    I’m thinking Erik and Anne can handle this themselves.

    Robert: He said she could put a little meat on her bones.

    Okay, I’ve heard him say a lot worse!

    Me: Well, that’s probably true. Is she laughing?

    Robert: She thinks it’s funny.

    Erik: I know I’m going to get shit for that line.

    Me: No you won’t.

    I reconsider.

    Me: Well, I don’t know. You could.

    Erik: Yeah, Mom. People are going to think about the whole Holocaust thing. I don’t mean it that way. Even before she went into all that trouble she was in, she was still thin.

    Me: Oh, okay. So, Anne, thank you so much for this opportunity. I’m so grateful for all you went through to teach us something valuable.

    Anne smiles and nods her head.

    Me: Bye.

    Anne waves goodbye.

    Robert: Wait, she’s coming back.

    A curtain call!

    Anne: I want to thank you for being a messenger for hope.

    Me (touched): Aww.

    Anne: Erik’s told me everything about what happened to him and about all of the traumas that you have endured. I can relate to you on that level, and you can relate to me, because we both endured a type of Holocaust. Yours was a Holocaust of grief, and your spirit refuses to surrender to that.

    Me: To curl up and die?

    There were so many times I wanted to.

    Anne: Yes. You may have wanted to do that at times, but you’ve always had this sense of hope inside of you. That’s what I see. It’s what caused you to create the blog and start seeking out this information of consciousness survival. We want to thank you, because you’re a big part of helping to elevate human awareness.

    Me (Choking up): Aww. And Erik! Erik, too.

    Anne: Yes, of course, Erik. When I’m referring to you, I’m referring to you and Erik together.

    Me: All right. Well, thank you!

    Anne: Thank you.

    Erik: Yeah, Mom. I love you.

    Robert: He says it so sweet.

    Robert mimics Erik’s sappy tone.

    Me: I can just see him talk that way. I can see the expression on his face!


  • April11th


    Well, it’s that day of the week. Celebrity Friday. And the secret’s out. This gorgeous man is my biggest crush. Antonio Banderas is a close second, but the bastard just won’t answer my calls. Enjoy. (But remember, the man is MINE.)



    Me: Erik, what about Gregory Peck? Do you think you can get him for us? I always had such a big crush on him.

    Jamie (to Erik): You’re getting all the cute guys. Come on. Go get him, Erik!

    Jamie (to me): Ah, he left. What was he in? Oh, he’s here.

    Jamie (to Gregory): Oh, shake hands? I don’t know.

    Jamie (to me, giggling): He’s reaching out. What do I do, shake his hand?

    Me: I guess so.

    Jamie: Erik is laughing!

    Jamie (to Erik): Are you pulling a prank on me?

    Jamie (to me): He told him to shake my hand.

    Me (to Gregory): Hello.

    Jamie (to Gregory): Hello.

    Me: What age does he look like?

    Jamie: Oh, gosh, he looks about mid 40s.

    Me (to Gregory): I’ve always had a big crush on you, Mr. Peck.

    Gregory: Thank you for your honesty.

    Me (laughing): And I’m sure I’m not alone! We have a few questions to ask you, if you don’t mind, and we’re so honored to have you here.

    Gregory: Thank you so much; I’m honored to be in line. Let’s get this started!

    Jamie: He’s very upbeat.

    Me: Okay, well first I’d like to know what your spiritual mission was while you were on the earthly plane.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: I love his voice.

    Me: Oh, yes!

    Jamie: He’s got a good voice, and he’s got this—it’s not an accent. He’s got a good, crisp, clean voice, but it’s just the way he talks. Maybe it’s because of that time or era.

    Me: Oh, yeah. Have you ever seen him in To Kill a Mockingbird?”

    Jamie: I might have, but I can’t really remember it. He’s talking to Erik. That’s why I’m hearing his voice. He’s not really talking to me yet.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: And I told Erik, “Please remind Mr. Peck that I will be translating today.”


    Jamie: Oh, he was clarifying to—oh, you want me to call him Greg? He was clarifying to Greg what you meant by spiritual mission.

    Gregory: I had a lot of heartache in my life. I really wanted to be with a big family—a family that was always together. I never really had that fulfilled, and I feel like I carried that over in the many roles that I played in my career. I had this removed intelligent character, and I don’t really feel that I was casted that way out of luck. This was who I was.

    Me: Well, do you think you were here to teach anything?


    Jamie: It’s funny; he goes to Erik to talk first. I don’t get that.

    Me (in jest): Maybe he’s a male chauvinist.

    Gregory: Now, that’s not true!

    Me: I’m teasing.

    Jamie: He’s got a rhythm to how he talks.

    Gregory: I love the ladies, love the ladies.

    Jamie: Oh my god, I forgot the question.

    I repeat it.

    Jamie (to Gregory): What were you here to teach.


    Jamie: I feel like I’m wallpaper! Am I missing something?

    Me (to Erik): Erik, can you redirect him a little bit?

    Jamie (to Erik): Yeah, Erik. Are you up to something? Are you—is this a joke?


    Jamie (to Erik): Erik, this is not funny; don’t mess around. C’mon!

    Me: Mm hm.

    Jamie (to Erik): Oh my god; how else are you going to find ways to screw with me? Your mom is working, Your mom is doing the thing that you guys wanna do. You have Gregory Peck right here!

    Jamie: Apparently he is a good prankster as well.

    Me: I bet.

    Jamie (to both Erik and Gregory, giggling): That’s enough, you guys!

    I laugh.

    Jamie: I just see laughing faces. They’re trying to make me feel uncomfortable.

    Me: Oh!

    Jamie (to both Erik and Gregory): You’ve done it.

    Jamie: Erik told Gregory not to speak to me.

    Me: As a prank.

    Jamie: Yes, as a prank. We have a prank: We have an interview, but don’t talk to the person who’s interviewing you.

    I chuckle.

    Jamie: Oh, he says that was a Saturday Night Live skit. He said that’s where he got it from.

    Jamie (to Erik): Okay, quit. C’mon, man. Don’t waste our time.

    Erik: I didn’t. I’s very funny, because he has his serious face on.

    Gregory (slapping the table): What is it?

    Me: Well, what were you here to learn and teach?

    Gregory: In looking back on my life, I feel I was here to learn how to be part of a team. I always had the opportunity to be on my own.

    Jamie (giggling): He’s laughing every now and then looking at me. He said, “I’m sorry.” He mouthed it and points to Erik.

    Gregory: When it came to my career, being part of an ensemble or being a part of a group—

    Jamie: Hey, he was actually on Broadway? He was in New York.

    Me: I don’t know.

    Jamie: Yeah, it’s Broadway. I can see it in my head.

    Gregory: So, being a part of an ensemble and being a part of a family, that is what I was here to learn. Did I achieve it? Of course I did. Now, ask me if I loved it.

    Me: Did you love it?

    Gregory: Of course I did! I enjoyed every second of it. I loved people. It took me a long time to learn that.

    Jamie: They’re just playing back and forth.

    Me: Okay. Now, were you here to teach anything?

    Gregory: I feel that what I was here to teach was through the roles that I was offered, especially in the film industry, because those roles represented so much of the man’s struggle to understand intimate relationships with a woman or the difficulties of a family or hard times. My ability to act was a way that I was able to teach people that they are not alone.

    Me: Ah! Okay. Did you have any insights after you passed? Any “aha” moments?

    Jamie: He’s got one hand over his mouth. He doesn’t have any facial hair. He’s clean-shaven. Darker hair.

    Gregory: Maybe my “aha” moment was that I wanted to spend more time with my family. I know “aha” moments should be a positive thing but I realized that I could have saved my marriage. I could have done more for my intimate family. I always felt a little bit of disconnect.

    Me: Are you with your son who passed away?

    Gregory: Yes.

    Me: Oh, good. I know he died from suicide in 1975, so I know the heartache you went through.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Wow, he got really quiet. He has really pretty eyes, and when he blinks, he’s got really thick eyelashes, you know, when they’re closed.

    Gregory: I do know that you understand. What a blessing that you have a chance to stay in contact with Erik, and that he actually saw the opportunity to reconnect people.

    Me (sadly) Yeah, exactly.

    Gregory: I don’t think my son would have seen that as an opportunity. He would have seen it as work.

    Me: Aw! Now, can you share another life that influenced your one as Gregory Peck?

    Jamie: Oh, he’s showing me that he was in England. He’s got a wooden cart with wheels on it.


    Jamie (to Gregory): Are those people?

    Me: Hm.

    Jamie: He’s collecting dead bodies.

    Me: Oh! Was that during The Plague?

    Gregory: Yes.

    Jamie: I really can’t see him. He’s covered. He even has this old hat on and his nose and face is covered. Like a bandana or scarf. Everything is covered on him.

    Gregory: I didn’t want to catch death.

    Jamie (to Gregory): Did you in that lifetime?

    Gregory: No.

    Me: Good.

    Gregory: The dead were safer to be with than the living. How did it affect me in this last life? Being so close to death—a sick death where masses of people were letting go together—I was not married; I didn’t have children. That’s why I had that job. Low risk. I wanted to come into a life where I would have a family—have a big family and be married. I wanted to be born into a family that had parents and grandparents.

    Me: Ah, a big family man. That all makes sense.

    Gregory: Now, ask me if I achieve it.

    Me: Did you achieve that? Wait, you already said.

    Gregory: No, I didn’t. My parents divorced; I divorced. I lost sight of how important it was to me, and that was my aha moment when I let go.

    Me: That’s right. Do you have any messages or advice for us?

    Jamie (giggling): He and Erik are talking and laughing. Apparently they think that’s very funny.

    Me (laughing): Share with the rest of the class, boys.

    Jamie (to both): Make this serious, guys.


    Jamie (to Erik): Anything he would like to share.

    Gregory: You can hand pick the people you want around you in your life. They all know this to be true. I want to remind you that you hand pick your family as well—good relationships or bad relationships—you wanted to be a part of it, so make it the best you can.

    Me: Yeah. Well said. Erik, do you have any questions or have you all covered it?

    Erik, Yeah, no.

    Jamie: They’re—you know how you hit another guy’s shoulder and shake their hand? You kind of like halfway hug, like a demi-hug?

    Me: Yeah, a man hug.

    Jamie: Yeah, they’re man hugging.

    Me: Aw!

    Jamie (to Erik): So, was this planned? (Pause) It was?

    Me: Hm.

    Jamie: Do you pick out the names in advance? Does Erik get to see them?

    Me: Well, I kind of do. I look at my list and think, “Hmm, I’d love to interview him or her today,” so yeah, and I circle them the day before.

    Jamie: So, Erik could have found out through you.

    Me: Yes.

    Jamie: Gregory is really an actor—a character actor.

    Me: Yes, he was an awesome actor.

    Jamie: He’s so playing it. He’s playing it well. Okay, Mr. Peck. Thank you so much for coming, today.

    Gregory (waving): Thank you so much for today.

    Jamie (giggling): He reaches out to shake my hand again!

    Me: Oh, how funny. That’s not going to work, Gregory.

    Gregory laughs hard.

    Jamie (to both): You guys are horrible!

    They both laugh and Gregory disappears.

  • April4th


    I want you guys to know that I haven’t forgotten about this most recent Ask Erik submission. I’ll put the submitter’s names in a bowl and randomly draw one, then on the 10th we’ll channel Erik’s response. It’ll take time to transcribe, so please be patient! Also, I plan to post Part Three of the alien interview Monday or Tuesday. 

    One of the blog members requested that I post the interview with Aaliyah Haughton for today’s Celebrity Friday. Well, your wish is my command! She’s such a sweet and happy spirit, as you will see! I wish the interview had been longer, but I probably was running out of time. This took place maybe 2 years ago, I’m guessing.

    Me: What about Aaliyah Haughton? She’s the singer who died in a plane crash somewhere in the islands.

    Jamie: Was she from Hawaii?

    Me: No, I think she was black, but she may have been from the islands. I’m really not sure.

    Jamie: He says yes.

    Me: Oh, is she here?

    Jamie: No, he’s gone to get her.

    Me: Oh, okay.


    Jamie (chuckling): It’s so quiet when he leaves.

    Me: Well, he’s so chatty!

    Jamie: Here she is. She’s pretty.

    Me: Yeah. I remember she was.

    Me: Hello, Aaliyah. I’m I pronouncing your name correctly?

    Aaliyah: It’s good enough, yes.

    Me: Okay. Do you know why we’re here, why you’re here?

    Aaliyah: Erik informed me on the way, but I didn’t know I made the list.

    Me: Of course you did, Sweetie! We just hadn’t gotten to you yet! My first question is what was your spiritual mission while you were here?

    Jamie: It’s funny. I want her to sound like she’s from the islands or something, but she doesn’t. She has like a northern.

    Me: Oh really? Okay! (whispering) I really don’t know very much about her. I don’t really know why I’m whispering either.

    Jamie (giggling): I do that too, though! She’s got that kind of northeast rhythm. I want to say New York, but not that heavy New York accent, but she’s just not Caribbean.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: What was she here to learn?

    Me: Well, what was her spiritual mission?

    Aaliyah: I felt I was here to soak up everything, to learn everything. I never felt that I was done with what was around me, even after a song was done, It always could be better; how could we change it? My character was always to build, you know, to build on it. I loved taking sounds that shouldn’t be musical or just sounds of life and putting them in my music. I was inspired by everybody—anybody—and I was complimented a lot on the way that I loved life. If you’re asking me to pinpoint something, maybe I would have taught other people to look at all walks, all genres, everything—look at everyone. Don’t cut anyone out of the picture, because they could end up being your inspiration, your muse.

    Me: Yeah!

    Aaliyah: I think that’s mostly what I taught people, but I feel like I was here to learn it all.

    Me: Aaliyah, that’s a tall order!

    Aaliyah (laughing): Yes!

    Me: And do you think you accomplished that?

    Aaliyah; Considering my short like, I did a lot.

    Me: Yes, you did.

    Jamie: She’s smiling. She looks so satisfied.

    Me: Aw, that’s good. Now, what sort of insights do you think you gained after you passed?

    Jamie: She pushes her hair back. She has longer hair.

    Aaliyah: I found that life is gentle. I had a taste of that when I was alive. My parents were very loving—my family.

    Jamie (sniffling): It’s so sweet. When she says that, I get a little choke up. She really had a good connection.

    Aaliyah: It wasn’t just love. It was conversation; It was teaching. My family, they were really supportive. Thinking about that takes me back.

    Jamie: She’s taking a moment. Erik’s so sweet. He’s patting her on the shoulder.

    Me: Aw.

    Aaliyah: Now, where were we?

    Me: Any other insights after you crossed over?

    Aaliyah: If was definitely that life is gentle. Even though we see it as so harsh and heavy, and the news just reports all the negativity, the light and the goodness is truly more abundant than the negative. I finally began to see that once I left.

    Me: That’s nice. What an uplifting message for us still left in the foxholes here on the earthly plane. Can you share a past life that most influenced your life as Aaliyah Haughton?


    Jamie (laughing): Erik! Erik feels very comfortable around her. Erik even joked about the orangutan just then.

    Me: Oh, no!

    You’d have to read Freddie Mercury’s interview to get that joke! It’s in three parts, and you can do a search using the blog’s search bar.

    Jamie: She’s laughing. He’s trying to explain it to her. It’s kind of wild. When we talk about past life, it’s really not a past life.

    Me; Oh, that’s right. Since there’s no time, I’m supposed to just say, “a life.”

    Jamie: Yeah, because it definitely looks like a life that’s a little more advanced than this one.

    Aaliyah: I’m an older man in my late 60s. I’ve become sick with some brain illness.


    Jamie): Erik’s asking her questions.

    Erik: How did that play upon the life you had recently?

    Aaliyah: It helped me prepare for death, because I had such a long amount of time before I was to die, and in the future you can kind of—and I know this might not make sense to you now, but you pick your death date. If you know you’re sick, there are treatments that will, uh, if they can’t heal you, they have treatments than can further the process—

    Me: Further what process?

    Aaliyah: The dying process.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Aaliyah: Once you reach a certain level like a stage four—

    Me: They can hurry your death along?

    Aaliyah: Yeah, they can progress it so that you don’t suffer. You still have to go through it, but it’s only once you reach a certain level—a certain no return point. So, it’s not Kevorkian. I knew that I would never forget that—

    Jamie (to Aaliyah): Okay, hold on. Tell me again.

    Aaliyah: I would never forget that life is a drop in a bucket of water. We have so many opportunities and so many chances. I had that moment of clarity while I was alive in a human body that this unity between different versions of our soul is connected, is important, that they shouldn’t be deemed as the end-all.

    Erik: How did it help you?

    Aaliyah: It helped me realize that when—

    Jamie: Oh, so the plane was flying.

    Me: Yeah.


    Jamie: Okay, so it wasn’t high up. So it looks like maybe it had just took off, cuz it’s low.

    Me: Yes.

    Aaliyah: She’s showing me that when they knew that it wasn’t going to work, she was the only one who wasn’t afraid.

    Me: So that life made her comfortable with death?

    Aaliyah: Yes, and I know I needed that for that moment in that life.

    Me: Oh, that’s good. Do you have any messages or advice for anyone? For example do you have any messages for your family or messages for humanity?

    Jamie (laughing): She says something kind of silly and off the cuff.

    Aaliyah: Never stop rocking.

    Jamie: Then she takes a few steps back and adjusts herself.

    Aaliyah (giggling): I should probably be more profound!

    Me: You say whatever you wanna say, Sweetie.

    Jamie: So she, um, I know she looks like a young woman to me, but she has this kid humor. Maybe she’s younger than what I think she is. She looks like she’s in her twenties at least, but some of her silliness is very childlike.

    Aaliyah (Slapping her hand down) Okay, okay. I would say, message to the world: You know that’s a pretty tall order.

    Me: I know!

    Aaliyah: I would have to say it’s what people complimented me on: Don’t discredit anyone or anything just for lack of understanding. Let yourself learn even though you don’t understand.

    Me: Give everyone and everything a chance, right?

    Jamie: She gives this kind of pointy, almost like this little fake gun and says, “You got it.”

    Me: Okay. Erik is there anything you would like to ask her that has nothing to do with orangutans?

    Jamie: Yeah, thanks, Erik.

    Erik: Yeah, are you feeling good, and is everything okay now?

    Me: Aw, that’s sweet, Erik.

    Aaliyah: Yes. You know it’s been a while.

    Jamie: Ten year anniversary? Since you passed? So it’s been over ten years?

    Me: Wow!

    Jamie: I feel so bad that I don’t really know her. What did she sing?

    Me: Well let’s ask her. I’m not sure. Let’s ask her. Pop? Hip hop?

    Aaliyah: Girl, I worked with everyone! 


    Have a great weekend, everyone!


  • March21st


    Don’t forget to sign up for the March 26th online channeling. Jamie will trance channel Erik so you can ask him questions. After entering Jamie’s body, you’ll see his typical facial expression and body movements. Anyone who has attended these trance channeling events can attest to the fact that they’re very funny as well as insightful. Sign up HERE

    I received the news that Selena died when I came home to find Maria sitting in front of the TV  with a solemn, wide-eyed look on her face. I asked her what was wrong and she said, “Selena se murió,” or “Selena died.” To tell you the truth, I had no idea who she was talking about. Later I discovered what a beautiful person she was, inside and out. She helped us transcend borders by bringing hispanic music to the mainstream public. 

    Me: Erik, who would you like to pick now?

    Erik: Do we have another sex icon?

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: How about Selena. You always liked her!

    Jamie: Okay, he’s outta here!


    Jamie: Was she the Latin actress?

    Me: Well, I think she was mostly a singer, and the head of her fan club shot her.

    Jamie: What?

    Me: I know! Oh, it was terrible. I had never really heard of her, but I came home one day, and there was Maria, our housekeeper, looking at the television in total shock. She goes, “Selena is dead,” and I thought to myself, ‘Wow, that’s terrible, but who is she?’ But I tell you what, she was an amazing spirit. Erik and Lukas used to watch that movie about her all the time. I don’t know if they were just touched by her tragic death or if it was more about her figure.

    Jamie: He’s back.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie (to Selena in a sugary voice): Hi!

    Me: Hi, Selena.

    Jamie (talking to Selena like she’s a little girl): Well, you are just so cute!

    (Jamie listens to Selena)

    Selena: I here this is the day of the Texans! (We had just interviewed Anna Nicole Smith.)

    Jamie giggles.

    Me: Oh, yeah!

    Jamie (to Selena): Oh, you’re from Texas, too?

    Me: That’s right. You were from Corpus, right?

    Selena: That’s right! Yes, Corpus Christi!

    Jamie: I bet that’s a religious place!

    I guess because of the name, “Body of Christ.”

    Me: I tell you, Selena, you created such a wonderful bridge between Hispanics and, well, the rest of the world, really. You connected with people so strongly with your music.

    Selena (bubbly): Thank you!

    Jamie: She’s so sweet! She has really long, dark hair, and she PETITE, but her, like the one thing I wanna look at on her face are her lips.

    Me: Oh, yeah. She had beautiful lips.

    Jamie: Very full.

    Me: Yes, very full lips. All right, well, Erik, would you like to start off? I know you really liked Selena, too.


    Me: I’m making him blush, probably.

    Jamie: Erik. (pause) Okay, well, Erik asked her if she liked Selena Day.

    Me: Really? What’s that?

    Jamie: They are laughing!


    Jamie (to Erik, in a British accent): Please do explain.

    Jamie (to me): She’s explaining it to me. She’s great at how she holds her body, her posture. She looks me straight in the eye and talks in a really calm voice. She says when she passed away, they nicknamed the day of her death “Selena Day.”

    Me: How nice!

    Jamie: They celebrate her and the upcoming music of the Latin world on that day.

    Me: That’s great! Now, I know that as a Mexican-American, you probably had very strong beliefs about the afterlife—

    Jamie: She’s laughing!

    Me: Why is that?

    Selena: I was raised Jehovah’s Witness.

    Me: Really?

    Selena: I know! It wasn’t really anything that I took with me to the grave.

    Me: Oh, yeah. Did you ever immerse yourself in that belief system?

    Selena: No, but a lot of my family did, of course. I could listen to it, and it was around me, but—


    Me: You didn’t bite? You didn’t adopt that belief system?

    Selena: Right. I really found my peace and I found my passion with singing.,

    Me: Oh, of course.

    Selena: I knew from a young age that was the only thing that I wanted to do.

    Me: Oh, yeah. So, when you crossed over, what beliefs did you have about death and the afterlife? Wait, what beliefs did you have when you were on the earthly plane? I guess we never answered that except that you weren’t a Jehovah Witness. Did you even think there was an afterlife?

    Selena:  For me, I knew there had to be.

    Me: Yeah.

    Selena:  I’ve seen people cross over, and just the pure love for them alone, that in itself should have created a place for them to go. It’s not that I feel I had no God; I did, but it just came, uh—

    Me: It just didn’t have an organized religion structure behind it?

    Selena (giggling): Yes, thank you!

    Me: So, what was your death like for you? I hope it wasn’t painful.

    Selena:  It was more of a shock. I felt the bullet—

    Jamie: Oh my God, you were shot?

    Me: Yeah.

    Selena:  I felt the burn; I was confused; I didn’t know what it was.

    Me: Were you scared?

    Selena: In a way, yes, I was, because I didn’t know—was this the time that I fight, or was this the time that I give up? And I was scared that I didn’t—

    Jamie (tearing up): Aw, she’s getting choked up.

    Selena: I was scared that I didn’t know the answer.

    Me: Yeah.

    Selena: And I don’t remember, um, I remember people yelling and screaming and pushing, and I remember being kind of carried away.

    Jamie: She says she doesn’t remember being on the ground.

    Me: Okay.

    Selena: And the commotion of my body, the movement of my body—it just got further and further away, and it felt okay.  When I knew it was okay, that’s when I decided that was the choice. Plus, I was told that my body wouldn’t be able to sustain life anymore, and I had to stay. I was greeted—

    Jamie (tearing up): She is such a grateful person. She said she was actually greeted by other musicians that had been shot, and her example is John Lennon and other who died tragic deaths as well. They greeted her; they told her that her life was fulfilled, and she had hit her mark by bringing the Latin music to the world. She became the bridge so that other people could follow her.  She was the one who agreed to take the sacrifice.

    Me: Yeah.

    Selena: So I was told that it was part of my destiny; that was the way it needed to be. I’m just happier that it was earlier in my life instead of later, because I had a very young marriage, and we didn’t have any children. We didn’t have the roots that I had when I grew up.

    Me: Yeah. What about Yolanda Salazar? Did she kill you as part of some spiritual contract? Was that the plan to sacrifice her freedom by committing the crime?

    Selena: Yes.

    Me: Well, why couldn’t you just live longer and continue to build that bridge? Why did you have to die so young?

    Selena: That was my agreement. I would rather go young than go old.

    Me: Okay, so that was a decision you made between lives. Can you tell me a little about what thoughts you had and what your surroundings looked like after you crossed over into the afterlife? We know you saw John Lennon and other musicians, but can you share more details?


    Jamie: So she’s describing her ability to be in many places at once. That surprised her.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: She, um—


    Jamie (to Selena):  How is that? (pause) Because you do more there?


    Jamie: Okay, she’s telling me that she does so much where she is for, not just the Latin community, but artists. She’s very happy and content with the status that she has now. This is the description she’s giving me about her life after life.

    Me: Oh, yeah.

    Jamie: And it sound just so much like work, but she’s so happy with it!

    Me: Yeah. She worked hard all of her short life, didn’t’ she? All right, so you work with other Latino musicians, basically?

    Selena: Yes.

    Me: Did you gain any new insights after you died?

    Jamie (chuckling softly): She smiles broadly.

    Selena: I don’t know if I gained the insight, but I was gifted with the feeling to know what I, to know what—

    Jamie (frustrated): Okay, can you tell me in another way, because that confuses me.

    Jamie (chuckling): She’s laughing politely

    Selena: It’s not that I knew so much; it’s that I was gifted with the strength and the beliefs in what I could do was correct. It was the right answer.

    Jamie: I don’t know how to put it into words. She didn’t learn anything new, but she got the reassurance she needed—

    Me: That she did what she came here to do?

    Jamie: Yes.

    Me: Okay, Can you very succinctly put into words what you were here to learn and also to teach?

    Selena: I was to learn acceptance, and that I did through my music. What I was here to teach was to use music as a healing instrument.

    Me: And a bridging instrument.

    Selena: Yes, as a bridging instrument. It doesn’t matter what race you belong to or where you’re from or how your music sounds. It moves anyone and everyone.

    Me: Yep, it does. Do you have any regrets, Selena?

    Selena (smiling coyly): Not that I know of!

    Jamie, Erik and I laugh.

    Selena: I really said everything I needed to say, including though my music. Especially through my music.

    Me: You had so many accomplishments for such a young woman. While you were alive, what did you consider to be your biggest one? Your singing? Your marriage? Your fashion line? Gosh, there are so many choices for you.

    Selena: Oh, my singing, definitely

    Me: Sure. And now from our perspective in the afterlife, do you still see that as your biggest achievement?

    Selena: Yes, and I’m so humbled and amazed that I won the—

    Jamie: She’s showing me some sort of award like the Latin music award or Latin Hall of Fame.

    Me: Aw.  Now, would you like to share a past life that you think influenced this last one the most?


    Selena: There was a life when I was a little girl living on a farm. We had different animals groups in one pasture, one field. Horses, goats, cows, pigs; they’re all together.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: I’m guessing she’s around five years old, and she’s watching her mother go off into the field. She would sing whenever she would put out the food—the hay, the feed.

    Me: Where were you?

    Jamie: She’s pointing to the United States like near Colorado or Utah. Oh, Utah.

    Me: Can you give me a time period?

    Selena: It was the late 1800s, right around the turn of the century. We didn’t have enough land to divide the animals, or we would have, so we had to put them all together. My mother thought it’d be a beautiful idea if we didn’t fence off small portions, because she felt they needed the room to walk around, but they didn’t get along. They were mean to each other! So, my mother would go out into the pasture and—

    Jamie: The pasture looks big, you know—bigger than an acre, but there are definitely different animals in it.

    Me: Yeah.

    Selena: —she would sing, and the animals got so used to her coming out and singing, and they paid attention to her and forgot about what they were fussing about.

    Me: How profound! I can see just how that influenced your life as Selena!

    Selena: Ah, I loved it! My mother would just make up songs; it was never a song that we had heard at church or somewhere. It was just whatever she wanted to sing. And she said mostly she would do it to make me laugh. She would sing about the color of the pigs and how dirty they were, and that no mother would lick them clean, because they were so dirty!

    Erik and I laugh.

    Selena: I just loved it, and I realized that everyone gets along with music.

    Me: How about that! Now, was your mother in that life also in this last life as one of your friends or relatives?

    Selena: No, she actually was not.

    Me: Okay. From your perspective as a free soul, do you have any messages for humanity? Do you have anything else you’d like to say to your fans, the world, or anyone in particular? You know, they miss you so much.

     Selena: Thank you so much for saying that!

    Me: Well, it’s true.

    Selena: I would love to encourage anyone at any age to learn how to play an instrument: their voice, the spoons, whatever! Rhythm, sound has such a profound healing. Sound it such a healing modality.

    Me: Yes, I believe so strongly in that, too.

    Selena: It is composed of vibration, and that’s what we’re composed of, too.

    Me: That’s right. It’s food for the soul.

    Selena: It is!

    Me: Okay, Erik, do you have anything else you’d like to say to or ask Selena?

    Erik: Well, I just want to thank you for all the donations you’ve given to charities and foundations.

    Selena: You’re welcome, Erik.  I wouldn’t have done this any other way, and I’m so proud of Chris and the rest of my family for keeping my legacy alive. I love them so much. I love my fans, too, because they were like family to me. I don’t know if they knew how much I felt that way about them.

    Me: You had wonderful fans, and I bet they picked up on how you felt about them. Well, thanks so much, Selena.

    Selena: Thanks so much!

    Jamie: She’s so cute!

    Selena (giving a little bow): I love you!

    Me: Aw, I love you, too, Honey.

    Jamie: She’s gone.

    Me: Have you ever watched the movie about Selena played by Jennifer Lopez?

    Jamie; No! Is that the one “get your groove back” or something?

    Me: Oh, no! This one is just called, “Selena,” and Jennifer portrays her sweet spirit so well. It’s really good. I hope you rent it some day.

    Jamie: I guess I am going to have to watch that.

    Me: Yeah!

    Here’s a beautiful tribute to Selena created by her family:



  • March14th


    Happy Celebrity Friday everyone! Because I received so many requests from blog members for me to channel Meher Baba, I obediently complied. Enjoy his wisdom.

    I also want to give you a follow up on my Healing Perspective exercise. For those of you who aren’t familiar with it, please read it HERE. I’ve been going through the recreated story every day, and I can’t tell you how amazing it’s been. When I think of the loss of Erik’s body and the tragic life he led before he died, I’m no longer gripped with that intense sadness which caused me to limp through life before. I also added a part: I imagine him sitting beside me on the couch, smiling, and we hug each other for a long time. I feel his euphoria and that feeling spills into me. It’s lovely. I hope you try all of this and relive the story every day. 

    Me: Meher Baba, so many of my blog members love you. I’ve gotten so many requests for me to interview you!

    Meher: I’m just delighted to see you. I’m just delighted!

    Me: Aw!

    Robert (chuckling): He seems giddy.

    Me: I understood, early on after Erik’s transition, that he was your pupil for a while. Is that true?

    Robert: Erik was a pupil of Meher Baba?

    Me: Yeah.

    Robert: Erik never mentioned that to me.

    Erik: Yeah, but it’s true.

    Me: Was he an unruly student?

    Meher: Well. I’ll be honest. He needs a little discipline.

    I envision Baba banishing Erik to the corner with a dunce cap on.

    Robert and I roar with laughter.

    Me: What did you teach him?


    Me (chuckling): And did he pass?

    Meher: All my students pass. There is no failing.

    Robert (laughing): I like the way he answered that.

    Me: I wish I had had him as a teacher! Okay, I guess we’ll start with the questions. First, what was your spiritual mission here?

    Meher: Christianity is something a lot of people identify with. There are a lot of Christians in the world. When you talk about Christ—and I’m not saying I can compare myself with Christ, because I was a completely different person—but we both spoke the same message which was love and acceptance, but I also got a little bit more into the discipline side of things.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Meher: I tried to teach people that sometimes discipline is necessary in order for those who don’t know what their boundaries are to help them identify them.

    Robert: Whenever I’ve channeled him before, he uses the word “lamb” a lot. He says, “My flock” and “My lambs” and stuff.

    Meher: The reason I chose that is because when you think of a lamb, you don’t allow them to roam around freely in the pasture without a shepherd watching over them. If you allow them to roam free, they can get injured.

    Me: Yeah, or eaten!

    Meher: Yes, eaten by a wolf or some other predator, and when the shepherd is not there, you keep them within a fence. That is a metaphor for discipline.

    Me: Right.

    Meher: Discipline keeps you safe, but you need to know sometimes I went a little overboard with my discipline; I’ll admit that.

    Me: Ah.

    Meher: And when I say, “overboard” I mean more so in my projection of my emotions that I felt inside. Some of my disciples thought I was genuinely furious or angry. All of that came from my own personal lessons of dealing with frustration with seeing the truth, wanting to guide people in a certain direction and then having to deal with their own ability to have free will.

    Robert laughs.

    Me: Yeah, that free will thing can be a booger. Erik, is that one of the reasons that you were a pupil of his? Did you have to learn your boundaries and acquire that discipline early on?

    Erik: Yes and no. When I lived my life as Erik—you know this, Mom—in dealing with bipolar disease, you just don’t know what your boundaries are, because your emotions are so extreme, but the way boundaries helped in my life was a lesson in the appreciation of boundaries and being able to recognize them more quickly. I developed this emotional connection with boundaries. It’s outside of intellect. It’s an emotional thing. It helps strengthen boundaries.

    Me: Hmm.

    Erik: But yes, I needed more training in it. The “no” part when I crossed over was just being able to remind myself of the things I didn’t necessarily get right away—things I already knew but had forgotten. Meher Baba helped me to reconnect with that. Then after that, you know, when you hang out with your friends and you talk about the same things?

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: It’s that kind of connection.

    Me: Ah! So, Baba, your spiritual mission was to teach both love and discipline?

    Meher: Love and discipline. Maybe a better word that’s not as loaded is boundaries.

    Me: Okay. Teaching love and boundaries. Were you here to learn anything?

    Meher: We’re always here to learn something. Sometimes the teacher must learn what they’re here to teach. In teaching others love and boundaries, I was also here to teach myself that to a great degree but on a different level of awareness. It goes back to what Erik was saying about fine-tuning, and some of the lessons that came up for me in that process were, for instance, dealing with frustration. Sometimes I would relay things to people that would come across as very hostile when really that was not my intention at all. Some of my followers were afraid of me sometimes.

    Robert: He’s being so honest!

    Meher: Yes, I could have a temper.

    Robert: He’s talking about back problems.

    Meher: It’s not so easy to be understanding and patient when you’re in pain.

    Me: So, he had back problems?

    Robert: I didn’t know that.

    Meher: And that was a lesson in responsibility. I didn’t learn that until later. I was taking too much on my shoulders.

    Me: So, you were taking other people’s responsibilities on your back, your shoulders?

    Meher: Yes, partly, but this was more that I felt alone. There was no other peer that I could call on. When you’re the only one up there on the mountain, and there’s no one to call on—

    Me: That’s a lot of responsibility.

    Meher: It doesn’t really matter if you recognize that responsibility should be shared; it can still affect your physically. For me—

    Robert: I guess he had some sort of accident that aggravated the back pain or something. I guess that was the catalyst for him to recognize the lesson of responsibility.

    Me: Do you feel like you accomplished everything you were here to learn and teach?

    Meher: When I exited life in the physical form, the work that I could do up to that point was done, but work never ends. As soon as I became reoriented to my true self, my true form—our true form—I got right back to work again.

    Me: Okay. Can you share another life that influenced this last one?

    Meher: It related very much to being a teacher, but –

    Robert: I’ve heard this one before, but I’m not very familiar with it—Sufi?

    Me: S-u-f-i, right?

    Robert: I guess so. He shows me a visual of him as a young man practicing Sufism. I guess that’s what it’s called.

    Me: I think it is.

    Robert: He was getting connected with loving everything, every experience, the good and the bad.

    Meher: That’s the way you learn to fully embrace love. You can embrace what is regardless of the label you put on it. If you place conditions on it, then you’re not really living in love. That life prepared me for that.

    Robert: I just see him sitting down. I don’t know if in Sufism they meditate, but in the image he gave me, that’s what he seems to be doing. He was sitting alone, but he also shows me images of them dancing. There’s lots of joy.

    Meher: Think of the priesthood and nuns in particular. Nuns talk about being married to God. With Sufism, that’s what it is. It doesn’t matter if you’re male or female. It’s like you’re married to God.

    Me: Which means what?

    Meher: It’s to get you to become comfortable with attachment, to be connected to something, tied to something or someone. That’s very necessary. Love has two sides to it. It has the attachment part of it, which is perpetual because we’re all connected to each other, and then there’s the detachment side to love, which is about recognizing that, even though we are all connected, that doesn’t mean we have to take on someone else’s burdens. If someone else is in pain, that doesn’t mean we have to become pain also. Sometimes you have to love someone enough to let them struggle. Also, you have to be detached from how they’re feeling if that’s not the way you want to feel. If you’re too attached to what they’re feeling, and you’re not detached from it, then you might not recognize what that person needs.

    Me: Okay. Here are some from a blog member: “I respect Baba very much, but for the sake of understanding, I need to ask this question. Baba spent much of his life bragging about how great he was, yet in his boundless consciousness, he felt no personal ego. You proclaimed to the world, “No one loves me as much as I deserve to be loved.”

    Meher: That sounds a lot like hypocrisy, doesn’t it?

    Me: Yes!

    Robert: He’s trying to choose his words carefully.

    Me: Oh, and the blog member also wants to know if enlightenment can be an excuse for bragging.

    Meher: I never professed to being the most humble person. Everyone thinks that with love and discipline comes humility. I had that to a certain degree, but I didn’t have that in love of self. I was also, in those moments, trying to show people that emotional honesty is about being kind to yourself and being kind to others.


    Robert: He’s just kind of sitting here thinking for a minute.

    Meher: It’s also a very good lesson in reverse psychology. Sometimes you have to do the opposite of what it is that you want other people to do, but I will tell you that in the moment of saying those things I didn’t realize that that’s what I was doing. I was just trying to profess that we, as human beings living on this earth, just don’t have the capability to love another person in the way that we can love ourselves, because we only truly know ourselves. We know ourselves like no one else can. Whether we can admit what we know about ourselves or how we love ourselves is another story. You can be blind to that but still be unconsciously aware of it.

    Me: Yeah, as a human, there are barriers that prevent us from totally opening up to others. It’s really hard to be completely vulnerable with others, and, when you can’t, it’s difficult to truly and thoroughly know that other person. I can imagine that can be a barrier to love, too. Okay, here’s another question. “Baba, when you were alive, you condemned your lovers—I don’t know if this blog member meant “followers”—from indulging in any occult practices like contacting the spirit world using mediums, but you came to many people after you died. So, how do you come to terms with that?”

    Meher: It’s just another lesson in discipline. There are many people who, if they pursue the occult, for instance, and don’t have well-established boundaries, they can set themselves up for challenges that they didn’t necessarily need to go through.

    Me: Like?

    Meher: That’s what I was doing. I was trying to protect people.

    Me: From what? Evil spirits? Negative entities?

    Meher: There are entities out there, but, with how things are expressed, there really is no positive or negative. Those are just the labels we put on things, but if you don’t set good boundaries, then a spirit can come in who might think, “Well, the door is wide open. I’ll just come in and make myself at home.”

    Me: So, there we go. Boundaries again.

    Meher: Right. If you’re completely fine with that, and your guides know on a soul level that that’s what you’re open to, then these things can be allowed to happen. Once you realize that you don’t need the experience anymore, then you’ve gotten that lesson in boundaries, and you can move on from it. Sometimes it’s not easy to pick up and move on. Sometimes you can get very broken down in the process. Many of the people in my culture needed those lessons. They needed a strong hand.

    Me: You always insisted that your devotees completely surrender to you. He goes on, “On one hand, you’re Meher Baba, the Compassionate Father, but to your immediate circle you were always a harsh disciplinarian. Is it really so that, for those who surrender to you you’d make them go through a difficult life to help rid them of their karma to finish their lessons fast?” So I guess he treats his immediate circle harshly but wasn’t this way with everyone else.

    Meher: Again, if you’re going to be on the pinnacle of the mountain without any help, if you were to be that disciple that other disciples follow, you need to be strong. You need to have a thick skin. You need to know what you’re boundaries are. So, if I tell you to surrender to me and you do that without question and allow me to treat you in a way that you’d never allow another person to do, there’s a lesson in there. I never said this in life, but the lesson I was teaching them is that that’s not okay. You need to say something and stand up to me. If any of my disciples had done that to me, I would have come back with more force, but, again, that’s another lesson in boundaries.

    Me: Did you do this in a calculated way?

    Meher: It was not calculated. I was a very passionate person, and there were times when I allowed the passion in my heart—and we all have an ego. I definitely did, and it’s impossible not to when living in the physical world. —But sometimes that passion fed my ego. So, the ego allowed me to do things that could cause harm. The ego always does that. On a soul level, that was never the intention. The intention was rooted in teaching discipline or boundaries.

    Me: Exactly. So, really, unlike Jesus—

    Meher: It had to be automatic in that way. It had to be expressed in that way.

    Me: Right. Now, from what I understand, Jesus didn’t come in with complete spiritual amnesia, but it sounds like you did. Is that true?

    Meher: Yes, until I got to a certain age. There were some experiences that happened when I was young that helped me to remember. It was in my late teens, early twenties. That was when I started encountering different spiritual teachers, and that shaped my future.

    Me: So, are you saying that reconnected you to the spiritual and rid you of some of your amnesia? Did those experiences help you remember who and what you are?

    Meher: Spiritual ones in connection with emotions, and seeing the individual as something to be cherished.

    Me: So, those were lessons in emotional honesty.

    Meher: Yes, and that everything has to do with boundaries, and if someone treats you in a way that makes you feel “less than,” you need to set boundaries. I apologize to those for which I created more challenges, but I was only trying to help them.

    Me: Yeah. That’s necessary sometimes as a teacher.

    Meher: I also wanted the members of my flock to understand that I really know this on an emotional level. Every time we cross over, we go through a life review. That’s been said time and time again. This helps you connect to the fact that anything you say to someone else, you have to be aware of how it’s projected, because you’re in part responsible for the feelings they feel even if it wasn’t your intention.

    Robert: He’s showing me a ship.

    Meher: You can direct that ship in a certain way, and, in your interaction with people, you can choose words that carry a certain energy that might make the person respond in a different way, feel an emotion in a different way. One word might come across and make that person feel belittlement, but maybe that wasn’t your intention.

    Me: Exactly. So, it’s what you project, not what you intend. Those two can be very different. Just a couple more questions. “In regards to your beloved wife, what was your reason for being celibate?” I didn’t know you were celibate.

    Robert: I didn’t either.

    Meher: It all goes back to discipline again. There’s a fine line between discipline and control. Control comes from repression. Discipline can easily cross over into repression, so for me, celibacy was an act of repression. It crossed that line. In fact, it crossed over in other ways in my interaction with people.

    Me: So, in celibacy, who’s being repressed?

    Meher: Me! Not just me, though, but my wife as well. I was repressing my sexual desires. The human desire for sex comes from the need to procreate, but it also is a reminder of our connection to each other and the joy that connection can bring.

    Me: Well do you regret being so harsh or projecting harshness?

    Meher: I regret nothing.

    Me: Well, everything is a lesson, I guess, even that.

    Meher: Yes.

    Me: Okay. I have two last questions. The last one will be yours, Erik, so be thinking of something.

    Erik: Okay.

    Me: What is your overall message to humanity?

    (Long pause)

    Robert (chuckling): Wow. Okay. This seems like he’s undermining his own self!

    Meher: He who speaks loudest isn’t always worthy of following.

    Robert (to Meher): Are you saying that maybe people shouldn’t follow you?

    Meher: That’s not what I’m saying at all. I’m just saying that you need to consider that just because someone speaks the loudest and seems to put forth a certain image, they shouldn’t necessarily lead you. Erik and I have been talking a lot about the connection of the heart to the mind, so when you’re in the presence of someone, you need to make sure you don’t get completely enraptured by the feelings you get, because sometimes that can become a lure that the predator uses to pull the prey in. I’m not saying do not enjoy that in the moment, but if you become more familiar with that individual and you start to feel “less than,” you need to allow that feeling to funnel up to the brain, and you need to start questioning why that is happening. Ask, “Do I deserve this?” And do not make excuses for that other person or yourself.

    Me: So, what you’re saying is he who speaks the loudest, you’re not talking about a leader who rants and raves and projects harshness or has a temper. You’re talking about—

    Meher: I’m talking about charisma.

    Me: Charisma. Okay.

    Meher: A person who has charisma can be whispering and still be the loudest one in the room.

    Robert: Wow, that’s very good.

    Me: Okay, Erik. What about you? What do you have to say to him or ask him?

    Robert: What was your question for Erik?

    Me: No, I want him to ask Meher Baba a question.

    Erik (to Robert): Dude, I already know what the questions is.

    Robert (to Erik): But I don’t know! I’m a part of this conversation, too!

    Robert laughs.

    Erik: Look, I think Baba’s a cool dude, and I can relate to him, because sometimes his actions are misunderstood or misinterpreted, but he’s been gone for over 40 years, and people are still talking about him. In time, a lot of the judgments that we placed on his actions will fade, and we’ll start to see the bigger picture of what he taught people.

    Me: Like the true essence with the ego stripped away?

    Erik: Yeah. The ego always fucks everything up. I don’t want to put words in Jesus’s mouth (apparently Jesus just appeared and is hanging in the wings, listening.) but every person, regardless of whether they have an awareness of spirit or not, has an ego that can come into play and muddy the water a little bit.

    Me: Yeah, and you were often misunderstood, Erik.

    Erik: Oh, yes.

    Me: Okay, well, thank you Meher Baba.

    Meher: My pleasure.

    By the way, Jamie is going to have a big online event with Erik. For a whole hour, he’ll answer questions from the participants. It’ll only cost $20, so I hope you all will attend! It’ll be on March 26th starting at 5:00 PM CDT. I’ll know more later and will keep you posted. Until then, to judge interest, please answer this poll.

    Addendum: The link to register for Erik’s throw down is: HERE

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