Channeling Erik®
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  • July31st2015


    Here is the last installment of our interview with Tesla. Next week, I plan on posting a video of a session I had with Kim Babcock. I’ve scheduled test sessions with two others and plan a second try on another. When you’ve had a chance to see them all, I’ll create a poll so you can rank them. If there’s any doubt, we can have additional sessions. It’s hard to judge just with one. 

    Me: Are you incarnated now?

    Tesla: No.

    Robert (chuckling): He gives me this image of himself hovering.

    Me (chuckling): Waiting to make his grand entrance?

    Robert: No, it’s like there are people who are doing things—and it’s not just about electricity, energy and stuff like that. It’s about all sorts of different patterns that he has an affinity for. Like he shows this person who’s working as an engineer, and he’s standing behind him sending him everything he needs to know on a telepathic level to help him understand how to engineer something so that one little piece helps create something that will become disruptive in a very good way for humanity. It becomes the one little piece that, down the road, will become life changing.

    Me: Okay.

    Robert: I asked him just now if the cars—

    Me: Yeah, Tesla Motors? Let’s talk about how you feel about that.

    Robert: I asked him if that person he’s working with is part of that company.

    Tesla: I do that some, but not as much as you would think. If I compel myself to put all of my energy in that, then I wouldn’t really be living a “life” where I let all that go. I just come in if I’m needed and if it’s relevant to the bigger picture of things. It isn’t just limited to Tesla Motors, though.

    Me: So the work you do in your afterlife is to help other people like engineers—

    Tesla: There’s that aspect of it, but it’s not just mechanical things we create that funnel energy through it. It’s anything that allows energy to flow through it in a way that we identify with as happening.

    Me: What do you mean?

    Tesla: It could be a Reiki practitioner.

    Me: Oh, okay!

    Tesla: It could be a medium.

    Me: So you work with people involved with the flow of energy.

    Tesla: Yes. So it doesn’t have to be a mechanical thing. It can be a human body or another organic form. I teach some people how to release things, let them go. Energy is all about that. Energy has to have an influx and outflow.

    Me: What is your proudest achievement?

    Tesla: If there’s anything I’d attach the word, “pride” to, it’d be on what we just spoke of: to help awaken someone to something they didn’t know they could do.

    Me: No, your proudest achievement as a human.

    Robert: He’s showing me some sort of battery. He said, “The battery.”

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Robert: Did he invent the battery?

    Me: Oh, I have no idea. I’ll have to look that up. Well, where do you think the future of energy is?

    Robert: Oh, also, he said something about the fact that some of the work he did helped set the stage for the creation of solar panels. That’s how I’m interpreting it, anyway.

    Me: Oh okay.

    Robert: He gave me the image of a solar panel.

    Me: Okay, so where do you see the future of energy going?

    Tesla: To sustainability. That’s the simplest answer. There will be no worry in how much we’re consuming, and there will be no waste.

    Me: What kind of energy source is that going to be?

    Tesla: It will take several steps to get to the point where we have a limitless supply. Fusion is going to be a big step on that path.

    Me: Okay.

    Tesla: Not fission, but fusion. That will be widely used within 20 years, but containment is a very important aspect of that.

    Robert (laughing): Okay, he’s getting all excited about the fusion.

    Tesla: The great thing about fusion is that, unlike fission, which produces a lot of radiation that could leak out and do, harm, fusion—the kind I’m referring to—does not do that. This type of fusion will just simply fizzle out. It won’t produce all of that contamination. But eventually, we’ll be able to tap into the pattern that feeds this reality and that will become our unlimited source of power.

    Me: Awesome.

    Zero Point Energy, I bet. Dark matter? Dark energy? Should have asked.

    Tesla: And it won’t just fuel our mechanical devices. It’ll fuel our bodies, themselves.

    Me: Oh, interesting. So what do you think about the state of humanity now?

    Tesla: My simplest answer, which mirrors what other spirits have said, is that there is no concern. There is no absence of hope. There’s no anger or disappointment toward humanity in how they’ve handled the planet. I see it all as part of a process, which is preparing us not only to sustain this planet but others as well and in a way that doesn’t harm anything else. Sometimes you have to break a few eggs to make an omelet.

    Me (chuckling): Oh, that’s so true.

    And we sure are breaking a lot of eggs. Must be a huge ass omelet.

    Me: Do you have any messages or advice for us?

    Tesla: I really have nothing further to add.

    Me: Yeah, you’ve already given us so many things to think about. What do you think about Channeling Erik? Do you have any advice for us on that front?

    Tesla: I’m quite happy with Channeling Erik because it’s one of the many things that I’m involved with.

    Me: Oh, okay. Tell me more!

    Robert: He’s showing me a bunch of wall sockets, and he’s got himself plugged into all of them.

    Tesla: Channeling Erik is one of them.

    Me: In what way are your involved?

    Robert (teasing): So did you learn your lesson about relaxation?

    Me: I guess not!

    All three of us laugh.

    Tesla: My dear boy, sometimes the work is relaxing.

    Me: Well that’s true. My work is relaxing. So what do you do with Channeling Erik? How are you involved?

    Tesla: I’m helping those who are awakening to their gifts as mediums and other types of healers. I’m helping them navigate that process. There are a lot of them that are being awakened.

    Me: That is so true, and I see that Erik is helping people develop their gifts, too.

    Tesla: Yes.

    Me: Okay, Erik, do you have any questions for Mr. Tesla?

    Erik: There’s one thing I want to say. I want to thank Nikola, publically, because he’s helped me guide a lot of people.

    Me: How?

    Erik: Oh, Mom. Whenever I don’t understand how to feed someone a certain kind of energy to help them get something, Tesla helps me do it.

    Me: Awesome. That’s great. Well, thank you so much, Mr. Tesla. I really appreciate the time you spent with us here. I’m glad that you were able to enlighten us in so many ways.

    Tesla: Your welcome, and thank you for the opportunity.

    Me: Thank you Erik and Robert. Erik, I love you!

    Erik: Love you more.

    Gotta break those eggs!

    Gotta break those eggs!

  • July30th2015


    Yesterday, while I was sitting on the couch, computer in my lap, I felt the most intense goosebumps on my right leg. Had it intensified further, it would have been painful. I recognized that as Erik’s energy and knew that he was sitting beside me, keeping me company. He was probably laughing at my clumsy typing and plethora of typos. The sensation lasted a long time and was so lovely I didn’t want it to go away. If any of you have experienced very localized goosebumps, know that it’s probably from spirit, Erik or otherwise.

    Here’s Part Two of Tesla’s interview!

    Me: Okay, tell me about your upbringing and how it made you who you are—your relationship with your parents or whatever is important to defining who Nikola Tesla was.

    Tesla: My upbringing only reinforced the behavior I had as an adult and reinforced the pattern of energy that I was naturally inclined to be, with my soul pumping too much energy.

    Robert: He’s giving me the impression that he was in this taskmaster situation where play was considered a luxury.

    Me: Oh!

    Robert: Did I interpret that correctly?

    Tesla: Yes.

    Robert: Oh, okay.

    Tesla: That just reinforced what I became as an adult. You know this very well: What a child learns and experiences becomes patterns they tend to perpetuate. Notice I use the word, “patterns.” Energy expresses itself in different kinds of patterns, and those patterns then can be seen visually and can manifest one’s life. If you were to look at that purely from an electricity standpoint, when electricity flows through different kinds of media, it will show itself in different ways. Sometimes it’ll flow through one media and look like waves instead of jagged edges. It can look jagged when it flows through other kinds of matter. It may have little offshoots. It all depends on the kind of matter or media the current flows through. I’m using that example to show you how when electricity flows through the matter of the physical body of a spirit who has had all these experiences throughout its lifetime, it’s funneled in a way that makes that energy behave in a certain way. So the experiences themselves can alter patterns of energy that make up the soul and the physical body. I hope that makes sense.

    Me: Yes, it does. Tell me about your relationship with Thomas Edison.

    Tesla: Edison stole a lot of my ideas!

    Me: Oooo.

    Robert chuckles.

    Me: He promised you $50,000 if you made his direct current generator more efficient, but after you did that, he said, “You don’t understand American humor!” I think he gave you a $10 a week raise. So you resigned immediately and went on to do your own thing. Tell me about that.

    Tesla: That was really a lesson about standing up to my father. That kind of behavior—being taken advantage of by someone who I saw, to a certain extent, as a father figure—made me realize that I deserved more respect than that.

    Me: Sure.

    Tesla: There were many ideas besides that one that he took from me.

    Me: How do you get along with him now?

    Tesla: You understand that when you’re in the physical body, you’re playing a role so you let that go. You don’t hold on to the animosity. We understand that what I did that he got credit for I had a hand in creating. In that co-creation, he was meant to get the credit. I wasn’t. Sometimes you’re meant to be on stage, and sometimes you’re meant to be behind the scenes.

    Me: Okay. Were you here on the earth as Nikola Tesla to learn anything?

    Tesla: As it relates to the physical body, it’s what I mentioned earlier about learning how to play and learning about the meaning of relaxation. I also came to understand how people can cross your boundaries and how I pushed myself so hard that I crossed my own boundaries. That encompasses a lot—standing up to people, for instance. A lot of lessons can stem from these.

    Me: Yeah, sure. Do you think you learned your lesson?

    Tesla: Absolutely.

    Me: Did you learn as a human or as a—

    Tesla: After I crossed over.

    Me: I figured. Yeah.

    Tesla: The end of my life—

    Robert: He’s projecting all this sadness surrounding the end of his life. There seemed to be a lot of chaos. Whether others could see it or not, it was going on in his brain like a tornado.

    Me: Well, what kind of chaos are you talking about?

    Tesla: Emotional.

    Me: Oh. Aw, tell me more.

    Tesla: I believed, especially when I was younger, that I was a genius, and when the rest of the world didn’t treat me that way, I became angry because they didn’t see me. At some point, I questioned whether I was crazy. The chaos came from constantly feeling that anger and doubt and the loss of my ability to trust the decisions I made in life.

    Me: Oh, that’s awful. Okay, so do you have any regrets? Is there anything you would do differently if you had to do it again?

    Tesla: Not to sound immodest, but I don’t have anything I regret because regret insinuates a choice that shouldn’t have been made. Every choice that I made I was supposed to make. That’s true for everyone.

    Me: Because?

    Tesla: Because it’s compelling you to become more aware. Then that awareness opens the awareness for you to gain a greater understanding of something. When you have an awareness of something, it doesn’t mean that you know how to integrate that into your life, but it does open the doorway to you taking the first step to doing that—towards integration, correct?

    Me: Yes. So for example, you worked tirelessly and had very little time for play. And you gained from that the awareness of how important it is to have a balanced life?

    Tesla: Correct. In the physical world, I did gain that awareness, but I didn’t integrate it into practice.

    Me: Right.

    Tesla: But now that I’m on this side, I can speak on such matters. Most people wouldn’t assume that I would speak about this because I mostly speak about energy, but that relates to energy: relaxation, work, these are all different patterns of energy.

    Me: That’s true.

    Tesla: And they have a beautiful waveform to them.

    Me: Can you share a life that most influenced your one as Nikola Tesla?

    (Long pause)

    Robert: This looks like it happened several hundred years before he passed over. He worked on a ship. It looks like a pirate ship, but he says it’s not. It was a slave ship, some kind of slaving ship. It was even before—this was a long time ago. He’s giving me background that slavery has existed for thousands of years, and it wasn’t always involving slaves from Africa. So this is even before the whole slave trade thing in Africa. There was some kind of ship going across a channel, and he was one of the individuals who worked these big oars—very monotonous, constant rowing.

    Tesla: That life, to me, had a lot of meaning because it was, to some degree, setting up the life of Nikola Tesla. You never stop rowing. You keep pushing forward with the same thing. There was that same focus. So it taught me focus and get into the flow of things.

    Robert: He doesn’t really go into a lot of details other than that.

    Tesla Toward the End of His LIfe

    Tesla Toward the End of His LIfe

  • July29th2015


    This is a recent interview I did on Soul Traveller Radio with host, Karen Swain. It was a lot of fun. It’ll be a podcast, too, and I’ll post that when it’s ready. 

    Many of you have requested that I interview Nikola Tesla, so here he is!

    Me: I hear we have Nikola Tesla here to interview today. Hello, Mr. Tesla.

    Robert: Yes, and Paul Walker said he’s going to be polite and let Mr. Tesla go first.

    Me: We have a lot of requests for you, Paul, so you’ll be next. Don’t worry. And I appreciate that.

    Paul: Thank you, ma’am.

    He’s next in line.

    Me: Mr. Tesla, thank you so much for agreeing to do this interview.

    Tesla: It’s my pleasure.

    Me: I first want to ask you what your spiritual mission was while you were here on the earthly plane as Nikola Tesla.

    Tesla: My mission was to awaken humanity to a broader experience of what it means to be alive and to understand that everything is a pattern of energy. Past sessions you’ve had with various mediums have been building up to the conversation you and I are getting ready to have—that everything is energy, and every form of energy has its own unique pattern. This is what my purpose was when I was living in the physical world.

    Me: Interesting. Can you go into more—?

    Tesla: Most of what I focused on had to do with electricity, different kinds of electrical energy.

    Me: Okay.

    Tesla: But there was much more to it than that. Much of my work was ridiculed, and it took about 100 years or more for people to finally catch up with what I was doing. It was so far ahead of its time.

    Me: Reflecting on your life and this very complicated spiritual mission of yours, do you think you accomplished it?

    Robert (chuckling): He’s very matter of fact when it comes to this kind of stuff.

    Tesla: I accomplished everything I set out to do.

    Robert laughs.

    Me: You have a lot of humility!

    Robert: He has NO problem with confidence!

    Me: Well, otherwise, you would not have been able to accomplish what you did!

    Tesla: You have to understand that you can’t be insecure about what it is you’re meant to do. You have to project confidence. Some people project confidence in order to mask their fear.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Tesla: In the physical body I sometimes did that. I was human. But I’m speaking about the confidence, from where I am now, that has no fear involved. It’s just a matter of fact, the truth. This is what I set out to do; this is what I was going to do. If I had had fear attached to that, it would have inhibited me.

    Me: So were you a very confident man when you were human?

    Tesla: Most of the time. In those moments when I wasn’t confident, I could project confidence.

    Me: Okay. You dropped out of school for various reasons, and then you had a nervous breakdown. So obviously your confidence must have hit a major—

    Tesla: That’s what I needed at the time. I was projecting confidence to mask my fear so I had this façade that couldn’t hold. Eventually, it was going to blow over. A kettle can only hold so much steam.

    Me: Tell me about your nervous breakdown. What happened? Why did you have one?

    Tesla: There are different things to look at in the physical world that would push someone in that direction, but I was very driven. That’s number one. If you never give yourself a break, if you never relax, then you never recharge and re-center yourself. Any little thing can tip the balance. But then, the kind of being I am—the soul connected to that physical body—was very driven by energy patterns that a human body is just not able to process.

    Me: What do you mean?

    Tesla: This is why I was so drawn to electricity and all kinds of patterns of energy. My soul fed those to the body you know as Nikola Tesla. That’s more information than a human body can process. It overloaded my nervous system. I had this overflow of energy flowing through me.

    Me: Okay.

    Tesla: The brain literally can’t parse through all those energy signals and patterns. With everything else that comes along in a human life, a human experience, because of the challenges we create for ourselves, becomes one too many things. That’s what happened to me.

    Me: I’ve heard you worked on very little sleep. They say you had around two hours of sleep a night.

    Tesla: Of course, and that goes back to the amount of energy that flowed through my body. I mentioned earlier that I didn’t know how to rest or relax.

    Me: Mm hm.

    Tesla: I erroneously believed that if I were to go to sleep, I would miss something. There might be something I could have done that I missed because I was sleeping. The physical form and all the things it requires to be maintained, I find quite tedious. From the perspective of that part of me that I identify as spiritual judged it a pointless.

    Robert laughs.

    Me: Okay.

    Tesla: But there is a point to it. I was learning how to integrate play with work.

    Me: And did you learn how to do that?

    Tesla: By having experienced that kind of life, I learned how to do it.

    Me: I see.

    Tesla: I eventually learned the value of relaxation and play.

    Me: Okay. You were so driven, you said. Was that in part because you wanted to earn your father’s approval?

    (Long pause)

    Robert: He just gave a very short answer of “yes,” and I was waiting to see if he was going to say more.

    Me: Can you expand on that?

    Tesla: The prideful part of me didn’t want to be seen as a buffoon.

    Me: Okay.

    Tesla: So I pushed myself harder and harder and harder to prove myself to, not just my father, but also to many other people. Of course it didn’t work out that way because many considered me to be a quack. They considered me to be even more of a buffoon because I was so out of touch with the reality they were living.

    Me: You were so far advanced?

    Tesla: Yes.

    Nikola Tesla

    Nikola Tesla

  • July8th2015


    Today, I got back from an appointment, and just before I got out of my car, I spotted something yellow on the floor. It’s an Airsoft pellet, the exact same type and color Erik occasionally apports and drops from the ceiling over me. He used to love playing Airsoft war with the neighborhood kids when he was very young. There is no way that pellet could have wandered in on its own. We don’t even have any Airsoft guns or pellets anymore. Pretty cool. Thanks for the “hello,” my sweet boy.

    Pellet from Heaven

    Pellet from Heaven

    Here’s the information for the radio show I’m going to be on tomorrow at 1:00 PM CT:

    Be sure to join me!

    Be sure to join me!

    Now for the grand finale of our friend, Judas:

    Me: Can you share one of the lives that most influenced your one as Judas?

    Robert: He was telling me earlier that he was hoping you’d ask that.

    (Long pause)

    Robert: It involved betrayal.

    Judas: In many of my incarnations, the theme was betrayal. In the one I want to share, I’m a chimpanzee.

    Robert: He’s playing out a bunch of visuals now. I’m trying to figure out what he’s talking about. In this one it was about a dereliction of duty.

    Judas: We were going to drink at a river.

    Me: His troop?

    Robert: Yeah, his group of chimps.

    Judas: I wasn’t a leader. I wasn’t the alpha. I was a mother with a baby.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Judas: Part of me didn’t want the responsibility of taking care of a baby. I didn’t always take care of it and resented that I had it.

    Robert: Sounds like a human being.

    Me: Yeah, some.

    Judas: So we went to the river to drink, and my anger at everyone else for me believing they were making me feel this guilt over that unwanted responsibility made me not warn them of the dangers at the river. There were crocodiles lurking just off the banks, and I knew they were there, but I let them go there on purpose.

    Me: How awful!

    Robert: That sounds a lot like how it played out with Jesus, only it’s a little different because in that life you all communicated.

    Judas: In this life, I did not communicate with anyone. I spitefully kept all of this to myself. So the dereliction of duty was not warning them of the danger.

    Me: So, what happened?

    Judas: There was the betrayal as well, but also my own baby. I put it at the edge of the water fully expecting a crocodile to get it.

    I gasp.

    Judas: And it did.

    Me: Aw.

    Judas: And it didn’t just get the baby. Other crocodiles got 2 or 3 others. No one knew what I did, of course.

    Me: Well, I guess you got Friday and Saturday nights free for partying.

    Judas: In the moment, I felt unburdened. I didn’t realize I had burdened myself with guilt. I never had another baby after that. The reason I’m saying this is because human beings think they’re the only ones gifted with this broad range of emotions. Every species on this planet feels emotions, and chimpanzees express emotions in a similar way to humans. I think that’s why I chose that life. They can feel rage, betrayal, jealousy—

    Me: What did you get out of that life? Why did you design that life for yourself?

    Judas: Just to have the experience. It’s as simple as that.

    Me: So it wasn’t something like learning self-forgiveness?

    Judas: It was more about understanding responsibility. Being irresponsible and having the consequences of that taught me about the importance of responsibility.

    Me: Yep. Learning through contrast. The story of the human experience. That’s very interesting.

    Judas: Yes.

    Me: Do you have any messages or advice for humanity?

    (Long pause)

    Me: We need words of wisdom, Judas!

    Judas: My only advice is about behavior that humans are slowly evolving out of. We put people on pedestals and worship them.

    Me: Yeah.

    Judas: Then when we tire of them, we knock them off of the pedestal and want to crucify them literally or figuratively. This has happened over and over again in human history.

    Me: Including with Christ, I guess.

    Judas: This is why I chose that phrasing. We tend to do this because we don’t want to take responsibility for our own choices. We don’t want to think for ourselves. We want a leader to do it for us.

    Me: It’s hard.

    Judas: Of course it is. Then when that leader no longer fits the needs we designed for them, we get angry with them. It might start out with boredom or ridicule and then rise to anger. Parents often put their child on pedestals and have expectations for them that sometimes aren’t met. Sometimes we do it with politicians.

    Okay, so just so you know, I have no politicians on pedestals now.

    Judas: We do this with so many different people in so many different ways. If there is anything you desire in life, it’s in your power to create it for yourself. You just have to believe that you can.

    Me: That’s so true.

    Judas: That doesn’t excuse anyone else from saying everybody’s on their own because we are a collective. We’re interdependent. We’re here to help each other be responsible for each other and ourselves. That extends past human beings to the entire planet, and once we get out into the Universe, it will extend there.

    Me: So what do you think about the state of humanity? Please be gentle!

    Judas: This isn’t just my perspective. When you are in spirit, you have a deeper and broader awareness. It’s exponential compared to when you’re in a human body. We understand—and that includes me, of course—that everything that happens is meant to expand our awareness of ourselves, of the beauty of existence, all of those things. I won’t say that I’m not hopeful because that would not be truthful. I am hopeful.

    Me: Even the bad expands our awareness and helps us evolve.

    Judas: Yes. Every experience pushes us, compels us, motivates us, as consciousness, to become aware.

    Me: Aware of what?

    Judas: Awareness is so expansive. It just depends on what you’re focusing on. It can be multiple things or a single thing like, as I mentioned earlier, a betrayal.

    Me: Is there a general thing we’re striving to have a more expansive awareness of?

    Judas: I was just going to tell you. Human beings are, in the broadest sense of the word, healers. We’re born healers.

    Me: Hm.

    Judas: Just as Christ is, we are all healers. All life in the Universe is innately constructive rather than destructive. Although there are some times when it’s necessary to be destructive to heal. Sometimes things do have to break down, but ultimately, even the destruction of things can lead to new constructions. In order to come into full awareness of their being healers, human beings, they need to go through all of that physical pain, emotional suffering.

    Me: Interesting. So what do you think about Erik? He so graciously brought you in and listened to what you had to say.

    Judas: Erik is a perfect example to everyone of what a healer is.

    Me: How so?

    Judas (smiling): Because healing doesn’t just happen in one way. It happens in many ways, but what opens people up to allowing themselves to be healed is laughter.

    Oh, that’s Erik, all right.

    Judas: Erik is very good at understanding that because he spent a lifetime of not laughing very much.

    Me (sadly): Yes.

    Judas: You see how that contrast works? He uses laughter to heal. He uses laughter all the time.

    Robert: He makes me laugh all the time!

    Me: I know! Humor is powerful stuff.

    Robert: Very.

    Erik: Humor, joy, it all boils down to connection. That’s what heals.

    Robert: He’s showing me a visual of blog members or maybe even people not associated with the blog, and he’s sitting down with his hand on their shoulder whether they know it or not, you know, comforting, nurturing, supporting.

    Me (tearing up): Aw.

    Robert: All traits of a healer.

    Me: So you’re a healer, Erik.

    Erik: I guess so.

    Me: Aw, a healer and a guide. I’m so proud of you. Are you proud of him, Judas?

    Judas: Of course. We’re all very, very happy with Erik and the work he does.

    Me: Okay. Two more things. What do you think about Channeling Erik and the direction we’re going in?

    (Long pause)

    Me: Any advice? Anything?

    Judas: The only advice I have is for you. It’s about rest. Don’t feel guilty when you take time for yourself. It’s okay to stop for a little bit and disconnect.

    Me: Yes, I do that sometimes.

    Erik: There are times you know you have to do other things, but in the back of your mind you think, “Oh I have to do this. I have to do that.” Or “What do I do next?” Sometimes it’s okay to disconnect.

    Wish I knew how to be better at it!

    Erik: It’ll take practice. You’re just that kind of person, Mom. You’re very driven, and, like Michelle, you’re very kinetic.

    Me: Well, I like being busy.

    Judas: That’s okay, but if you start to feel like you’re suffering, then you know it’s time to pull away.

    Me: All right. Anything else on Channeling Erik?

    Judas: We’re all very pleased with Channeling Erik. It’s raising consciousness.

    Me: We?

    Judas: The collective. Human consciousness is being elevated by it in more ways than you know. I won’t go into it because it might seem so disconnected to you.

    Me: Well thank you. So Erik, why don’t you ask Judas a question?

    Erik: Okay, Mom.


    Robert (laughing): Be serious!

    Me: It’s not like him to be serious!

    Robert: Oh, I know. He just looked down and said, “So what do you think about toe jam?”

    Robert and I laugh.

    Me: And your answer is??

    Judas (smiling): It’s unsightly.

    Me: I guess so!

    Robert’s still laughing.

    Robert: Erik, do you have another, more serious question?

    Erik: I like to break the tension.

    Me: Good! That’s one of your gifts.


    Me: Talking toe jam with Judas!

    Robert: Mm hm.

    Erik: I’m trying to think of a good one, but I’m in kind of a goofy mood now.

    Me: Oh boy. Of course.

    Erik: In your life as Judas, did you have a wife or someone you were involved with? Were you married, and did you have kids? It’s not like I don’t know the answer to this. I just wanted to ask something humans could connect with.

    Me: That’s a good idea.


    Judas: No. There was no one.

    Me: Aw.

    Robert: Really? I don’t know anything about his life.

    Me: I don’t either. Interesting. Well, thank you, Judas. Do you have anything else you’d like to say in your own behalf or for anybody?

    Judas: I didn’t want the responsibility.

    Robert laughs.

    Me: Oh, of course you didn’t! Oh my god, the chimpanzee in you never left! That makes sense. Anything else you want to say before you go?

    Judas: The only thing left is to say, “thank you.”

    Me: Thank you. This was wonderful. I think this will enlighten a lot of people and clear up misunderstandings about you.

    Judas (clasping his hands together): I suppose one would say I was the black sheep.

    Me: I know, but you’re not in my book. Bye.

    Judas waves goodbye and walks off.

  • July7th2015

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    Well, my rice experiment isn’t going too well. The first one growing mold is the one I send thank yous to, and the one I call an idiot is fermenting nicely. Erik says that I can’t play the part of the asshole, and I feel so bad about calling that one jar of rice an idiot that I subconsciously send it love and healing energy! Why is the “thank you” jar molding? Maybe that’s a reflection of me being uncomfortable with compliments. Just a guess. So, Erik told me to just let the labels on the jars (thank you, idiot and ignore) do the job for me. I might have to dump it all out and try again. Sigh.

    Enjoy the next to the last part of our interview with Judas!

    Me: Any other disciples you want to give a shout out to, Judas?

    Judas (smiling): No. There is nothing more that I need to say to them.

    Me: Okay. What were you here on Earth to learn?

    Judas: Don’t second-guess your actions. Do what you’re naturally inclined to do.

    Me: Okay.

    Judas: That’s part of being who you are.

    Me: Well, that’s true.

    Judas: So many people don’t do what they’re meant to do as individuals. They aren’t being who they are because they fall into the pressures of what society and others say they should or should not do. Or sometimes they get all bogged down in the right and wrong of things. You cannot completely ignore these external things, but you have to keep them in balance. That being said, I could have learned to balance who I am with consequences that won’t be too chaotic.

    Me: Okay.

    I go on even though I don’t fully understand. Don’t ask me why.

    Me: Do you feel like you accomplished your lesson?

    Judas (smiling): Yes, and here’s a little secret.

    Me (teasing): I won’t tell anybody.

    Judas (laughing and teasing back): Oh, I know you won’t.

    I laugh.

    Judas: You always accomplish your lessons whether you realize it or not. It’s not the doing that makes a lesson become accomplished. It’s the awareness you gain from having gone through an experience that you might label as a lesson.

    Me: Ah!

    Judas: You develop a greater depth to your awareness. Whether you gain that awareness in the physical world or the spiritual one doesn’t matter.

    Me: Mm. So can you give me an example of an experience you learned from or gained a deeper awareness from?

    (Very long pause)

    Robert: I guess he’s trying to be thoughtful about it because he’s just standing here smiling.

    Judas: There were so many experiences. I have to choose one. I guess my speaking more freely than I should have is a broad example.

    Me: Okay.

    Judas: And I’ll just repeat what I said earlier. You can be who you are as long as you develop an awareness of what your actions might create for yourself or others. You have to learn how to put those in balance for you. The balance is different for each of us. It’s not the same for everybody. The only thing that is the same is that what you feel is a sense of satisfaction or comfort. That doesn’t mean you don’t feel pain. Pain and suffering are two different things.

    Me: Tell me the difference.

    Judas: Pain in the physical body is more physical. Your knee hurts; your head hurts. That is pain. You can develop suffering along with that if there is an emotional lack of acceptance of the pain.

    Me: So suffering is the emotional resistance to pain?

    Judas: Yes.

    Me: Wow.

    Judas: Pain or experiences in general—you can have an experience that creates a lot of emotional suffering only because you can’t accept it. That does not mean you’re necessarily in any physical pain.

    Me: So in my case, my heart aches from Erik’s death. It’s a physical pain. There was suffering from that because I was not able to accept him being gone.

    I choke up a bit.

    Judas: What do you think?

    Me: I don’t know. You tell me what I think.

    Robert laughs.

    Me: That’s the way it works with these here interviews. I ask the questions, and you answer them.

    Robert and I laugh, and Judas smiles. I bet he’s not all that impressed.

    Me: I just want to understand the anatomy of what you’re saying. That’s what it seems like you’re saying.

    Judas: Yes, there is some resistance to what is happening when there’s suffering.

    Me (teasing): Now was that so hard to say, Judas? Huh?

    Robert laughs and Judas smiles. Again, probably not impressed by my poor attempt at humor.

    Me: What were you here to teach?

    Judas: What I said earlier. Being yourself.

    Me: Okay, so the same thing. That was your spiritual mission?

    Judas: That was a big part of it. To get more into the subtleties of it—

    Robert: Oh, a butterfly just passed by. That always happens when I channel!

    Me: Oh, wow!

    Robert: Two of them.

    Judas: –to remember that you can be who you are and make sure it’s balanced for you.

    Me: Even in the silence you can be who you are. Actually, in the silence, without nervous chatter, you can truly recognize yourself.

    Judas: Yes. You have the opportunity to examine why you are nervous.

    Me: Yeah. ‘Who am I? What is my definition of me outside of the opinion of these people I feel the need to please with chatter?’

    Judas: It’s only nervous chatter when you are unaware that you are chattering because you are uneasy. Not knowing can perpetuate more nervousness. When you stop and think, ‘Well I’m talking a lot because I like it,” then that’s okay. There’s nothing, from the human perspective, that is wrong with that.

    Me: Yeah, I have nervous chatter to fill in silence, but I also like to talk and share things with people. It’s my way of forming connections, of connecting with people. That’s why I like it. Have you incarnated on the earth now?

    Judas: I have several incarnations going on.

    Me: On the earth?

    Judas: On Earth and elsewhere. There are four going on on the earth now and several going on elsewhere in the Universe.

    Multitasker. Bravo, dude.

    Me: Which one do you think resonates most with you or that I would want to hear about?

    (Long pause)

    Robert (chuckling): Well that’s sweet. He says it’s not a human being. None of his incarnations on Earth are human.

    Me: Oh wow.

    Robert: A koala bear!

    Me: I love koala bears! They’re so cute, but they must be bored with their diet! Eucalyptus leaves for breakfast, lunch, dinner and bedtime snack. Oh my god. Why did you choose to incarnate as one of those?


    Me: Of course it just makes me want to hug you even more.

    Robert (laughing): I know! Exactly!

    Judas: There’s a bit of irony in their diet because eucalyptus is primarily known as a poison. Many human beings, for so long, saw me as a poisonous person as were my actions.

    Robert: So is that why you wanted to be a koala bear?

    Me: Yeah, what the heck? Maybe it’s because of the hugs you never had as a kid.

    Judas: I didn’t really have an intention for being one, but I guess as we’re talking about it, it’s because I’m really soft and cuddly when you get to know me.

    Me: Aw.

    Judas: You just have to get past everything else.

    Robert: He acts like a regular Joe to me.

    Judas "Huggy Bear" Iscariot

    Judas “Huggy Bear” Iscariot

  • July6th2015


    As a spur of the moment decision, we decided to drive down to a ranch in Curero, Texas owned by Houston’s parents. (Houston is my daughter, Kristina’s, hubby.) I think we kind of invited ourselves while having a random phone conversation with Kristina during our date night dinner. Oops.

    I’m a country girl at heart and love the simpler things so being around cows and other wildlife was just up my alley. It’s cool, too, that I didn’t have to pick up after Bella’s poop. I mean, when your dog lays a jelly bean next to a cow patty as big as a dinner plate, you let it slide. 

    Bella so wanted to run after the cows. She’d no sooner get within their range than she’d become goo to be cleaned from their hooves, so we had to keep her on a leash on our walks. Plus, there are tons of Mexican Eagles out there that would love to have her for a hors d’oeuvre (also know as “horse’s ovaries” to my mom) before chowing down on a rabbit.  

    Houston’s parents, Lisa and Grant, are salt of the earth people. So genuine and easy to talk to. No wonder our son-in-law is so wonderful. We hope it’s only one of many weekends together. I hope your weekend was just as nice.

    Enjoy our continuing conversation with Judas!

    Me: Erik, what’s up?

    Robert: Hair dryer!

    Robert laughs. I do my WTF face.

    Me: What are you talking about?

    Robert: I don’t know.

    Me: Are you making a reference to my hair?

    Erik (laughing): No, I just told Robert to make sure he said that.

    Robert: Well that’s just the craziest thing.

    Me: All this moisture from the rain and all this heat is making my hair look like Donald King’s. It’s what my hair looks like if I tried to blow dry it. It poofs all up.

    Robert: Do you use a hair dryer?

    Me: No, because when I do it makes my hair look the way it does now.

    Robert: You should have had me say “wall socket,” Erik.

    Me: Yeah, really! So you want to finish up with Judas? Can you get him back here, Erik?

    Erik: Sure.

    Robert: He calls him “Jude.”

    I start singing “Hey Jude” much to my own embarrassment.

    Now Robert joins in.

    Judas enters.

    Judas: I hope you’re pleased with what I relayed to you yesterday.

    Me: Oh yes! And I hope we shed some truth on your story today, too, for your sake. I guess you don’t necessarily care, now that you’re in spirit.

    Judas: I don’t, really.

    Robert chuckles.

    Me: Okay, let’s talk about your relationship with the other disciples.

    (Long pause)

    Judas: I’ll talk about the disciples in general. We were only together when we were with Christ. In other words—

    Me: During Christ Time.

    Judas: Yes. When we were together in that function. Very few of us were involved with each other’s lives and families outside of that.

    Robert: He gives me the impression that their association was mostly professional.

    Me: Like coworkers showing up in the office and not hanging around for the TGIF party after work.

    Robert: Yes.

    Judas: There wasn’t a lot of gossip between us—not that I was aware of.

    Robert and I laugh.

    Robert: It makes me think he’s wondering whether any of them were talking behind his back!

    Me: Really! Was there one that you liked or respected more than the others?

    Robert: He brought up the name John. Is he a disciple?

    Me: Yeah. What did you like or respect about him?

    Judas: John exuded a confidence that I didn’t always have in myself. This is why I spoke so freely at times. I had this anxiety.

    Me: Nervous chatter?

    Judas: Yes.

    Me: Filling the awkward silences.

    Judas: Yes. One could say that I wasn’t very grounded in the physical world, and that made me talk all the time without thinking about what I was saying or whether I should say it. John was not that way. He is not that way. He will give his honest perspective of you, and he would put it in a way that was not intended to hurt your feelings, but it did on occasion.

    Me: Okay. Were there any that you didn’t get along well with?

    Judas: No.

    Me: Oh, that’s good. Do you feel the disciples channeled the Bible or was some of it of their own creation through their filters and opinions?

    Judas: Paul—

    Robert: Paul must have written some of the Bible, I guess.

    Judas: Paul is very opinionated about what he feels is right and wrong, and he had strong opinions about societal roles including male and female ones in particular. In my opinion, much of what he contributed to the Bible was from his own personal belief system.

    Me: But Jesus said there is no right or wrong.

    Judas: Well, in the physical world and its definitions.

    Me: Oh okay.

    Paul enters to defend himself!

    Paul: But –

    Robert: Paul looks very opinionated!

    Me: Paul came in?

    Robert: Yes, he’s here.

    Paul: –in the grand scheme of things, everything that is said by anyone, regardless of whether it’s a personal belief, it gives others the ability to think and choose for themselves. Then that perpetuates our evolution as a species.

    Me: Well a lot of very religious  take everything in the Bible as fact rather than thinking about it and making their own choices. That’s not evolution.

    Paul: But those people, in their non-thinking, are examples to other people that maybe they should think. They’re being an example for other people in whether they should have the same mindset or another.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Paul: Many times, things that create disharmony are there because the potential for it was already in us. Someone has to bring it to the surface for others to become aware that others are that way or that they are themselves.

    Me: And did you do that? Did you bring that out?

    Paul: That was my mission.

    Great save, Paul.

    Me: Did you know that at the time?

    Paul: No. When I was writing, I wasn’t conscious of my motives for it.

    Me: All right. Thank you for coming in!

    Paul gives a little head bow and leaves.

    Me on a bad hair day

    Me on a bad hair day

  • July2nd2015


    Before you go on to read the post, I’d like to announce the next Channeling Erik Weekend of F-ing Enlightenment this November in Los Angeles. Actually it’s only a Saturday event, not a weekend, so no hotel rooms are needed unless you’re coming from far away. The last one booked up very quickly so please don’t dilly dally as we say in the South. Here are the details: CHANNELING ERIK WORKSHOP

    The last celeb was an atheist, so let’s make a 180 and hear from a disciple. 

    Me: You know who I’d like to bring in for an interview who may have been misunderstood? Judas Iscariot.

    Robert: Oh, that’s cool.

    Me: What do you think, Erik? Can you go fetch him?

    Erik: Guess what I’m going to say, Mom?

    Me: What?

    Erik: Dude’s already here.

    Robert laughs.

    Me: All right! Good! Hello, Mr. Iscariot. How are you?

    Judas: Good afternoon.

    Me: I’d love to give you the opportunity to share your story. Would you like to do that?

    Judas: It’s been a long time.

    Me: Yes, I know. I feel like you were misunderstood just like Mrs. O’Hair was, so I wanted to give you a chance to speak for yourself.

    Judas: Thank you for that, and yes, I would like to set things straight to use 21st century vernacular. I didn’t betray Jesus.

    Me: That was going to be my next question. Tell me what happened.

    Judas: It was a plan he and I both made together. We had talked about this. In the life I was as Judas, one could say I was very free with my tongue. I didn’t hold things back. I couldn’t keep a secret. Christ knew this. This is why he wanted me in his fold. We had a conversation about this. The way it ended up happening is this: I enjoyed the drink. Wine, you know, alcohol. I was at the local pub, and I was speaking freely about Jesus. I could be a braggart. All of these things, he know I was going to do. We talked about it before. There were soldiers there and others sympathetic to the emperor. He told me it was going to happen, and knowing that, perhaps I made it so. I don’t know, but this is why everything happened the way it did with Christ going into the city –

    Robert: He shows an image of Christ traveling on a donkey. I don’t know if that’s when he was arrested. I should know this stuff.

    Judas: Many of the things I said when I was drunk and bragging only made the people in power feel more intimidated by him.

    Me: Jesus?

    Judas: Yes. They saw the power he could wield and how he could influence other people so deeply. They knew that there were far fewer of them than there were of the masses. Many of the struggles that went on in my time go on today. So they wanted to hold onto their power, and it became important to get rid of him. Ultimately, they failed, at least in physically killing him, but they succeeded in silencing him.

    Me: That’s true. Did they offer you money to show them where he was?

    Robert: He showed me a real quick image of how people saw it like Judas led the soldiers to Jesus.

    Me: Yeah. That’s the story, I think.

    Robert: And then they arrested him and carted him off?

    Me: Right. Was that not the case?

    Judas: No, that’s not what happened. That’s not entirely true.

    Me: Well tell me what happened.

    Judas: Yes, soldiers did show up and attempted to take Christ in, but Christ is a master of communication. He told them that he would turn himself in.

    Me: Oh.

    Judas: That’s what happened. Christ turned himself in, but not at that moment. The soldiers left, and I received no compensation. Everyone assumes I was paid, but I was not. So remember how I said Christ and I had conversations?

    Me: Yes.

    Judas: So to piece things together: getting drunk and bragging at the pub got the soldiers to come to Christ. I did lead them there.

    Me: Wait. You led them there on purpose, or did they just happen to follow you?

    Judas: It didn’t occur in that moment. That came later.

    Me: Oh, okay. Well why did you lead them there? I don’t understand.

    Judas: To get back to the plan Christ and I talked about, I informed him of what transpired and Christ told me that was his destiny. He told me to please let the soldiers know where I am.

    Me: Okay, I got it.

    Judas: So I led them there a couple of weeks after that time in the pub. So as I said, Christ told the soldiers he would turn himself in, and they left. Then later, he rode into the town on a donkey and gave himself up.

    Me: Now, you killed yourself—

    Robert: Oh, I’m sorry. He wants to answer your question, but then Jesus said something.


    Judas: I did not kill myself.

    Me: Oh! What happened?

    Judas: People who found out what happened murdered me.

    Me: How?

    Robert: He shows himself standing at the edge of a deep ditch, like a ravine. It’s deep enough that you’d hurt yourself or probably die if you fell in. It was getting to be nighttime and a group of men surrounded him.

    Me: Okay.

    Robert: They started pushing him and yelling at him. One of them picked up a really big rock and smashed him in the head.

    Judas: I fell in the ravine and died there.

    Me: Aw, that’s too bad.

    Judas: I didn’t suffer.

    Me: Oh, that’s good.

    Jesus makes a cameo appearance!

    Jesus: I wanted to explain why it had to happen the way it did. When I was a human being, I had frequent conversations with the Father, and I knew exactly what my destiny was, which was to sacrifice myself for humankind. I spoke of love in every message I gave, and the love I spoke of is unconditional, but it had a flavor of rebellion in it. One should rebel in order to appease those parts of you that feel you’ve been stripped of the ability to choose for yourself. That’s one side. On the other side, you must also, if you’re going to fully love, respect the law of the land. I wanted to teach human beings that, if we’re to get along as human beings, we need to know that there are some things the law does that runs counter to what an individual knows within his or herself as right, but you should still respect them. That doesn’t mean you don’t rebel against them.

    Okay, I’m confused.

    Jesus: So my message was that you do what you’re inclined to do, but at the same time, you be willing to accept the consequences. Had I not gone through what I did, then I would have been sending the message to humans that you must fear the consequences.

    Me: So Jesus, did you pretty much instruct Judas to report you to the authorities so you could sacrifice yourself?

    Jesus: I don’t tell people to do anything. I only ask them to do what they feel they must, and what they must do is what they, as an individual, are inclined to do. So I merely gave Judas the insight into what I saw would transpire and said nothing further.

    Me: He made the decision. I understand.

    I guess it’s not technically betrayal if you’re given the green light.

    Me: Looking back, Judas, do you have any regrets?

    Judas: At the end of my life right before I died, I regretted that people did not see that I was just being who I am. In that moment, it made me wonder if I should have been who I was. That was self-judgment on my part. I thought, ‘I brought this on myself, and betrayed the Savior.

    Me: But you said you didn’t betray him.

    Judas: But that’s what I believed while I was in the physical world. I did not feel that way until the men surrounded me and confronted me. I started to believe what they told me. I saw the reaction my action created.

    Me: If you hadn’t have done what you did, starting with mouthing off in the pub and so on—

    Judas: It would have still occurred.

    Me: What would have occurred?

    Judas: I still would have died in the way I did, and Christ still would have—

    Me: Been crucified but not died on the cross.

    Judas: Right.

    Me: I don’t know where this question comes from but some say you lied to the Jews to defend Jesus. Is that true?

    Judas: Rarely was I a conscious liar.

    Robert chuckles.

    Judas: Because I always spoke so freely. To speak freely, you really can’t have lies in your heart. It takes time to formulate a lie.

    Me: So you didn’t lie?

    Judas: But—

    Robert laughs. Is Judas hemming and hawing?

    Judas: –there were moments when I mixed lies with the truth.

    Me: What do you mean?

    Judas: Anything I thought could undermine the message of Christ I put in the back, and anything I thought would elevate the message I’d put in the front. So I accentuated—

    Erik starts singing that song from The Jungle Book: “Accentuate the positive…”

    Robert and I laugh. Not sure if Judas has seen the movie. He’s keeping quiet.

    Judas: Well that’s what I did.

    Robert: I don’t know what you were referring to.

    Me: I don’t either! I made this list of questions a while back! So Judas, apparently Jesus didn’t die on the cross. Do you want to talk about that? Were you involved in saving him?


    Robert: Yeah, I was asking him to repeat that several times for me. The first thing that I heard, and he repeated it several times was that the crucifixion was underway when—

    Me: He died?

    Robert: Yeah. That’s what he’s leading me to believe. Either he wasn’t able to get there to help, or he already died.

    Me: Okay. What is your relationship with Jesus now, Judas?

    Judas: Nothing has changed since when we were in the physical world.

    Me: Well tell me about your relationship, then. We haven’t really talked about that.

    Judas: The thing that I observed in the physical world but wasn’t always fully conscious of until I crossed over is that Christ treated every one of his disciples and everyone he encountered in the exact same way.

    Me: Mm!

    Judas: The only thing that changed was that his interaction with a person would be tailored to who he or she was, individually. That’s love. It transforms into what the person needs.

    Me: Right. Oh yeah.

    Judas: In the physical world, Christ gave me what I needed to continue to be my true self. He did that with everyone else. In the spiritual world, it continues, but you’re not contained by the human mind. The human mind can only be aware of so many things at once. In the spiritual world, it’s infinitely deeper and associated with infinite awareness.


    Robert: He tears up when he talks about this.

    Me: Aw.

    Judas: The other thing Christ does, which I could feel unconsciously and which caused people to be drawn to him is his ability to give you what you need. In the spiritual world, he reflects everything you need back to you, and you realize that reflection he gives you is the same as what you send to him, so you realize that you’re no different from Christ or any of what people would consider the great spiritual teachers. We’re all exactly the same. That’s a gift. That’s an amazing and beautiful gift.

    Robert: I’m getting chills.

    We conclude the interview with Judas the next day.

  • June23rd2015


    Today is a busy day! I have a session with Jamie for our next YouTube. I also have a radio interview with Wisdom from the North’s host, Jannecke Øinæs at 2:00 PM CT. If you check on my Events page, you’ll see the link to the podcast, but I’m not sure if it’ll be ready today or tomorrow. Then I have a long conference call with my publicist right after that. Add those to finishing up laundry, taking Bella to the groomer’s, picking up her friend and half-sister, Gidget for a playdate, getting groceries and other things makes for supreme craziness. I will say this. I greatly admire anyone who can fold fitted sheets. When I do it (after fighting to get a lumped up towel or two twisted into one of the sheet corners, it looks like absolute crap. Oh well. Oh, and I see my husband left some sewing for me to do today. I bet Madalyn never had to fold fitted sheets or sew on buttons. Or did she. I should have asked. 

    Me: Is that why you decided to come today to be interviewed? Was it to send a message to some of the blog members?

    Madalyn: My initial reason was to tell you what my definition of an atheist is and to get my point across. I also wanted to let you know –

    Erik (to Madalyn): Tell her what you told me!

    Madalyn: Okay. And I can’t stand it when someone misinterprets who I am as a person.

    Me: Sure.

    Madalyn: When I refused to be interviewed last time, I could feel that from a lot of people. Maybe I took offense to it.

    Me: Sure.

    Madalyn: Spirits can get angry.

    Me: But it’s different, right?

    Robert started saying “He says” and interrupts himself.

    Robert: You know why I keep saying, “he?” Because she comes off as very masculine.

    Me: Yes, of course. I think she may have been a lesbian.

    Robert: Oh, okay.

    Me: We won’t ask, though. That’s her personal business.

    Robert asks me to refresh his memory because he’s totally lost. I do and he proceeds.

    Madalyn: Now do you remember, Robert?

    Robert (laughing): Yes I do! She acts almost a little annoyed!

    Me: You’ve got spunk! I like that.

    Madalyn: Hell, yeah.

    Robert: She likes to cuss.

    Me: You remind me of my mom.

    Madalyn: I get irritated when people believe what they’re told and go through this whole experience of letting the blind lead the blind. Then they misinterpret things. They never step back and assess for themselves. It makes me angry when they don’t really see the truth. That’s what I was trying to teach people when I was in my physical life. Find your truth, and the truth isn’t always what I say it is. It’s what you know it to be when you’ve wiped the slate clean of what everyone else has told you, and you stop and think from your own unique vantage point.

    Now I understand why she didn’t like the idea of a God directing all of us peons on Earth.

    Me: You define your own truth.

    Madalyn: Exactly.

    Me: Do you think that was your main spiritual mission, not limited to the whole atheist activism?

    Madalyn: I’d say so.

    Me: Okay.

    Madalyn: I lived in my truth without fear. Up until the very end, I was not afraid.

    Robert: I like her. She makes me feel confident. Sometimes I can have an issue with confidence.

    Madalyn: Sometimes?

    Robert laughs.

    Me: Do you think you succeeded in your mission?

    Madalyn: The whole success/failure thing, I don’t buy into it. I just did what I came here to do. I’m pretty happy with the results.

    Me: Okay, good. You’re very black and white.

    Robert: Yes, she is, isn’t she?

    Me: Mm hm.

    Madalyn: Well sure.

    Me: So you had this dominating, very assertive side to you. Were there any other sides to you? For example, did you have a nurturing side or any other side that you’d like to share with the world?

    Madalyn: Everyone always associates that domineering thing with not being nurturing, but I saw it as very nurturing.

    Me: Can you explain?

    Madalyn: Because I’m teaching you to take care of yourself. All these other labels people use like tough love to break people down—that was never my intention. The only reason you may take offense to something is because you’ve heard it from somewhere else that that’s not how you’re supposed to be. You have to be nice and quiet and gentle.

    Robert: She shows this person walking on eggshells.

    Madalyn: Or to be so worried about everyone else’s feelings. Well those are their feelings. They have to own up to their reaction to what I say.

    Me: So we have to completely separate our feelings from those of the ones around us in order to understand each other better?

    Madalyn: Sure. That friend of yours, Jamie, would call it boundaries.

    Me: Right.

    Madalyn (leaning forward): And I’ll tell you what. I like that Jamie.

    Me: Yeah, she’s great, isn’t she?

    Do I sense some flirting going on?

    Madalyn: She sure is.

    Me: What do you like about her?

    Madalyn: Well what’s not to like about her. Now you put me on the spot. Okay, I’ll be honest. She’s pretty.

    A ha!

    Me: She is.

    Madalyn: She’s like the opposite of how I am in many ways. She’s softer. Even her assertive side is softer than I am. She’s like a fluffy pillow.

    Robert laughs hard.

    Me: That you just want to hug.

    Madalyn: Pink and lavender. A pink and lavender fluffy pillow.

    Me: And you just want to hug that pillow, huh?

    Madalyn: That’s right. We need people like her; we need people like me.

    Me: That’s true.

    Madalyn: We need people like Erik; we need people like you; we need people like Robert, because together we learn from each other.

    Amanda Grieme wanted me to post this old radio interview for you to listen to. It’s hilarious. Click HERE.

  • June22nd2015


    Well, we finally got her! When I tried to get her to come forward for an interview, he refused. Now she shows up unannounced. She’s quite a character. 

    Robert: There’s a big woman here with glasses and short hair.

    Me: Oh.

    I was surprised because I wasn’t planning to start out with a celebrity interview.

    Robert: She shows herself at a podium like she’s done speaking engagements. She talks about her being an atheist. She’s a little bit standoffish. That’s the way she comes across to me. Her name starts with an M, but I didn’t hear the full name.

    Me: Madalyn O’Hair?

    Madalyn: That is my name.

    Me: We tried to interview you before, but you refused us. Are you willing to—

    Madalyn: Because I wasn’t ready.

    Me: You weren’t ready? Why is that?

    Madalyn: Let’s just call it pride.

    Me: Ah, of course. So are you an atheist now or do you believe in life after death?

    Kind of a silly question, but…

    Madalyn: Yes, I’m still an atheist.

    Me: What do you mean?

    Madalyn: A leopard doesn’t lose its spots.

    Me: Yeah, but how can you be an atheist and be talking from the afterlife?

    Madalyn: Listen, I just redefined what an atheist means: that there is no God.

    Very convenient.

    Me: You mean no God as in the humanlike one sitting on a big throne?

    Madalyn: That’s bullshit. Man created that version.

    Robert (chuckling): She’s getting a little bit pissy!

    Me: Would you believe in a God that’s like a collective consciousness like Source Energy?

    Robert: I’m sorry if I act a little gruff, but it’s because that’s how she’s making me feel.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Madalyn: Listen; of course there is a collective consciousness! Who we are as individuals are all linked together, so you can think of God as a big brain.

    Me: So you’re an atheist in that you don’t believe in a God sitting on a throne.

    She shrugs her hands and grimaces as if disgusted by the thought.

    Me: So you and I have the same belief, but I don’t call myself an atheist. I believe God is us, a collective consciousness, so this is about semantics, I guess.

    Madalyn: I have a problem, personally, with this idea of a figurehead lording over everyone else. I’m my own boss. No God is going to be a boss over me!

    Me: Yeah.

    Better move on before she blows a gasket.

    Me: Tell me about your death.

    Robert: Did she get shot?

    Me: I don’t know. It was some sort of murder.

    I read how she, her son and granddaughter suddenly disappeared and were later found murdered.

    Me: Can you tell me what happened?

    Madalyn: I don’t want to come off as rude, but that’s a family matter.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Robert (laughing): She’s not an easy woman!

    Me: I’m not going to get much out of you, am I?

    Madalyn: I just wanted to give you my two cents.

    Me: Well why did they murder you? Or maybe it was just one murderer.

    Madalyn: Well, I liked to shoot my mouth off.

    Me: And they just got mad at you?

    Madalyn: I made a lot of people angry.

    Robert: What did you do in life, because I’m not familiar with you?

    Madalyn: You can call me an activist of sorts.

    Me: Yeah, I think she was an activist for a group called American Atheists.

    Robert: Oh, okay.

    Me: Are you proud of the work you did with them?

    Madalyn: I’m a proud woman, so of course I’m going to be proud.

    Robert: You seem very angry.

    Me: Aw, you don’t have to be angry with us.

    Madalyn: I don’t mean to come off as angry. This is just who I am.

    Me: Oh, I see. So maybe you’re just assertive.

    Madalyn: Yes, I’m very assertive, and it rubs people the wrong way sometimes.

    Me: Aw, that’s a shame.

    Madalyn: But I’m not going to apologize for who the hell I am.

    Me: Nor should you.

    Robert laughs.

    Robert: She cusses a bunch!

    Me: When you look back on your life, do you have any regrets?

    Madalyn: Hell no.

    Me: Really? None?

    Madalyn: No.

    Me: I don’t understand how a spirit can have that kind of pride. It seems so ego based. Why do you have this hubris?

    Madalyn: Let’s me help you understand. You’re misinterpreting what you’re associating with ego. I’m just being who I am.

    Me: Okay.

    Madalyn: That’s just who I am. If other people judge me for who I am, then they are living in ego.

    Me: So it’s not like a false pride?

    Madalyn: No. Now I’ll tell you what. What shaped my personality over all my lifetimes, including the one I just lived was that I felt I had to be strong, and sometimes strength comes off as cocky. That’s everyone else’s baggage, not mine. I learned a long time ago to let go of everybody else’s stuff because you have enough to carry for yourself.

    Me: That’s true.

    Madalyn: And here’s what I want to tell you. Some of the blog members—

    Me: Oh yeah. Okay.

    Madalyn: Or it can be more general. People need to learn to stand up for their damn self. Stop letting people run you the hell over. I guess this sounds like tough love, but sometimes you have to grow a pair. You have to learn that you have a backbone and stop letting people run you down.

    She most definitely has a pair. Or two. Part Two tomorrow!

    Madalyn O'Hair

    Madalyn O’Hair

  • June17th2015


    Remember, Kim O’Neill, the medium I used for several months after Erik died? She’s wonderful. In fact, the only reason I changed to Jamie was because her sessions were less expensive, and I knew I was going to be in it for the long haul. Well, she has an offer you can’t refuse if you live in or around Houston. Check this out!

    “Ask Kim Live!”
    FREE In-Person Readings!
    Edgar Cayce’s Houston Center
    June 20:   11:30 am – 1:30 pm
    7800 Amelia Rd, Houston, Texas 77055
    (For directions) (713) 263-1006
    Attendance: FREE
    Parking: FREE
    You’re invited to my newest event, Ask Kim Live! I’ll be offering free mini readings to members of the audience chosen in a lottery-type system. Arrive before 11:30 am to get your lottery ticket and choose a seat in the beautiful Edgar Cayce’s Houston Center auditorium. I’d LOVE to see you there!


    By the way, I had a great session with Robert last evening. Guess who showed up to be interviewed? Madalyn O’Hair! (I know. Weird spelling, but that’s what Google gives me.) After I finished interviewing her, Judas Iscariot came in. His testimony will sure change some thinking and question the history books.

    I hesitated to post this interview mainly because Kayla had just died shortly before so she was not very well oriented, but hopefully, you’ll get something out of it.

    Me: Erik, I’m going to ask you if you can please bring Kayla Mueller in, the one who was killed by the ISIS terrorists.

    Erik: Yes.

    She appears with Erik.

    Me: Okay. Kayla, how are you doing, sweetie?

    Jamie (looking in back of her): The voice is coming from behind me! She said, “fine.” I don’t see her though.

    Me: She’s sneaking up behind you.

    Jamie: Yeah. It’s weird. I hear her here. (She points to the back of her head, then shakes her head in wonderment.)

    Kayla: Hello. Hello to everyone. I understand exactly what this is.

    Jamie: She liked her computer, too.

    I chuckle.

    Me: How were you treated? I’m not talking about when they killed you, but before that.

    Kayla: Not as respectfully as I hoped for, but you can say my fundamental needs were given to me, even if they weren’t—

    (Long pause as Jamie listens.)

    Jamie: I don’t understand that. Oh I want to see her.

    Me: Maybe she’s shy.

    Jamie: Really nice voice. But it wasn’t, uh, she’ll give images. If we see a toilet, it would be more public. It’s not as private, things like that. It wasn’t like she was in a nice room.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: The strongest memory she has is the smell of it.

    Me: Oh boy. Were there any spiritual contracts involved for yourself, for your captors or for the world?

    (Long pause)

    Kayla: Everyone is going to have their moment of struggle in their life when they have to come to self-realization. I’m not interested in anyone feeling sorry for me or measuring their struggles against mine. I don’t wish anyone to experience what I did, but I would—

    Jamie: I would want? It’s easier when I can see them, things like that, but it’s um…

    Me: Sure.

    Kayla: I would want other people to hear my story, to read my story and see my strength.

    (Long pause as Jamie clearly struggles.)

    Jamie: She’s talking about many days of being in fear because of not knowing, of being told one thing and something else would happen.

    Kayla: There was no trust. There was no camaraderie. It was all mental games. There was no comfort. I had to find the strength within myself.

    Jamie: For that, she’s very proud of herself. It seems a little joyful in her words to be able to say that she found it.

    (Long pause again.)

    Jamie: I don’t know. Help her. Ask another question.

    Me: Okay. Did you forgive your—well, you didn’t really talk about spiritual contracts. Were there any? We sort of got off topic. Was there something you were supposed to learn for yourself, teach someone else, teach the masses?

    Kayla: I was told that I was being used as a sacrificial lamb to show a point, to prove a point. That what was being told to me by the people around me. The real people.


    Jamie: Erik is asking her again about her contracts.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: You can hear them going back and forth.

    Erik: You know, the purpose might be why the experience happened to you and not—

    (Long pause, yet again.)

    Jamie (smiling): I think she gets it.

    She doesn’t sound convinced.

    I chuckle.

    Jamie: She’s talking about her soul being able to handle the suffering that was handed to her.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Erik is still coaching her, asking her if there was a bigger message, and she hasn’t really found that. She’s still just sees herself as being her, “Kayla.”

    Still very connected to her humanness.

    Me: She may get that later. Have you forgiven you captors and executioners?

    Kayla: Yes.

    Me: Do you have any messages for them?

    (Very long pause)

    Jamie: Her first words were, “You did not kill me. You set me free.”

    I guess she means they set her free from all the suffering she endured.

    Me: Wow.

    Jamie turns her head to see behind her.

    Me: Why won’t you get in front of Jamie, Kayla? (in jest) You don’t want to get near Erik?

    Jamie: Erik has left, too. He’s somewhere—(she waves her hands around.) Now did she re—I’m so sorry for not knowing this. Did she recently pass?

    Jamie makes it a point to never watch the news. That brings a lot of negativity into her energy, and that probably makes channeling more difficult.

    Me: Yeah, in the past 2-3 days. You think that’s it Kayla?

    Jamie: Yeah, I don’t think there’s a full transition here. She’s still doing some things or communication—


    Jamie: That’s probably why she still sees herself as wonderful Kayla. I don’t think she knows the big, grand picture yet.

    Me: Okay. You will in time. Do you have any messages for friends and family?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: I hear, “I love everyone. I love you all. I’m okay. You’ll never have to worry about me again.

    Me: Anything else?

    Jamie: There must have been a long time that they worried about her.

    Me: Yeah. It was. I don’t know. I can’t remember. Maybe a couple of years? Do you blame the government—I understand that they had intelligence that was “perishable,” which means, “You better act on it now,” but the administration decided not to because they felt like they needed more evidence, more intelligence.

    Kayla: There were other things at play that they couldn’t discuss.

    Jamie: She’s not angry with the government, but she would have wanted them to work faster.

    Me: Yeah.

    Kayla: But then again, I think time just stood still for me for that long.

    Me: I know you’re not the kind of person who would blame, but do you feel like the government was in some part responsible for your death?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: The United States government?

    Me: Mm hm. Because of what we just talked about.


    Jamie: She’s not saying “yes” at all, but when you talk about the word, “blame,” it really holds the, is it the ISIS group?

    Me: Yes.

    Jamie: That’s where the blame is. That’s the sour point. That’s what’s misunderstood.


    Jamie: She knows a lot more than what’s being said in her story. She understands why she wasn’t just picked up and whisked away. She understands why it happened this way so there’s no confusion of anger wrapped around that at all.

    Me: Okay. Well, do you think you still would have been alive had it not been for our government not coming in sooner to rescue you or not trying harder?

    Jamie shakes her head.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: She still feels like she would be used as a sacrificial lamb. Apparently she’s young, kind of innocent, had nothing to offer, nothing. That’s why she keeps calling it the sacrificial lamb, and that’s the term they apparently used when they talked to her.

    Me: Okay. So where do you see terrorism going, and what are the solutions? What’s this going to grow into, and what can we do? Maybe from your point now, in your dimension, you can certainly have a perspective that we don’t have.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: All I can hear is “growing to better communication.”

    Me: That’s the solution? Can you be more specific?

    Jamie: You can hear Erik talking about the question, saying it in different ways.

    Kayla: All the good that comes from terrorism is creating stronger communities and better communication. That’s what I’m looking forward to. It’s not about creating more war or death. I don’t want that in my name or associated with me.

    Me: Oh, yeah.

    Kayla: That’s definitely not who I was.

    Me: What do you mean by communities?

    Kayla: People who get together and rally around what doesn’t work.

    Me: What people? Muslims? Americans as a whole? Other people in the Middle East?

    (While I’m spouting off my list, Jamie is shaking her head vehemently.)

    Jamie: All. It looks worldwide. It doesn’t even look like it’s just here.

    Me: Well how bad does it have to get before we come to that sense of community?

    Kayla: It’s already gotten bad.

    Me: Yeah, tell me about it. Will it get a lot worse before it gets better?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie (to me): I’m sorry. I have no idea what you just said. I’m trying to look at a picture, and how she’s showing it to me is that when something terrible: a shooting, a murder, things of that nature happens, it affects—maybe one incident will happen and we’ll get three positive groups with stronger communication, but it doesn’t seem to tumble—pop, pop, pop, pop and create more and more and more and more. It’s like a small spark of things happening.

    Me: But those can lead to flames.

    Jamie: One moment at a time or one war at a time will create more positive so that we grow to be better as a whole, but we still have these–

    Jamie (to Kayla): What do you call them?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie (smiling): There’s silence on my end.

    Me: All right. Will we be attacked on our homeland, you know, in America? Sort of like a 911 thing?

    Jamie: All I hear her say is, “All of it is our homeland.”

    Me: Well, that’s true. So you don’t know? You might not know.

    It may be too early in her transition for her to see big pictures like this.

    Jamie: No, she doesn’t give specifics of attacks of anything else.

    Kayla: We need to stop seeing territories.

    Jamie: She puts X’s over her eyes.

    Kayla: Stop seeing it as territories. All of it is our land.

    Me: The whole world.

    Kayla: Yes, the whole world.

    Me: Okay. Now, one more question I want to ask. I think it’s the last one. Can you share with us another life that sort of influenced your life as Kayla?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: I can hear Erik talking to her. I don’t think she has, she doesn’t have this all together yet.

    Me: Yeah, well it’s been so recent.

    Jamie: It’s not sitting in her head.

    Me: Okay. You’re under the care of friends and deceased loved ones I take it? You’re in good hands? You’re happy there?

    Kayla: I’m with everyone I know and then some.

    Jamie laughs.

    Jamie: I can hear her laugh at the end of that.

    Me: Have you gotten a chance to visit your family?

    Jamie: That’s what she’s been doing.

    Me: Okay.

    Jamie: She has to—something has to be completed. She’s waiting for her ceremony, um, of life, but she’s not all the way what we’d call transitioned or crossed over.

    Me: All right. I want to tell you that I really respect you. You seem to have been, and still are, a very deep and good person.

    Kayla: Thank you.

    Me: It looks like you rose above what happened to you.

    Kayla: Yes I had a lot of time to learn how to do that.

    Me: Yeah, you sure did. Any final messages?

    Jamie: She just said thank you and to take care.

    Me: You too.

    We say our goodbyes.

    Kayla Mueller

    Kayla Mueller

    By the way, I’m going to be traveling with my husband to New Orleans Thursday so I might recycle some of the old posts that day and Friday. He’s racing his motorcycle on the track and wants my company!

    As always, I’m going to try to keep posting your Erik stories every day. Just to make it clear, this is not replacing posts. This is an addition. 

  • June8th2015


    One of the YouTube subscribers may have picked up a very strong EVP from Erik. At the timestamp 1:27:48, right after the host, Sharon, calls for people to call in and says, “Make some noise,” you can hear someone (Erik?) yell, “Woo hoo! Come on, people,” after which Jamie says something like, “He says, ‘Come on, people!’” Could you listen to see what you think? I don’t remember hearing this during the live interview, but it was a long time ago.

    Now for the rest of the interview!

    Me: Are you still continuing to help us?

    Ra: Yes.

    Me: In what way? Obviously we don’t need to learn about time and other measurements anymore.

    Ra: Building a bridge to the star people.

    Me: Okay. Are you an angel?

    Ra: I have the status of an angel. The same function of one.

    Me: Would you say you have the same status of an archangel?

    Ra: That’s so closely related to God Source, so, yes.

    Me: Okay, so you’re an archangel?

    Ra: Yes, though I don’t hold the title. Nobody calls me an archangel, though the similarities of the embodiment of healing and loving—

    Erik: Really archangels are deities. You sit down and really look at it, yeah. It’s just Christianity’s way of keeping the multiple deities of God alive and acceptable within a belief structure or system.

    Me: Can archangels be aliens?

    Ra: Yes. Aren’t we all aliens?

    Me: I guess so. I figured that was coming.

    Ra: To associate us to only being human is very narrow sighted.

    Me: Back to the Middle East. What’s your advice to bringing peace there, or other places for that matter?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: He keeps showing me this really electric blue color and it’s moving through the room kind of coming from the room where I hear him talking and it reaches past Erik. Electric blue. It has a wave to it.

    Me: Hm!

    Jamie: Now and then it has some bright lights in it like sparks. Yeah, I don’t know how to translate that. I just see it. It’s like being in water almost.

    Me: What are you trying to tell her, Ra?

    Jamie: He’s talking about mass healing that is not just the people’s fault but the land’s ability to retain history.

    Me: Man’s ability?

    Jamie: Land. Dirt, the Earth, mountains, water that they constantly try to ground to.

    Ra: The land’s ability to maintain history, the memory of the fight, the war, the struggle. The land itself no longer knows how to cleanse itself and be happy, so the people on it recreate the (unintelligible) that the land has.

    Jamie: It’s weird. It’s like I’m really, really high up in the sky, and I’m looking down, and the Earth is completely barren. It reminds me of the video of Hiroshima—everything is leveled. Dirt, random trash.

    Ra: It won’t be until the land can no longer support life will the land be able to recycle and heal.

    Me: Oh, how awful. So, it’s like Phoenix rising from the ashes.

    Erik (yelling out): Yes!

    Me: So, what do you think about the state of humanity overall?

    Ra: You are winning.

    Me: Anything more to that?

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Winning in what way? Because sometimes it really doesn’t seem that way, Ra. We’ve just got so much going on with the shootings and tragedies. It seems like we’re in this downward spiral. It’s very disconcerting. Morals are going out the window. It just seems like it’s getting worse and worse.

    Ra: Why can’t you love the night as much as the day?

    Me (chuckling): I guess I’m just scared of the dark. I don’t know. I just don’t know.

    Ra: It’s human nature. The reason you’re winning is that you’re starting to understand to embrace the harshness, the negativities and the fears to bring—

    Jamie (to Ra): Don’t know that word.

    Ra: To bring night and day to the same level. Then the level of love and appreciation and adornment, which occurs, they’ll be no more judgment on any action made my humans. It’ll only be accepted emotionally and through love.

    Me: I guess that’ll be a long time before we get there.

    Ra: You will not see it in this life.

    Me: Okay. Do you have any advice or messages for us?

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: I’m trying to make sense of this. I understand the “look inward” part. You know, we hear that a lot. Go inside, but he’s saying, “Look inward to understand your whole surroundings.”

    Ra: No longer look inside of someone else to see how you are viewed. Look inward to understand your surroundings. This is what I would want the human race to remember.

    Me: Okay. In other words, be self-directed instead of externally directed.

    Jamie: Before you said that, Erik said, “That’s how you do it!”

    Me: Okay. Now, Erik, speaking of you, do you have any questions for Ra?

    Erik: Nah, I’ve been drilling him the whole time.

    Me: Yeah, you’ve been tossing it out there every once in a while.

    Jamie (giggling): He kept teasing me throughout if I had put my sunscreen on today!

    Me: And your sunglasses, too!

    Jamie: Oh my gosh!

    Me: What do you think about the blog, Channeling Erik, Ra? That’s my last question for you.

    Ra: Channeling Erik is continuing the build the bridge that I started. Few people are as brave and strong as you, and I mean the term “you” as in singular pointing to you, Elisa—

    Me: Wow.

    Jamie: Then he said “you” again, and he means it in a plural sense—your son, your readers, your community—

    Me: And you, Jamie.

    Jamie: Me?

    Me: Yeah.

    Jamie: Or Ra.

    Me: No, and you, Jamie.

    Ra: Bit by bit, the bridge will complete itself, and the mystery of life on Earth will be resolved. Belief in the afterlife and the Beyond will not go away. It will become solidified, and science will be honored for what they can achieve and what they do know. Thank you.

    Jamie (shrugging her shoulders): Thank you.

    Me: What they do know about they afterlife? Is that what you’re saying?

    Ra: Yes.

    Me: Okay. Any advice for Channeling Erik?

    Ra: It’s okay to be big.

    Jamie: It’s weird, when he says “big.” He doesn’t really mean it such as media or like a growth in the business like we think, “Oh, you’re big, international!” He doesn’t mean it in those terms. He means it in the lessons that it’s teaching.

    Ra: Yes. You don’t have to stay small and central in what you’re discussing and what you’re sharing. It’s okay to go big in that way. It’s okay to cross the—

    Jamie sighs in frustration and looks toward Erik. I know he’s said something irritating.

    Ra: It’s okay to cross the boundary of belief.

    Jamie: Your son over here just called it “the woo-woo line.”

    Erik: Yeah, it’s okay to cross the woo-woo line.

    I giggle.

    Me: Coming from the Woo-woo Guru himself. The Woo-woo Guru speaks.

    Jamie laughs.

    Me: Okay. Well, that’s all I have, Ra. Thank you so much for coming! You shined throughout the entire interview.

    Jamie: A lot. And it’s weird; it’s this little tiny headache that I get right above my eyes. He’s saying thank you.

    Jamie rubs the area above her eyes.

    Jamie: He goes away.

    If you live in or around the Houston area, please join us for lunch this Saturday at 2:00 PM. We’re going to meet at the Jason’s Deli at 10321 Katy Freeway (I-10). The phone number there is 713-467-2007. We’re going to talk to Erik and deceased loved ones on the eBoard like we did last time, so it should be a lot of fun!

  • June5th2015


    What a dope I am. I forgot to post part two of this interview. Thanks for bringing it to my attention. Sometimes I wonder about myself. I’m in La-La Land most of the time. For example, yesterday, my sister, her husband, my husband and I were talking about how around 10,000 people per year die from a fall while putting on their pants. Well, guess what I did this morning? Yep. Hit my head on the edge of the TV. Thirty minutes later, I slip on wet grass and hit my head on the edge of a deck and various other body parts on god knows where. Fortunately, I hit the other side of my head so it whacked my brain back into place from the first knock. Silver lining, folks. Silver lining. I’m going to post a couple of your stories today, too. There are just too many in queue to post them only on weekends, so I’ll post them on other days from time to time to try to get through them. I love them all! Oh, and one person said that as soon as she submitted her story, she felt like she was being wrapped in a goosebumpy hug. Erik saying thank you, I guess.

    Jamie: Erik’s helping me listen in, because he’s talking about Greek mythology. Who’s the sun god, Apollo?

    Me: I think so, yes.

    Jamie: The similarities are there and it’s almost as if they’re worshiping the same character. So, in many parts of Africa, before time was structured, the Sun God,


    Jamie: Oo! We just got into a big argument. Listen to this! Erik is arguing the fact that it’s kind of known that people who believe in a sun god, that’s really God Itself. You know, God, He/She, the God Source Energy.

    Me: Right.

    Jamie: Light brings life, and all that. Metaphorically, it makes a lot of sense. But then, Ra said God doesn’t need any honoring or separate title. He left these worships to other people. People in quotes, right? Deities, gods, religious icons, saints, angels. And when Ra was discussing mythology, the belief system of African tribes—old days when they had the belief in a sun god, a water goddess, Mother Earth, that he was also a part of that belief. He said just because he donned that one title in Egypt doesn’t mean that he was that one entity for those spans of their dynasty. Erik’s talking across to Ra.

    Erik: It’s like (unintelligible) approach to reincarnation. Like my mom, she has her name, her character, blurred in time. Though she’s experienced other lives, uh, is living other lives, she’s only putting on this character for this one moment.

    Jamie: And Ra agrees. I’m so sorry. I was listening to the words and translating and not comprehending what that was, so did that make sense?

    Me: Yeah.

    Jamie: It did?

    Me: Yes.

    What a liar. I knew no amount of re-explaining would get me there. I just wanted to move on to put me out of my misery.

    Jamie: Erik will teach me later what just happened. I get so busy just focusing on the words. They’re quiet.

    Me: Okay. Now, why did they create this whole story about you and the Underworld, that you had all of these dangers and foes? They say you have battles with this creature, Apep, and you win the battle and become Kapera, etc. What was the purpose for this folklore?

    Jamie (chuckling): He’s letting me know he is smiling!

    Me (laughing): Oh, okay! Cuz you can’t see it!

    Jamie: As you were talking, he said, “I am smiling.”

    Ra: This story is about fear—it represented the need for the human to fight their own fears when that time came. When the lights go out, you have a different (unintelligible) and it is often weaker than the one you have when the lights are on. So, day and night in ages long ago tended to be very frightening. To feel connected to a god or a deity that had struggled in the nighttime as well in the moments of lack of senses, which also represents death—you’re “in the dark”, no longer in the light, being life—there were some similarities that comforted, hence they created these stories to pacify and understand the fear of being human.

    Me: Okay. Now, it is also said that when you wept, your tears created Man, and when you cut yourself—you’re a cutter! Uh oh!—you transformed into two intellectual personalities: Hu, or authority, and Sia, or mind. Why did they create this?

    Ra: It is also understood that when I masturbated—

    Jamie blushes.

    Me: Oh my god.

    Ra: –I created my children. This made them feel I was one of the gods who lived on Earth.

    Erik: Whoa, whoa, whoa! What god did live on Earth?

    Jamie: He’s not necessarily calling them gods, but he’s talking about Jesus, Buddha, Sai Baba—

    Ra: –those entities who, let’s say, are godlike that lived on Earth, the stories created about them were based on meeting them in person. The stories that are about me, Ra, are stories created by Man to emotionally understand themselves. It was not the scientific object to talk about how emotions are triggers and what hormones are or why was there a rush of adrenaline or why do dreams occur when you close your eyes at night, why were you still alive? All of these had to be told as a story. The Egyptian storytelling, healing, forms of communication are like those of your Native Americans.

    Jamie: I would never have put those two together, but I guess I’ve never studied them in step.

    Me: That is interesting. Now, through the Egyptian times, it was said that you merged with other entities or gods like the god, Horus, and later the god, Amun. Can you elaborate? And why did they make this story up? What’s up with the merging? They also say that Horus is your proxy on Earth. It’s said that you’re strictly a celestial god instead of an earthly god.

    Jamie: That’s interesting. It’s him being a celestial god instead of an earthly god makes sense about the description of stories he just gave.

    Erik (laughing): Oh, you’re awake now, Jamie? You’re going to join the conversation?

    Jamie (to Erik): You’re a brat! Now I forgot the question!

    I repeat it for her.

    Ra: It was based on the warriors and the pharaohs that were taking over the dynasty.

    (Long pause)

    Jamie: Oh! Oh, that’s very interesting! He’s saying that when a new pharaoh came in to (unintelligible), if there was not some shift or change that the gods made, it would look poorly on that pharaoh and their power or understanding the gods and their light and the humans—they’re supposed to be the middle ground. They consider themselves to be not only the ruler of the people, but the priest, the spiritual conduit. If the gods didn’t make some arrangement or some shift, then maybe that pharaoh didn’t have the power to be in the place where he was.

    Ra: So, there’s always new twists and turns in a story when a new pharaoh takes over. You can correlate or associate these to who was in the seat of power.

    Me: What do you think about the amount of worship ancient Egyptians gave you including the erection of so many structures and temples?

    Ra: I was very touched and honored, but me, myself, was not asking for buildings to be erected in my name. I was asking—


    Jamie: I had to listen to that again before I said it out loud.

    Ra: I was asking for Man to coexist with those from alternate dimensions. There was a lot of understanding of the stars and power. Not power as in a ruler, like a Pharaoh, but power as –

    Jamie: Oh, I don’t know how to explain this. Help!

    Ra: Energy. If you want to use scientific terms, electricity, gasoline, machines. But when my time was over and Christianity moved in, the openness and willingness to communicate with the people of the stars was closed off, shut down.

    Me: Okay. Do you have any central philosophies or beliefs?

    Ra: Life is beautiful.

    (Pause as Jamie strains to listen.)

    Jamie: He’s talking about pain, suffering, struggle—that’s they’re imagin—sounds like there’s a t in there. Imaginitory?

    Me: Imagination?

    Jamie: I don’t know. Something about imagination.

    Ra: The human mind is extremely powerful and can retrain itself thoughtfully to heal or understand concepts larger than what it is. I find that fascinating—how falsities can lead to truth and healing in the end.

    Jamie: It’s weird. He talks about deeper concepts, but it’s not really in word form. It just kind of hits your body. It hits my head. I know there’s a word to it, but I have to sit with it for a second before I can know what the word is. It’s not like how I can listen to Erik banter. He makes it wave in and you have to sit with it and feel it and then say it, so it comes as an image.

    Me: Interesting. Okay, so Ra, do you have any human qualities like an ego like jealousy or insecurity, etc.?

    Jamie: Does he have an ego?

    Me: Yes. Any human qualities.

    Ra: No.

    Me: Okay. Did you have some sort of spiritual mission here on Earth? I know you came here to teach concepts of measurement including time, but did you have a spiritual mission as well?

    Ra: Yes. To continue to build a bridge between Man’s dimension and star’s dimension—the communication between alternate dimensions.

    Me: Do you think you accomplished that mission?

    Ra: Yes, in my timeframe, yes. It since has died out.

    Me: Were you here to teach anything other that what you’ve told us?

    Ra: No. Only what you’re able to learn.

    Me: Were you hear to learn anything? Like humans, were you here to remember who and what you are?

    Ra: No. I have full consciousness.

    Me: I figured. Do you have any regrets?

    Ra: No. That word is not in my vocabulary.

    Me: Again, I figured. Have you had many lives? Do you have past lives, um, other lives, past and future, in terms of linear earthly time, for example?

    Ra: No.

    Me: So, there’s no life you can share that most influenced your life as Ra, then?

    Ra: No.

    Me: So, you’ve never reincarnated; you’ve never been an ordinary human—

    Erik: That’s like asking an angel these questions, Mom! They’ve never had another life or incarnated.

    Me: So, Ra, you don’t die and go to Heaven like an angel would do. Okay. Can you describe your dimension in greater detail?

    Ra: It’s based on the one you live in, though it encompasses a world much greater than yours.

    Jamie (giggling): That’s all I hear! It’s really quiet.

    Me: All right. Well, when I say greater detail…

    Jamie and I laugh.

    Me: I think he misunderstood the assignment. Toss me a bone here, Ra!


    Me: Crickets, crickets, crickets.

    Jamie: Um, he’s still not sharing any details.

    Me: No details. Okay. So, Ra, tell me what you think about the state of the Middle East, including Egypt.

    Ra: It’s broken.


    Me: And?

    Ra: I do not feel sorrow for the lessons that are learned on Earth. I’m only going to assist the growth on Earth. If it must be this way for the humans to awaken, then it must be so, and I will embrace them even in their moment of fight. One day we will build the pieces back together and Egypt will be lively again.

    Sun God Ra

    Sun God Ra


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