Channeling Erik

November9th

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First of all, I’d like to thank everyone for bearing with me. I guess we bereaved have to have an occasional maintenance meltdown. Sometimes I feel like a pressure cooker. I busy myself every day so I can dismiss grief’s bony finger when he beckons me to wrap myself in his dark, heavy cloak. Every now and then, the pressure valve must release, the tears must flow, and the despairing thoughts must surface. Although those waves of grief seem further and further apart, they still take away a piece of me every time.

I will not filter what Erik says unless he instructs me to. That said, if you find something offensive, know that it’s not meant to be. The written word is easy to misconstrue. I urge you to ask questions for clarification, and I will answer them if I can. This is no place to “shoot and ask questions later.” My heart is still fragile and easily broken. I hope it toughens, but it may never be the same as it was a little over a year ago.

This blog, this little family, is our sanctuary for love, learning and sharing.  It’s devoid of ulterior agendas and should be free of judgment and pain. Let’s keep it that way.

Channeling Transcript

Me: Erik, I’ve read about this “City of Lights,” like a human species consciousness pool. Is there such thing? I can’t remember where I read it, but…

Erik: Yeah, there is.

Me: Yeah? Have you seen it?

Erik: No. I really haven’t had an interest in going there yet. I’m still intrigued with working with you, Mom, and my family and helping get out the word, uh, helping people.

Me: Well, what is the purpose of this, “City of Lights?” What is it exactly? Or do you even know?

Erik (laughing): I don’t really know everything about it, but how I’d sum it up is, well, it’s kind of a hippie commune. It’s like a bunch of hippies.

Me (laughing): Oh my God, how funny!

Erik: So people go, um, spirit’s energies go there to be pure and simple and live around each other and pool together.

Me: Hmm, okay. Sounds kind of kinky.

(Jamie laughs)

Me: Are there marriages there? Do you have boyfriend girlfriend relationships where you are now?

Erik: Hell yeah! Of course you can!

Me: I heard you have a girlfriend! How’s that going?

(Long pause)

Jamie (laughing hard): I don’t think I’ve ever seen him get quiet or shy!

Me: Oh, he can blush! He was always really shy around girls.

Jamie: He just dropped his head down, like chin to chest. He says, “It’s going fine.”

Me: Aw, good!

Jamie: The way he says it is like, “I’m not talking about it.”

Me: Okay, okay, I get it. Well, will you give her a hug for me?

Erik (grinning shyly): I will, I will. Let’s move on.

Me: Oh wait, one more thing. Robert says her name is Jennifer, Jen for short. Is that her real name?

Erik: No, it’s Jillian.

Me: Oh, Jillian! Okay, I just need to know so I can do a background check.

Jamie giggles.

Me: Just teasing. I’ll stop torturing you now and move on. Um, can you get married over there?

Erik: Yes, but it really doesn’t, uh, it’s not like somebody does it for you and you get a piece of paper.

Me: Oh, okay.

Erik: You just decide to unite and stay together.

Me: Okay. Now, I know I’m kind of going all over the place here, but why are problems sometimes more difficult to deal with in the afterlife? In other words, I’m trying to help people reconsider suicide as an option. I remember you told me that issues are more difficult to deal with there, so—

Erik: Yeah, that’s true.

Me: Well, it seems like everything else is easier in the afterlife, so what the heck?

Erik: Mom, the pulls are different in both locations. Take the boy who jumped, Tyler Clementi. He should have stayed. He should have been an example of how to handle personal life with pride, not embarrassment or shame. There were many people that he was supposed to influence and change, but he ran into a wall; he couldn’t take it. He still influenced them by committing suicide, but he, uh, it’s not in the same way. It won’t have as powerful an effect.

Me: Ah!

Erik: So there are going to be people he didn’t cross paths with, that he didn’t leave his mark. And now he has to do that in spirit. That’s just a little bit harder to do when you’re pure energy compared to walking around in a body.

Me: Well, why?

Erik: C’mon, Mom, how many people listen to dead spirits?

Me: Aw, I listen to you, Baby!

Erik: That’s true, but take it general terms.

Me: I know. I’m just kidding.

Erik: In spirit, you don’t have the duality, the contrast, the adversity. These are important tools for growth. Tyler was supposed to be videotaped, but he was supposed to react differently. That was to be his destiny, but I guess he wasn’t ready for it.

The good news is that we always have the chance to try again. Ideally, it’s better to complete the tasks and the lessons we design for ourselves in each particular lifetime, but if we don’t, it’s okay. We’re not admonished, punished or chided. There is no bad; there is no wrong; there is no inferiority. There just is.

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  • Steve

    SOOOOOOOOOOO glad you are back!

    Seriously – I plan to get this worked out in this life. I am tired of coming back all the time. It’s worth the challenge!

  • Lemski

    I’m happy, Elisa, to know you’re back. I missed your posts. :)

  • http://sites.google.com/site/kookyspookyookyjournal/ Jason

    I just wanted to pipe in with the comment on Erik’s girlfriends name. To the average person, or someone newer to all this type of thing; it would appear Robert got the name wrong. That’s not the case. There are several things at play here. One is that over many many life times spirits take on many names. And those different names carry different weight to different Spirits including our own. Also many Spirits like to change it up a bit according to feeling and intent of the receiver. It’s not just a word, but carries with it flavor, meaning, sound and conitations that we in our bodies and current language can’t understand. So what might be a name to one person isn’t nesc. the name the Spirit always prefers to their ‘belovid’. Another seemingly odd thing is that to them names as it pertains to us; are often irrelevant. For example myself and others’ I’ve spoken to; our guides and angles often make us ‘name them’ ourselves never mind what their actual name/s might be. For example, each one of my guides made me name them. But my angles prefer to speak as a collective to me. And when I insisted on a name, they sighed and laughed and just said to refer to the collective as “Angel”. Soooo…. Just a strange little peek into that angle of the transcript.

  • http://www.facebook.com/robert.f.burke Robert

    Ah, so it’s Jillian…I at least got the J right. :-) I asked her when I started calling her Jennifer if that was correct and she said it doesn’t matter, but that she in fact was Jennifer during one of her lives so using that name was fine with her. Erik’s popping in now to tease me. Now he’s saying names aren’t even important for them. They are for us though, so that is why they are used…for our sake so we can differientate one Spirit from another. He says he’s still getting reacclimated to Spirit so he likes using names and that he always loved the name Jillian so that’s what he wants us to call her. She loves the name too, but she loves anything that comes from Erik. :) he’s blushing bigtime now and grinning shyly! So adorable!

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Hey, Robert, Ican’t remember my own name sometime, so…And when I call out to one of the kids for something, it’s like Kris-Mich-Annik-Eri-Luk Argggh, Then I look at them and say, “What did you say your was name again?” I’m just kidding of course, but they never fail to answer me with their name.

  • Tiffany

    I just love these posts about what happens in spirit realm! It is nice to know that we do get opportunities to try again! Elisa, your writing is very eloquent!

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Aw, schucks, Tiffany, thanks!

  • Alfine

    Elisa I have to commend you for bouncing back so quick!

    Have read through the last post, I was taken a back myself and really felt for you. I’m very sensitive, and sometimes when I come here and read your messages of strugglin to get through, I try to put myself in your shoes to try and understand just how you feel. But, being 20 with no children, I think it’ll be a while before I truly understand the mother-child bond. Regardless, I acknowledge your strength and courage in deciding to let your grief be a foundation of healing, inspiration and solace for yourself and those who join you on this journey.

    Sometimes, I have to remind myself that as much as I meditate and spend time in imagination and peace, I’m still on planet earth where many non-wonderful/conflicting coexist and so I have to live in remembrance and acceptance of that. However, never forgetting truth and essence of Who I Am and who We All Really Are.

    Do you know what I mean?

    Anyway. Love and commendation to you (and Erik!) for your willingness, courage and selflessness. It’s beautiful to see.

    If/when things are especially tough & grim, know that there is a 20 year old in Falmouth, Maine who is so appreciative and loving of all you have done (and will continue to do!), and who’s life you have continually saved by posting these messages of love, light, hope and our purpose on earth.

    You’re beautiful!

    Love, a l w a y s.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Aw, Alfine, I’m happy to have you in the family. I do know what you mean. Sometimes when life gets messy, we have to remind ourselves that we are only in a transient school play. Sometimes it’s a comedy. Sometimes it’s a drama. But it always ends in bliss with us hopefully being a little wiser, a little more loving, and a little more connected. You, my precious little angel, are beautiful too. I love you always as well, Baby Girl.

  • http://Www.twitter.com/lovealfine Alfine

    P.S

    If you haven’t read the “Conversations with God” (Neale Donald Walsch) trilogy, I recommend it!

    Life/perspective changer!

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      It is, Alfine. Have you read one of his latest ones, “Home with God?” It’s the first book I read after Erik’s death. I think it’s his best yet.

  • http://Www.modelmayhem.com/alfine Alfine

    Yes yes yes!

    I did!

    It’s phenomenal, huh?

    I love reading his stuff because there’s always that feeling of, “That’s what I’ve always wanted to believe! I just didn’t know if…” And the points made (in the books) give you confirmation, you know? “Yes, you can believe that! It’s true!”

    But boy will I never make the mistake of mentioning to
    my parents I look forward to death! Lol. We don’t share the same thoughts on life/the afterlife so we always have these head-butts, but what can you do — welcome to life :)

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      I know, Alfine! It’s like it triggers some sort of inner knowingness down to the very core of our souls, you know? It’s like you KNOW it’s true. Same deal with my parents. They believe you turn to dust after death, basically. But the weird thing is, my dad was the first person Erik visited. My dad was so stunned when the next day Erik just appeared before him, turned into the way he was around 3 or 4, sat in his lap, rested his head on my dad’s chest and told him “things come in 3s.” Needless to say, my dad has never been quite the same.

  • Juan

    Thanks Elisa, I love these posts, it is incredible what happens in the spirit world, incredible and amazing!!

    thanks
    juan

  • http://www.facebook.com/robert.f.burke Robert

    LOL! Thanks Elisa for the humor! I usually beat myself up when I don’t get details about things like that incorrect, but I’m learning that is the least important thing, at least with regard to my lifework. What is important is that the message not be from Spirit not be skewed by an individual’s personal feelings, ideology, or agenda. Erik also reminded me today that one of the names I heard was Jillian when I asked her about it, but they both sensed I was I secure about it so she said it didn’t matter and to go with Jennifer as she used to be called that anyway. :-) thankfully I can say I didn’t regress in having confidence in my abilities.

    Thank you Jason for filling the group in on the name stuff!

    Much love to everyone! :-)

  • http://www.facebook.com/robert.f.burke Robert

    Ugh…I meant to say at the start of my last comment that I usually beat myself up when I get details like names incorrect. Anyways, that wasn’t the case this time. :-)

  • Paul Conklin

    My Dear Friends,

    We have been brought together for a purpose. Jesus told his followers from the first century that they were the light of the world. The light of our love needs to shine on the darkness of grief, hatred, intolerance and judgment. The light of our love can restore the brokenhearted ones. The light of our love is like a beacon atop the highest mountain that everyone can see.

    Our beloved angels and our dear loved ones that have passed before us want to work with those of us left behind. We are in the midst of an exciting era. This is the era when the veil will be drawn back. This is the era when grief will fade and joy will increase. We are not powerless. We have much more power than we can imagine. For inside our minds there lives a Spark of the Infinite God ever calling to us.

    Imagine if everyone knew that they had infinite potential and infinite love living within their minds. People do not realize the power that love has to change the bleakest of circumstances.

    I received a message from my personal Spark of the Infinite God. In this message I was moved to tears because he compared our love to a deposit in our bank accounts. When we withdraw from our literal accounts, there is a deficit. What he told me though is that when we withdraw love and forgiveness from the bank account of our hearts there is no deficit. As a matter of fact if we give it, give it all away we will find something strange. We will find that the more love and forgiveness that we give away freely the more that we will find in the bank accounts of our hearts. Who would have ever thought that by giving something away so freely would result in more riches than we could ever imagine.

    That is why we have more power than we could imagine. Through the light of our love we have the power to change hearts of stone, hearts troubled by grief and depression. If we give it, give it all away, we will be the richest persons on the planet.

    Love,
    Paul

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Now THAT is wealth worth living for, Paul.

  • epeavey

    Paul…absolutely beautiful! And certainly the best wealth one can acquire!

  • lidian

    Erik says that “In spirit, you don’t have the duality, the contrast, the adversity. These are important tools for growth.” My current question is why? Why do we have to experience all the darkness in order to recognize the light?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      If you are Love, Light, Goodness, how can you know who you really are? You might understand conceptually, but you must really grasp it experientially to totally get it. So to understand the Light that is you, you must experience darkness. To understand the Good that is you, you must experience evil. To understand the Love that is you, you must understand hatred. Understanding betrayal helps us experience our ability to forgive. Understanding death helps us understand the sanctity of life. I could go on and on, but the sum of it all is that we must understand what we are NOT to understand what we ARE. If you read the past entry about The Little Soul and the Sun, you’ll see what I mean.

  • buddy boy

    City of Lights? Wow, sounds a little naughty and fun. I’d ask if you could be naughty in the non-physical world, but Erik is naughty a lot with his friends. I think what I really want to know is, can feel the euphoric feeling of being in love with another over there?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Yes, yes, and Hell yes, as Erik puts it. Even better, more blissful, etc. I just asked these questions today. Stay tuned for the transcript. Im chipping away at them bit by bit.

  • Shannon

    I missed you Elisa! Hey girl, I’ve been working with some energy techniques that might help you with the grief episodes. Let me know if this is something you’re interested in trying. Worse case scenario: nothing happens. Best case: Ahhh…relief from the emotional pain.

    Love you lots,

    S.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Bring it on, Shannon!

  • Ingrid

    Thanks for the post, Elisa and Erik! I love the likening to the hippy commune lol:) Paul- loved your comment as well. Love is the one thing we can give to each other and ourselves that can never run out. I think that’s proof right there that love is a gift, it’s divine, and it’s the ultimate truth. Love you all!

  • Pam

    Elisa, Erik sounds exactly like my son when I ask him about his girlfriend…I can just imagine his expression and body language, LOL. I am really glad that you asked about marriage and relationships, I was curious about how they would exist.

    I am so glad that you didn’t give up on us. I know we all have strong feelings and opinions but we are united in this blog, discussing and believing ideas which are out of the mainstream, which in another forum might create the tempest of the previous post. Please know that you are loved and admired for your grace and courage.
    The information and ideas that you and Erik have shared have and are helping many…

    Sending hugs))))))to everyone.

    Pam

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Love you, Pamie.

  • Condor

    Welcome back Elisa and I hope and pray your mother is recovering properly and that the surgery leads to an improvement in the quality of life for her.

    Pax Christi

  • Steve

    Jason, that makes perfect sense. I’ve had the same experience, as I’ve had intuitives tell me that my guides really don’t have names, and the names are not pronounceable here anyhow, or they are irrelevant.

  • Steve

    Something fun to SHARE with EVERYONE:

    I have been throwing white light around me every morning and night (before sleep). I also throw the light around my car when I drive. I imagine brilliant white Christ energy light beamed down through my crown chakra, filling my body, and rooting me into the Earth, grounding me. Then I make a white bubble of God/Christ white light around me.

    I SWEAR to you folks, people treat me differently when I do this. When walking my dog, strangers come up and chat. Folks smile more at me while jogging or at work. Even things at work seem calmer as I STAY calmer and more focused when I do this.

    Try it, and may your days be brighter!

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Oooo, I’m going to try that! Thanks, Steve!

  • Skoshi

    Be at peace. BE peace.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Amazing, Skoshi.

  • Melanie

    Elisa
    You are so eloquent with your writing. I wish I could express myself as well. Thank you for the blog. I started reading several months ago and I just lost one of the loves of my life at such a young age and due to such a stupid act (I am sure I should not say that) and this blog has continued to bring me peace, hope and relief. Thank you

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Thank you, Melanie, for being a part of this family. We love you!

  • KateC

    Paul, you rock. Much love headed your way from here.

  • epeavey

    Love your explanation of duality and contrast Elisa, makes everything a bit more clear and easier to get through day by day!

  • Denise

    As far as names go, in the purest form of Sanskrit the vibration of the name of an object is the same as the vibration of the object itself.

  • SpiritPainter

    Hey, Elisa — good to have you back. I know there’s nothing I can say to ease your pain, but just want you to know here’s another one in the family keeping you in prayer as you grieve.

    Oh, and I like the white light exercise. My sister taught me a mantra years ago I still use:

    I am in the light.
    The light is in me.
    I am surrounded by the pure white light.
    Only good can go from me.
    Only good can come to me.

    Blessings!

  • Abbe

    Dear Elisa – Welcome back. I love the energy and love of this growing family and enjoy Erik’s humor and wisdom. Thank you for your compassion and commitment even as you grieve.

  • http://sites.google.com/site/kookyspookyookyjournal/ Jason

    Aweome SpiritPainter! — Those words are so simple and wonderful. Don’t forget when we say that it works best not just as words, but put a lot of intent, emotion and longing into it! Then it becomes a tool to raise one’s vibrations and connect with higher Spirit!

  • Shannon

    Elisa, the energy tools I’ve been working with are a live interaction thing. Call my cell if you want to schedule some time (20-30 min.) or if you just want some immediate support, even if you aren’t in crisis mode. :) (562) 556-2069

    S.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      I will! I work every day for the next few weeks, but I’ve now got your cell and you’ve got my gratitude (and love)!

  • Denise

    Last week while making the bed I noticed a group of people in the room. I kind of tried not to notice them but finally said “what?” The response was “we love you.” Of course it was accompanied by a HUGE wave of love. It was overwhelming. I sat and cried, it was almost too much.
    I have for as long as I can remember surrounded myself (and family) with white light. I am getting pretty good at it and want to do more wiht it. This weekend while thinking of how to use it more effectively it occured to me that if I infused the light with unconditional love like the love that I felt from my visiting group it would be much more powerful. The only problem I couldn’t remember what unconditionallove felt like. I was disappointed to say the least. I am extremely emotional and in order to protect myself I have over the years put up a protective shield to keep out the harshness; unfortunately I have also kept out the good stuff, too. The best I can figure is I was supposed to be learning to focus and use all this emotion. I had no teacher to help me learn to control my emotions, no realization that I needed one. So now here I sit feeling like I have wasted my 50+ years (yeah, I know, it’s never wasted). My life hasn’t been totally crappy but I can’t help but think what if. If anyone has any suggestions for re-connecting with unconditional love I’d be very happy to hear them.
    The image of dying of thirst at Niagara Falls just popped into my head.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      When I visualize unconditional love I wrap my arms (my soul’s arms really) around the person and draw them to my chest and think or rather “feel” how much I love every part of their being. It’s funny how when we give love we feel it too.