Channeling Erik

May18th

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Emergency Situation

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I got home from visiting Robert and received this email from our dear Stanley.

Hello Elisa,

I do wish this didn’t come at a time when it does. But I wanted you to know the why before you saw it on the news. I am going to be ending my life in a few hours. Just tying up some lose ends first. It seems after seeing me and Sandra on Taboo, people want to make sure SSI cuts both me and Sandra off our disability checks for role playing part of the day. Saying as long as disability is paying us, people have the right to tell us how and where it should be spent. And since we spend some of it here and there on disability, the disability should be cut off. So senetor Wally Herger is going to make sure we are taken off of disability. The news says since I am able to run a website, and was able to build a piece of furniture, I am more than well enough to hold a full time job. I guess that the PTSD, depression, spinal injury and everything else makes no difference. Doesn’t matter that it took over 2 weeks to build the chair. It seems just the fact that I was able to build one “proves” that I am well enough to hold a full time job. Well either way, while SSI takes the time to evaluate it, the disability checks will be suspended. Well, the manager for the apartment doesn’t care, rent is due when it’s due. So I figure before I sit and wait for SSI to suspend my disability claim while they re-evaluate again, I intend to end my life before I watch me and Sandra get kicked out of our apartment for non-payment of rent, before I watch the Shirrif remove all my belongings to be taken because I can’t guard it all on the street, and before I starve trying to find food as I won’t have the money any longer to buy any food. I don’t need it. I don’t deserve to be treated this way. Have I not been through enough? I have decided I have been through enough, and I am done with this world. I just can’t handle this on top of the nightmares, flashbacks and everything else. I just can’t do it. So I really wanted to write and let you know what happened. Why I am leaving. And to let you know that I am greatful for your friendship, and friendship of those on the CE family. I always knew I was coming to the end of my time here, but really didn’t think it would be so soon. Try not to let it bother you if possible. It’s not going to hurt at all. And I will be up there with Erik skiing and at peace. I have been fighting for years, I just can’t do this anymore. Especially now with what’s about to happen. I wish you and the CE family the best. If you want to talk at all before I leave for my trip, I will have my cell on (email me if you want his cell number). I love you very much, you have been a wonderful friend Elisa. I mean that. Take care Elisa **hugs** Stanley

I have called him and he agrees to wait a short while to sort things out and to allow his real family (us) to help. I’ve also called the local authorities who are on his way to check on him now. He knows this is happening. I’ve called Wally Herger’s office, and his assistant, Claire, was very helpful and compassionate. She’s going to try to help as well, but Herger is a state congressman and therefore has nothing to do with SSDI. Tom Coburn in Washington is the one who wants to cut him off. I spoke with his office and they were not very nice at all. How they can possibly make that sort of determination based on a TV show is beyond me. It seems like they should review things like medical and psychiatric records at the very least. I find it disturbing that Coburn would politicize this with articles in the Washington Times, etc, making provocative statements that could jeopardize a life without taking the time to investigate further. Needless to say, this could also become a legal nightmare for Coburn if Stanley does take his life–akin to murder, really.

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  • Yahaira Florentino

    Ay noooo. I hope he s still here Elisa? He’s so depressed. MR stanley there alway hope while we are alive. Please dont do this. This world needs you. WE all can fight it, the system I mean. Lets fight it.

  • Shannon

    Stanley, just take a moment and breathe …it’s really not time for you to check out. You’re not going to be homeless (yes, I checked ). I have felt that blackness that you just went through and you can get through this. Just remember to check in with yourself when you start to panic …in this moment there is a roof over your head, in this moment you are not starving, in this moment you are surrounded by incarnate and discarnate beings that love you dearly. Sit down with your non-physical friends and ask them for help! They cannot help if you don’t ask. In the mean time your physical friends will do all we can to ensure your physical safety. Your spiritual safety is guaranteed. Loads of love to you sweet Stanley!

  • amy cavanaugh

    Wow Stanley-thank you for your candor-Keith’s story was quite similar to yours-and the same think happened in the hospital-when I was cleaning out his stuff-I found all sorts of suicide notes, and when he was clearly at his exit point-he held on longer that he should have because he was scared of the people on the other side. I have to be honest-when I went to Taboo-I was SHOCKED, but I begged Elisa to help me see it differently which of course in her magically way she did and now when I read your story and your experiences in the hospital I just overwhelmed with compassion for you. It is amazing what life puts us through-while each ones experience is different there are some that are so horrific I just have to believe that faith is rewarded. Hang in there Stanley.

  • Stanley

    Hello Everyone,

    I am truely trying to hang on. I can’t even put into words how hard. I just have that little dude sitting on my shoulder with a little neon exit sign is just so loud. Saying “you know how to make it stop”. I just don’t know how long I can keep saying no. I don’t hear voices or nothing like that. It’s just a visual discription of what it feels like. I am greatful for all the support, I truely am. I am just so very tired and weak. I have been wanting to go back to heaven since November 23rd 1990 at 3:52pm, just minutes after I walked in. My very first day as a walk-in, my so called “mom” drives me to the children’s psych ward, and before going in tells me “When you meet the nurse, make sure you tell her your feeling suicidal”. I didn’t know what that word meant then. But seeing as she was my “mom”, I did it. Then at 3:52pm the nurse said I would have to stay there at least a week. It all just went down hill from there. All this is in my bio:
    http://www.bedwettingabdl.com/Stanleys_personal_page.html

    Sorry, but it’s hella long. I wish it was short and uneventful. It’s just all my life I have felt like a abuse magnet. I understand that the abuse had helped make me a fighter against child abuse as a adult. But why do I have to keep having it happen? When is enough enough?

    I also just looked at the bottom of this page and just noticed the disclaimer about feelings of suicide. So I am very sorry to bring that here. Especially after so many have lost loved ones by suicide. I’m sorry if I brought that up for anyone. I didn’t mean to do that to anyone.

    -Stanley

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Stanley, we love you and know that the disclaimer has been there for a long time. It wasn’t prompted by you at all. I’ll call you tomorrow. When Robert is well enough, I want him to channel Erik for you as well–if he agrees. We’re in this together. What’s happening now is your spiritual mission. It’s a higher purpose that you chose because you have the courage the soul you replaced did not.

  • amy cavanaugh

    Stanley-just hang in there. Remember what Erik said about suicide if it is not your exit point-you taught me a huge lesson-so hang out some more so we can all learn more

  • Stanley

    Hello Elisa,

    Thanks Elisa and to everyone here. And it does help having all the support of everyone here. I sure in now way could do this by myself. I just wish the senator would use some brains. It’s fine if he doesn’t agree with my way of relaxing, but to say I am scaming the system is just wrong.

    I mean, if I really was defrauding the government, why in the world would I go on a nationally broadcasted program like NatGeo? And if I was trying to hide anything such as defrauding the government, why would I have a tell all bio, naming hospitals and schools by name where they can contact for records to check? I have nothing to hide, and have done nothing wrong.

    Why go after me, when you got those who get disability and blow it on 60 inch plasma screen tv’s, spinning rims for their car, beer/drugs, spending it to be the new android or other high priced phones and so on. I have a cell phone sure, but mine is a tracphone where I pay $10.00 a month for 60 minutes. When the minutes are gone, their gone. Heck, I am using Sandra’s phone right now because I ran out of minutes.

    I think the only reason this guy is going after me is because of the whole role playing thing. It’s only a hobby I use to relax and be calm. Like in that letter, if what the senator says is true, then anyone who paints as a hobby should be taken of disability and forced to go find work as a painter, or a woman who has a small garden out back should be taken off disability and find a job gardening and so on.

    It just bothers me that this guy is judging me based on a all of 20 minutes of a TV program that only used the best shots (and not even all that was filmed), and hasn’t even read my bio, seen my medical records or anything else.

    The guy doesn’t even realise that the diapers he thinks I only wear during role playing are really worn for urinary incontinece, and that I have worn diapers since I was 13 years old. I wore them when I was working security too. That hasn’t changed, unless I feel like walking around town in wet pants. Something I would rather not do. Anyway, I did find one article who contacted my old therapist I worked with back in 2006 and was on the show as well. She says:

    Redding psychologist Sheela Stocks said it’s dangerous for politicians — and not mental health professionals — to be deciding whether someone qualifies for disability payments. She said no one has ever qualified for benefits because of the “adult baby” lifestyle, which she described as a coping mechanism, one that rarely requires therapy. Stocks, who also was interviewed by National Geographic in the episode that featured Thornton, said mental health disability claims always require a legitimate diagnosis such as depression, anxiety, panic attacks, personality disorders or post-traumatic stress.

    So at least one of the papers/sites thought enough to at least talk to Stocks, my old therapist, to hear more about the situation. Although all this was unforeseen, I will be glad when the review comes back as no change and the guy sees he attacked me for no reason. That everything WAS legit and still is. I would love to be a fly on the wall when he gets the report. Though I doubt he will even appologize once proved wrong.

    -Stanley

  • JoAnn

    thanbk you Elisa,,,although i do not believe i would be of any help to society as a whole against abuse of any kind ,,i myself feel as if i don’t have the strength to even help myself from getting hurting daily in some way or another and even though i can see where i am being hurt i stay.

  • JoAnn

    Thank You Elisa,,,although i do not believe i would be of any help to society as a whole against abuse of any kind ,,i myself feel as if i don’t have the strength to even help myself from getting hurt daily in some way or another and even though i can see where i am being hurt i stay.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      But for you and me, helping others heals our own pain, JoAnn.

  • Be Free My Angel

    Stanley – tell that little guy to bugger off !!! That’s the old tapes playing in your head. Distract distract distract yourself as much as possible. Me I chat with friends….Im open for chat if you like…Hugs.

  • Stanley

    Hello,

    Anyone use yahoo messenger at all, we can talk real time with that. My name for yahoo messenger is Stanley_19802. I don’t normally run it, but given the current situation, I will have it open while online to talk with you all. Thanks again for the support. **hugs everyone**

    -Stanley

  • Tom

    Well, thats cool. Stanley is still on the right side of the sod! =D
    Stanley, if that “little dude” is standing on you shoulder with a ‘neon sign’….you know how to turn off a neon sign don’t you?? Theres a little pull string that you pull and it shuts off….and there ya go! =D
    Just pull the string and leave that ‘lil dude’ in the frigging dark to pout. And don’t make me come up there either…. =P

    Everything isn’t what it seems, this will blow over and whats-his-name will probably end up eating crow…which is all fine, as politicians don’t really deserve to eat so well =P
    I figure whats really going on is that Sandra isn’t there, and you’re in the apartment alone, and I know you don’t like that, but it’s ok…Elisa is a phone call away, as am I, and you should still have your puppy to help. My work schedule is all messed up, and I almost don’t know when I’m working. But as it stands it looks like I have Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off, if that helps. I can pop up….chat…hang out, go rent a movie or what not…as usual.
    I know it feels like it, but in reality, you’re not alone, as was said in the film “Hereafter” no matter what, we aren’t really alone. It took me forever it seems to figure that out….but I know it for a fact after having a lot of things happen around me that I cannot explain.
    There are guardian angels and an energy that is bigger and way more powerful than anything man can even imagine or fantasize about. The cool thing is that you can also tap into this energy, the energy of the universe. It’s amazing. I never have, though I’ve had glimpses or shadows of something like it…and wow.
    It’s cool really, I like it…but it’s hard to remember also that it is there for everyone and anyone. The world LOOKS like a shitty place, and it can be I guess…but only if you let it, or let it get to you. There are some many greater and bigger things than that piss ant over on Capitol hill (who might be a closet AB himself =P ) This world, this planet has so many wonderful gifts to offer, for free…..its astounding.
    I just don’t want you to miss out because some quazi-bully decides to shoot his mouth off in your direction.
    One other thing this shows us, is what kind of TV that guy and others really watch! LOL =P
    Geeee…..I wonder why…..?

    Anyways, hang in there, let me know if or what you might need. I have 3 days next week if necessary, or if not I might be up there in August as I have in the past to bug and pester you =P
    Something else, maybe ask DJ or Pam what they think next time they pop in to visit..or wait for Erik to give you his lo-down analysis of the whole situation.
    Punching out early though just isn’t the way, and I know you can do better. I’ve had crappy times in my life, and I’m actually having to struggle with one now, and have been for the last 3 years, due to %$#@!@ family! IT SUCKS! I know. But it is what it is and I try not to let it get to me (much) , but it is very frustrating.
    Anyways, as some others have said, one day at a time, one foot in front of the other. Everyone else has to do the same one way or another.
    It’s not the end of the world, just a speed bump on the 2 lane road of life.
    hang in here and let me know if I can help…
    ‘K??

    Tom

  • Shawna

    Stanley~ sending you love and light and some of my angels to help you out. Please don’t let them control your emotions or make you want to do anything stupid. You are needed here!!!! We all love you very much.
    Robert~ sending you healing energy and asking Archangel Raphael to assist in your healing and for Archangel Michael to help you with the negativity. Hope you have a speedy recovery.
    Elisa~ thank you for all you do and for rounding up help for Stanley. Stanley’s story has really touched me and I always love to read his comments. He is an awesome soul! Lucky to have him here.
    I love you Elisa, Erik and everyone here!
    Love & Light,
    Shawna

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Hey Shawna, how’s the job situation?

  • Stanley

    Hey all,

    Just a quick note. Police just pulled up. Guess my therapist called them after we talked. They are probably going to take me over to the ER again. Gee, another dose of abuse coming up. Anyway, just wanted to post real fast in case no one sees me for a few days. With hope mental health will act like they always do and overturn the 5150 hold like always. If not, I will be transported to Sacramento for 3-7 days. I will try to keep in touch through Sandra. If you don’t hear from me, give Sandra a call Elisa. I already e-mailed you her number in case something like this happened. Hope to talk to you soon. **hugs**

    -Stanley

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Will do Stanley. Hang tough baby. When you feel down, think about us, the family who adores you.

  • Tom

    I just got home from work and I’m dead tired, to come in and see this BS.
    Well, ok…fine. Stanley said no police, but they show up anyways to cart him off to God knows where.
    I think I have Sandras phone number, and like I said above, I have 3 days off, so I guess it’s time for a road trip up there to see if I can do anything. Hell, I can’t even think right now.
    Maybe I’ll call Sandra in the morning and see what if anything I can do..

    Tom

  • http://www.saludfacil.blogspot.com Yahaira Florentino

    I’m in…. Send me the info Elisa.I’ve been strugling for moeny also, but i figure that when I want to help others the money comes rihgt in. “d live to know more about “walks in”.

  • Stanley

    Hey all,

    I was going to post what happened sooner, but I was drained mentally. So I was picked up and thankfully taken to the good ER (thanks to my guardian angels for that one!). So I waited at the ER for over 10 hours. It was hell to put it plainly. Because of the PTSD from all the hospital abuse growing up, my therapist didn’t want me to spend more than 2 hours at a hospital. And that’s why I have only been visiting with Sandra for about 2 hours a day. Sometimes I have to leave after just a hour. It sucks. So anyway, I was starting to freak out by the 3rd hour. I was trying to meditate listening to meditation music on my MP3 player, but I just couldn’t do it. So around the 4th hour I needed my pain medication for my back. They were actually fighing with me about it. How I’m not supposed to have anything till mental health comes and gets me. 10+ hours without pain medication, I don’t think so. I managed to get some though. But not before they took away my backpack I have for ER visits. So around the 6th hour my back was still hurting so I laid down on the bed. A nurse decided it would be a good idea to turn off the rooms lights, after I told her it was a major trigger. I totally freaked out. Screaming at the poor woman to turn the lights on. Too late though, the dark room set of multiple flashbacks of the night locked in solitary overnight huddled in the corner trying to keep warm. I hate that flashback. So around 3am the mental health worker finally showed up. She asked why I was there. I explained to her about the situation with the senator and all the “kill yourself” letters and explained the feelings of doing just that. She didn’t even say anything. She got up and left. 10 minutes later a nurse comes in and tells me the mental health worker reversed the 5150 involuntary hold and is sending me home still feeling suicidal of course. Just love the system. So I ask the nurse for transport as I told the cops if I was taken to the ER without my car, I would be stranded. She tells me call friends or family. I have no friends or family locally. Then she tells me to take a cab. At the time I had 3 dollars. No where near enough. So she finally called the cab company the hospital uses for cases like me being stranded. The cab company sent a cab 2 hours later. It looked like it just came out the demolition derby. The whole way home it as metal to metal rubbing. I sware I thought the door was about to fall off. But I got home at around 5am. The cab fair just to go two blocks from the hospital was already at $5.00. The total fair was $15.70. I was glad the hospital paid it because I had no where near enough for a fair like that. So when I laid down finally that morning I got about a hour or so sleep before I went up to see Sandra at 4pm that following day. And on the way home from Sandra’s visit on Saturday I find re-evaluation packets for both me and Sandra. Sandra’s gives her till June 26th to get filled out. I get until Wednesday to get everything ready. I tell ya, I am so sick of getting shafted. Why does Sandra get a month to prepair and I get 3 days? But anyway, I am home and not in Sacramento, so that’s a blessing in itself. Thanks everyone for the support. It’s been so helpful during this hellish experience this last week. **hugs to all**

    Stanley

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Sometimes it helps to explore the actions of these people like the nurse, etc. to make sure they’re not a relationship villain of some sort. Only you would know that, but it’s very important to not leave any stone unturned and simply assume. What do you think, Stanley? Could this nurse and others have spiritual agreements with you? If so, what could they be? I always believe in thinking outside the comfort box, because that’s what spurs our growth the most at times.

  • Stanley

    Hello,

    I also wanted to post a link to this song called Firework by Katy Perry: http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/Katy+Perry/Firework–218722461;_ylt=Ag0D56lmyoBAbU94_93uBqLesyUv

    I just love the message about being yourself. About letting your light shine. Besides the message, I connected to the scene where the big brother went to break up the parents fighting to protect his sister from having to hear the fighting. I did just that growing up, but it was seperating my grandparents. I stepped in when I started hearing plate after plate being smashed on the floor and had enough.

    It’s funny because for several weeks every time I went to bed or woke up the song would play on the radio. I couldn’t help it, I would just bust out laughing when it would happen. I love the sense of humor my angels have for sending a message. Sometimes our angels have strange ways of passing along a message. And what better message than to “be who you are” to be passed along?

    -Stanley

  • Dina

    This song’s for you, Stanley:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJbt-lfszIs

    Sorry for freaking out earlier and hope you got my messages. Both of them.

    Warmly,
    Dina

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