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October5th

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Ask Erik: Endre’s Questions

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Endre’s Questions

Dear Elisa,

I discovered your beautiful blog “Channeling Erik” about ten days ago.  It is a real blessing and service that you and your dear Erik are providing the world.  Thank you for doing it.  Please accept my deepest sympathy for all the heartache you and your family have had to endure.  It always distresses me to learn of other parents who have lost children.  My heart goes out to you!!  Like you, we we were inducted into the terrible fellowship of grieving parents when our precious only son, Antal passed suddenly and unexpectedly via a self-induced accident on November 12, 2006.  He was 11 years old and passed just 11 days away from his 12th birthday.  (The numbers 11 and 12  seem to be frequently associated with Antal and incidents involving those numbers are one of the ways he sometimes will show his presence.)  Adding insult to injury, he was laid to rest on our 20th Wedding Anniversary.  (Sigh!)  Being a highly spiritual person – one who has always been interested in metaphysics, the spirit world, and occult philosophy – I was better prepared than most to cope with his passing.  But, of course, I don’t have to tell you that despite all that, his loss was devastating.  Antal was my only son and my best pal.  Thankfully, we have somehow survived and I have (to date) collected nearly 200 pages of stories of comforting communications from Antal.  Perhaps, like you and Erik, he and I are writing a book together.  I am eternally grateful for his help in getting us this far.

We also still have three wonderful daughters and their presence in our life has helped sustain us through the ordeal.  My oldest daughter, Csilla, had a very direct conversation with Antal’s spirit presence the day following the accident and he conveyed to her how sorry he was for all that had happened.  I think it was simply his time to go, although one thing I miss is knowing what went through his mind causing him to do what he did.  Unlike you, I have never been blessed with a vision or even a dream of my precious baby boy following his departure.  It’s as if he simply vanished at that fateful moment.   I’m told he has come in dreams but since I seem to sleep so deeply, I have no awareness of his visits.  Given what I have learned of the “other side” (both from “Channeling Erik” and the many other books I have immersed myself in), Antal and Erik already know one another, which is probably how I found my way to your blog in the first place.  Perhaps they snowboard together!  :-)   That sounds like something Antal would be doing.  Maybe Erik can nudge Antal to find a way to appear to me someday.  I hate the idea of having to wait all the way until my last days to see him again.

You can see a photo of my precious Antal at my photography website: http://www.endresphotos.com/-/endresphotos/gallery.asp?LID=&cat=35616&pID=3&row=15&photoID=7236137&searchTerm= (Parenthetically, you will notice that I added a sort of “spiritualized” background to those photos of Antal.  I’d be honored to do something like that for a photo of Erik if it would bring you comfort.  If so, just send me a high quality jpeg of your favorite photo of Erik and I’ll happily do that.)  There are other photos of Antal there, as well as photos of our girls.  In case you are curious to know a bit about me, just click on the “Bio” tab at the top.  As you will see, I have always been a concert violinist and more recently, a photographer.  (One odd thing is that no matter how many photos I have taken since Antal’s passing, he has never shown up as an orb in any of them.)  I also do a lot of creative work with photoshop.  I have been channeling (for lack of a better term) a series of illustrations for a children’s book called “Eva and the Magic Umbrella” which is a story for small children and bereaved parents – meant to bring comfort after the loss of a sibling / child. The odd thing is that I don’t know the plot of the story yet – I only get moved to make an illustration for it every now and then.  You can see the whole series of them here: http://www.endresphotos.com/-/endresphotos/gallery.asp?cat=121210&pID=1&row=15 A very dear friend of ours is David Mamet and he has enthusiastically promised to write the text of the book as soon as I figure out the plot line (which would probably insure it’s publication).  I think it could be very healing for a lot of youngsters and their parents.  If you have a moment, I’d be very curious to know what you think about it.

It seems that with the interconnectedness of the net, a great spiritual awakening is in the offing.  I am reminded of the Richard Dreyfuss character in “Close Encounters” who, seemingly randomly, makes contact with the space aliens and then becomes obsessed (along with all the others similarly contacted) with finding a way to “Devil’s Tower” in Wyoming.  Similarly, I feel that some of us who have lost our precious children may be part of a much grander design to bring forth a higher spiritual awareness.  You and Erik are certainly in the vanguard of that and I, too, feel tugged in that direction with my music and photographic artwork.  Maybe we are all meant to be in contact with one another and that by doing so, the synergy of our collective abilities and energy will help facilitate something wonderful for the entire world.

Two other things:  1.) Like you, my wife is a physician – an ER doc.  2.) In the year after Antal passed, I put into my performance repertoire the “Elegiac” piano trio by Tchaikovsky which is a piece of music entirely unique to the world of chamber music.  Into it, Tchaikovsky poured out (maybe, exorcized is a better word) the grief and lamentation he felt upon the passing of a dear friend of his – the pianist Nicholas Rubenstein.  I have a recording of a live radio broadcast performance we did of it and if you might enjoy hearing it, I’d be delighted to send the CD to you.  If you enjoy classical music, you may find it very healing.

I have read on other blogs a complaint from bereaved parents that no one can understand what they are going through.  I have always prayed that no one I know should ever be able to understand, because only a parent who has endured such a loss can fully understand it, and I wish that on no one.  There are too many of us already.  Not a day has passed yet that I haven’t wept a few tears, at least.  I send my prayers for your continuing strength, for that of your dear family, and for the ongoing blossoming of your spiritual relationship with your dear Erik.

With my own love and blessings,

Endre

Channeling Transcript

Me: Okay, I was recently contacted by this delightful man, Endre. His eleven year-old son, Antal, died suddenly. Endre is such a wonderful and loving father, and Antal seems to be an amazing soul, so this loss is very painful. Was this an accident, Erik? Was this a suicide?

Erik: It was an accident, Mom. It was. I’ve met Antal, and boy is he a sweet kid. He really, you know, he just didn’t get it.

Me: What was he trying to do?

Erik: Well, he was actually, you know, he was kind of toying with the idea of death, but not in that sense. He was not really thinking. He heard about this game kids play to pass out, flirt with death. Remember how me and Michelle would play that game lots of kids play to make each other pass out?

Me: Hmm. Vaguely. I think that was going around when I was a kid, even.

Erik: Often times, young kids do think about death-like experiences. They’ll think of dying but have no concept of what that means.

Jeannie: I can remember when I was a kid, I would stand on our back porch, and I would think about jumping off of it and killing myself, but I mean I wasn’t sad, I wasn’t depressed, I was none of that. I was just, you know—

Me: Because we’ve been through so many deaths, it’s just not a big deal to us when we’re young? Is it just so hard for kids to see through the eyes of an adult who’s been entrenched in the illusion of human experience longer?

Jeannie: Yeah, exactly.

Me: Was this his destiny?

Erik: No. Again, like me, it wasn’t his time.

Me: Oh, no.

Erik: You know, I’ve seen him, but I’ve not interacted with him much yet. He’s in a good space. He’s resting off and on, cuz the whole thing kinda surprised him. It was pretty traumatic for the little dude when he realized what had actually happened. It wasn’t that way with me so much.

Me: So he was pretty stunned?

Erik: Yeah, because there was no intention there. He didn’t intend to really harm himself. So he’s in a place of beauty where he’s resting, playing, getting his bearings. I guess that’s the best way to put it. He’s doing great though. He’s still acting like an 11 year-old kid. It’s like his growing up has been put on hold as part of his therapy and healing. So he likes playing a lot, you know, games but also sports.

Me: Sure.

Erik: But I’m going to take him under my wing really soon, Mom. I look forward to that. He’s so cute. It’ll be like having a little bro over here. He’s got a lot of friends already, so tell his dad he’s not lonely at all.

Jeannie: I’m finding this fascinating, because I’m finding out so many things that I didn’t know.

Me: I know, me too! It’s all so amazing, isn’t it?

Jeannie: Oh, yes, it certainly is.

Me: Now, does Antal have any messages for his Dad or anyone?

Erik: Right now, I can’t get to him. He’s in one of his resting periods.

Me: Now, did anything happen, uh, he went to somebody’s bar mitzvah right before that. Did anything happen there that set this all in motion?

Erik: Not specifically. He was getting these ideas from friends before that.

Me: Oh, okay.

Erik: The father had no friggin idea, though. He is a very loving, sweet guy. He had no idea, and it all happened right under his nose, but he couldn’t do anything to stop it. Nothing. I know this weighs on him.

Me: Yes, of course it does.

Erik: Well, Mom, just tell him that I’m going to help take care of the little guy. I’ll try to teach him how to some forward and manifest himself to the family.

Me: Manifest how?

Erik: You know, dreams and stuff. Everyone has their own special way to send messages. Like, me, I like the whole smell thing, but I do other stuff too.

Please enjoy Endre’s talents in this link, because I think they will give you comfort and joy. They’re truly beautiful: http://alturl.com/j4mru

Antal

Apparently, Endre has received many ADCs (After Death Communications) from Antal. His calling card seems to be leaving little Airsoft BBs around for his father to find. Now, Endre has an entire jar full of them–all fluorescent lime-green. I mention this because after this reading, I also found an Airsoft BB in my kitchen. It was that same color. Now that might not strike you as odd, given the fact that I have so many kids, but the entire kitchen had just been remodeled. I’m talking everything: floors, countertops, you name it. No long ago, it was a pristine shell with no hint of its prior form or contents. As I was wiping up a spill near the refrigerator, I heard something scatter near me on the floor. I figured it was a tiny ball bearing from one of the new cabinet slides they just installed, but I couldn’t see anything. Every time I  wiped, I heard it scatter. Finally, with determined focus, I did find the source of the noise. It wasn’t the ball bearing as I expected. It was that Airsoft BB. When I spoke to Endre Sunday, her reminded me to Antal’s calling card and I put two and two together. I believe he was trying to thank me for relaying the channeling session to his father. Perhaps he was also letting me know that Erik and he are now together, and that he is honing his skills of manifestation as Erik had promised.

Antal's Gift

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  • Danielle Notaro

    What a gracious man. And wow. David Mamet is his dear friend.

  • Alexis

    Dearest Elisa & Endre,
    Both Erik and Antal have the most intelligent, beautiful, soulful eyes and warm smile; as a parent, my heart just aches for the loss of these precious boys and for the heartache that others must endure when losing someone so dear to them.
    Endre, your work is truly amazing! Wow–so much positive energy, imagination and radiant beauty–it takes my breath away! My 19 year old son, Remington, is a classically trained violinist (Paganini is his ‘rock god’ :) and loves the moving Bach Chaconne, which Bach wrote to mourn his beloved wife’s death; I’m sure that he would also love the Tchaikovsky piece.
    I agree that the universe is uniting via the broad reach of the internet, like minded people such as ourselves, for the greater good of the world. It is a blessing to share this connection and the ability to communicate with such gracious and enlightened souls. Thank you all!
    Much Love & Light to All
    XOX

  • Alexis

    Elisa, Antal’s little token of love and thanks, is so wonderful! XOX

  • http://channelingerik Pat

    Elisa and Endre….I am having great difficulty expressing my feelings for Endre and his strength and resolve in finding his way after his abrupt loss of his dear child and “best pal” Antal. You can definitely see this strength in Endre’s breathtaking photography…truly beautiful!

    I am overwhelmed with a deep appreciation for what Elisa and Erik are doing for all those parents who find their way to your blog. Their loss is so completely unconsolable and beyond the comprehension of those who have not had to experience such a terrible thing. But here on this blog, they have a safe place to share and express themselves freely.

    So bringing those together who have experienced incredible loss–to share in their communion, I feel, is incredibly important and healing for not only them but for those who are here to learn from you and them through compassion and love.

    I also feel, as Endre, that there is a spiritual awakening occurring in the midst of all the chaos in the world today. I can remember when I was much younger about 40 years ago, I was reading of the incredible difficulty that mediums had in receiving communications from the afterlife. The density of this realm, I believe, at that time was much, much heavier. So, something is truly happening which is facilitating the vastly improved relationship with the afterlife. This, I believe, is very important to the psychological and spiritual evolution for all of us.

    Elisa, you and Erik are a very important key in all of this–in reaching out to those who most need your communion and for those of us who are sharing the experiences with you and learning every day from the outpouring of yours and their bereaved hearts.

    Thank you again for all that you and Erik are doing.

    God Bless,

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      We couldn’t do it without you, Pat. Thanks for this. It came at the right time, because it’s been a difficult day. Although tomorrow, the first anniversary of Erik’s death, is like a dragon breathing fire at my door, I really have to remember the bigger picture instead of wallowing in self pity. Sucks to be human sometimes, doesn’t it.

  • Skoshi

    How heartbreaking that these precious children have accidents. They are just exposed to so many ideas now adays, are inexperiences as to consequences, and have no fear because their brains aren’t developed beyond the “magical thinking” stage. There’s only so much a parent can do to protect them.

    I started re-reading Delores Cannon’s “Between Death and Life: Conversations with Spirit” last night, and in it she immediately addresses this rest period a lot of us go through when first moving to the physically unfettered life.

    Endre, do you meditate? I wanted to do children’s advocacy and got a BS in Human Development at Cornell. I thought one way to reach those in need of parenting skills but who don’t read books would be to come up with a comic strip with characters who would appeal to the masses and might get published in a newspaper. Now I meditate, and while meditating I’ve come up with elaborate scripts for animated films. Being a lawyer, I’m especially aware of intellectual property theft, so I’m going to do what is necessary to protect my ideas and then try to sell them to Disney or Pixar. I’ve always wanted to have so much money that I could give away a lot to charity, and I think this is the Universe’s way of allowing me to do that. Anyway, my point is, if you meditate, ask for assistance, and the plot to the book will come to you.

    Also, if you ask for help before going to sleep, Source will help you remember your dreams (see my comment about Brett Bevel’s book a few days ago). Once Antal is rested, it will be easier for him to adjust to his circumstances and he will come to you. I and others have found that relatives who were closest to the deceased are less aware of contact than those who are emotionally slightly more distanced. Apparently deep grief is very dense, making it more difficult for those at higher frequencies to get through.

  • Skoshi

    By the way, Endre, those pics of the child with the umbrella are phenomenal. Have you ever considered changing the name “Eva” to a unisex name and printing the books with only the basic idea…a child looking for a deceased sibling…and allowing children to generate their own ideas?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Ooo what a great idea!!!

  • http://www.facebook.com/robert.f.burke Robert

    Endre…After reading your touching message, Antal popped in when I asked him how he is doing. He was so excited to talk. He said he has been around all of you, but, as you mentioned, Csilla is so far the only person whose vibration is light enough to get him. He said he isn’t able to speak to Daddy directly because of “the bricks”. I’ve no doubt that is his way of saying that grief is too strong to let him in. He said the BB’s are the best way to get to you. As Elisa mentioned, he left BB’s for her too…out of appreciation for her getting a message to you. :-) He’s really enjoying his time beyond the veil…getting into mischief…playing games and sports. he said don’t think that means he doesn’t miss being able to physically interact with you all…especially you. He also said he doesn’t want anything I’m relaying to make you sad. He just really wanted to say it and I was the easiest way to get it across. :-) He told me he’s gonna leave a few BB’s for me. He said I have to look hard for them though…because he wants to turn it into sort of a treasure hunt. He’s just precious! Wasn’t shy with me at all…full of exhuberance and excitement! He’s really psyched about the book too! He said it’s going to help a lot of greiving parents and their families. He’s connected with “Mr. Erik” too. he said he’s really funny and it has helped with the transition. “Mr. Erik” has been helping him, and said he’s become “the coolest big brother!” I hope this brings con fort to you and your family. it is the only intention he had. before he left for “a nap”, he said “Tell them I love them!!” With that, he was off to recharge.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Robert this is so cool! Sounds like Antal and Erik are really good friends now. Thank you so much for sharing this, because I think it will really help Endre and his family a lot. Everyday, you remind me why I love you so much.

  • http://www.facebook.com/robert.f.burke Robert

    awww…you are so sweet Elisa. :-) i love you lots and lots too! I was glad to share! i believe Antal’s intention was to help them…he’s just precious!

  • http://www.endresphotos.com Endre

    Dear Alexis,
    Thank you for your very kind and comforting words about this blog posting. I feel very honored that Elisa chose to post all this and am so glad that it touched you so deeply. I’m also very happy that you got such delight from my artwork. Unlike the rest of my photographic work the “Eva And The Magic Umbrella Series” are truly “channelled” through me. I never know when one will arrive, but every now and then I will start creating something and suddenly I will realize that Eva and her umbrella needs to be in the picture to make it work. It tends to only happen late at night when I’m up all alone. I think that’s when I’m most receptive to the “instructions” being suggested to me. If you explore around my website, You’ll find a lot of other things like angels, etc. that I have also been inspired to make and which I’m sure you’ll enjoy seeing.
    It is wonderful that your son, Remington, is such a fine violinist. He must be quite extraordinary if he plays the “Chaconne”. The Bach ‘Chaconne” is pretty much acknowledged to be the pinnacle of musical profundity and depth (if you’ll permit me to say something as odd sounding as the “pinnacle of depth” :-) ) Please wish him my very best for his continued musical exploration and growth.
    As to Elisa’s BB ADC, I was really amazed to read it. When she first told me about it I immediately knew it was a message from Antal that he and Erik are together having fun.
    I send you my love, light, and blessings,

    Endre

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      I’ve been told that with highly successful artists, writers, and musicians, a considerable part of their work is channeled.

  • http://www.endresphotos.com Endre

    Dear Pat,
    Thank you for your very comforting words about this post. I really don’t think I exemplify all that much “strength and resolve” but I do muddle through from day to day. That you find my photography so meaningful is an added bonus. There is much to see at my website so I hope you get to explore it.
    With my wishes for much love and light!

    Endre

  • http://www.endresphotos.com Endre

    Dear Skoshi,
    I’ve read many of your responses to postings and always find your insights very meaningful. I do meditate somewhat but so far no luck in getting the story for my book to come through. I’m in no great rush, as I’m sure that it will all be revealed to me in good time. The story may not even come from me. If someone else sees the set of illustrations and figures out the plot, I would be happy to add their creative credit to the final project. I have often thought of your suggestion that the book be a compilation of those illustrations with the open ended possibility that kids reading it could make up their own scenario. However, with the realities of publishing today – especially with the expense of publishing lots of color plates – I suspect a publisher would be less inclined to want to take on a project like that, were I to simply submit it on my own. By the way, that little photo under the umbrella is really Antal’s little sister, Eva, hence the name. I’m not certain I’d want to lose that connection by changing it to a unisex name. While those illustrations do have a lot of Photoshop work – the bulk of them are based on real photographic elements. In other words, very little is created on a computer out of “whole electrons” :-)
    As to my dreams – I do exactly what you suggest and have been doing so for nearly five years but so far to no avail. I haven’t been aware of a dream since I was about 7 or 8 years old. I put my head down to sleep and in about 30 seconds it’s morning. Consequently, I tend to hate sleeping since for me, at least, it constitutes a substantial waste of time. At least if I could be entertained with vivid dreams, it would seem like time better spent.
    Warm wishes of love, light, and blessing!

    Endre

  • http://www.endresphotos.com Endre

    Dear Robert,
    Wow! I certainly wasn’t expecting to receive yet another contact from my precious Antal as a result of this blog posting! I have read many (but not all) of your insightful responses here at “Channeling Erik” but I shall have to make a point of re-reading them to get up to speed on you and your amazing abilities to meander over to “the other side”. :-) A lot of what you write resonates as being the kind of energy Antal expressed. He was certainly not at all shy. He would easily walk up to strangers and strike up a conversation and he made friends with absolutely everyone. There were over 600 people at his funeral – quite an amazing testament to how many lives were touched in his mere 11 years. No one at the cemetery had ever seen anything like it for a child’s funeral, and they were quite underprepared.
    When you mention “Mr. Erik” that really also resonates since all our kids refer to grownups as “Mr.” or “Mrs.” and also because I would occasionally refer to him as “Mr. Antal”. It’s just the sort of terminology Antal might use. I suspected that he and Erik were friends (otherwise I don’t think I would have found my way here) and it is particularly comforting to know that Erik is such a special mentor to Antal. I’m sure they are having lots of fun together.
    Quite early on, Eva would see and communicate with Antal a lot but of late he seems not to come around to either she or Csilla very much.
    Please feel free to check in with Antal whenever you like and do let me know if and when you find the BB’s he leaves for you. i’m so glad you found him to be the delightful spirit we all know him to be. Please be sure to tell him that his comforting messages were particularly appreciated! (Although, he knows that already!) :-)
    With my own wishes for much love, light, and blessings,

    Endre

  • http://www.endresphotos.com Endre

    Dearest Elisa,
    As you have seen, your postingof Antal’s story has resulted in a lot of comfort for me and my family. You and Erik are a true blessing for everyone who reads this important documentation and I am humbled to get to play a part in it. As time goes on, I’m certain something even more important will evolve out of the synergy you’ve established here and much spiritual healing and awareness will be the result. Making the very best of a bad situation is certainly the best way to go about healing. Once again, thank you for all you do.
    As always, I send you and Erik (as well as all the Medhus family) my special wishes for peace, light, love and abundant understanding.

    Endre

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Aw, Love back to you, Mr. Endre!

  • http://www.facebook.com/robert.f.burke Robert

    Dear Endre,

    I was more than happy to relay “Mr. Antal’s” message.  :-)  I hadn’t heard anything more from him until I read your comment…then…low and behold…he popped back in again.  he was overjoyed that you accepted the message…he knew you would, but he was especially delighted that he was able to get his point across.  He wants all of you to know the  reason he hasn’t been as visible to you.  it is because he and Mr. Erik have been traveling.  he said “Tell Daddy I’ve seen some if THE COOLEST stuff!  I’ve seen things in space that no person has ever seen, or could dream up!  Mr. Erik has been my guide along the way.  don’t worry though, because he won’t let anything bad happen to me.  He’s my ‘big brother’ after all!  I drop in on all of you in between trips, but I just mostly watch you all.  Don’t be sad that I don’t stay longer or say hi because I actually do…you just don’t remember…or aren’t able to hear it for now.  I love you Daddy!  I love all of you!”  That’s all of what he said for you.  he said he had to go rest some more…he gets so energized with excitement that he has to “recharge” frequently.  Erik hasn’t mentioned it, but I’ll bet he’s been wearing him out too!  heehee.  Antal told me he hasn’t left any BBs for me yet, but he said he is gonna.  :-)  

  • http://www.endresphotos.com Endre

    Dear Robert,
    Yet another wonderful message! Thank you so much! It sounds like you’ll have to ask Erik about whether Antal is wearing him out the next time you talk to him. :-) Rather than spending bandwidth on this blog, the next time Antal sends you a message (or a BB!!) please feel free to e-mail me directly at endre@endresphotos.com Needless to say, I would be delighted to hear from you more directly.
    Best wishes and blessings,

    Endre

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