Channeling Erik

February1st

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Already Gone

Posted in: Death, Death of a Child, Energy, Ghosts and Spirits, Grief, Love, Struggles, Suicide, The Soul, Visitation

Weekends are always really tough for me. During the week, I have plenty of distractions like work, carpool and the many menial chores required of running a household. Weekends are quiet. There is time to reflect. Time to mourn. Time to miss. Time to long. Time to wonder what Erik’s future might have held had it not been lost forever.

By Sunday evening, I hit a particularly deep emotional low. I sat in my car in the Kroger parking lot, sobbing. ‘Please, Erik,’ I begged. ‘Please send me a message that will lift me out of this dark, dark place. I need a sign. I need a definite sign to give me a reason to go on.’ Then I gave him specific instructions. ‘I want you to make sure that the next song on the radio delivers that meaningful message. Not the second or third song, the next one!‘ When he was alive, I had trouble getting Erik to comply with my different requests like completing his chores and finishing his homework, so I didn’t hold out hope for this one. Nevertheless, my prayers to him were answered in a Kelly Clarkson song, “Already Gone.” Here are the lyrics:

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would’ve worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hold you, now I can’t stop

I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone

I’m already gone, already gone
You can’t make it feel right when you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone, already gone
There’s no moving on so I’m already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone

I’m already gone, already gone
You can’t make it feel right when you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone, already gone
There’s no moving on so I’m already gone

They say our departed loved ones often use the radio to communicate with us. Erik’s older sister, Michelle, had a similar experience. More on that later. Listen to this wonderful song, this gift from Erik:

  • http://Facebook.com Jose R De Leon

    There’s this book I’ll suggest you to read:”Think like a shrink”.It helped me a lot to understand defenses and powerful underlying emotions associated with some unfortunate events that take place in life and impact our life fully.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Thank you, Jose. I checked it out online and it does look like a wonderful book. xo

  • http://WebsiteURL Ter-Ter

    I’ve been catching up on your blog and what you are writing is so moving. I’m in tears this morning with this entry. If you don’t think this is Erik, I’m gonna have to come over there and thump you! This. is. Erik. It’s him, for real.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      You’re sweet. I miss you.

  • http://www.journey-through-grief.com Janelle

    Thanks for contacting me on my site. I will email later. I’ve been skipping around to a few posts and want to spend more time with it later. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I appreciate how you share both from your pain of missing Erik in our here and now and the peace and healing that you are experiencing through your connection with him.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Thanks, Janelle! Look forward to your email. ;-)

  • Ulula Catherine

    Thank you for sharing your experiences ~ I found your blog from the Huffington Post article. I have been on the same quest to be touched by the afterlife since the passing of my father last year. I wanted to share one of my most wonderful experiences… In the days following my father’s passing, I was thinking of him constantly and always trying to remain open to communication from him. I remember driving down the road listening to the local pop music radio station. A random song had ended and the two hosts of the program had begun some innane discussion about some silly, unimportant topic. I wasn’t even paying attention, until, in the background of their discussion, my father’s song (one of his absolute favorites and one which was playing on his ipod in his hospital room when I left him for the very last time) began playing. The song, American Pie by Don McLean, (which is NOT a pop song which is ever played by this station) was playing loud and clear throughout their entire conversation! I was absolutely blown away! They continued their conversation as if they had NO IDEA that this song was playing. It played on for several minutes until they ended their conversation and went to commercial! They NEVER made reference to it, turned it off, or commented on it at all – I truly believe they had no idea it was playing. But it was coming out of the speakers in my car! It was the most extraordinary experience and one which fills me with certainty that my father lives on in the spirit world you describe. I can’t wait to read the entirety of your blog and learn more about my father’s world (and our next world) from your discussions with Eric! Thank you so much for sharing your story. Namaste

  • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

    Ulula Catherine, that is SUCH a cool story! I’m so glad you’ve joined our family. We are connected now as one and I know we’re all going to learn so much from you and your wisdom. Love you!

  • Ulula Catherine

    You are obviously an enlightened soul, along with Erik – It is I who am grateful to learn from you!

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      You’re sweet Ulula. We’re one and the same, part and whole of the same magnificent consciousness. I’m glad we’re connected. Sweet dreams!

  • Tracy Lamont

    What beautiful words. And so appropriate. Once again, this has happened to me. Several times. Adam puts a song with a message on the radio for me when he know I need it. Our boys are so clever. I’m so glad I found you. By reading your stories I can confirm my own as fact instead of maybe. They try so hard to prove their existance that it must thrill them when we notice the things they do.
    Love and light, as always, Tracy x

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