Channeling Erik

September7th

39 Comments

As many of you know, grief hits the bereaved in waves. Over the weekend, with my mind uncluttered and free of the menial tasks of the work week, sadness poured into the open door like an unwelcome visitor who refused to leave. At my lowest point, Erik intervened with acts of merciful love. He saved the best for the last.

First, when I was sitting in my chair, drowning in thoughts of despair, I felt the most intense sensation of goosebumps all along my left thigh. Erik’s presence was very clear to me. It’s as if he was caressing me tenderly, saying, “It’s okay, Mom. I’m here, and I love you.”

His sweet gesture comforted me, yet the images of the day of his death still played in my mind like a horror movie. In an effort to escape further torment, I went to bed very early to seek respite in sleep. Shortly before my husband went to bed as he was locking up the house and shutting off the lights in various rooms, that horrible smell of Erik’s stinky socks permeated the air. It was indisputably Erik telling him, “You’re not getting rid of me or my socks any time soon, Pappa.” For us, this smell is a heavenly perfume.

Erik’s last miracle left me speechless. I have yet to come up with a technical explanation as is the urge of a skeptic’s mind. Rune and I were sitting together on the den sofa talking and occasionally watching the television when all of a sudden, we hear a song playing. I thought, “Rune must have that song as a ringtone on his iPhone,” but his phone was lying silent on the coffee table in front of us. Rune looked at me and said, “That’s your phone. Aren’t you going to answer it?” “What do you mean? I don’t have any songs as ringtones!” I replied. Curious, I got up and walked to the kitchen desk some ten yards away to locate the source of the music. Sure enough, it was my iPhone, but it wasn’t a ring tone. No one was calling. The iPod on the phone had spontaneously opened and begun to play a song I didn’t even know that I had: Lunacy Fringe by The Used.

Is it possible for a song to play all by itself? Can an iPod app even open on its own at all, much less spontaneously play a song with no human intervention? It defies all explanation but one: Erik was sending a message of love and comfort. He was letting Rune and I know that he is alive, he is here, and he will forever love us.

Here is the song with the lyrics below. I’m not very talented with song interpretation; perhaps one of you can find the meaning, if any, that Erik was trying to convey.

The Used - LUNACY FRINGE lyrics

Wake up, my love
Never thought youd make me, break me
Now I'm up, from below
Such a brilliant star you are

And will your love keep burning baby?
Burn a hole right through my eyes
You saw that short times feel like no time
And I thought you oughta know

I'm so far gone now I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?

Do...
Do you...
Do you know...
Do you know how long I've waited?
To look up, from below
Just to find someone like you
And will your love light burn me, baby?
Burn a hole right through my heart
I think I might just trust you maybe
But I'm not sure
I'm not sure I'd wanna know

I'm so far gone now I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
I'm so far gone now I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on? 

I think you can make me, girl
Could make me and take my life
I know you can break me, girl
Take all of me
All of me

Wake up, my love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up, from below
Such a brilliant star you are

I'm so far gone now I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
I'm so far gone, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me... on?

Burbler | The Used - LUNACY FRINGE lyrics

  • lidian

    Hi Elisa, I think “such a brilliant star you are” is pretty appropo all on it’s own!!!

    I’ve had a couple of weird things happen with my iphone (and my coffemaker turning on it’s self) but nothing as remarkable as that. That must have felt so nice…
    XO Lidian

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Yeah, it sure was. :-)

  • Danielle Notaro

    Elisa, just think of yourself as the “I” in the song-and relate it to your own feelings/thoughts in terms of this whole process you have been going through. Maybe Erik is the brilliant star, the “girl”. What do you think?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      I was wondering about that too. Could be. Even if is was a random choice of his, it’s amazing, isn’t it?

  • Danielle Notaro

    Impeccable, seamless timing/pattern/intervention of creation and love.

  • Nora Adderson

    I loved reading this post. Such a definite sign. Something similar happened to me a few years back when a friend passed. My iPod, docked in the speakers on my nightstand, would switch on and play an Abraham-Hicks segment for just a couple of seconds and then turn off – this happened usually early in the morning as I was starting to wake up. After the second time it happened, I made sure before going to bed that the iPod was turned off and locked and the speakers weren’t plugged in, but it still happened even though there was no movement in the room to create such a thing even if that were possible. I guess I dismissed it back then, but now I’m thinking it really was her. Wish I knew for sure that she was looking out over me. Believing in guardian angels can make life a lot easier. Don’t know why I have such a doubting mind.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Sometimes I wonder why we have such doubts, other than the obvious. Maybe it’s for the same reasons that we “forget” our previous incarnations. If we had the same broad perspective of the Greater Reality, including our repeating relationships in our soul groups and the plans we make for each incarnation, then the human experience wouldn’t be nearly as potent and we wouldn’t evolve nearly as fast. Any insight from others?

  • Sharon Sims

    Looks like Erik sent you this message to show you he understands what you are feeling and going through. I know I can relate to these lyrics since my son passed away, especially “I’m so far gone now I’m running on empty.”

    Friday evening I was driving home from work and talking to my son, Eric as I always do. I told him how much I was missing him and all the things we used to do together. I told him how thankful I was that he could still be with me in spirit and if I didn’t have that, I don’t know what I would do. I suddenly felt compelled to turn on the radio. I realized that I have not had the radio on in my car since he passed away the end of June. I couldn’t think of a song that he could send and I would know it was him. I turned the radio on anyway, and the Spinners were singing the end of “I’ll be Around”.

    This is the last part of the song:
    Whenever you call me, I’ll be there
    Whenever you want me, I’ll be there
    Whenever you need me, I’ll be there
    I’ll be around, yeah

    Whenever you call me, I’ll be there
    Whenever you want me, I’ll be there
    Even if I have to call, I’ll be there
    I’ll be around

    Just call me on the phone, I’ll be there
    I’ll never leave you alone, I’ll be there
    Just call out my name, I know, I know you know
    I’ll be around

    I know with every atom of my being that he sent that song to me. There is not a doubt in my mind. After I was through crying, I thanked him. It was exactly what I needed.

    Love never dies.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Tears well up in my eyes now, Sharon. It’s amazing how parallel our lives and feeling are, having lost our Eric(k)s. This definitely was a sign from your son. What a lovely boy.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Tears well up in my eyes now, Sharon. It’s amazing how parallel our lives and feeling are, having lost our Eric(k)s. This definitely was a sign from your son. What a lovely boy.

  • lidian

    Oh Sharon that’s soooo good to hear.

    Elisa, I have to admit that i agree about the potency of our human experience helping our spiritual evolution, but, I don’t have to like it one bit!!! Gotta work on that Buddhist detachment some more I guess. 30 years ago a channeler told me that inbetween lives I REALLY didn’t want to come back here. Obviously i have alot of work to do. Which brings up a question, I was wondering what it’s like when a soul is about to reincarnate. Like, do they go to sleep, or fade away, or die another death there in order to come here?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Oh, I don’t know!! That’s a great question! I hope they knock me out before I squeeze into a tiny little body!

  • Jen

    Hi Elisa,
    I’ve been keeping up with your postings since your first Huffington Post article. I was hooked the very first day. I’ve wanted to comment many times, but never had the courage to. My father died when I was 13 (I’m 26 now), and I got lots of signs from him- for a very long time. Not so much anymore. Recently my grandmother passed away, and I tried very hard not to cry because in my heart I knew she was in a better place. She was an amazing woman, with a beautiful heart. I was on my iPhone with my mother, talking about the funeral arrangements. We had started to talk about my grandmother and I was on the verge of tears before my brain intervened and said “she’s not suffering anymore, she’s watching over you, she’s in a better place.” I still couldn’t help but miss her. After I hung up with my mother, I placed my phone down next to me. The screen was black and I hadn’t touched it when my phone started to play the lyrics to a song by Cold Play. The phone only turned on for a few seconds, long enough to play the lyrics “Those that are dead, are not dead, they are living in your head” and then shut off again. I took it as a sign from my Grandmother. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you’ve gone through. But I do understand what happens when the mind just won’t shut off. I appreciate all that you’ve done with writing this. Because of this blog I haven’t been scared at night. I used to have horrible images of what it was like to die, and it would fill my mind and my thoughts. It’s left over from watching my father pass away from cancer. It does still scare me, but it doesn’t keep me up at night like it used to. So, I wanted to say thank you as well as share my phone experience with you. :)

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Sweet Jen, I’m so glad you surfaced and are a part of our family! Your story about the Cold Play song just blew me away! How perfect the lyrics are at a time you needed to hear them! I am so sorry for the pain you feel. If you like, I can ask Erik to help your grandmother come to you.

      Don’t be a stranger, Sweetie. Love you!

  • lisapotter

    The song says, “Wake up, my love…..” Altho the overwhelming pain of loss has to be felt and worked through, I think we are most “awake” when we are present with our boys, in the here an now, fully awake to their joy. It’s a process, a long journey to work through but in eventually it gets easier to stay present as the sharp edges of the pain fades.

    I love that Erik played the song for you. Landon has done the same thing for me countless times and always with perfect timing. Isn’t it great that our boys keep an eye on us?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Yes, our boys are angels in every way!

  • lidian

    Good point!!

  • Ingrid

    Wow definite signs from Erik!! How comforting! Last week I was feeling doubt and negativity and while my laptop was closed, voices started coming from it while I was cooking dinner. I thought, “What is that noise?” and after looking around realized it was coming from there. It was a movie that we had watched the night before, and it turned on by itself with the laptop closed and off!! Not sure how to explain that one- probably because there is no explanation. Also wanted to tell you, Elisa, I strongly believe I had an out of body experience last night. I was walking around my apartment in the dar. And suddenly could feel myself being sucked in… Sucked into what I have no idea but at the time it was like I understood what it was. Then I felt that vibration- the most intense all-encompassing full-body, most overwhelming buzzing vibration and it was like my whole body was cocooned in it. It was so intense I got scared and started to call for husband and willed myself to pull back through to the surface of my body, to consciousness I guess. As I was coming to, I could hear myself calling David’s name out loud. Anyway, I’ve been meaning to tell you that because I know you had a few posts about it. I’ve only had something like that happen to me two other times in my life when I was a kid. Have had lots of electronic happenings though! Which makes sense since it’s energy at work!

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Wow! How did you do it? Were you meditating? Did it just happen spontaneously? I would love to learn to project my consciousness into the other realm to see Erik just like Michelle did that one time.

  • Skoshi

    The Unfettered are really good at using electricity and turning on TVs, radios, car engines, etc.

    There’s a device some “ghost hunters” are using now. It’s a machine with a selection of a few hundred words. One TV show I saw where they used it, it came up with words the machine wasn’t programmed for! They were investigating the case of a man(who was a criminal) who was shot in a basement by fellow criminals, and he told the details as to why he had been shot. I should have mentioned the machine to you sooner. You might want to get one to have on hand in case Erik wanted to reach you at home and you were too stressed to tune in and channel. On the other hand, there are so many Unfettered who want to be heard that you might find the machine going on all the time! It’s something to consider.

    I had found the machine once by googling it, but I had just seen a TV show about it and they said the name of it. Now I don’t remember! I’ll ask my d-i-l because at the time I sent her an email about it. She may remember. It wasn’t on TAPS.

    Investigators catch the Unfettered on audiotape all the time. Apparently they can easily manipulate a lot of electronic equipment fairly easily. The explanation as to why we don’t hear them speak that I’ve heard is that they vibrate at a much faster rate than our dense vibration so we aren’t tuned to each other, but they can imprint on audiotape easily.

    I’ll let you know what I find out.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Oh, that would be awesome, Skoshi! Erik is a big chatterbox, so I might be getting more than I bargained for!

  • Steve

    Elisa, I had it put to me this way once. Would you want to go and sit through a movie if someone told you the entire plot and ending beforehand?

    If we knew everything and remembered everything at birth, we wouldn’t track through the planned life to learn our lessons. Forgetting is important for growth, but unfortunately some of us get stuck in endless loops of karma so we have to come back many many times to finally break the patterns.

    I am amazed at the continuous paranormal activity you are receiving from Erik. Most people aren’t that lucky when they lose a loved one – the loved one pretty much leaves us alone.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      I won’t let Erik leave me alone, poor guy! I see your point about forgetting. I think it’s comforting to know that we are just in a school play, and as bad as it gets, the curtains will eventually close and we can take a bow.

  • Jen

    You and Erik have enough things on your plate, but I do appreciate the offer. I’m sure my grandmother will come around. Our family is HUGE, so it’s going to take awhile. :)

  • guitarlinda

    Elisa dear, I must share this with you. A few months ago a lovely young woman who had been a guitar student of mine passed from breast cancer.(I will call her Becki G) I had been thinking of her frequently. A couple of days after she passed, I had a guitar student here and as we walked into the lesson room, we heard music playing. We discovered it was from the CD speakers but the CD player was off as was the tape player, the digital recorder, etc.nothing at all was on. The song playing was one that I had recently recorded titled “Who Walks in When I Walk Out”….

    now moving forward to a couple days ago when I was reading your blog and thinking of submitting this experience.. just then up pops a Gmail which says “You have a message from Becki G”
    Go figure? and connect the dots as you wish. I had written to Becki’s mother on facebook but the answer came back not from her facebook account but from Becki’s.

    In the past, 4 times, I have had lights come on in the middle of the night when a dear one passed.

    Keep up your good works Elisa, we need each other.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      What an amazing story! THere are so many loved ones trying to reach out to us, probably more than we even know. Share your experiences with us, everybody!

  • Skoshi

    Hi, Elisa and everyone. Well, I’ve searched numerous ways and haven’t come up with that device. I know I didn’t see a TAPS team use it, because when I saw it, I thought, Geesh, why doesn’t TAPS get those?! TAPS uses monitors that light up, supposedly when “ghosts” manipulate their energy. They put them out in a room on a desk or whatever and ask them to make it light up once for yes and twice for no. They then proceed to ask a lot of questions.

    I think it was on the Travel Channels’ Ghost Adventures that I saw the device used. I stopped watching that show a long time ago. Maybe someone else has seen it and can tell us the name of the device?

    It’s programmed with around 300 words, and supposedly “ghosts” can manipulate the device so people can ask it questions. They get a LOT more than yes/no answers. Trying to remember details of the program I saw: it was about a criminal who was supposedly shot and killed in the basement of a speakeasy because he had crossed his “colleagues”…or they thought he had. The thing that shocked the team was that he used a word that wasn’t programmed into the device, so he could obviously manipulate it in a way beyond what the device’s designers even imagined. They got it all on tape, and it sure looked real!

    When I looked on line for the device, I found it easily, as I had what they called it. The company selling them said they were for entertainment purposes only. I’m sure that’s so they wouldn’t get into legal trouble by claiming someone could have contact with the deceased by using it.

    when I looked on line today, I didn’t find the device, but I did find a blog where people were saying don’t use the device that supposedly allows people to speak with the dead, because you could end up in a dangerous situation, like people have at times with Ouiji boards.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Hmmm, I’ll try some looking too. I can’t imagine being put in danger. Can that happen with Ouija boards?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Skoshi, is it the Ovilus I? I see there’s an iPhone app for it even.

  • Skoshi

    Forgot to say…I think it was Delores Cannon who said she has seen newborns whose souls are definitely working hard to “shrink” to fit into a newborn’s body. She says that some souls come and go as babies sleep because they’re so much “larger” than the little one, and babies don’t do much as compared to how advanced a soul is, and that’s another reason for walk-ins…souls not wanting to wait to grow spiritually while a child is growing up enough to have experiences. A soul being bigger than a baby’s body can contain also confirms the view that we aren’t bodies with a spirit but rather spirits having a physical experience.

    This thread of thought made me come up with a lot of questions you might want to ask Erik for your book. I haven’t seen these answered in other books. People like myself who have died and revived have been reported to be statistically much more likely than average to be able to channel and have “supernatural” (unexplained as yet by science) experiences. Is it because, in effect, when we die it’s like hitting a “reset” button? Research has shown that those who get regular Reiki are also statistically much more sensitive to their guides. Reiki masters explain it as owing to the fact that Reiki clears energy blockages or areas of stagnant energy that prevents communication and easy flow of energy from guides/angels. Is that true? AND so is it the same with those who have had NDEs? The “channels” are cleared allowing energy to flow? Are babies able to see the unfettered because they haven’t yet had a lot of energy blocks and areas of stagnant energy?

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      I need someone to push my reset button then! I’ll ask Erik to find out, (I’ve got a list going and growing). Stanley, what do you think about Skoshi’s comment on walk-ins? Cool, huh?

  • Ingrid

    Hey Elisa! I am not sure how I did it. One minute I was trying to fall asleep and the next I was walking around my apartment. I think sometimes you can achieve this through meditation and sometimes it just happens on its own. I do believe that it happens especially when we are in a very calm state, I don’t want to say depressed or low energy but almost a state like that. My friend is a hyper sensitive and told me she sees most of the things she does when she’s in a kind of lethargic, low state and doesn’t see things when she’s really happy, excited, and busy with life/ the material world. If that makes any sense… But I think the key is calm, open, no mind clutter, etc.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Oh boy, that’ll be a challenge!

  • Tracy Lamont

    Dear Sharon,
    This is my first visit to the site. I, like Elisa and yourself, have lost a son. Adam was 18 ad killed in a car accident in Scotland where we live. Like yourself, if I am having a particularly bad day, a suitable song will play on the radio. My attention will be drawn to it by the volume increasing or by the radio stuttering on and off. ‘Together in Electric dreams’by Georgio Morodo(?) – not sure on the surname – was the first of many. It made me realize that the vivid dreams of him were real visits. You should watch the video of it on you tube. There’s a beautiful image of a rainbow and, of course, the words will mean so much to anyone in our position. Heartfelt empathy to you, Elisa and all berieved mothers of the world. It is so comforting to know our children live on and are so keen to tell us that. Als, look up a poem ‘A Child Loaned’. It says it all xx

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      Oh, Tracy, I’m so sorry for your loss, but I’m happy Adam is still there with you, even if not just in the physical. The poem you mentioned is so beautiful and meaningful in the context of our “new lives” that I’d like to post it here: It’s by Edgar Guest. Thanks, Tracy!

      A Child Loaned

      “I’ll lend you for a little time
      A child of Mine,” He said.
      “For you to love the while she lives,
      And mourn for when she’s dead.
      It may be six or seven years
      Or twenty-two or three,
      But will you, till I call her back
      Take care of her for Me?
      She’ll bring her charms to gladden you,
      And should her stay be brief,
      You’ll have her lovely memories
      As solace for your grief.
      I cannot promise she will stay,
      Since all from Earth return,
      But there are lessons taught down there
      I want this child to learn.
      I’ve looked this wide world over
      In My search for teachers true,
      And from the throngs that crowd life’s lanes,
      I have selected you;
      Now will you give her all your love,
      Nor think the labour vain,
      Nor hate Me when I come to call
      And take her back again ?
      I fancied that I heard them say,
      “Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
      For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
      For the risk of grief we’ll run.
      We’ll shelter her with tenderness,
      We’ll love her while we may,
      And for the happiness we’ve known,
      Forever grateful stay.
      But should the angels call for her
      Much sooner then we planned,
      We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes
      And try to understand.

  • Danielle Notaro

    Aww, that’s lovely. I sent out waves of love and healing to everyone last night

  • lidian

    i am happy to be with a group that is “braving the bitter grief that comes and tries to understand”
    XO Lidian

  • Sharon Sims

    Tracy, I watched “Together in Electric Dreams”. What a beautiful message Adam sent to you. Elisa, thanks for posting the poem. Everyday, I give thanks for the time I did have with Eric. If anyone ever asks me if would do it all over again knowing the outcome, I would say, “in a heartbeat.” He filled my life with so much love, happiness and joy and that far outweighs the grief, anguish and pain. May our boys glow with the warmth of our love.

    • http://drmedhus.com Elisa

      They’re glowing and blushing, I’m sure!