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April30th

Grief Mind Chatter

Posted in: Death, Death of a Child, Suicide

It’s been over two years since Erik’s death, and although my grief is not one of constant despair, every day is still a struggle. I’m wondering if those of you who still mourn the loss of a loved one experience a particular phenomenon I call “grief mind chatter.” Let me explain.

Every morning when I wake up, my first thought is of Erik: how I don’t have him here to hug, how I miss his smile, how I simply cannot grasp the fact that he’s gone. Every night before I drift to sleep, my thoughts, interwoven with tears, travel the same painful path. What’s most difficult, however, is what occurs between sunrise and sunset. In my mind, there’s a constant undercurrent of similar thoughts of what will no longer be and an ongoing slideshow of visuals: Erik as a baby, Erik as a preschooler–Erik at every stage of growth–Erik being silly, kind, loving, mischievous, excited, and, yes, Erik tormented by that dark despondency that makes my heart break bit by bit with each sad memory. These pictures and thought never cease. They haunt relentlessly: while watching TV, engaging in conversations, laughing a someone’s joke, finishing my housework, on and on and on. It’s like an annoying drip from a faucet, but the drip is corrosive acid and its target is my heart.

I’m sure one factor is that writing for the blog keeps Erik in my thoughts. That goes without saying. One side of Channeling Erik brings me solace and comfort. It heals me. The other side is that it provokes a constant reminder of his death, of his not being here with me in the physical, like salt being rubbed in an old wound so that it will never be fully covered with an impenetrable scar. For me, Channeling Erik is a dance between bliss and sorrow. But don’t get me wrong; the positives far outweigh the negatives.

The question is: how does one escape this back drop of sorrow to find a place of peace?

Two reminders:

1) Don’t forget to sign up for one of Jamie and Erik’s small group channeling calls before they fill up.

https://withloveandlight.com/shop/category/personal-growth/

2) For those of you who would still like say a few words of appreciation to Jamie, just send them along to emedhus@gmail.com and I’ll copy and paste them into the document of “Jamie Tributes” I have. I’d like to give this to her for Mother’s Day.
April29th

Oops!

Posted in: Channeling

The first image was in the body of the email and dragging it to the desktop doesn’t work except for the admin post (me).I just copied and pasted her email. On the desktop, it’s just a text clipping and clicking on it opens a blank page in Preview. I will try to figure it our and publicize later. . It’s the BEST PART, so all of you who have already looked at it, be sure to look again. Any Mac users: help??
April29th

Erik’s Visit to Sachi and Donna

Posted in: After Death Communication, Channeling, Communication from the dead, Messages from the dead, Pranks from spirits, Spirits and electrical appliances

Two Erik stories today! The first is story about an Erik visit to Sachi is so amazing. It’s so typical of him to prank when we’re connected in some way to the blog, when he’s delivering on a promise to visit, or when we need him most. You’re really, really going to enjoy this one! (Thanks for sharing, sweet Sachi!)

Elisa -

I got my visit!! It wasn’t scary at all – it was wonderful. I’ll try to explain it to you… Last week I was listening to the audio of the last channeling session. As I was listening, I was also perusing a website, observando.net which is a site that has all kinds of pictures and signs (thousands). I was sitting at my computer with my left hand on my face – and my legs kind of twisted around each other with my both legs AND feet crossed over each other – off to the side of the chair (think kind of ladylike). During the part where the guy is talking about the prank with the phone app… this sign comes up on the website. Let me know if you can’t see this sign. If it didn’t work, you’ll only see a grey box.

Yep – wild huh, I was so happy! When I tell people of the experience it’s interesting how some people try to rationalize the “coincidence”. Then towards the end of the audio – as I’m still scrolling through that same site, a woman is listening to Jamie and says, Oh. OK. JUST as she says that, this comes up:

How wonderful! Life has been tumultuous at best this year so far, perverse yet full of grace. I have been so blessed and hope I can reciprocate the love and gifts I’ve received! I am so grateful.

xoxo

Sachi

The second story is from Donna and is equally amazing! He’s getting better and better with his pranks! Here’s the story:

As long as we are sharing our Erik visits I will share mine. I think it was Erik.
I was sitting in my recliner watching TV. I smelled a terrible smell, like a bad cat litter box smell. But we don’t have a cat or litter box. I asked my husband if he smelled it but he didn’t. The smell just faded away. Later I went in the kitchen by the sink and I smelled it again and again it just faded away. I lost my cat about six weeks ago and I had asked the spirits for proof she is still around me, so maybe that was my proof.
This past Thursday night three of our grandchildren had a sleep over. I had loaded the dishwasher and added the dishwasher soap and got distracted and forgot to turn it on to wash. We were all in the living room watching TV. and I heard the door on the dishwasher close and someone loudly pushing buttons on the dishwasher, Then the dishwasher started to wash the dishes. I immediately got up and went to the kitchen and nobody was in the kitchen and the buttons on the wash cycle wasn’t even lite up. I opened the door and closed the door again but still none of the cycle buttons lite up. The dished did run through a cycle and wash. This is kind of far fetched for a spirit to do , Don’t you think? But I can’t explain it.
April28th

Erik’s Visit to Mike

Posted in: Channeling, Pranks from spirits, Spiritual presence

Patience paid off for blog member, Mike M, when last week, Erik made himself quite clear. According to Robert, Mike’s nephew was also part of the prank.

Elisa,

I just have to tell you about Erik’s visit. I’ve been working on my heavy, dense, slow self. Maybe I should get serious about this meditating thing, I’m thinking. So, last night, after my 20 minute meditation stint, I just went to my bed, closed my eyes and relaxed, sort of floating, dreamy. After some time this extremely loud sound, like a fire cracker or a cherry bomb, maybe, just this loud bang right in front of my face went off. I let out this sort of yelp. Even my 12-year-old deaf Springer Spaniel, Emily, heard it. I opened my eyes the second I heard it and a little, round puff of smoke of some kind-not exactly smoke but a zillion tiny, little dots all in a circle, was there and it slowly retreated across the room. I asked Robert for a favor – if he would ask Erik if it was his handiwork. Yep, it was, along with my nephew who passed not too long ago. It so syncs that those two boys are messing around. Mark (the nephew) is a high-energy guy who loves life and lots of stimulation. They had to rent the Humble Convention Center for his funeral – there were over 5,000 people present. So, here I sit, trying to process this incredible thing and this amazing knowledge that this is real, not wishful thinking. You’re responsible for all of this and you ask nothing in return. At some other time, I’m going to talk to you about what all of us can do to contribute to this effort, financially and otherwise. Right now, I’m just going to try to wrap my head around it. To say I love you is really lame. but I do. mike m

I think I know why Erik created the cherry bomb sound. He used to love to come up to us, asleep or awake, and loudly clap his hands together inches from our face. So, for those of you who haven’t received an Erik visit, sometimes it takes patience, awareness and a quieter mind (which, in Mike’s case, was not quiet for long!)

Typical Goofball

One more thing: Robert and our family were enjoying the nice weather during our usually Friday night cook out when Robert saw Erik standing around a small tree in our backyard with three other spirits. One of them was Landon, Lisa’s son. (Apparently they’ve become tight buds.) I asked Robert what they were doing, and Robert said he didn’t know. Erik was just explaining something to the. Funny thing is I had just replaced the orange tree that we planted in honor of Erik after his death with a new, hardier and more vibrant species. He was probably telling them all of this plus how silly I looked planting it: squealing in horror at the touch of grub worms, carefully skirting around dog poop, pounding the new soil in to make sure there were no air pockets around the root ball, dirt covering all extremities, wiping my face or itching my nose from time to time for that extra special Al Jolson look. Nothing provides better fodder for jokes that a mom!

Erik’s Orange Tree

Last but not least: Be sure you don’t miss out on the May and June small group channeling conference calls with Erik and Jamie. Just go to Jamie’s site (which is on my list links as “Jamie Butler”) click on “Classes and Products” at the top of her page. There you’ll see “Personal Growth” in the blue drop down window, and there you have it: the calendar with all the conference calls.
April27th

A Machine to Detect Your Deceased Loved One

Posted in: After Death Communication, Channeling, Communication from the dead, Contact with the dead, Messages from the dead

We’ve gotten lots of wonderful tributes for Jamie, and I thank you all so much. Imagine her surprise when I send it to her after we get more. I bet she’ll tear up with joy. I love you all!

Check this out and see what you think.Thanks Todd for email me this about a week ago! Sorry it took so long to post!

By JANICE PODSADA, of CNN affiliate CTNow/WTIC

GRANBY, Conn. — In 2004, 17-year-old Melissa Galka, a senior at Granby Memorial High School, died several days after being seriously hurt when the car she was driving hit a tree on Silver Street in Granby.
Within days of her death, she began communicating with her family, her father Gary Galka told The Courant Monday. “She started doing things like ringing the doorbell, changing TV channels, turning lights on and off,” Galka said.
“Then one time she came into my room and I felt her sit on the edge of the bed,” said Galka “I felt her lay her head on my chest.”

Galka’s wife, Cindy, and his two daughters, Jennifer and Heather, have also experienced similar phenomenon, either seeing Melissa or hearing her voice.

“I’ve never seen Melissa,” said Galka, “but my younger daughter Heather has seen her three times.”
This past weekend the family was featured on “Ghost Adventures,” a Travel Channel television program that explores paranormal phenomenon.

Soon after his daughter’s death, Galka, a test instrument engineer, began developing hand-held devices that purportedly can detect unusual vibrations in a room, temperature variations — “hot and cold spots,” and other activities associated with the paranormal. Galka also created a voice recorder, the “spirit box,” that he claims can record responses from any “spirits” that might be present.

“I’ve created over 30 different products for paranormal research. No one was making products for these people,” Galka said.

The crew of “Ghost Adventures” uses several of Galka’s devices: the Mel-Meter, the SB7 Spirit Box and other devices to detect paranormal activity when they film each episode.

The death of Galka’s daughter “caused him to develop equipment for the paranormal,” said the show’s host Zak Bagans. “With his devices he’s captured voices of her. His family, even people that aren’t related to him, have seen her at the house.”
“Gary is a very, very talented electrical engineer and he’s helped companies, massive companies, in that aspect in order to do things better,” Bagans added.

The paranormal devices are sold through Galka’s company, D.A.S. Distribution Inc., in East Granby. The company sells sound meters, humidity and temperature meters and lasers to medical and aerospace companies. The paranormal devices are a small portion of the business, although Galka said he has sold thousands of the devices.

Galka donates one-third of the profits from the sale of paranormal devices to bereavement groups, including The Cove Center for Grieving Children in Wallingford and Mary’s Place A Center For Grieving Children in Windsor, which both help children deal with the death of a brother or sister.

Galka’s most recent invention is a device that he says can detect shadows in the dark.
According to the D.A.S. website, http://www.pro-measure.com, the Mel meters, which can pick up electromagnetic field activity, are specifically designed for paranormal investigators.

As for skeptics, Galka says he hopes that his family’s experiences and the devices he has created will help people who don’t believe in the afterlife to “take a better position.”
“I feel compelled to help other bereaved parents … to show these parents that they can live beyond the grief and be comforted knowing their child is in a good place — to show them they can have hope.”
Melissa Galka was a member of the school’s gymnastics team and was preparing to study interior design and business management when she got to college. Students at Granby Memorial High School erected a permanent memorial on the school’s campus after her death.

“They built a beautiful memorial,” Galka said. “It was donated by the graduating seniors of 2005.”

http://youtu.be/F3MCPeyWv8Q
April26th

Ted Bundy’s Victims, Part Two

Posted in: Channeling, Death, Forgiveness, Murder, Psychic medium, Suffering, Violent deaths

Before we embark on the eye-opening journey through the words of Bundy’s collective, I’d like to ask you a small favor. As a surprise for Jamie, I’d like those of you who can to write a little something about what she means to you. After all, she has given our Erik a voice, and for that I am so grateful. You can send what you can to my email: emedhus@gmail.com. I’ll also remind you at the end of the entry, although I doubt you all are as forgetful as me!

Me: Did that duality help you understand the opposite side of suffering so that you could have a fuller understanding of joy?

Victim: Yes. Most of the women that he pursued were stronger, confident women. He enjoyed tearing that part of them down. He enjoyed the rape of the emotional side before the physical rape.

Me: Okay. Now are you in the same soul family as Bundy?

Victim: No, but there are women who were.

Me: Okay. So, have you met him in the afterlife, and if so, how was he? Was he contrite? Was he apologetic?

Victim: We did meet him. He had the opportunity to make amends with all of us. In the afterlife—

(Pause)

Jamie: She’s talking, but, I don’t know, it just kind of faded out. I don’t get it. Erik’s telling her to talk directly to me instead of to the room.

Victim: In the afterlife, you have all the opportunities to mend and heal your energetic tears. They do not need to be done with the specific soul or person who caused the discomfort and the pain on Earth, but it is good to have a completion or full circle on it. It doesn’t need to be that way though. For me, I did meet him. It took a long time after his death before he came about.

Jamie: I guess she means before he woke up. Oh, he died in Florida.

Me: Okay.

Jamie (giggling): Peninsula. Kind of like Texas.

Victim: He took a long time to forgive himself and work on what his mental and psychological needs were and to heal himself emotionally. Then when that happened, he was able to meet the people that he harmed in his life. And that’s not just necessarily the victims themselves but also their families.

Me: Oh, yeah! Of course. Did he ask for forgiveness?

Victim: In an earthbound story that is what you would need to hear, but here, there is no need to have the conversation of “I’m sorry” and “I forgive you.” You can feel it in the person’s energy. There’s no room for hidden agendas or lies. Everything is very transparent, and you know when someone is asking for forgiveness or saying I’m sorry when they’re able to—

Jamie: That’s a nice visual. The words sound a little rough, but it’s not as rough as she’s saying.

Victim: The spirit pushes themselves outward to stand in the person’s energy, and you understand immediately how they’ve forgiven themselves and what their regrets are and how they love you. It’s not necessarily a sit down, deep conversation. It happens within a moment of time.

Me: I see.

Victim: It’s understood, and it’s better than conversation, because you have no doubt that there is nothing hidden.

Me: Exactly. That makes perfect sense.

Victim: He no longer has deep sorrow and a need and a desire to tear apart lives to figure out what its worth is and how to love it. He has no desire to come to Earth and try again—not for now.

Me: Good. Do you forgive him or is that a part of the same question we asked?

Victim: I have. If my life beyond the one of Earth wasn’t as joyous and happy as it is, then I probably would have had a harder time letting go of what happened, but the gifts and opportunities of the life I have now has given me great joy. I don’t have a lifetime of suffering.

Me: Oh, that’s wonderful. Now, how can we learn to forgive people like him? A lot of the blog members, including me, have a hard time understanding how there is no right or wrong—that there just “is.” We just can’t wrap our head around that! What can you tell us that might help us?

Victim: It’s like taking any other historical figure that has caused great pain and death and suffering. I find it overzealous—

Jamie: Can you say it again?

(Pause)

Jamie: She’s talking about the people who were not harmed by Ted. They’re the ones who are having the difficulty forgiving, but they weren’t even the ones to feel the immediate pain. They’ve taken up with the identity of what is fair or equal. That person’s concept of balance is more based on revenge than compassion. It is a very old, engrained pattern, and it must be set aside for the future of the Earth to evolve and survive.

Me: It’s so difficult.

Victim: I agree that especially for those on Earth it is difficult, but for those who are just witnesses, their opinion is just that—an opinion.

Me: Yes, of course.

Victim: But they make it so quickly into fact, and they rally around opinions that turn into misguided energy.

Jamie: I know she’s trying to make a good point, but…

Me: Like the concept of right and wrong? Is that what you’re saying?

Victim: Yes. It’s not about judgment. People on Earth judge all the time about what is right and wrong, and if there’s no judgment in Heaven, why is there judgment on Earth?

Me: Well, how can we learn not to judge and not to have this sense of fairness and unfairness?

Victim: Like you said, it’s harder to accept things for what they are, but this is the lesson that’s being presented.

Me: I suppose everyone has their own individual path toward that goal.

Victim: And it’s why stories like mine and why lives end like mine again and again and again that gives a platform for humans to witness and to not form a judgment or opinion but to show compassion for the situation. It’s a hug disappointment to see that there is still anger and resentment for something that has happened so long ago.

Jamie: How long ago? When was this?

Jamie listens.

Jamie: When I was a child? So, in the seventies.

Me: Erik, do you have any questions for her?

Erik: No, no. I’m just trying to help them.

Me: Well, thank you so much. You’ve shared some vital pearls of wisdom with us—ones I also need to abide by! I think this will help a number of people. This is a concept that we’ve all been struggling with a great deal. Thank you so much for your sacrifice too.

Victim: Thank you. I hope that it helps.

Me: I know it will.

Don’t forget to send me something about What Jamie Means to Me! emedhus@gmail.com.
April25th

Ted Bundy’s Victims, Part One

Posted in: Channeling, Death, Forgiveness, Violent deaths

I hope you find this interview as powerful as I did, because it addresses a subject that you and me struggle with daily: forgiveness. A woman, one of Bundy’s victims, graciously agrees to speak for the rest of his victims, bestowing many invaluable pearls of wisdom.

Me: I thought it’d be interesting to interview one of Ted Bundy’s victims.

Jamie (whispering): Why?

Me: Well, maybe we can learn a lot. We can ask if they’ve forgiven him and if so why and how. We can learn how to forgive people like him. It seems like there’d be a lot of good lessons to be learned from that kind of interview.

(Long pause)

Me: Now if you feel uncomfortable about it, Jamie, we can just forget about it.

Jamie (chuckling): No, it’s Erik saying, “Why do you want to do that one?”

Me: Well, I don’t know, it might be interesting.

(Pause)

Jamie: I don’t know what he’s doing. He’s not talking to me though. It looks like he’s talking to somebody else, but I don’t see anyone in the room, so… I just wonder if he’s talking to –

(Pause)

Jamie (laughing): He just looked at me and said, “Give me a moment!” I told him I usually do play by play. I said, ‘Talk about what you’re doing!’

(Very long pause)

Jamie: Um, I know he’s talking to someone. It’s clearly conversation. He said that even though it would be—

Erik: Mom, even though it’d be great to realize that you can have forgiveness in the beyond, that is just a place where people have too much opinion wrapped up into it, and they can’t understand why they would forgive and love him. I just don’t think humans are ready for it. Spiritual people? Hell, yeah. But humans are going to get their hands on this information and—

Me: Well what about knowing something about their spiritual contracts, whether they gained anything from them, what happened when they met Bundy in the afterlife. So, no? Do you think it would do more harm than good? The blog members really want this interview.

Erik: I only have one woman who wants to talk.

Me: Okay. Hi! Is she here?

Jamie: I can’t see her. I can’t hear her talking either.

Me: Well Erik, can you help translate for us?

Erik: Yeah, I can translate for her.

Me: Is she just a little shy? Why can’t Jamie see or hear her, Baby?

Erik: She says she wants to be anonymous.

Me: Oh, okay.

Erik: She says she’s going to speak for the group.

Jamie: Were there kids there as well?

Me: I don’t know?

Jamie: Was this in Texas?

Me: Again, I don’t know. I can’t remember, to tell you the truth. It could be since we have the death penalty here.

Erik: You can go ahead and ask your questions, Mom.

Me: Okay. First I want to know if you had some sort of spiritual contract with Bundy.

Erik: She says yes.

Me: What was that agreement?

Erik: She says that those who interacted with him were part of his story. The contract was—

(Pause)

Jamie: I—Can I just hear her, Erik, instead of you translating? I mean, I’m not going to recognize her voice. I don’t even know—do you know what I mean?

Erik talks to Jamie.

Jamie (to Erik) I don’t, uh, yeah. Yeah.

Me: Is he talking to her?

Jamie: Mm hm. Yeah he is. (whispering) He is such a good person.

Me: Yeah, he’s a sweetie, isn’t he?

Jamie: He’s so funny and so loving and—I’m so impressed.

Me: That’s how he always was. (pause) And is.

Jamie: Okay. So, I’m going to listen to her. She says hi.

Me: Hi. Thank you so much for coming. I know we’re going to learn so much from you.

Victim: Thank you.

Me: So you were telling Erik a little bit about the spiritual contract you all had with Bundy, and it was all wrapped around his personal story. Can you tell me more?

Jamie: Oh, I get why she didn’t want me to hear her at all. It’s weird. If I’m listening to her voice, I’m getting glimpses of her face. That’s so weird how that works!

Me: Hm!

Jamie: But I told her I wouldn’t say anything about what she looks like out loud.

Me: Yeah.

Victim: There were dozens of people with similar contracts like hers that come across to be—

Jamie: She’s pausing. Erik’s talking to her about what a contract is. He’s asking her what she got out of it spiritually or did it allow other people to see and witness. She’s talking to me about the duality on Earth—how to understand joy we must first understand suffering and pain, because the man’s—I’m sure that’s Ted—the man’s story was to be publicized.

Victim: Having many people on Earth who do not want to experience pain, who do not need to experience it, just witness it or see it and come to their own way of healing from reading the story. You know how a book can change your life?

Me: Yeah.

Victim: Our story was meant to change people’s lives—change women’s lives—

Jamie: She’s specifically focusing on women.

Victim: –how to be stronger and wiser and how to trust instincts and not charm, not to trust other people’s wooing words but to trust how their bodies feel. It was part of the feminist movement.

Jamie: I thought—hm, I think I have the wrong guy in my head .The way she’s showing it is that it was individual deaths.

Me: Yes it was.

Jamie: Who’s the guy who killed a lot of people all at once?

Me: Do you mean the Oklahoma City bomber?

Jamie: Yeah, that’s it.

Me: Okay, were you here for any personal gains or just to sacrifice yourself for the greater good?

Victim: It was mostly to sacrifice ourselves for the greater good because of the publicity of the story.

Some of Bundy’s Victims

One important announcement: If you go to Jamie’s site and search the calendar for May and June, you’ll see that she’s opened up registration for future channeling conference calls so be sure to sign up as soon as you can! I know many of you missed out, because the May 3rd session filled out in a matter of a couple of hours. Here is the calendar for May. You can use the pulldown menu to access June. https://withloveandlight.com/events/2012-05/
April24th

Channeling Ted Bundy, Part Two

Posted in: Channeling, Death, Jamie Butler, Mental illness, Murder, Psychic medium, Reincarnation, Violent deaths

I’m sorry Jamie and Erik’s channeling conference call filled up so quickly, guys. I think it was only a matter of hours. I’ll see what I can do to get Erik and her to host another one sooner than usual.

Here’s the final part of Ted Bundy’s interview:

Me: Yeah. I know this may be a bit obvious, but do you have any regrets?

Ted: I know what people would want me to hear. They’d want me to say that I regret raping and killing these innocent people.

Me: Yes, of course!

Ted: I also know that I’m being asked to answer from the heart. I don’t have any regrets. I lived a very veiled life. I could not see very far.

Me: That must have been rather disabling. Still, it’s hardly an excuse.

Ted: I don’t mean it to be. I honored my spiritual contract; I did what I needed to do, and for that, I feel a sense of accomplishment and I’m relieved that it is over!

Me: What do you mean, your contract? With whom did you have a contract? What was the contract about?

Ted: To indulge in myself and create personal harm to others.

Me: And why did you create that contract?

Ted: So that the masses would learn the value of life.

Me: Okay. So, in a way, you were here to teach. Right?

Ted: I will NOT call myself a teacher.

Me: All right. Do you have a past life you’d like to share with us that you think may have influenced your life as a serial killer?

Jamie: He’s showing me being a very, very small baby. He’s in an incubator in a hospital. It’s a baby boy.

Me: Oh, okay.

Jamie: And it’s skinny and small, less that five pounds. I see those round stickers on the body and some tubes.

Ted: Couldn’t breathe. My lungs weren’t developed, and I couldn’t breathe. I only lived for two weeks.

Me: Aw. So sad.

Ted: And I was in pain the whole time. I was suffering so much, but I had no way to communicate that. I had a breathing tube, so I couldn’t even cry for attention and help. I was in constant pain, and they wouldn’t give me anything to ease it.

Me: Aw.

Ted: Finally, I passed away. My body just couldn’t sustain life. For me, it felt so incomplete to have that life and not be able to understand it or express it. So, this led me to seek an understanding of death and expressing pain and suffering through others to see how they could experience it—to see how suffering would affect THEM.

Me: Oh, I see.

Jamie: Oh, my god!

Me: Very interesting. Do you have any messages for humanity, Ted?

Ted: Yeah. Life is not over at death.

Me: Yeah. Okay.

Jamie: That was it!

Me: Erik, do you have anything else you’d like to ask?

Erik (in a whisper): No.

Me: Well, thank you, Mr. Bundy. I hope your next life will be a better one. Do you plan to reincarnate?

Ted: No.

Me: Okay. Well, thank you.

Ted: You’re most welcome.

Ted leaves.

Jamie: Ah, he’s gone.

Me: Are you doing okay, Jamie?

Jamie: Yeah, yeah. His look, his eyes—

Me: Mm hm.

Jamie: He’s got this kind of dark-eyed stare. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s a different look. You can tell he’s not the dude he was when he was alive; he’s different now, but still, there’s something that’s a little off.

http://youtu.be/9sIyTfXv2Hk
April23rd

Channeling Ted Bundy, Part One

Posted in: Channeling, Death, Murder, Violent deaths

Let’s start with the positive:

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the wonderful birthday greetings. I wish I could have replied to all of them! I so enjoyed my weekend camping in San Antonio. It was so relaxing. I hope you all had a wonderful weekend too.

Now for the creepy and not so positive, our interview with Mr. Ted Bundy. Brace yourself.

Me: I was thinking about interviewing someone evil, but maybe it’s a bit dangerous for you, Jamie? I’ll let you decide. What about Osama bin Laden?

Jamie: We have to talk to that guy?

Me: Well, we don’t have to if you don’t feel safe.

Erik: Oh, let’s talk to Ted Bundy!

Jamie: Oh, god, Erik; how do you even know these people?

Me: Okay! Ted Bundy; he’s on my list.

Jamie: Oh, is he?

Me: Yeah.

Jamie: He was a creepy guy, wasn’t he?

Me: Maybe they’re not really creepy as discarnates. Maybe they do what they do to teach or to learn. Or it could be that they’re just a bit lost.

Jamie: That could be true.

Me: Yeah, some of them, anyway.

Erik comes in with Mr. Bundy.

Jamie: He’s kind of handsome looking.

Me: Yeah, supposedly he is. Hello, Mr. Bundy.

Jamie: He’s got a nice voice, too. Wow.

Ted: Hello.

Me: I guess you probably know we want to interview you in hopes of learning from you—at least from your mistakes. That said, I appreciate you coming by. My first question is this: Why did you commit the crimes that you did? Was it part of a spiritual mission or contract? Was it related to personal baggage from your last life or lives before that one? What happened?

Ted: Yes, it was part of a spiritual contract I signed up for. I knew I was to have this life. I knew who I was at a very young age. I didn’t value life the way others did. It was different for me; it’s not that I wanted to kill it or harm life. I just didn’t have the same values.

Me: Why is that?

Ted: That would be the question: Why did I come in that way? I was to play a certain role—not that good and evil need to exist—

Jamie: He’s a good talker, too, by the way.

Ted: Not that good and evil need to exist for people to learn their lessons, but often, that’s how the story plays out. If there’s no villain, there’s no good guy.

Me: Ah, okay. Now, when you crossed over, what was your life review like? Did it evoke any epiphanies or realizations?

Ted: I realized that I was forgiven.

Me: Aw. Good.

(I truly can’t believe I’m feeling sorry for this guy and that I’m happy he’s forgiven.)

Me: I bet your life review was a bit rough, though.

(Long pause)

Jamie: Oh my god; the guy actually HAS emotions. Wow.

Me: Aw.

Jamie gets a little choked up and takes a few seconds to compose herself. I’m wondering now if the Ted Bundy charisma had affected us as it did with his victims.

Jamie: He’s not playing it, either. All of a sudden, it was hard for him to talk about.

Ted: Yes. Upon my passing, I got to experience all the pain and suffering I inflicted on dozens of women.

Jamie: Dozens? What?

Me: Mm hm.

Ted: To understand my position, after death was the first time that I could really feel what I had done. Many people told me I didn’t have a heart; I understand that, now, but when I was living, I couldn’t grasp that, because I never felt pain or suffering. The pain and suffering of others simply amused me.

Me: Oh, yeah. I understand what you’re saying.

Ted: I wanted to know more about it, and to know more about it was to experience it.

Me: So, when did you start feeling that emotion? Was it during your life review, or was it right after you crossed over?

Ted: No, it was during my life review.

Me: What were you here to learn, and what were you here to teach?

Ted: Well, Ms. Elisa, I don’t think I was here to teach anything. Mine was a very selfish life. I didn’t have a broad outlook on life; I was not striving to be something greater or better. I was striving to be more cunning, more mischievous, and more manipulative. But the power of that kind of control and discipline—

(Jamie listens)

Jamie: He’s describing being able to be one person one minute and another person the next minute. Isn’t what they call psychotic? Psychopathic?

Me: Oh, yeah!

Ted: And it was under my control; I wasn’t possessed by another entity. I didn’t worship some evil god or the devil. It was really—

Me: It was all Ted.

Ted: Yes, I was a very ignorant and loose young boy who went too far and had no concept or grounding to ever get out of it. It was my time. I deserved to die.

Young Ted Bundy

One short announcement: Jamie and Erik’s next small group channeling conference call will be on May 3rd 12:15 CST (1:15 EST) and it’s bound to fill up quickly since she only takes a maximum of 9 people. You can sign up at https://withloveandlight.com/shop/erik-conference-call-out-53-115pm-est/ If the group fills up before you get a spot, email me at emedhus@gmail.com and I’ll see if Jamie would consider holding another conference call a bit sooner than usual.
April20th

What Erik Means to Us

Posted in: Channeling, Death of a Child, Grief, Suicide

Before we embark on this topic, I’d like to make a couple of announcements. First, Jamie and Erik’s next small group channeling session is scheduled May 3rd, and I’ll let you know when the sign up page it on her site. Second, this is my birthday weekend (yes, they keep on coming) and we plan on driving to San Antonio, to stay in a little cabin and chill. That said, I won’t be posting Saturday and Sunday. Hopefully this will give the newcomers catch up and some of you veterans may want to revisit the archives as well!

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend and an Earth Day full of love. Remember to send healing energy and gratitude to Mother Earth.

Here are some of your lovely tributes to our boy, Erik. There are so many, and I will continue to publish these, unedited, from time to time. So poignant. Each make my heart swell with pride. If any of you would like to add you own words, feel free to send them to me at emedhus@gmail.com with or without your name.

Funny, before I start this, I start thinking of what I’m going to say and he says “Aw Dudette”.

He’s a caring compassionate wonderful young man. I think of the times he sits with me at the beach watching the waves, just being there for me while I cry, with his arm around my shoulder, just being the compassionate one that he is. I think of all the wisdom he gives me through Robert. His goofiness, how he’ll get right in my face and be goofy. His obscene pictures he gives me in my head, as I talk to Robert and Jason.

–Sherry

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erik makes me feel safe. as if people are there to take care. this is just the.. say school.. earth school.. home is good. it feels safe

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elisa

Feel free to post my name, love you!

Meeting Erik

A mother grieving the loss of her son to suicide,

So strong on the outside,

Holding it together for the rest of her family.

Inside; broken, scared, and panicked, in need of information.

Was my baby ok? Was he being punished? What happened, Why?

Is he scared and alone?

I need to know!

I need to hear from somebody that he is OK.

Anything! Any sign.

My poor baby…does he know I love him?

A random Google, an article, goosebumps as I read….

A text message to a friend of my son’s. READ THIS!

Channelingerik.com…

OMG

Two days of reading

An introduction in the forum,

An email,

Jason’s vision…Erik had my son Eric.

Could it be?

Now, almost a year later…

I know Erik was there for both Eric and me.

He guided me to the blog.

He drug my Eric out of shadows and brought him to Jason.

A reunion of sorts on so many levels.

The spiritual growth,

The love,

The soul family we forgot we had…

There are no words to express my gratitude.

Only LOVE that pours from my heart….forever

Nikki

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That’s what Erik means to me…

He came into my life one day

and led me to his family,

Elisa, Rune, all the clan

beloved of this fine young man.

Their precious boy so sadly gone,

their tragic loss, so like my own,

a heart so full of love, has he,

Erik means the world to me…

He visits me from time to time,

I hear him speaking in my mind,

I love to hear his Southern drawl,

a big, ‘Hell yeah!’, he likes to call.

He comes with Adam in my dreams,

their smiling faces full of love

To see him fills my heart with glee!

That’s what Erik means to me…

He helps me cope from day to day

and, sometimes, when I fall apart

his wise words from the other side,

are like a balm upon my heart,

precocious, happy, wild and free,

and now, part of my family.

I count him as a son, you see.

That’s what Erik means to me…

Tracy