Before I share Erik’s answers for Noelle, I would like to give you an update on our dear Channeling Erik family member, Doug. He’s recovering well from his surgery and is scheduled to go home tomorrow. I visited him in the hospital yesterday and he looked great. Very fashionable in his hospital gown!
Here’s the best part: You know how he’s been receiving thoughts of love and healing from you guys? It has worked beautifully. In fact, his surgeon is perplexed by the speed of his recovery, which is apparently uncharacteristic, given his situation and the extensiveness of the operation. So kudos to you all! You’re making such a wonderful impact on the world!
Noelle’s Questions
I am 46. The morning that I had written about My ex-husband, Ricardo (Richard) was 42 when he died in Greenfield Mass. On May 24, 2008 shortly after our daughter Daphne’s graduation, he left our home in Brattleboro VT heading back to NYC. As I had mentioned in my post, he was really stoned on Xanax. Driving on I91S.About 20 minutes en route, he was pulled over in Greenfield, Ma. and subsequently arrested and charged with a DWI-in addition to possession of crushed Xanax in the car. He called me to bail him out…All I could think of was that “Finally! he would get help…Massachusetts is a progressive state with great medical care…etc” so, I said “No”. We didn’t hear from him for 3 days, which was unusual because even if he was angry with me-he would always call the children. His wife and I were starting to get concerned and I made a phone call to a state trooper that I knew in Mass. At first, my trooper friend could not find him anywhere. Finally, he called back and said that Richard must of been released on bond because, he hadn’t been arraigned. It was still curious to his wife (who happened to be visiting with me) and I as to why he hadn’t called the children, though. On May 31st, his mother called me around 8 A.M., hysterical. “Richard is dying….” To make a long story short, he was forced to detox cold turkey off of a very high dose of xanax. He was locked into a windowless cell with 24 hour cameras. For 12 hours, he suffered seizure after seizure coupled with one or more heart attacks. Ricardo died in Greenfield Mass. We, the kids and I live in Brattleboro.
1) Why such a horrible death? What was the purpose?
2) How do the children know when you are around and what should they do if they need you? Can you help the children, if they need you?
3) Should I trust Barbara? Is there something I should know so that I’m not blindsided?
4) Should we do anything specific, when and if we win the lawsuit…Is there anything in particular (a cause, your mother???) that I should be supporting on your behalf?
5) Have you seen my dad? Is my dad okay?
One last thing, please tell Ricardo that I am so grateful for his friendship and I am sorry for NOT being as good a friend-I was very selfish. Very important…please let him know that he was a great dad.
Noelle
Channeling Transcript
Me: I have several questions from Noelle, Erik.
Erik: ‘Kay.
Me: Her ex-husband, Ricardo, died at the age of 42 while he was incarcerated for a DUI. Apparently he had multiple seizures because they let him go off Xana cold turkey. He died in Greenfield, Massachusetts. Oh, and Noelle is 46 and lives in Brattleboro, Vermont. Why did Ricardo have to have such a horrible death?
Erik: The purpose was not about…(long pause)…okay it’s two-fold. The first part is about restructuring the prison and jail system. He says he wanted to leave a huge mark on rules, on what’s allowed and what’s not allowed.
Me: You mean, reform?
Erik: Yeah, but he was hoping there would be more of a fight about, uh, around his death, that it would be more public, more newsworthy.
Me: Uh huh.
Erik: The second part is that it was a bit of a self-destruction element, cuz the dude’s always been given what he wanted, but he could never really feel it. And so for something, for someone to stand up and take away what he believed he needed to live was a lesson for him to know that he’s not always worthy. He thought he should get whatever he wanted no matter how cynical or upset he was or self, ego, all that, “Give it to me! I need it, I’m ill, I, I, I, I…” that kind of victim energy.
Me: Ah ha!
Erik: And so this was the final slap in the face, “You’re not a victim.” But then he chose to check out and do the death thing. Oh, and he wants to say he’s sorry for being a little shit. Dude was a mess.
Me (chuckling): Okay. How do the children know when Ricardo is around, and what should they do if they need him?
Erik: He says, touching on the tops of the head, tugging the hair, rubbing the hair, moving the hair. And all they have to do is call on their dad in their minds, but it might make them feel better to ask stuff and say stuff out loud. Either way, he’s always going to hear them.
Me: Okay. Now, I don’t know who Barbara is, but Noelle wants to know if it’s okay to trust her.
Erik: I don’t think Barbara is stable enough to trust right now. Once she gets her shit together and sort of levels out this emotional… (pause) I know “weirdness” isn’t all that technical, but…
Me: Yeah, sure, emotional weirdness. I see that all the time!
Erik (laughing): When she’s in that mode, don’t trust her, but she’ll come out of it, and when she does, Noelle can trust her. She’ll know intuitively when that is.
Me: Okay. She also wants to know if they should do anything specific with the money if they win the lawsuit like give it to a particular cause, give it to his mom, anything like that?
Erik: Is there any way they can make that bigger and better news?
Me: I guess they could try.
Erik: You know, send the story to someone else like the Today Show and say, “Look what happened.” Good Morning America, something like that…a national news show.
Me: Okay, okay.
Erik: Because with that, they’ll be contacted by groups that advocate rights for people in jail, things like that. It’s kind of like human sanity. “Protection Humanity.”
Me: Okay.
Erik: Cuz then, even though they’ve got a number for the lawsuit, like the funds, this’ll give that number time to adjust.
Me: You mean to money awarded by the court?
Erik: Yeah, that.
Me: Oh, and I almost forgot, can you tell Ricardo that Noelle is grateful for his friendship and that she wishes she could have been a better friend for her? Also, she wants him to know that he was a really good dad.
Erik: He knows all that and he says it wasn’t always easy to be a good friend to him, cuz he could be difficult at times.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have time to ask Noelle’s last question, but I hope what was provided helps her find peace and direction.
