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  • July31st

    Before I share what information Erik provided for Brian, my last question for the channeling session, I’d like to thank you all for sending healing thoughts to my elderly mother. She survived the surgery and is back to complaining!! Yay! Also, as per Todd’s request, I’ve set up a discussion forum for you guys. Take a look at the categories and make whatever recommendations you wish. I usually leave this up to my webmaster daughter, Kristina, but she’s so busy in med school I decided to (gulp) try it myself. There are several categories, including a way for you to ask for Erik’s facilitation in bringing your loved ones across to communicate and one for you to request healing thoughts and prayers from all of us.

    Now for Brian, a loving father who tragically lost his dear son, Justin.

    Brian’s Question

    Hi, I have a question I hope Erik can help us with. Our son Brian “Justin” passed away in his sleep in Atlanta. . He was only 27 years old. The Medical Examiner has still not determined a cause of death…My wife and I are crushed by our loss. We would like to know for starters, what happened, what took his life? Is he in a good place, has he crossed over….and does he have any messages for us and lastly…Is it possible for us to learn to communicate with him ourselves…Thank you very much…Brian

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: This next question is very difficult for me, Erik. I can feel this family’s pain as if it’s my own.

    Erik: Yeah, I know. I know the question already.

    Me: Well, I’ll ask it anyway to be sure. Brian is a 50 year-old man in Atlanta who recently lost a son, Justin. He was only 27 when he died. Brian and his wife are obviously crushed. They want to know what happened and how he is?

    Erik: Happened recently, right?

    Me: Yeah, May 29th, so their grief is very fresh.

    Kim: Give me a sec, Elisa. Erik is talking to Justin now.

    Me: Oh, okay!

    Erik: He’s saying it was his destiny to die when he did, but hang on, I’m still getting some stuff from him.

    Me: Okay.

    (Pause for several seconds)

    Erik: I’m hearing it was not…Hang on, I’m still listening. All the guardian angels that were working with Justin at the time are here telling me stuff too. It’s kind of crazy here. Everyone’s talking.

    Me: Take your time.

    Erik: Well, he died in his sleep. I’m hearing natural causes.

    Kim: How about we just talk to Justin himself?

    Erik: That’s a good idea. Here he is. Here he is.

    Kim: Cute guy, beautiful smile! He’s showing himself to me with blue eyes. I don’t know if he had blue eyes when he was here, but that’s what he’s showing me now. How did you pass, Justin? What would have been your cause of death?

    Justin: It wasn’t a murder. It was natural causes. Natural causes. . It wasn’t a suicide. Definitely not a suicide! And it wasn’t an accident either. Natural causes.

    Kim: And what…

    Justin: Brian aneurysm. Brain aneurysm. And I had no clue at all this was going to happen.

    Me: How are you? Are you happy there, Justin?

    Justin (rolling his eyes): Weeellll, after I discovered I was stuck here. I’m trying to make the best of it. I NEVER would have left my mom and dad without saying goodbye. I NEVER would have left them; NEVER would have killed myself! I was upset at the thought that my parents thought it might have been a suicide, because I had everything to live for. Was my life as happy as I wanted it to be? Well, no! But I had no clue this was coming! Imagine my shock when my soul left the body and I looked down at myself, and there was NO WAY. Even if a physician like you, Elisa, had been right there with me, you couldn’t have brought me back. It busted in my brain, I was gone, that was it. Totally painless. No pain at all. And then I remembered it was my destiny, but on an emotional level, I had plans! I had plans! It was clearly natural causes. If I were older, the autopsy would have been done in a different way. They would have been looking for things they don’t usually look for in a young guy like me. It wasn’t found, because it wasn’t looked for.

    Me: Any messages for the family?

    Justin: I’m looking for someone; I’m looking for a medium who is going to give information directly to my parents from me, and it’s not going to be Kim. And it’s not going to be you, Elisa.

    Me: Okay.

    Kim: Justin, what about Erik?

    Justin: No, no no. It’s going to be someone in the physical. I’m looking for someone who lives around where they live. I haven’t found anyone yet, but I’ve just been thinking about it, and I think it’s a good idea.

    Me: Okay, good! That’ll make them so happy to hear from you, Justin. And Erik, maybe you can buddy up with Justin and help him.

    Kim: Wait, Erik is talking to Justin right now.

    Erik (teasing): You fucking moron, use her! Use Kim!

    (Ever the diplomat.)

    Justin (looking at Kim): Well, uh, I don’t know. I don’t really know her. I don’t know anything about her.

    Erik: Well you don’t know anything about the other ones either! Look, we’re gonna talk.

    Kim laughs.

    Erik: Bye Mom!!

    Me (in my annoying “loving mother” voice): Bye Baby, I love you!

    Erik: Bye Mom. See ya!

    Me: Okay, see you later!

    The next CD should come in today. Apparently the post office sent it back to Kim, but she resent it yesterday. Thanks for letting me share. I send healing thoughts of love to Brian and his family and hope you all do the same.

  • July30th

    Before we launch into Steve’s love life, I’d like to let you all know that, although I intended to post two Ask Erik questions today, a 4:00 AM call derailed that promise. My mother, almost 81 years old, woke up with severe abdominal pain. My father, a 90 year-old retired surgeon, diagnosed her as having an acute abdomen, probably a perforated bowel. Indeed she did, and she underwent a successful surgery. She’ll have to have another surgery to close the colostomy that was required, but that’ll be a couple of months away. After taking my exhausted father home this evening, there was just not enough time for me to do more than one post. I’ll try to catch up though, promise. Everyone send my mom, Dr. Jacqueline R., healing, loving thoughts. She’s in Houston, TX.

    Now for a happier subject—the answers to questions posed by one of my favorite readers. (Okaaaaay, you’re all my favorites.)

    Steve’s Question

    I’m a 43 year-old professional gay man in Atlanta. I have a good life, but finding a partner eludes me. I’m beginning to think that I don’t have a soulmate. I’ve had 4 short-term relationships that left me with a wall around my heart.

    Will I find a life partner, and if so, what is the timing around this. I feel like I’m waiting for a soulmate, not wanting to settle.

    I’m very excited to hear what comes from this channeling session – I had asked about finding a soulmate or life partner, and I’ve also emailed about Erik possibly meeting my mother: Loraine.. She died in 2006 Memorial Day weekend from ovarian cancer, on Seabrook Island, South Carolina. She was 63.

    Steve

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: Next question, Erik, comes from another very delightful and enlightened reader, Steve. He’s a 43 year-old gay man living in Atlanta. His problem is that he has had all sorts of trouble finding a soulmate. He’s afraid he may not have one. Will he find a life partner, Erik? He’s waiting and doesn’t want to “settle.”

    Erik: Oh yes, yes. And he knows enough NOT to settle. The guy’s really attuned to shit. This is fantastic. Tell him that.

    Me: You know I will! I tell these guys everything you and Kim say.

    Erik: Good, so his Mr. Wonderful is 28 years old. He’s a Gemini, uh, doesn’t smoke, lives in New York.

    Me: Oh no!

    Erik: No, he’s gonna move to Atlanta—he’s a doctor, a dermatologist. So tell Steve he’s exactly where he needs to be. He needs to stay right where he is. I mean, he doesn’t intend to move anyway, but his guides are just like acknowledging that he’s in the right place. So this guy is moving to Atlanta the first quarter of 2011, and Steve will meet him as early as June or July that same year. Steve will know him the minute he sees him. He’s like 5’10” and is in really, really good physical shape. He’s funny, warm, cozy (his guides’ words not mine.) He’s like a Renaissance Man, very well-read and well-traveled. This dude is so, so sympathetic and compassionate to others. Wow, everybody LOVES this guy! He’s just “magical” they’re saying. Magical. They say Steve is too. Steve knows he’s looking for someone of his caliber. Oh, and Mom, he’s gonna ask you where they’re gonna meet.

    Me: I’m sure.

    Erik: They’re gonna meet at the Starbucks connected with a Barnes and Noble. They’re showing me a street with the word “peach” in it. Peach Drive, Peach Circle, Peach Street, you know, something like that. Maybe Peach Tree something.

    Me: Wow, that’s pretty specific. I’d be tempted to set up a tent there if I were him!

    Erik: No, look, he doesn’t need to hang out there, okay? He needs to wait until he gets a nudge from his guides. When he gets the nudge, he’s to go there and look around. Their eyes will lock and they’ll be together for the rest of this lifetime. Plus, Steve and this guy will be adopting at least one child. So Steve is gonna have a very full, very happy life.

    Me: That’ll be music to his ears, Erik. Now he also wants to know if you’ve met his mother, Lorraine. She died at the age of 63 in Seabrook Island, South Carolina.

    Kim (laughing): Erik is saying he’s had to get so much information directly from guardian angels instead of knowing it himself, he was wondering if he needed to get a part time job!

    Kim and I both laugh hard.

    Erik: No, I haven’t met her yet, but I plan to look her up.

    Kim: Erik is thinking for a moment.

    Erik: Here’s what I’m gonna do. What I’ll do is I will get together with Lorraine and set up a meeting for me and her to come to Steve in a dream where he can interact with us in a lucid way. And he’ll know it’s his mom now, that he’s not just having a dream, you know, from her years ago, and I’ll be the facilitator.

    Kim: Oh! Elisa! Erik has this GREAT idea! OOOO!

    Me: What?

    Kim: Oooo! He says that, and he’s just thinking about it. It just occurred to him this very moment. What he’s going to do is act as a facilitator. So, people will write to you through the blog; then you’re to give this information to Erik. Then he will contact the deceased, and he will set up meetings to facilitate, to bring them, in a lucid dream, to the people who want to speak with them. Now Erik, they can do…I’m talking to Erik about the fact that any of these spirits can do this on their own. They don’t have to have Erik to do this. But he loves the idea of being a facilitator, because he says that—yes that true; it’s true, it’s true. Erik is reminding me that sometimes spiritual beings don’t want to bother the human beings they left behind. They don’t want to interrupt their lives; they feel that they have so many guardian angels that they don’t want to step in (chuckling.) So he’ll introduce the spiritual being to their loved ones, so in other words, if it’s Steve, he’ll say something like, “Hi Steve! It’s Erik! Look, here’s your mom!”  And then he’ll step back and allow them to interact.

    Steve’s Response

    That is so cool! Thank you! Interesting – I have always thought I would date someone older, not 15 years younger…and adopting a child? Wow, I have sworn that out of the picture at my age, but heck, you never know, right? I will definitely look for Erik escorting my mother into my dreams!!

    You guys are great. PLEASE tell Erik thank you for helping out. I know that this work is doing wonders to absolve his suicide karma so he can progress forward as a soul! He’s so lucky to have this strong connection with you!! You are helping him more than he’s helping you, I think!

    Well I know exactly where this Starbucks/B&N is…it’s a place I wouldn’t go to normally so I’ll wait until next summer for that to happen naturally :)

    There is a Starbucks attached to a Barnes and Noble on 2900 Peachtree Road in the Buckhead area of Atlanta. It is the only location she could be talking about. There is one closer to my house but that is in the Edgewood Shopping Center on Caroline Street. I’d more likely be in that area when out and about, but I’m occasionally up near the other one. I don’t drink coffee much or go to Starbucks but I have once in awhile.

    Does Kim know Atlanta very well? If not, this is fascinating.

    Gemini’s are good with me (Sagittarius), and someone educated and from the northeast is perfect :)  We’ll see what happens next summer!

    May a great love come your way, Steve. You deserve that.

  • July29th

    Jeannine’s Question

    I am very thankful that you are even taking questions from strangers like myself. I am also very grateful you Elisa for helping me get an answer. I feel I need guidance as I am confused. I have had a couple of really tough situations where my supervisors betrayed me. In both situations I lost my job. I want to know is this karmic? What will it take for me not to go through this again? I am alone and depend on my job for my livelihood. Is this my time to leave? I felt this last time I had a choice to leave, and I didn’t take it – at least not yet. I long to be back home—I don’t feel I belong here at all. How can I manifest what I want in this lifetime?

    I am going to be 55 on July 17th and I live in New York City.

    Love and blessings!  Thank you!

    Jeannine

    After assuring Jeannine that Erik will try to help the best way he can, she sent this response:

    Jeannine’s Second Response

    Thanks so much! What wonderful work you and Erik are doing on behalf of people. Please tell him that. Whatever he wasn’t able to contribute when he was living in his body, he is certainly doing it now. I am very moved by your generosity. I need the help, because I lost my job almost three months ago for similar reasons as the last time, which was about 8 years ago. My boss felt threatened by my expertise and knowledge in both situations, which of course makes me question how I can work and support myself financially.

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: The next question comes from Jeannine, Erik. She needs guidance. She’s confused, like most of us. She’s been in a couple of tough situations where her supervisors betrayed her over and over again. She wants to know if this is karmic. What will it take for her not to go through this again? She’s alone and dependent on her job to make ends meet. She want to know if this is her time to leave. She had chances this lifetime to leave but didn’t take it.

    Kim: To leave the earthly plane?

    Me: Yes

    Kim: Okay, I have information from Erik already.

    Erik (laughing): There are times when we all feel like we don’t belong!

    Kim: She…let me dispel that notion of exit points.

    Elisa: Okay.

    Kim: When we  plan our destinies on the earthly plane, we plan ONE exit point, the time in which we expect to pass back to Heaven.

    Erik: Jeanine is going to live until she’s really old. That’s her destiny. The reason she’s having so much trouble with the people she’s worked with is because—hellooooo—she’s a teacher on the earthly plane! So, she’s going to draw to her people who need to learn from her. Now if she were on the other line, she’d say, “But they’re not learning from me.” But her guardian angels would be saying, “You were  there willing, ready  and able to do the work.”  It’s immaterial what they learn from her. What does matter, for her part, is that she’s willing, ready and able to do the work, and she has been. For her part, all of these spiritual contracts have been successfully fulfilled. We should not harbor any expectations whatsoever of how other people react to us as teachers.

    Me: Yeah!

    Erik: What Jeannine does is she expects others to treat her like she treats them, and that’s not going to happen, because she is of a great level of enlightenment. She has a lot of empathy and respect for others. There are things that have happened to her that she would NEVER say or do to anyone else! But that’s why they’re the student and she’s the teacher! She’s expecting them to be of the same caliber. Not gonna happen. So her guides want her to look at those experiences that are necessary for the other person. They learned as much as they choose too, given free will and all. So she’s going to keep drawing to her people who are her students. The key is for her to channel her guides when she meets new people, whether in her professional life, her personal life, in any context. She needs to ask, “Why did this person come into my life, what is my spiritual contract with them, and what can I expect in this relationship? Can I expect a little friction? Should I expect for us to get along perfectly? What can I do to make it better? What do I need to do for this other person, because I prefer to focus on that.” That’ll give her much more awareness of what she can expect from them, realistically. She’s been unrealistic in her expectations of others.

    Me: Okay, but what can she do from the practical standpoint? I mean, she’s afraid to be financially vulnerable. She’s got to put food on the table and all! What can she do to avoid financial ruin?

    Erik: She’s supposed to be working through issues of independence and empowerment, self-esteem, self-worth, confidence, which she’s doing right now. Oh, and once she gets to a certain point with those issues, she’s going to attract Mr. Right, a man who can bond with heart, mind, body and soul. She’s probably gonna ask you when, Mom. He’s coming in about a year and a half, but she’s got to continue to work on these issues. Now, as for her career, she’s going to get ready to launch into her life’s work. She sure as fuck isn’t in it right now! Now some people think that once they get into their life’s work, all the stumbling blocks will be removed from their path, and then it doesn’t work that way.

    Me: Oh, sure. It’s about perseverance.

    Erik: What she ought to do next…her guides think she should do something completely different than what she was doing before. And they’re recommending for her, one more “day gig” as she’s getting her own business up and running. Then she’s off and running her own business! The kind of business her guides recommend she get into now would be some sort of outside sales where she has some wiggle room with her schedule. Now she hasn’t done that before. They understand that. But that doesn’t mean that she can’t do it. We all have to do something for the first time. Julia Child had to cook her first soufflé. Babe Ruth had to hit his first baseball. Okay, so, Jeannine has to get over that, “Well I’ve never done that before, so how do I know I can do it? She won’t be able to develop confidence until she does it. Having faith in oneself and having faith in one’s guardian angels is important.

  • July29th

    Komala’s Question

    I have had several very vivid dreams of my maternal grandmother to whom I was very close. She passed away suddenly in February 1997 of an aortic aneurysm. I have felt her presence several times since her death. While I have lost other family members that I have been close to, I have not had the same experiences with them. Most recently, I lost a first cousin whom I admired very much as a child. But we became estranged and I feel bad that we did not resolve our problems before her death. My question to Erik is the following: Is it possible that a soul can be indifferent to or even dislike you even after death or do misunderstandings when one is alive become trivial when one dies? My grandmother, Shantha, died in 1997 in Bangalore, India. At age 72. My first cousin, Jayshree, died in August 2009 in Madras, India at age 57.. We were very close when I was a child but became estranged. I was unable to resolve our problems before her death. I have wondered whether we carry our hurts and misunderstandings when we pass on or do they become trivial.

    Thank you.

    Komala

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: Here’s one from Komala. She says she’s had lots of vivid dreams from one of her grandmothers, Shantha, who died in Bangladore, India at the age of 72. She hasn’t had this kind of experiences with other people she has lost, even though she’s felt close to them as well, and…

    Erik (interrupting): Yeah, well, Shantha is one of her guides, that’s why! She’s not just hovering or visiting every once in awhile. Nope, she’s around Komala ALL THE TIME, like 24/7, Mom. She’s working hard to help Komala move forward, especially in her life’s work. Komala was always a favorite of hers, and even though they didn’t always see each very often or for very long, they’re platonic soulmates. They’ve had tons of past lives together. I mean, she’s like totally devoted to Komala. Totally. Total adoration. Wow! She’d do anything to help her. Anything. So when Komala wants to achieve something, she needs to talk to Shantha, and she’ll give her the simplest, easliest way. Shantha also says that Komala is one of those people who can accomplish anything she puts her mind to. Kind of a freight train like you, Mom. Real powerhouse. And what will occur to her to accomplish will be what is destined for her. So Shantha is here to make sure Komala’s life become all that it can be. She’s in transition right now, Komala is. Okay, like that doesn’t mean she’s about to die or anything. Not that kind of transition! She’s just moving to another chapter there on the earthly plane.

    Kim: Wow!

    Me: Yeah, cool. I wonder if Komala senses that? Okay, she also has another question.

    Erik: Listening.

    Me: Her first cousin, Jayshree, died in Madras at the age of 57. They were very close when they were younger, but then they became estranged. Komala says she wasn’t able to resolve their problems before Jayshree’s death. Her question is: Do we carry our hurt and misunderstandings when we pass, or do they become trivial?

    Erik: Oh, we let go of them COMPLETELY! You know this Mom. You already know this.

    Me: Just asking! Making sure!

    Erik: Hell, we can interact with our biggest enemies over here like they’re our best friends! We don’t judge anyone over here, not on the earthly plane or in the afterlife. Remember? That’s one of the biggest differences.

    Me: Okay, so I guess Jayshree’s  doing okay and…

    Erik (interrupting): We leave our animosity and issues at the door.

    Komala’s Response

    Dear Elisa & Erik,

    Words cannot express how much gratitude I feel. Thank you so very much.  I feel so blessed.

    God bless you both and make your noble mission successful.

    with love, more gratitude than I can express,

    Komala

    Komala’s Second Response

    Dearest Elisa & Erik,

    I  have read your email  over and over again since since you sent it and I cannot describe how much happiness it has brought me.

    Two things that you had written proved beyond any doubt that it was my beloved grandmother talking.

    I moved from India in early 1989 after marriage and I   could not afford to visit very often or call her very often. My grandmother missed me a lot and felt very bad that we were meeting so infrequently. Even when I did visit, my visits were very brief – at the most 10 days. The second point is that, yes, I am in a transition period. My daughter went to college 2 years back and till then I had only worked part-time and all my time revolved around her. Now, often, time hangs heavy in my hands. I now know what to do – thanks to your incredible kindness – I will seek her guidance.

    When I read the message in the morning, I was too moved to think of my response.

    with lots of love and gratitude,

    Komala

    My Response

    I love you too, Komala.

    I will post the next question in a couple of hours. Stay tuned, because I think you’ll find it resonates with many of us. If you know someone who might benefit from this post, don’t forget to share it on Facebook, Twitter, or other social networks.

  • July29th

    I plan to post a couple of Ask Erik questions today, but here’s some announcements I’d like to make.

    1) One of our readers, Sherry, graciously offered me a remote Reiki session. It…Was…Awesome. As I was lying there in my hotel room relaxing, I felt gentle vibrations in different parts of my body: the right upper quadrant of my abdomen, which Sherry later explained is a chakra, the right side of my head and my hands… I felt like someone was actually holding both of my hands. After the session, my headache–gone, my left thumb arthritis–gone, my energy level and sense of tranquility—soared!

    2) As I’ve mentioned before, if this blog becomes more mainstream and if the book and film/TV/radio plans come to fruition, I plan to funnel all profits into a fund of some sort. The fund will be designed to help deliver spiritual services to those who aren’t able to afford it: Reiki, like Sherry delivered to me, channeling sessions, past life regression, whatever. Of you want to be the paid provider for any of these or other services, please let me know when that time comes. BUT, I’d also like to set aside some of the monies in the fund for an annual reunion where you, the “early adopters” and I can meet and discuss strategies for bringing greater enlightenment to the world. I’m thinking the Caribbean for the first meeting. ;-) If nothing more transpires other than what we have now, I still consider myself blessed to have found so many wonderful friends. I feel so much love for you all that sometimes I think I’m going to burst!

    3) Several weeks ago, Steve recommended Jeannie Barnes, a psychic medium with whom he’s been very happy. I decided to try her out because I want to find someone who will accommodate those of us who are budget minded and she only charges $80 per hour. I had the session yesterday and was pretty much blown away. Through her, Erik and my guardian angel spoke directly to me. One of the questions I asked Erik was if this is what he wants to do or if he feels pressured into doing it to make up for what he did. He answered with a resounding NO. He loves helping us. Of course many times he does so indirectly, because he doesn’t know everything. He often has to bring forth or get information from higher level guides. He says he was meant to be a healer and teacher on the earthly plane and would have been successful had he only persevered. But he’s so happy now that he can fulfill that destiny in the dimension in which he now lives. He says it brings him such joy and satisfaction.

    4) Last but not least, I’ve come to a decision about whether or not to censor any entries given some of the comments to Avery’s Question. First, let me say that Avery is an alias. I always check with the person whose answers I plan to post first to see if they want their names and other identifying elements changed and if so, how? There have been people who don’t want me to post their answers at all, and I honor that request of course. But as far as other censoring by me, I channeling my guides last night and here’s what they told me (in paraphrased form):

    Keep the post up as it is. As human beings, we need to learn how to find ways to love even the unlovable and send love to those in pain, both perpetrators and victims. Stories like Avery’s evoke anger and disgust and hate, but we must learn how to find compassion and understanding, and we must learn to send loving vibrations to both sides. Perpetrators and victims are, like us, a part of the whole. What affects them affects us too. If we send hate and scorn, it affects the whole and therefore every individual soul. If we send love and healing, we all benefit as individuals and as a collective.

    Since the information was channeled from Erik and Avery’s guides without censor, I feel like it was meant to be shared. We are being challenged once again and must learn from even those things that break our hearts. I have a motto I have shared with my children from when they were very young. “The ones who are hardest to love are those who need it the most.” I don’t always practice what I preach, because as far as loving Hitler or pedophiles? Personally, I’m not there yet. Not even close. It’ll take me many more lifetimes to get to that place. Those who are highly evolved like Mother Teresa, Gandhi, Buddha, Jesus, and other probably have love in their hearts for even the most “evil” of human beings.

  • July28th

    Erik’s been busy visiting some of the blog readers. Randi can attest to this.

    Randi’s email

    Hi Elisa!

    I hope all is well! I have a little story I wanted to share with you …

    As you know, I have been working on my channeling and talking to Erik a lot. I’m still having trouble distinguishing between my own thoughts and those of spirit guides, but I keep trying. A few months ago, as I was walking my dog through San Francisco, I was overcome with the smell of roses and perfume. This was odd because a.) I have no sense of smell at all and b.) I was nowhere near any one person or any roses. The smell lingered for a few minutes before disappearing. During my reading with Felix last fall, he connected with my grandmother quite a bit and mentioned this smell when she was present – she LOVED roses (something I didn’t even know until talking to my parents after the reading), so this makes sense. When I smelled that a few months ago, I assumed it was my grandmother, smiled, said hi, and kept walking.

    Well ….

    Last week/weekend I was in Massachusetts visiting my family. I was sitting in the living room alone on Thursday, reading a book with my feet up when I was overcome with the smell of marijuana. I thought my nose was playing tricks on me; I frequently smell this when walking through SF (for obvious reasons!), but there was no reason I should randomly experience it when sitting in my parents house. I was really confused. The smell wouldn’t go away. I decided to go on a search to try to find the source and didn’t have any luck. After about 10 minutes, I gave up. It disappeared for a while and then came back. I went through the same drill of trying to locate it. Then something in my mind clicked: I remembered a blog post you wrote a while back about how Erik came to you with that smell. I have to wonder if maybe the smell was him. I like to think it was and it was him telling me that he’s listening and talking to me, even if I don’t realize it. Of course, there’s no way of knowing for sure, but I thought you’d like to know all the same. :) It brought a big smile to my face!

    xoxo,

    Randi

    My Response

    How awesome! I’m going to ask him in my next channeling session. Hopefully he hasn’t gotten your grandmother into any illicit activity over there. Maybe she’s branching out in her gardening! (just kidding) It could be Erik, because he comes to us with marijuana smells and really really horrible dirty sock smells. I might need your grandma to come here with some of her rose scent!

    Love you, Baby Girl!

    Elisa

    Randi’s Response

    Yes, I would love for you to ask him! I didn’t even think about that! Let me know what he says for sure. :)

    And, for the record, I think my grandmother would be the bad influence in that scenario. She was an “interesting” person to say the least! Haha. :)

    My Response

    Randi I asked and yes it was him. I’m posting the audio file as soon as I get the cassette and convert it digitally. I tried a different medium Jeannie Barnes and she doesn’t record to CD. I tried her b/c she’s only $80/hr and I want to find more affordable options in case you all want to have your own sessions. I thought she was amazing. I asked Erik why he visited you, was there a purpose or a message he wanted to give you and he said no. He just loves how he can travel so freely and visit the readers. He gets “a big kick out of it.” but he says his guides tell him he needs to stop playing around so much and focus on his work, including visiting for a purpose. Busted! He was like that while here: fun first, work later!

    Randi’s Reponse

    That’s so exciting! And I’m really happy to hear Erik feels a connection with me and wants to visit, as I feel connected to him! Seriously, though, what a funny kid. :)

    You can most certainly use my name, e-mails, etc.

    I’m glad you really liked the new medium! I know these visits get really expensive – I am trying someone new on Saturday who came recommended and is half the price of Felix. My friend has been using her for years and swears by her. She does phone readings, so I’ll let you know what I think!

    xoxo,
    Randi

    Given Randi’s story, keep a light in the window for Erik. You may be next, you lucky stiff!

  • July27th

    Hey all,

    I mentioned in a comment that Kim’s 2:00 PM appointment canceled for today so when her husband called me to ask if I wanted it, I jumped at the chance. I was so excited at the thought of getting to more of your questions. But when I called at the appointed time, she informed me that she was really suffering form a terrible sinus headache. Doing mediumship work must be very taxing to the energy. Can everyone send her healing thoughts? Pretty please?

    And now for Bonnie’s question:

    Bonnie’s Question

    Hi Elisa

    This is a fantastic and fascinating blog.

    My question is for my grandpa who died a couple of years ago following a long battle with Parkinson’s. He leaves my grandma, who is 92. He was the kindest man i have ever met and the most gentle. I didn’t get to say goodbye and I’d like to. I’d also like to make sure he’s ok.

    Thank you – I know you must be overwhelmed with questions. Mine isn’t any sort of tragedy, I know, but I would love for you to add it to the pile.

    Grandpa was named K.B, from the UK. Grandpa was 86 when he died

    Best wishes

    Bonnie C.

    UK

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: Let’s see. The next one comes from Bonnie. She wants to ask how her grandfather, K.B. is doing. He died a couple of years ago from Parkinson’s. She wants to know if he’s okay.

    Erik: He had an interesting time in World War II. Very distinguished! Distinguished man. He’s over here. He holds court.

    Me: Huh?

    Erik: He acts as a judge.

    Me: I thought there wasn’t any judgment there.

    Erik: Wait a sec. Um. He works to—like, like a mediator. Like a mediator.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Erik: He works as a mediator settling disputes, and the disputes aren’t between spiritual beings. No, the disputes are between human beings and their guardian angels. Like, a guardian angel might be stuck on what kind of decision to make if the human being isn’t resolving an issue. So they go to spirits like K.B. who acts as a mediator.

    Me: Angelic tech support, I guess?

    Erik: Yep! He’s incredibly wise, distinguished, enlightened. He has all the best qualities that all of us are working towards.

    Me: Wow!

    Erik: This was K.B.’s last lifetime. One of his most amazing qualities was that he could pick himself up by the bootstraps no matte what shit happened to him and continue to move forward step by step by step with a positive attitude. He always wanted to be of service to others. Mention that to Bonnie and she’ll understand.

    Me: Oh, okay.

    Erik: Yeah, that’ll make a lot of sense to her. He is available to speak to her and she can talk to him herself without using a medium or anything. Everyone can do that, actually. He’s held in the same regard as Jesus over here on the Heavenly plane! So not only was he n amazing man over there, he’s also held in high regard over here.

    I feel like I’ve had a brush with angelic royalty now. Bonnie, all I can say is you sure come from good stock!

    Me: Wow, talk about knowing people in high places!

  • July27th

    Avery’s Question

    Hello Elisa,

    I have to start out by saying I really, genuinely THANK YOU for sharing this with us. Using your pain to help others is such a selfless act, and you, too, must be an enlightened soul, if you can look through your grief and do just that. Erik makes it clear he was beyond lucky to have been blessed with you as a mother, and it’s evident just from your tone the overwhelming love you have for all of your children. So thank you, first and foremost. I just stumbled across your blog today, and I’ve already read through the whole thing. It’s so beautiful, and moving, that I feel like I just can’t tear myself away! It brings me a sense of calm, because it seems like Erik has just confirmed some of the things I’ve always thought myself about the other side, and the loved ones we’ve lost. I’ve always said I thought Heaven is exactly what each of us would wish it to be- not just the same exact thing for everyone. Just as each of our souls are unique and beautiful, each of our individual heavens must be the same.

    I don’t really know who to start asking my question, because I don’t really know if it’s one question in particular I want to ask. I wonder if I can give you a little overview of my life to pass on to him, and he could just help me to understand in general? As a child I was molested by my stepfather (his name was Donald) for many years. I grew up holding that inside of me, as I never wanted to tell my family, because I knew it would completely destroy each of them inside. As young as 7, I reasoned, “well… I’m dealing with it on my own, why should I destroy their lives too?” I finally confronted him at age 11, and told him I knew what he was doing, and if he didn’t stop I WAS going to tell my mom, and he promised he never would touch me again, but I should never tell my mother, because think of all the trouble he would get into! So I didn’t tell. Soon after my mom and Don got divorced, and we got to leave the small town we had been uprooted to when my mother got remarried, and we returned home. As promised, I held my secret in, and acted out (drugs, alcohol, promiscuity; you name it, I did it.) until my late teens (not even realizing at the time, that I was acting out from holding it all inside.) Maybe that is more info then I should have shared, but I’m sorry it all just came out in a burst of typing lol. At age 18, I finally told my mom, but still made her promise not to tell any other members of my family. Long story short, I was informed last year that Don had died. I looked at a My Space tribute page, of people in his life, his children, and friends all praising what a wonderful man he was and it makes me wonder how no one else could be aware of this monster? He had a daughter my age, and I wonder if he did it to her to, when we were both so young? I guess my question is, what happened to him on the other side? is he repenting for his actions? Is he paying for them? or is he just living his own version of heaven as well, where he can forget about the pain he inflicted upon others? Sorry if I’m taking up too much of your time, but there is a little more I wonder… I’m 26, and have always struggled with these overwhelming feelings in my life. I question my decisions. I wonder if I made bad ones as I got older because of my childhood issues still not being resolved? I’m in a relationship with a man I love, but I feel unfulfilled, like he loves me too, but just isn’t that interested.  In a mental way that is… I don’t think it’s malicious, I just think he’s more concerned with himself? Or maybe I’m not that interesting to him, or that he thinks my work and interests are trivial compared to his? I feel we’re lacking a spiritual connection, like he doesn’t really care about the experiences that shaped me, because he’s never asked. Then again, I think that just be the way he was raised, and it’s not done with bad intentions. He just purchased a house, and we’re moving to it next month, but I’m having doubts that it’s where I belong. I just started a new job that I have been working toward my whole adult life, and I wonder if between that job, and this man, am I headed on the path of my destiny? or am I missing signs along the way that I should have seen? I’m sorry, all of this seems so trivial compared to what you’ve gone trough. Thank you again for taking the time to read my ramblings. My thoughts and prayers are with you always.

    Much love, Avery.

    Thanks again Elisa and Erik xoxoxo

    My Response

    Dear Avery,

    Sweet girl, your email brought tears to my eyes. What you have suffered at the hands of a monster, only to see him praised! I’m so sorry you’re struggling right now, and I’ll do whatever to takes to help you. All I need for the medium is your age (which you gave me) and the city you live in. I need to know how old Don was when he passed and what city he was in at the time. This helps Erik and Kim locate him faster, I guess.

    For clarification: you want me to ask Erik 1) what’s going on with Don in the afterlife and if he has any messages of repentance? 2) If he did the same with his own daughter, 3) Advice on how to deal with your current love interest and perhaps 5) what you can do to overcome the past so this baggage doesn’t keep interfering with your life and your progress as a soul? If you want to make any changes, let me know. Please understand that no medium is perfect but Erik and Kim seem to make an awesome team.

    Erik and I are here for you, Sweetie.

    xoxoxo

    Elisa (and Erik)

    Avery’s Response

    Oh Elisa,

    I’m sitting here so overwhelmed with feelings- when I saw your name in my email, my heart jumped because I swear, I just knew in my heart that I would be hearing from you! But no way did I ever think it would be this soon! I checked the blog today and saw your note, and how you’ve been overwhelmed with submissions, so thank you so much for reading and responding. Just sharing my story with you guys made me feel better already.

    As for the other info you asked for; I live in XXXX currently, and we’re moving to XXXX next month. Don passed in XXXX. All of the question summaries are right he money. If I could just add one thing… my Godmother/Aunt, XXXX passed following a stroke. If he could just give her my love, that would be so awesome. I mean, I do everyday, and I talk to her all the time, but Erik seems like he would have a direct contact with her… But I guess, knowing what we do about Erik, she’s maybe around all the time, when I’m talking to her, and I have my own direct connection? Wow. This all is so amazing and beautiful to think about, and to be able to share with each other. Sorry if I ramble in these messages, but it just ignites something in me.

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: This next question makes me choke up a bit so bear with me. It’s from Avery. She’s 26 and lives in XXX. As a child, she was molested by her stepfather, Donald, for many, many years starting around when she was seven. He finally stopped when she turned eleven and threatened to tell on him if he didn’t. Recently, she found out that Donald had died, and she was sickened by all the loving tributes on his My Space page. She also discovered he left behind a daughter. Her questions are: Is he going to be punished for what he’s done? Did he molest his other daughter?

    Erik: Yes, he did abuse the other daughter. And he was abused when he was younger by a female family member.

    Me: Oh my God.

    Erik: I’m hearing that Avery has this guilt about not stepping forward…guilt and anger. She feels the guilt for not stepping forward, claiming what was happening to her and to make him accountable and also to make her mother accountable for bringing him into the household. She needs therapy to help her let go of this, because the opportunity to rat him out is gone. Could she let everyone know about it now? Sure, but, as she already senses, everyone’s gonna come down on her and criticize her and accuse her of making it all up, like, “Well if it were true, you would have already said so a long time ago,” which is stupid but, as she knows, that’s the kind of reaction she’d get. She’s already gone through these scenarios in her head so…

    Me: Yeah, plus he’s dead now, and some people my think it’s disrespectful to come down on a dead guy who can’t defend himself, you know, “How could you do this to a dead man,” that sort of thing. It’s a stigma, I guess.

    Erik: Right. So her angels are recommending she go for therapy and stick with it until she can let go of the guilt and anger. She feels as much if not more anger for herself. And then what she needs to do is tell her mother. She needs to tell her mother.

    Me: Okay.

    Erik: But they recommend she wait until she’s done with the therapy so she’s healed and will be able to sit down and rationally talk to her mother about it. That way, the conversation will be more productive. I’m hearing it’s unlikely her mom will believe her, and that might cause a rift between them.

    Me: Well then, maybe she shouldn’t!

    Erik: Whether or not her mom accepts it, it happened, and she needs to know.

    Me: Yeah, I guess so. So what’s going on with Don in the afterlife? Does he have any messages?

    Kim: It’s really interesting, Elisa. They’re showing me this queue. In other words, before we talk, it’s like the spiritual beings who believe they’re going to be called upon queue up according to the information you have sitting in front of you. So here’s Don. He’s just standing there very patiently, humbly, and he’s nodding and saying yes he did those things; yes he did. He says he was a pedophile and he says it wasn’t just Avery and the other daughter. He abused other children from the time he was an older teenager.

    Me: Oh, horrible!

    Kim: My Lord, he’s saying it’s one of the reasons he married Avery’s mother!

    Me: Why?

    Kim: To have access to her.

    Me: Oh my goodness. So sad.

    Kim: Wow, jeez. And I’ve heard that many times before but it’s always surprising.

    Me: Is Karma going to take care of things, Erik?

    Erik: Oh yes, but he’s in Heaven. He’s healing, relaxing, getting his second wind and he’s going to go back to the earthly plane. That’s when the payback happens. The consequences don’t happen here in Heaven. They happen on the earthly plane. He already has a life all planned out that he’s chosen to learn from. He’s going to be a girl and—oh wow—he’s gonna be born into a family in the area around Thailand in an desperately poor village. As a five year old little girl, he’s going to be sold for money by the parents and will be passed around as a sex slave.

    Me: Oh my God!

    Erik: And that will go on until, you know, abortion after abortion, this will continue until the girl’s in her mid-30s, and she’s going to die from a massive staph infection. So tell Avery that’s how Don’s gonna learn.

    Kim: When we come to the earthly plane, sometimes we come as a perpetrator and sometimes we act as a victim, and that’s how we learn about sympathy, compassion, appropriate behavior toward others. That’s how we learn to play nice with the other kids. And those of us who are more compassionate and can put themselves in other people’s shoes have had lifetimes as victims already.

    Me: Does he have any messages for Avery?

    Erik: Yes. She might find this pretty interesting. He wants to thank her for being a partner for him. He doesn’t mean sexual partner. What he means is before both of them went into this lifetime as Donald and Avery, they agreed, here in Heaven, to enter into a lifetime where Avery would be his teacher, where he would abuse her and then she would rat him out and say, “Look what he did! He did this! He did this!” This would have given her mom a chance to rise to the occasion for her and would force Donald to admit and be accountable.

    Me: Oh, I see!

    Erik: And so, Avery chose not to do that, and that’s one of the reasons she’s so angry—because…

    Me: She didn’t fulfill her life plan.

    Erik: Right. Yeah.

    Me: Okay, now let’s go on to the next person–oh wait, I forgot she has another question. Any advice on how to deal with her current relationship? They plan on moving into a house together soon, but she feels like he isn’t all that interested in her.

    Erik: This is NOT her guy! Instead of drifting toward all the bad boys like she used to do, Avery is drifting toward guys who are really nice, who are giving, who she can feel security with…she’s not in love with this guy! And he’s not in love with her! Her guides say she should break up with him now, because if she keeps seeing him, she’s going to be giving him mixed messages. Break it off now, then go into therapy. Get her therapy finished so that she feels balanced and centered, and then and only then will she draw the right guy into her life.

    Me: That makes perfect sense. Now one more for Avery. Her godmother, also her aunt, passed away from a stroke at the age of 46. Her name was XXXX. Erik, she wants to know if you’ll contact her and tell her how much Avery loves her.

    Kim: Erik is giving a little salute, like he’s got his index and middle finger out, and he’s giving a salute to say he will do that. She’s still in Heaven and oh, she is living the good life, so happy that tiresome, painful lifetime is over. She’s so glad she’s got that finished, completed, and under her belt. And she did just about everything she wanted to do in that lifetime as XXX, which is very unusual. Woo hoo! Any time Avery wants to speak to XXX, she’s be a wonderful confidant for her. She’d be positive, optimistic, joyful—sort of like a spiritual Auntie Mame. Avery can use all the positivity and optimism she can find, because she’s had a lot of people in her life who have been angry or secretive or sullen or reserved. Avery is someone who likes to touch others emotionally, physically and spiritually. She’s cozy and warm. She’s an amazing woman, and XXX is very much like her. The two of them are very much alike.

    Avery’s Response

    WOW Elisa! The overwhelming feelings that came over me reading this- just WOW.  How you must feel every time you connect with Erik!   Thank you for the quick synopsis, and I’ll write more later when I’m not at work.  LY xo

  • July26th

    Amber’s Question

    Note: I’m using her screen name rather than her real one. When providing Kim and Erik with the information, however, I use her real name.

    I recently had an experience with a medium that brought up more questions than answers. A dear friend of mine died five years ago of an “accidental overdose”. He suffered from depression, migraines and drug and alcohol addiction. The medium I saw told me that my friend is with me and has not gone into the light or moved toward a higher plane. He is clinging to me and living through me because I’m doing things he wanted to do. He also feels very drawn to his mother’s pain and anger. She says he needs to go to rehab, but he refuses to “own” his actions. He’s overwhelmed by confusion anger and guilt. She says he didn’t want her to tell me this information about him and he is angry at her for telling me where he is.  My question is…how can I help him?  Tim was very stubborn while on earth and it seems like wherever he is that resistance has continued. I’ve developed a close friendship with his mother and I’m trying to help her as well. I live in Carolina Shores, NC. I’m in my early forties. Tim was 30 years old at the time of his death. He lived in Wilmington, NC.

    Thank you,

    Amber

    Channeling Transcript

    Me: Okay, the next question comes from Amber. She lives in Carolina Shores, NC and is in her early forties. She had a dear friend die five years ago. His name is Tim. He’s about 30 and lived in Wilmington, NC. She went to a medium who told her he is still stuck here with her and has not moved on to a higher plane.

    Kim (sighing in frustration): Oh, gosh.

    Me: And the medium said he’s confused, angry, refusing to go to rehab. Also, she said that Tim is mad at her (the medium) for divulging the information like where he is. Tim also apparently has unresolved issues with his mom. Amber wants to know how she can help him.

    Kim (sighing again): Okay. (pause) Okay.

    Me (laughing at her frustration with the medium’s message): So where do you begin with that one?! How are we going to untangle this mess?  She needs to charge her with malpractice, I guess?

    Kim (chuckling): You, Elisa, are reading my mind. You know, if you go to fifty different mediums, you’re going to get fifty different messages.

    Me: Oh, yeah, I’m sure!

    Kim: Okay, first of all, it would be a Jim Dandy if Amber would do her own medium work. Just a thought.

    Me: Okay.

    Kim: There are mediums on every street corner, but if she’s going to go to a medium, she need to look into their experience and background. Now, in regard to Tim…

    Erik: Tim is telling me it was destined to die the way he did. That was destiny. His soul popped out of his body and he found himself here pretty quickly. Everybody has a different experience in their transition back here just like their birth there on the earthly plane.

    Me: Oh yeah, sure! That makes complete sense.

    Erik: Okay so he came back here and he hung out for a while. That’s the way Tim puts it. Tim lies to be involved in all kinds of activities at the same time; he likes to juggle all sorts of balls in the air at one time. Then he’ll have periods where he’s just languishing. So he’ll be really, really, really busy with activities he creates, and then he’ll kick back and be a couch potato for a while. That’s what Tim is telling me. He’s saying that he, like every other soul, comes back here to the afterlife, and goes back to the earthly plane if…they…want…too.

    Me: so no one gets stuck?

    Erik: Exactly.

    Kim: And we’re all entitled to believe different things. I mean, for how many centuries did we believe the world was flat?

    Erik: Okay, so he spends time here, and, he wants Amber to know that, like every other soul, when his soul popped out of the body, he let go of all his earthly issues, all his shit. So now we’re talking to his pure spirit.

    Kim: I’m glad we’re talking about Tim and Amber, He wants Amber to know that in Heaven, he likes to go bowling, he likes to fish, he likes to paint and draw. Ooo, he’s real artistic! He’s very, very bright! He’s got a motorcycle. He also has a car, he’s got a boat. He loves to drive very, very fast, he loves to do that. He loves to go off on road trips.

    Erik: And Mom, Tim says it was an accident. This wasn’t meant to be a suicide. He knew though, he’s telling me, there were a couple of times there when he woke up and he wasn’t expecting to wake up. He had a sense that…when he was drinking and taking drugs…that he was going to overdose, and he thought, “Oh, I hope I’m not going to…I hope I didn’t; take too much,” and he would just go into a stupor. He’d wake up and feel like crap, but he was taking in huge amounts of drugs and alcohol, and he was doing this every single day! Every single day he had chemicals in his system. And he had big issues with his mom that he never got resolved and he says, “Well, next time around.” He has no ill will toward her at all. None. Or anyone else. He calls her G***** (a nickname that is her real name with the last two letters omitted.) He says he comes and visits her. And he says, “Hey, hey, anyone who wants to talk to me can talk to me!”

    Kim: Yeah, he’s touching upon what the other medium said, “Oh, he’s really mad at me.” If a spiritual being does not want to relay certain information, the medium would have no way of knowing it. You see?

    Me: Oh, yeah, of course!

    Erik: So he says he’ll be glad to talk to anybody. And certainly he talks to Amber. He’s come to Amber in dreams. He spends some time around her. Not a lot, but some. He’s afraid if he spends a lot of time around her, he’s going to distract her and make her feel bad. Now he has big issues with his mom; he had those a long time before he died.

    Me: Yeah, yeah.

    Erik: He says he and his mom have been together before but they were married in other lifetimes. So he says, “In this lifetime, I don’t know what was worse, being married to her or having her as a mom. I, I don’t know. With the issues the two of us had…” He’s not criticizing his mom; he’s just observing the struggle both of them had. So he wants Amber to know that any time she wants to talk to him, just ask for him. He’ll be right there with her. She’ll know it’s him because she knows his energy. And he says if she’s going to go to a medium, fine, but she should ask the medium—oh, that’s a really good idea, Tim! He’s saying she needs to ask the medium, “What are your philosophies. Real quick, tell me what they are,” and if the say things like, “Well, there’s gonna be a curse,” or “Well, there could be…” There are definite red flags to watch out for.

    Me: Okay, great. Thanks Erik. Now for the next question…

    Kim: Oh, Tim wants to say one more thing, just one more thing. He wants to tell Amber he loves her and he says that Amber was like a mom slash big sister for him.

    Me: Okay.

    Kim: He wants to thank her for everything she’s done for him and continues to do. And anytime she wants to talk, he’ll be right there. Now he would like to be of service to her. He says he did so much moaning and pissing and whining to her when he was here, he says, “I did, I did!” He would like to be of service to her now, any time she wants to talk, vent, he’ll be right there for her. He says he’s going to pick her up and they’re going to take a ride on his motorcycle and she’s have a dream about that. His “bike,” he calls it.

    Be sure you wear your helmet, Amber!

  • July26th

    Lot’s of things to share with you guys before I post another Ask Erik question later on today. First, something really cool happened this morning. On the way to work or school, my daughter, Michelle usually stops by with Arleen, my first and only grandbaby, so I can mercilessly kiss on the two of them and so she can borrow Annika’s hair straightener. Arleen is now two years old and today is huge: first day in daycare. Anyway, while I was making a cup of coffee for Michelle, Arleen, starts running around the kitchen screaming happily. Not atypical for her, but she kept looking behind her like someone was chasing her. Since she and Erik were so close, I thought I’d ask, “Who is it, Arley?” She looked at me matter of factly, occasionally glancing toward the den, and said, “Is Erik.” (She doesn’t believe in using pronouns yet.)

    This brings such comfort, because children her age have yet to be “contaminated” by any sort of indoctrination or suggestions. Out of the mouth of babes…

    I knew, then, that Erik was in the room playing with her as he loved doing when he was “alive.” I couldn’t see him, but she certainly could. She HAS NEVER mentioned his name unless I prompt her with his picture on my phone. Maybe he was wishing her well on her big day?

    He may have also made an appearance to set my mind at ease about Linda’s email yesterday, like, “No worries, I’m here, and I wanna be here. I wanna do this. You have to believe in this, Mom.”

    By the way, I would like to thank all of you for your feedback and advice. As you may have seen from my replies to some of your comments, I figured out why Linda’s criticism hurt me: Lately, I’ve been using the blog as a little cave, an escape from reality that keeps me from remembering, from grieving, from mourning. This is very selfish of me, and I’m not at all proud of this cowardly behavior. So I will be brave and set aside some time now and then to grieve. I promise to keep the purpose of this blog simple and pure: helping Erik, helping others, and healing myself through these two. Love you all!

    Teasing Arley